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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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my student made a guess regarding my age and said i was fifteenmr ku insulted me by saying i look like david carrdine whoever dares to say there is a certain resemblance better be prepared for my wrath. plugged tagboard
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haix.i skipped training again..to do wad? play card games..that can seriously tell how depressed over my cca am i..same state as mg..see la, go there coach treat u as invisible, den seniors dun tok to u, give u that face, den friends oso dun hav, except cybil and kellynn, den skills so inferior that sec ones even better than mi, fine liao lohz.....win le...i realli regret choosing vball.....god help mi...somebody help mi!
i think i realli need counselling regarding the above... sorry naomi hor, today play cards play until neglect u lidat..just found out that playing cards can realli help time pass very quickly..no wonder so many ppl like to play..so sorry..anyway, kakei a bit crazy when he found out he might not get into pure geography......wa kaox..took out his anger on my poor file..wad the hell...broken lehz..he going to compensate mi..if not he can get ready go and die...tmd..lessons were as boring as ever..can't realli recall...nowadays everything passes in a blur..did recall realizing that everybody is falling sick and all that..haix.. woo hoo..mc and mg are nominated by qijia to be councillors!! hahahz..tml still got project..die la..gotta see those stupid morons..haix okay, gd, tomorrow got another excuse to skip vball again..wahahhaa..i so bad..i know wad fan ching said was rite..can't believe i'm proud that i managed to skip so much..but i'm not guilty at all..shoot mi... hmm..yesterday's was mei gui's b-day...see her blog for more info..too much presents le..can't list..happy belated b-day anyway.......den got that stupid grooming work shop..okay, turn out quite fun...den went home wif bro and mom....feeling very neutral...especially that day..didn't talk much..cos i realli like day dreaming...mg sat wif naomi..they laugh until siao....but i just can't laugh...nvm.. den today..class.math got 83/100..den english 15/25..whoa.so low..nvm..wadeva la..do i look as if i care? heck...actually supposed to stay bac to do the geography high tech farming..in the end got so damn fed up and frustrated at their attitudes until i just walk off..call steph..ask him whether wanna go bac..haven't even ask..finally someone pick up his phone mahz..den kakei came and say he go home and take the info.....i feel like slapping him...den i just went home...kaox...so fed up..been eating junk since.not gonna study... byez..off to day dream and watch show......life sux for mi what's wrong wif ppl? wah..today..skip training again...okay, i might as well just quit..but too bad i dun hav the chance..i will realli jump at it..kaox..face those bitches? i'd rather get sack..mean every word that i say, and anyway, going to training will onli make mi more depressed and feel even more inferior about my skills? he bi ne? anyway, just watched finish the tian zi xun long..wa kaox..i realli admire the script writer man..got such a gd sense of humour.twisted actually..wa kaox lohz..the last show so many surprises..most stupid is the lishi become eunuch..wa laoz! i totally hav the same expression as kakei man......pull at my hair..and so disgusting..the li longji become emperor oso dun need to wear such a stupid out fit rite?? omg.. wa laox..realli twisted sense of humour man..realli lohz..so stupid..the lizard oso..like cum out from jurassic..except so fake..wa kaox.. oh yeah..today sports heats..so proud of 2/6..2/6 spirit rox! hahaz..realli lohz..they all tried so hard..boys and gals..pity lohz..4 by 4..siew boon cramped..or else i'm sure we wun onli fourth lohz..but all thanks to jody lehz..she overtook three people ya noe!! three lehz~ omgoodness..she's so damn superb..realli lohz..wa kaox..huizhen oso very fast..wa laoz..like rocket lidat...and best of all..even though we know might kanna DC..we still stay to support our friends..hahaz! kz la..i took it as a chance to skip vball mahz..shoot mi? 2/6 realli tried very hard lohz..the boys oso run until like siao lidat..still okay la..didn't realli excel or anything..but so proud of them all..er.just think our class realli rox! poor siew boon..if i were her, i also will feel like going to knock my head..but dun worry lohz..none of us blame u.. art was great..best lesson i've had..dot dot dot..pointillism la..hahax..hmm..gtg..2/6 rox forever! okay..wait..first thing..stupid sort cheng..stupid mr ismil..made us rush for our project..in the end lehz? next mon hand up..kz la..u win..wa kaoz..anyway..today's lesson was damn boring..wasn't paying attention for chinese, geography..my mind wasn't exactly trouble less..got old prob, got new prob..duh..why is life so complicated? knew that sheryl was very angry, didn't wanna bother her and ask her..so left her alone..know from mg later on that it's because of the grouping..cheer up kz? naomi oso damn blur..the whole group oso know except mi mah..so dun get so angry okay? learn to take things easy..( please look at naomi for model optimism) hahaz.. kzkz..trust mi that i can still laugh..i know that mg was acting..in fact..my whole 13+ life, she's the onli one that can manage to act in front of mi without mi picking up the vibes..okay..this morn, when she came in, naomi and i were awkward..not exactly scared..cos still that same point, i think it's just a misunderstanding..i just wanna clarify this for naomi, i didn't know this until a few days bac..she say that she didn't direct that entry at u, she meant to scold a lot of people, but she wasn't realli directing that entry at you, i know you are acting today, all day, i just wanna say that even if you are acting, having you look and behave normal is great, really. We didn't say sorry to pacify you or anything, it's wad we should say, cos we had a part in the misunderstanding, and let's face it, what else can we say except sorry? nth? maybe having a simpler mind is much more blissful than hav one that always dwells on trouble..like naomi..just ever even notice the people around u, can be a bliss, maybe one day we will all learn the skilsl of thinking simpler and be happier.. haix wah..in a hurry..later going out wif px and stephen..px gonna call any min..so no time for serious updates... generally, my life sux and i'm very confused as to what i should do, i feel that the whole thing is a misunderstanding and you shouldn't get so upset abt it, it's a total miscommunication prob, none of us have faults but in another way, both parties must bear responsbility. if you find that this logic is unreasonable, i got nth to say, i just tot that we shouldn't let this small thing, which is caused by miscommunication, to spoil the entire thing. i think naomi oso believes so.. gtg now..update later yeah! it's finally the weekend!! hahahz!! i'm so happy! cos tml no school..okay fine, i've still got like a pile of homework plus tons of projects to finish..but yeah! no teachers and no stupid uniform and no stupid weather which makes mi wanna melt into a pool..-_-" today is jody's b-day!! happy b-day!! we've got altogether 15 people to celebrate for her!! she was so moved she cried when she saw the wordings: 2/6 luv jody!! hahahz! realli felt very happy..though she cried..-_-"..hehez..that proved we had the right impact..couldn't wait to see her reaction when we handed the bear to her on monday..yeah! 2/6 rox! forever! skipped vball AGAIN..oh well..wtf la..heck wif it..dun spoil my gd mood... weather: DAMN HOT! couldn't stand it man..when i saw the shimmering cool water when we arrived at the jurong stadium this afternoon..haix..our girls lost..but nvm, they did a good job! especially number 10.. fine, i ruined things again, mg is pissed, hurt, but i dun think it's all naomi and my faults, both parties hav faults, miscommunications, and i've got another matter to settle again...why do people hav to hav so many emotions? i feel so confused now, what on earth is happening? why can't anybody tell what i'm trying to say? why don't anybody understand mi? my gd mood just drop, to 0. just like that, today when i saw jody cry, den i realize how much friendship meant, how important it was, but now, i realize how fragile it is too, once you mishandle it, it breaks. and it can never be the same. why do i cry when i listen to fish leong's songs? FINALLY GOT IN!! wa kaoz.i think blog spot has some technical problems or something..took me a long time to get in..ooh..shit..no time to update le..hurry hor..sorry for the short entry err..today..one main thing..chaitanya sux to the core!! omg..dun need to be so cruel and heartless mah..so wad if you are chairman? dun abuse your authority lohz..i mean if you be the chairman be until the whole class hate you so much..den you are damn failure..black ass..dun need to be like that mah..we talk a little only lehz..and that mr tok..everytime say, i will tok to him, tok to him..no wonder he's surname is tok..his parents must have insight..wa kaoz..too bad la..can't do anything about it err..mg got..err..progress? no matter..just wanna say to u : all the best..i mean..err..ahem..wadeva..and just be happy err..somemore wad huhz..oh yeah..home economics..quite fun la..got two hours to sew all the time..sheryl's dog was very cute.mine was a shell..got nothing to deco abt..erm..huabin's dog..omg..dun look like dog..more like some mutated demon..(naomi?) ah..nth nth..budden sew until very cham jiu shi le..other lessons..quite fun la.. oh yeah..did i mention that the weather was a killer!!! omg..so damn hot lohz! humidity level so high..all my sweat can't evaporate..stay sticky all day long!! and yah..tml's jody's b-day..hahahz..we bought her a cake and a big big big soft toy..hahaz..bear bear..hope she will be happy..haix..i so blur..go buy cheese cake when she dun like..(i tot she like mahz) haix..nvm nvm gtg le..stupid comp so slow.. err..turns out my blog is perfectly alright..never mind, it's my computer that went crazy..diaox..ancient le..no lahz, not exactly.. anyway, school's hectic..wad wif all the projects and homework..look at the pile of worksheets mdm hee piled on us..but YEAH! common test 2 mathematics is finally over!! yeah yeah!! can at least slack during her lessons liaox..haix..did pretty badly for my geography test..but i expected it lahz..21/30..look at my face, ya think i care? oh yeah..that kakei son of a bitch actually scored 27 and weihao scored 28..feel like asking them to just go hit the wall right there..haix..esp kakei..wa kaox..he practically went crazy during math test okay..say what never do finish and all the crap, actually, it's his own fault for not organising properly..i mean, there was enough time to attempt all questions lohz, his prob..math test was okay..one question dunno how to do..why the stupid setter go and use such chim language when he/she just wans us to sub in the value?? wakaoz..onli benjamin this kinda people den noe lohz..and the question on the reciprocal thing..wa biang..please lahz, i hav to read at least 8 times before i understand what the hell the question is asking for!! man.. err..observed a lot of stuff..just dun wanna say..it's their own private lives and i've got no rights to interfere, nor ask, even though i'm their friends..fine..realli think that the society is so damn cruel and practical..oh yeah did i mentioned 45 mins ago when i go online and say " you finally online" to mr kok huabin, oops, should be mr naomi sim..he went offline...dots..-_-"..he.went.off.line. and now 45 mins later, he is online..let's see what he does..feel like slapping him..grrrr...hmm..marcus called about CIP..i realli think he is in the wrong class.how can this kinda soft-spoken, so good tempered person be in 2/5 of all classes??? wa kaoz..realli wrong class liaox..err..cip interview and all that, suddenly feel that i not going to bother anymore..grrr.. haix..troubled..by other people's problems..err..actually, i dun hav to bother but nvm..it's my nature..chatted wif naomi at the bus stop and bubble tea shop till late today then go bac..haix..life sux to the core..if sec one's life is stress..what's tis? hell..totally..hate those exams..now onli week 5 lehz! so stress!!! WAH.. haix..think that some people has changed..a lot..but i shouldn't say that because friends should accept all the flaws of ur friends..budden..haix..like karen and all the other wrps people..how to say? i dun like changes life sux! quoted from pris wa seh, got prob wif the blog again..never mind..to those who can see this entry, gd for ya lohz anyway, school realli busy, so sorry that i couldn't update..kz fine, not many people are reading anyway..diaox..got ipw, literature, art, science read and share, and tons more little tiny projects..which the teachers say got marks..damn them..think we superman?? and just look at the pile or the math assignments..i'm going crazy..so many! and so little time to do! oh yeah..agree wif mc that somehow, these few days a lot of people's private lives are rather active..sit next to pris for a day, listen to her and ben talk u would noe..trust mi..haha.z.just kidding..anyway, didn't bother to check out those rumors..they wanna tell, will tell..if not never mind..tell mi i even more troubled..nvm. today so fun, everybody sua naomi..let's see..there's mi, mg, jiahao, abel, chaitanya, weisiang, wei hao. and sheryl? did i miss out anyone? couldn't remember...it all started cos we wanted to see how long naomi can laugh..hahaz..let's face it..twenty whole mins..so damn funny, once weihao laughed, naomi just laughed..den we also accompany them laugh..so altogether, we laughed like crazy people who just came outta the woodbridge..anyway..so damn funny..den we took her stuff..okay, meany i noe, but we passed it to like weihao abel chaitanya those tall people..they go hide like on ceiling..and those tall places..wah..actually in the beginning very funny..budden after when..we..okay, i..took her highlighters..cute mahz, five diff colours..and hide them all in diff places and ask her to play treasure hunt, i was pretty worried she would be angry, sorry hor naomi! just that i realli couldn't help teasing u..hahaz..so fun..realli very funny, 2/6 rox forever....see how boys and gals gang up to bully her? class spirit mahz!..hahahz..oh yeah..weisiang and kakei came to rescue once or twice...couldn't remember..actually right now realli couldn't recall the laughter..dunno. listening to fly away by fish leong..so nice.thanks pris for sending...maybe it's that song so now my mood..rather..dunno..melancholy..bombastic huhz? anyway..hua bin sorta was right..ask mi to smile more..maybe i should..but i dun realli think my characters fits that way..he ask mi to smile more..i tell him i got nth to smile abt, and that i gd mood doesn't meant i gotta smile..he say nth oso can smile..somehow the way he talks reminds mi of stephen more and more..all those sorta-make-sense logics deliverered in a way that i can't tell whether he's kidding or not..so exactly replica of stephen.. hope that this entry get to see light..get published..or else waste all my efforts..vball..sux..as usual..realli looking forward to chalet..yeah..2/6 rox..couldn't imagine the fun..hahz..oh yeah..couldn't stand how audrey and marcus run cip..realli couldn't..the system is so damn flawed until you see all the seasons dun even care..yet marcus and audrey couldn't see that? haix john asked mi a question..even if you hav the perfect life..what thing would always be missing from ur life? mine would be happiness..naivity of a 6-year-old child..i wish we never have to know about friendship, love, and hurt. yeah, hurt. i wish we could never know how to interpret what ur friend is thinking, never have to know what is war, hardship, and the cruelity of the society...i go to class, everyday see conflicts that is hiding below the surface..see anger that's bursting..so complicated..people are complicated creatures..why couldn't we just say what we think? we just had to hide right? i noe i do that too..but..that's what i think..haix..sometimes i think heaven grant us a heart that has too many functions..why can't it just beat and dun feel so many emotions? life is short, i just wanna be myself..sorry sheryl, told you you chose the wrong person to sit wif on the bus, haz..i dun like to talk on bus..myself= i dun like to tok much but i do laugh at jokes cracked my lamers namely mg hb naomi..haix..and i think a lot of stuff when i dun get bothered..like why on earth are we born to suffer on earth..those kinda things..what exactly is going on between the people...haix..i should study psychology..yeah..gd idea sea two life sux..so many homework, and so many new emotions popping up..but i hav learnt to block or tune it out..cos sitting wif pris and kakei..haaz..all u need to do is laugh..dun need to tok so much about people's private life.. onli those who totally know ur flaws can be your friends..being ur friends depends on to what extend can they tolerate ur flaws. Only those who understands emotions hav the ability to shed tears err..yesterday's entry was pure crap..totally 100% pure crap..nvm..anyway gd to see that naomi's IQ not low until cannot tell i'm insulting her..hehehz..never mind.. anyway..tomorrow's gonna be monday ..AGAIN..hate monday..hav to wear that stupid tie..and somemore the next day is cca day..vball..feeling pretty guilty..actually wanted to go out this morning wif kellie karen and their friend..dunno how to spell her name..budden i couldn't get up this morning ..haz..cos i watched the korean drama last night until too late liao la..oops..just realized i realli getting very singlish..how i type my blog..die le..never mind never mind.. wa kao..spent the whole late afternoon in the library..wasted 3 hrs! 3 hrs trying to find books in bermuda triangle..tried junior corner..found one super thin book wif two pages in it about bermuda..damn..den went to adult corner..wah..a lot of reference books regarding UFOs..atlantis..(oh yeah sheryl..actually wanted to call you to see if you need that kinda reference books budden realized you changed ur topic le..) oh yeah..saw jin ning at the library too..recognize her by her hair..hehehz..where was i? oh yeah..den poor kellie had to browse through all the books wif mi..found like..onli one lehz..inside a book called bizarre beliefs..and when i read through it thoroughly that night..found out that the author was pretty cynical towards bermuda triangle..practically thought it was pure crap..so i was wondering whether that book can be considered a source..oh yeah..couldn't find soft cover Stephen White's novel..so borrowed the hard-cover..The Best Revenge..haven't started reading..and borrowed another book about UFOs and all that kinda thing..just realized that i'm very interested in those stuff..oh..speaking of it..wanted to borrow the reference books on roswell incident too..felt stupid to read the book without really knowing what happened there..never mind.. wah..i realli realli realli felt guilty towards volleyball..like i'm not putting in enough efforts..why can't i service over the ball!! realli felt guilty..and..helpless..and oh...i couldn't wait to see the bitches' expression when i go on tuesday wearing braces..i couldn't wait..totally..despising..just wait..i'll bet wif you their looks would be so damn despising..fuck them..pardon my language..anyway..haix..dun think i can change cca now..should hav done it long time ago..haix..now i'm stuck wif it through out my anderson life..shit it..and one more regret? sorta think i should have joined sanguine torch..sounds like fun and i realli like journalism that kinda thing..haix.. oh yeah..felt realli happy to see the msgs in the tag board..:D..pretty comforting..hahaz..and i've got so much more damn research to do..guess i'm stuck in front of the comp for the day..haix..oh yeah and those tons of math homework are still grinning at me..damn..should have gotten up early today..damn it man..i'm going crazy~..siao.. : the Human's mind is a maze, instead of trying to conquer it, getting lost would be a much better choice; drown in your own memories diaox..i couldn't publish the above entry..must try again..tried lots of times already..wish mi luck wah..so sianz man..currently in sheryl's house..wif naomi and priscilla..naomi go and do the stupid idiotic arh..err..kzkz..not idiotic..just that the nose very big and then one eye bigger than the other..yellow colour hair..den hand oso like swollen lidat..haiya..you will know what i talking about if you see us present the art thingie..err..looks like alfred..yucks..no la..at least the hair is..not as curly? diaox..oh yeah..did i mention the ears oso one bigger than the other?? obviously, naomi's proportion skills isn't very gd..dun ever ask her to draw a potrait for you...she will draw until spongebob lidat..hehe..ya wad..and her imagination is so damn...advanced...-_-"..that the right word to use??? oh yeah..and we are all lazing around cos she's the only one that can draw a picture without spoiling the whole colour pencil..so we're waiting...that's why i end up crapping on the internet..cos there's nth else i can do right? errr..let's see..naomi is currently using one big black a4 size paper dunno trying to draw wad..haiya..i this kinda iq so low person better dun interfere..she too genius...later make a fool of myself hor...seriously dunno what she drawing...err..later draw huabin rite? err..or chaitanya?? cos huabin's skin not so tan..and i dun mean tan..it's totally charcoal burned that kind hor...nvm nvm..crapping..totally crapping..haiyo..today so nan de is public holiday..but cannot rot at home..instead rot at sheryl's home..err..same la hor? here more comfortable wif air-con lehz..siao....okay finsihed crapping..after that den continue..now pris wanna hear the gui ji....ghost song..kkzkzk..later she hack mi..mg oso Ello guys..i'm bac again..diaox..anyway, put on braces..wasn't that bad except that the first few days a bit suan..okay, not a bit, quite suan..but i couldn't complain could i? it was mi who wanted to put the braces..so stupid..benjamin kakei and pris..wa kaoz..flashed mi a brilliant smile and give mi a stupid grin..ya la..you guys out there perfect straight teeth la..not like mi so shuay can? but not my fault wad..parents give birth already destinied..wadeva..not exactly complaining..put dark blue and light blue..could be worse..anyway..in a neutral mood..actually a bit bad wanz..but towards the end i felt better.. actually, i should be training now..vball..budden..it's not as if i dun wan..yesterday at night i already decided to go and put in my PE shirt..budden at school den realize i didn't bring the shorts..-_-"..so forgetful right? so i take it it's heaven's will..so i'm not going..lame excuse i noe..budden i seriously hav a vball-sux disease..and i realli hate it now..dun ever let mi see ziping..i dun miss it one bit..actually shouldn't have joined it..should have joined badminton ( would hav died by now if i did) or yah..rather..guides..not bad wah..just eat drill eat drill..kill calories... speaking of it..i dropped from 47 plus kg to 45 lidat..shiok hor? den my waist now 24.5..last time 27..recommended..if you wanna go on diet and become slimmer..put on braces..eat just porridge and milo the whole day..den u sure can get this kinda results..diaox.. somemore..wad huhz..oh yeah..i haven't finish abt vball yet..feeling very guilty..and most probably worried..cos i realli realli worried that i dun hav 75% of my attendance..last year was perfect..this year..diaox..forget it..i'm a failure in vball and let's just admit it alright? hmm..school..once again i felt invisible and like i no friends lidat..realli dun wanna write cos like i said before..words said cannot be called bac..err..something lidat..anyway..that notebook i bought? terribly useful..realli..wrote in it all day long..den what's more kakei ben and pris continued talking abt secrets that i dun hav any idea abt..so i'm left out again..nvm..beginning to understand how bad it is for someone who always dun hav a gd friend that you can confide in..nvm.. geography paper was okay..think i should be able to pass..cos i realli didn't study that well and some questions i'm not realli sure..anyway..got lots of math homework..realli wanna bash mdm hee up..so biased...never ever scold chaitanya..i like previous life got owe her something lidat..and school sux to the core..i mean..what the hell lohz..we are students lehz..not workers..three projects in a row! and what's more the dateline is all abt the same..literature..art..ipw..and not to mention the read and share thingie..i'm going crazy ppl..haix..oh yeah..i forgot abt the field trip..actually..i kinda pity jody and lay jia..i think jody knows that she's not welcomed by people to their group..and..okay..honestly, i'm one of those ppl..i mean i noe she's quite okay and well..budden they're just too chatty..right? and realli, jody's expression today when she asked mi to like reserve two spaces for them if we hav for the field trip grouping..was..saddening..realli.. oh well.life..is just lidat..mdm foong kept talking abt the financial planning and all..den talk abt milk powder and all that..honestly didn't hav anything to do wif that but i agree on one thing though..if you wanna survive in singapore, save the money, cos no money no talk..i agree..sorta think i'm not a thoroughly gd person..as in..i can be kind, humble, considerate.wadeva..but for mi, it's like i understand myself as a pretty practical person..i can be very cruel to those who betrayed mi..and i know when to inflict pain..i realli dun think i'm the kind and caring person..realli..there's something cold eating mi up.. the world is practical ppl, being kind hav rewards, but being too kind will onli let u suffer, let's just face it, the world? it's just a damn cruel cold place sianz..wasn't in a particular gd mood today..decided to "copy" sheryl, ann and mg to go buy a notebook and bring it to school everyday..den when i feel like whatever i felt today, i can just write and groan in that book..anyway, today i thought i was invisible..said so to naomi but i think she didn't catch what i meant..i mean realli realli invisible..wadeva..the whole time i felt like i didn't hav any friends.. first off, happy birthday ann..thought i was a jerk..just going down to the canteen and eating the cake without contributing anything else..and honestly i wasn't realli enthusiastic abt it either..cos like i said, my mind was on other stuff..but thankfully, the math test and english test weren't there to even dunk mi in further..so apology, ann..sorry for the hostility..and yeah..english and math tests weren't out yet, thanks to somebody in 2/2 and 2/5..so yeah..realli thankful that i was sitting beside kakei and pri instead of any members of the pig family..cos i dunno why, see them, felt like i dun realli belong to this world..wadeva..and yeah so be it that pris dun realli tok to mi and joke more wif ben but at least kakei had the sense to stay quiet instead of crapping all the time, which buys mi precious time to think and reflect over my damn life..yeah..so well.. school was..fine i guess, new chairman was chaitanya..actually didn't particularly care who the hell was gonna be the next sufferer..just tat my life as a chairman is now officially over and i've handed the duties over to mr chai..:D.gd.gd..vice chair was siew boon, treasurer ruth, secretary cheng cheng..not a particularly gd commitee but one that will do..ah..haz..wadeva.. i arrived home at 3, cos dad fetched mi home, gd huhz? he bought bbq pork..dunno for wad reason, had a feeling he wanted to treat mi to it..budden i told him i can't even bite rice and you wan mi to eat this? and he said, ah.oh too bad. something lidat in chinese..wanted actually to put in an hour's revision of sci and all that but it turns out to be one hour or reading of Stephen White's novel..warning signs..something lidat..was great, finished the novel..realli totally great..oh yeah and sheryl, maybe i'll try out jeffrey archer's book one of these days when i'm in the mood..where was i? oh yeah..den realized it was too late to try to put in revision..speaking of it, did fine for the chinese test though i didn't put in even 10 decent mins of revision..and here i am online, talking a lot and i dunno why, guess cos this blog is the best friend i've ever had..and because i'm very lazy to go and officially start my search on bermuda triangle, which is to be the topic for my read and share for science and oso research for art romanticism..btw, i dun even noe why it's called tat..-_-"..hey, just realized the way i talked..dun seemed normal..is it just mi or wad? nvm.. oh yeah..knew that mg was upset over weihao's teasing..just wanted to say cheer up, noe it wun be much of a use..yeah..so.. so sianz..at home..wanted to do homework but dun hav mood..now already four o'clock but den accomplish nth..forget it.dun hav the mood..still dun hav the..generostiy? to talk wif karen and stephen....dunno why..first time lidat..guess everything has a first time..everytime i think of her lying..i just can't bear it..haix..budden it's not their fault..just tat they're the onli parties involved..so they will hav to bear wif mi..wadeva sianz..nth to do le... beginning to think that the first person to create a blog shouldn't have done that, sometimes agree wif wad weilun said..your thoughts should stay a secret, ya, wadeva... anyway,,stephen online now, i dunno whether karen told him, or what, i didn't ask, he said yoz, i said ello, den we stopped talking, i dunno wad to say to him, cos i seriously dunno what i feel, it's not anger, yet i can't bring myself to chat with him properly, wadeva, cos why? they lied, maybe not him, cos he never lied to mi purposely, but karen did, so i can't bring myself to resume normal, can't, sheryl's right, though this sounds bitter, you can forgive, but you wun forget, ever.. anyway, mg wasn't realli happy in school, and i just realized that your mood realli changes wif ur friends' mood, realli beginning to feel that i'm distancing (got such word?) from my friends, everyone, maybe it's because i dun realli talk? or that everytime i see mg moody, i oso turn moody, bei chuan ran..hah..i seldom think of karen and the thing at anderson, cos realli dun hav that much time, and i didn't want my mood spoiled, sitting wif kakei and priscilla has an advantage, i dun hav to talk, just listen to them crap and laugh at the appropriate time...wadeva..why am i sounding so bitter? anyway, pris and ben get along very well, makes mi feel sorta like i'm dui bu qi kakei cos i seldom talk to him, i dun hav anything to say.. haix..and yesterday anson suddenly like hav a mood swing, major mood swing..and just went out of class during sci lab lesson...i didn't know what happened..asked kakei and ben, they both didn't know, onli know he not gd mood..obviously..den english, the mrs goh so insensitive..go say what the noticeboard project was slip shot and never put in effort..see his face to damn buay song..somemore so black..so scary..nvm..anyway..i was realli afraid he would go storming outta english class..mrs goh would never understand mahz..dun get wrong idea, i not interested in anson, haz..just tat i seldom see boys so moody, talk of town..wadeva.. i dunno what to do wif the karen-stephen thingie......yeah..i hav the feeling like i'm being tossed around like a doll..lied ya noe, li yong..betrayed and used..and everytime i think of the conversation we have had..especially karen lying to mi and stephen saying all those stuff..i realli wanna bash them up..or erase them from my memories so that these hurtful memories wun stay..but i can't, cos my most happiest memories were brought by them too.. oh yeah..forgot to mention, i'm no longer chairman..hurray..cos mr tok at first dun wanna change, den i at CI say loudly "change commitee"...so he must address the class..and the class oso no objections...so we change lohz..dunno who is the unlucky one to hav been chosen by mr tok..so cham..i'll happily sit bac and enjoy how he/she will be scolded by mdm hee..hehehz.. |
