|
Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
|
|
random quirks
my student made a guess regarding my age and said i was fifteenmr ku insulted me by saying i look like david carrdine whoever dares to say there is a certain resemblance better be prepared for my wrath. plugged tagboard
>
ShoutMix chat widget archives
credits
Design: doughnutcrazyIcon: morphine_kissed Do credit accordingly if you changed the icon. |
hmm today is the start of the hols sch.. eh.. my birthday is coming.. suddenly feel that this year..there should be a lot to wish for anyway..thurs going kbox..who wanna go? mg oso not blogging.. suddenly feel very lonely on net -.-" ..cos no one is blogging...hah today mr tan gave us another pile of math homework he looks horrifying when he came up the stairs today carrying one BIG papers what the hell what's wrong with this comp why cannot download OVERTURE properly?? i wanna look at scores la you toot comp btw..i think i'm in love with lee dong gun hahaaa korean show rox pon the hwa chong talk today.. now at aunt's house...... anyway am quite positive tml that organic chem test i'm dead eh shit tml got math i haven't do the math homework he gave..on integration.......sucks i give up on the math paper....... it's so freakin hard ......okay fine i was distracted shit laaaa like so many homework........ gonna die die die anyway..finally found the song i wan....hee the little bride 18 it's by AiMini..cute name ahh..another one hr to my korean dose... i luv my bro =) he's back from malaysia..but very tired so staying over at aunt's house first.. but he told me he bought mi3, poseidon, xmen 3, wo de ye man nu you, over the hedge, ice age 2 i luvvv him =D it means i dun hav to waste money watching xmen3! and since they say da vinci code is not nice..so i wun be watching either!! pirates of the carribean...gonna save up for the vcd.... den can oso borrow from gary the first show..yay! .. i totally love my life now despite the fact that i wasted two days at gary's house playing mahjong...which was realli dumb since i didn't win anything hmmph oh btw..i went mph on saturday..it's very very very very fruitful!! i bought dan brown four books series..and alot alot alot more!! it totally rocks okay and tell you one great news..my second bro SECOND bro actually wanted to borrow a book from me!! my god!! i never see him with a book before you noe!! and he took Envy by Sandra brown!! oh gosh........... i hope he gets to complete it feeling so happy haha it's ridiculous sigh..now no show to watch..think i'll finish chinese den try to go to sleep..... den wake up earlier tml to do homework..so that i can study at night for organic chem..... sigh sec four life realli sucky i think i'm gonna laugh like an idiot and hug all my dvds and books to sleep............... oh btw, hint hint my birthday coming in one month's time........ just buy me books and losta dvds or vcds!!!! i'll be very happy!!!! -.-" this is dumb There's something very wrong with my comp today it keeps hanging.. so i'll have to do it very fast now having a terrible ache in my lower stomach..cos i held my breath too long just now to curb my hiccough....... -.-" ..anyway, feeling realli tired..i oso dunno why too many little stuff for me to do these days..too cluttered i guess and everyone is talking about DSA..it's a gd thing for them i guess.but it got me thinking ..when everyone is deciding which JC to go..i'm deciding to go poly or JC.. and everything has to wait till after o levels..even after that..i'll probably be the most unhappy cos i'll have to deal with it and the most ridiculous thing is..i can onli decide after i've dealt with it and that is certainly something i dun wanna look forward to....... i'm feeling realli tired.. think got quite a bit of homework..but i'm feeling very....tired.. and cluttered think i'll play some piano..... long time neva play and i just feel tired hmm i think everyone knows what the big buzz is about these days dun need for me to spell it out just in case some very kong xian people go report it to the newspaper again in any case..i think it's quite ridiculous to the parties involved..we know you are innocent! jia you! -.-" it's reali quite dumb realli and i bet the newspapers today are all sold out..at least i checked, the ones opp are all sold out -.-" i had to get mine at the mrt there anyway..results are out..yucks mine was oooookay i guess .....can't expect much from someone like me i think i'll excel if there's a subject on "creative terminating life" ..... that'll be great hmm..we had sanguine meeting this afternoon saw the sec ones .. who the hell with the right mind will join sanguine? poor them. but shall try to think up more long lasting jobs so they'll feel more important and proud of their cca actually i dun mind sanguine noe..cos we are all nice people =D not like those bitches in volleyball who thinks they are damn chio oh shit..i'm offending people dun sue me! ........ shit..quite late, wanted to go library return bookl..cos it's already dued..... ah..today no little bride.....so can la..got time anyway. today mrs lim talked abt prep prelims and homework and stuff realized that we are realli like SO DEAD cos prep prelim got physical and human geog which..............the former one i already forget like......everything?? .. oh this sucks sucks sucks sucks ahhh well, sleep well everyone ps who got the song for the xin niang 18 sui at the back by Ai mini? internet not working well..can't search..the lyrics go "i dun wanna to become this way..wo gai dong de ti liang he hou tui.." something lidat.. pss ruth is buying me that present for my birthday!! i luv her so~ i'm realli pissing mad if it hadn't been for that accident i dun think i would hate...so much bitterness against you i dun think i would be so damn.....grudgeful against this family i went with gary and px to watch movie we wanted to watch da vinci but we missed cathay, den yishun gv..so went sembawang den there, we couldn't get in cos it's nc .. so we decided to watch mi3..once again for me .... 9.50.. that's besides the pt at least tom cruise was cute......although the story have loophopes so big you can jump right in i was in a gd mood i feel spastic which is gd den i came home i noe she's gonna be mad i expected it but it doesn't make it any easier .. she said they were very angry with me dat i acted before asking them hey, i'm 16 do i hav to ask him every single thing before i do it? i'm not having sex ok, and i dun do drugs.. and you, of all people, you, dun hav the right to restrict me and what did she say? she say "i find that you hav a lot of money, i dunno where you got it from, dun tell me you saved it, it's not possible you saved so much" to that i said "yaya, i stole it, k?" and she said "if you stole it i'll give you one tight slap" i sat quietly waiting for her to finish she doen't hav the freaking right to say anything she's my mother but ever since that incident, i can't..bring myself to accept that she has the right to control me, to advice me or to intefere with anything i wanna do you weren't there when i needed you and u neva apologized an apology will work, just apologize when people gets angry and hurt and most of the time it'll be okay but you didn't i was in a freaking gd mood i told you guys i'm trying damn hard to make myself happy and you came to spoil it all i wasted 9.50 on a movie i watched..but i feel happy cos gary and px make me feel happy you said i watched too much shows, how can i ever improve my piano and academics? for your information, i got 72 avg, which is quite okay in my opinion what more do you fucking wan i hav so much on my mind i can just burst ever since that happened, it's been like a poison, i can feel it..most of the time i can bear with her, but whenever she tries anything..to interfere with me..i can't stand it, you just dun hav the freaking right to do anything and my piano? did i not try? i tried okay, and it's absolutely dui niu tan qing to talk to you about piano you say a a good pianist can play on any type of piano pls, you dun even noe what's touch, what's feeling, what's pedalling..... how do i play when the freaking piano just wun utter a note? huh? it's not just about playing the right notes okay and you dun hav the freaking right to tell me off i saved my own god damn money okay i dun rob, i dun steal, i dun extort i saved it up MYSELF without YOUR help which, is not a big surprise i was reminded tonight by the cinema staff that i hven't turned 16 but i feel like i've lived through a century i'd rather be living outside, without you i tried, okay, i realli try to not hate you, to try to rationalize, try to stand in ur shoes but i still dun understand, how can a mother reject to help her daughter when her daughter is like begging her how can a mother call her daughter CRAZY and PARANOID how can she? i dun think i'll ever get over it it's been like this for this past months... i try to bury it i laugh, i watch tons of korean show to numb myself, to make myself happy i try not to think of it during class i try not to hate her, not to link that incident when she always tells me off to say i can forgive her will be a lie but i'm trying but i can't realli do it it's ridiculous, where do i get the money i'm not like my bro okay i dun sell my stuff for quick cash i can't work i dun rob, i dun steal I SAVED THE MONEY and you accused me of..what? ....... dun be ridiculous and what's wrong with me watching shows, i dun like loiter around..i went with px and gary, two of my most trusted friends.and in any case, i always stay up till 1am on sat to watch shows ANYWAY so what's the big deal if i'm to analyze myself i would say that i'm putting all the blame on my mother because i think she hasn't been doing her job as naomi said , yah, she provides for me, she gave me a doc when i'm sick blah blah blah oh shit, she didn't do the latter one what a joke my whole family denied me i'm not yet 16 but why do i feel as if i've been forced to grow up over time i dun wan self pity i realli dun wan to what the hell, which family has two brothers who haven't talked to each other for decadeS? not a god damn word, not even hello or bye or whatever which family has a mother and father who says NO to their daughter when she ASKED for help sometimes i think i AM forced to grow up i noe it's easy to say, i noe you wan to comfort me, but it's god damn fucking not easy to deal with this by your own damn self so dun ever say i'm weak, if i'm weak, i would hav just gotten depression a long time ago but come to think of it, i'm avoiding the issue but what else can i do i've got no money i'm still a minor if i've got a choice, i rather go operation surgery whatever myself that's why i'm so cold, that's why i'm so..realistic..that's why i can't stand some stuff in the world this world is cruel it's god damn cruel and if you are not strong, you'll get crushed by it and sometimes, not even your own family will be there by yourself you can count on NOTHING to hz: i finally heard the stupid song on bao lian deng sucks like anything i wonder who wrote the lyrics realli suck la..still dare to put into the tune -.-" anyway results are out not realli pleased, but i feel ridiculous if i'm not pleased .. haiya whatever results are not everything today is finally friday! i haven't touched any books for the whole wk .. what choir concert, den remedial lessons..den today sports day wah today sports day i spent the whole day blowing bubbles.................... damn damn damn boring and i finally can rest almost break during the mid of the wk... but thankfully, there's gd friend =D sigh tml got piano den going kbox! i noe mother sure scold but who cares ehhhh i hate life as it is now -.-" hate life hate life hate life ....... ahhh......... thought that my internet connection was spoiled..but seems like bro fixed it. anyway, i watched MI3 was great haha, although i noticed a lot of loopholes..... it's damn loud la, i heard some guys complaining about it also.... and yah, the cathay wdlands renovate till very nice..... i can't make up my mind whether or not i like tom cruise -.-" .....he's a bit....diao....but still a bit sane, you noe? nvm nvm i got free tickets for me and hz for choir concert frm sheryl!! yay!! i luv her so! -.-" dun need spend money leh..shiok la this whole wk oso go out..... mm been very very slacky these days..no homework..and so many movies, so little time!! .. i'm not talking coherently am i? mm.. today sherhan put contacts and mascara...and eyelash extensions........ from my multiple dots..you can probably tell how i feel -.-" ......erm..yah i mean, got meaning meh? put in sch for what? sighx i think if i hav a choice, i'll stay at home all day but recently, am scared of nights.. because it's the most painful literally sighx it sucks i feel like i'm on a swing..was very very high..i watched movie with mom like that..den i think she oso dun understand why i suddenly become very cold and stuff.... i rushed home to watch the korean show oh shucks, there's this new korean show, stained glass everyday from 6-7 shit man meaning i'm going to have another obsession again .. back to me being temperamental.. i can't help it ..it's just, once i start thinking abt it..i can't stop..... and it's realli depressing and since this whole day has been sunny.and no rain to soothe m nerves...... i keep thinking abt it... it suck it realli realli suck but i wonder if i'll have the courage to resolve it yikes today is raining, which means tml will be one hot day -.-" ah spent yesterday in a totally wasteful manner.. went to orchard to take goodie bag..erm that's for pris anson and hz..me and naomi's toolkit not ready..so meaning we came down for nth btw..that stupid goodie bag is filled with dove shampoo and conditioner den after that we went back my house to play mahjong. again called gary den pris and hz shared ..and they won like freaking a lot la and as usual, i lost -.-" diao, why i always lose yet i'm always the one to initiate playing mahjong? sucks right it's called an addiction ... nvm was quite entertaining anyway just that i missed my korean show..only managed to record one hr..the other one hr kanna deleted by my bro for his football what the hell nvm nvm. today..dun intend to do much again. ah.. i feel.. well..erm..hollow? sometimes i think i'd be better off if i go outside with friends budden when i'm outside i'll feel even more empty ... sighx plan to do a little revision.. den watch anime although i neva even watch it.. ah what am i saying today's mother's day .. erm, not in the mood to celebrate .. whatever yay! at last found a skin that i like ..so suitable sigh nvm bye bye! happy vesak's day! eh suddenly look at the blank blogger screen dunno how to type.. yesterday was speech day.. it went better den i thought haha playing duet (not tan qin meigui!!) with jiahao not that nervous as compared to naomi haha think is cos he's too busy caring about his bag which was tossed abt by 4/1 people and when it's our turn, the 4/7s and 4/1s cheered so loudly we smiled all the way haha =D den after that..we had to endure nearly one hr of speech plus one hr of prize giving before the concert starts eh! we did an ovation for mr tan teck poh!! thirty years teaching or something award!! so cute!! den kb shook his hand, haha, but my hand too short can't reach so cute! bleah to those who says he isn't he's so cute la after receiving his award, like so pai seh because 4/6 and 4/7 stood up haha!! i'm still searching for a new blogskin..dunno why can't find one i like.... maybe cos i'm feeling..erm mixed? like those fruit blenders? yah..like one day mix those ugly fruits..one day mix those tropical fruits. sucks the feeling but anyway, after the speech day, lijie kb me and mg shared a cab back was nice =) sighx dunno what to say wo jue de wo zhen de kuai feng le sometimes i realli think i can neva get away from this thing it just keeps coming back to haunt me even when i try to dump it to the back of my mind i know i should, but i can't tell my friends and i can't tell my mother or father or brother cos they will only look at me with that look, that look in their eyes and when i'm happily reading a book just now she comes and reminds me she asked me a question the ans to that question was what i screamed at her that time and she ignored me and now she threw the question at me again i looked at her and i just stared back at my book again why why why why why when i say what i wanted to say, why is it that no one wanted to listen freak..freak freak tears spilling out.. need to listen to some cheerful songs zhi yin wei ni zhang dong liang ...when you tell people not to avoid stuff it sounds easy but it's freaking hard sometimes i realli dun understand..why can people live so happily with such happy family, such nice life nice friends nice everything and i get stuck with this...this when i never realli did anything wrong budden, i comfort myself by saying, at least i'm not dying, that's gd at least i can still talk, at least i can still grow spastic by watching korean shows this blog is sounding damn depressed but what can i do?? i dun wanna avoid the issue i realli dun wan to but if i have to face it myself..it's too cruel i realli dun want to hate you but pls stop asking questions stop looking at me like that 肩上 剩下的能量 还能撑到什么地方 how long before i break how long before i go crazy how long before i can realli face people how long before i dun hav to seek comfort from music how long before you understand i'm realli going crazy realli realli going crazy wanted to do math homework de. but now i dunno what the hell to do except keep typing keep typing everyone changes i see my friends changing i see all my friends changing and i see those that i cherish and being seperated by something that i can break but i dun wan to and i dunno what to do but to pretend i dunno pretend it's alright pretend one day i'll be alright i feel as if there's something pressing down something that my mom just triggered it's just a simple question but i just feel awful fuck fuck fuck i should do homework to numb myself i dunno what the hell to do i realli dunno what to do i can feel the tears ..but i can't shed them because no one will see, no one will pity, no one will understand what's the use even if i cry down the sky, no one will understand. no one will even bother even if i screamed to have something done, they will never believe me so what if i cry, they will never see the grief they will only it's drama that's all sometimes i wonder why i become so cold...... listening to tank considerably more happy sigh you noe..my life is so damn miserable until i have to realli note down the stuff that will make me happy i think everyone should live that way how else to live? had my dose of korean the xing niang 18 shuai haha damn nice laughed like shit think tank style a little like jay sigh my mother nags again ..... i oso dunno what to feel now i'll most probably feel horrible later when i get ready for bed .... but what else can i do but face it? it's my prob, no one can help anyway..school was fine but tiring.. the speech day performances...yucks, below standard la, esp the drama........-.-" we spent like dunno how many hours sitting there...but luckily everything went well =D ......... i think wo yao feng le ..how can one be so sad yesterday and happy the next? ...... i think i like to immerse myself into shows....shows shows and more shows so i can forget what's going on in my life..... sigh ah well, am happy now, shall try to hang onto the feeling you most probably dunno this but the time now is 5.55am in the morning before i leave for school i NEED to blog note the word NEED most of the time i think that my tolerance for pain is quite low in fact, okay i dun squeal, but i dun think i can tahan pain very long but apparently, i can do it. okay, there's no other way to put it it's painful.....from yesterday morning all the way till this morning. it's....painful until i can do almost nth else but dwell on it and i can't even tell anyone i sat in my father's car and tried so hard not to self-pity i even went as far as to imagine myself being a heroine. there's no other way you noe how pathetic it is to be in such pain and you couldn't even tell anyone? that's why i'm so cynical, that's why i'm so sacarstic. no one can help yourself except yourself wat else am i supposed to do? i promised myself to help myself straight after i have got the ability to and this pain, it's not just one day it's been like one year..but it's necessary and sometimes i lie awake at night..pain until i can't sleep..and no one knows right? i realli tried not to self pity budden i need to tell someone and i dun wanna tell a human being what's the use? all the people i've told, well, excetions aside, have denied me they dun even believe me and they call me crazy and paranoid there you go, i'm self pitying again shoot me if i have got to live with this my whole life i think i've just earned the damn right and if even my parents call me crazy, i think i deserved a little slack i dunno what to do in fact, i dun think there's anything i can do you noe it's amazing how much things can go wrong with your body when there's one wrong, there's dozens of others following up there's speech day on thurs, efl lower sec today and i can't do anything about it the world is like that, you can't do anything about it i realli dun like to be this....self pitying creature i oso wanna be happy but it's hard so for people out there with nice considerate parents who have never given you anything aside from their support just wanna say, you'll never understand how it feels to stand in a crowd and know you are alone to face your fears eh today blogger is blue again!! diao i feeling very spastic haha cos i just had my dose of korean show hehe managed to qiao bro of 15 bucks.. cos somebody took ALL my money leh! so "borrow" from him lo hee where did the 15 bucks go? 12 bucks to my tutor friend the korean vcd another 3 to hot wings ! come to think of it, i had to fork out 1 dollar lidat myself hmm anyway hee!! i feeling very spastic haha i love korean romance comedy cos it makes me very happy and when i'm happy, i dun kill!!!! see you guys should thank the korean people hee haha!! very spas leh how nvm nvm me and kb wanted to rent initially, budden hor, this gothic girl at the laser flair there say must MUST have IC.. she looks so gothic la! and looked like she hasn't slept for weeks dat kind somemore attitude problem!! eek! so in the end neva rent lo but i went TS and buy!!hahaha!! and i'm very happy!! you noe this whole day i'm very very happy! .. shit i sound spastic le cos at tuition there we all laughed like shit at miss Aye hahaha nvm nvm spastic come to think of it, i'm very easily satisfied what just korean shows, good food, and absence-of-mama see? I'M CONTENTED!! hee i like this feeling of contention got such word? no exams, no homework, nothing to do!! ahh! luv it poor pris still chionging homework..........hmm..poor thing! ah i'm very qian bian today dun wanna go back sch leh tml my mood sure damn not good de dun wan!! i like this spastic me hahaha some people would have glimpses of it i guess..eh, cybil..ruth..naomi sometimes...erm, hz hahaha...mg..eh..somemore? dunnno but i like this spastic me haha..so stupid feeling, dun need think so much!! yay!! stay happy people!! if you are down, go borrow shows from me! you'll feel so much happier! they injects happiness and silliness hahah!! if i ever become a director, i'll make sure that i can produce this kinda silly shows.. cos..life is too heavy..we need escapees.... used to think that this kinda show very stupid but now changed my mind..... as in, not those realli dun make sense den just outright stupid shows la those kinda make sense but still very silly shows hahaha shit i think i'm suffering from post-trauma syndrome or something pissed off too much will become like me.... choz!!! hmm considerably more calm today phew dun need to see those bitches bright up my day and not to mention later got the rival korean show!! =D oh yar..today 4/1 bbq ah..in response to what mg said.. what else can we do it's damn ironic.... but..sigh, i can't say...... speechless* everyone changes... i guess and it sucks to wanna hang onto the old one ..... what else can we do? eh i'm damn sian no homework for once -.-" only math paper.. and i do finish le....... slack looo tonight..den i think of something to study but in the end sure wind up reading books la.. eeks............ just lamenting this stupid world sigh 眼泪还是留给天抚慰你是前度何必听我吠再不走有今生无下世你是否想我起这个毒誓宁愿失恋亦不想失礼难道要对着你力竭声嘶即使不抵都要眼闭我这种身世有甚么资格献世 ----周杰伦 献世 anyway i hate it realli why do people realli think they can remain at the highest pt of their lives? you neva thought you would fall? huh? where did the sensitivty go? what the heck anyway, after that have the speech day thing thought i would be even more frustrated turns out was wrong music realli can cure i think haha, it went well the hall piano is realli damn better den the crap they have at the music room and i saw naomi and huimin dance! haha, huimin of course figure gd la but naomi ahem .. no lar!! actually you look okay what! fortunately, i forgot all about the bitches during that period of time music rox! eh today's blogger is blue ..ah okay, fine..today is a very bad friday i forgot how many things pissed me off today le i think me and naomi will most probably get heart attack or artery constriction soon .. organising points* kz talk abt the more impt stuff first 4/7 finally freaking got back papers, i think we are like the slowest class on earth...... and i'm pissed, cos all the freaking teachers, like ms heng mdm haz..what have they been doing during the week end huh??? ms heng i understand, newly wed..mdm haz?????????? .... nvm den mdm chan is poor thing, marked finish long long ago today den got lesson so..we got back chinese lo i got 29/55 i think that's the lowest mark i got since.........dunno when haha, but okay la, wasn't very pissed or anything, since most people oso got that mark eh, i even glimpsed xueqian failed -.-" nvm..the thing is somebody.....well, somebody..i tot she looked so depressed and sad, so went to comfort her, she say she first time neva get A1..so i tot maybe she got C56 lidat..den i felt sad too, den comfort her den she told me, she may onli get A2 freaking A2 and u sulk u say u wanna cry halo, i used to getA1 oso can, now i'm getting Bs and Cs...i may have sulked, but i'm not so insensitive as to whine infront of people who are worse off (i try anyway, neva did said i was perfect) u noe, that got me thinking anson is gd in math and sciences, and he's right, for someone who has a forte, u would expect to get higher in that subject and when u failed ur own expectations, u feel disappointed it's true, ruth oso gd in physics, and she was also disappointed when she onli got borderline A1 and i can tell u i get my chinese paper that time i oso feel slightly disappointed and if you tell me i realli flunk my literature, i will oso feel extremely sad but the thing is shouldn't you have the knowledge that............... you should stay humble? modest? as in, no one can remain at the top for long long time you noe, we are not like someone who slogs until like shit ....so it's damn possible dat you will fall and fall hard and just because you score well for like two terms doesn't mean you realli are gd in whatever u do it depends on the teacher, and your own damn luck so quit it quit whining stop thinking you are damn gd at it okay ever get the thought that you are no, not very gd at the subject? same goes for piano dun chen jing in that world when you are the greatest oh another one got back chem paper another person sulked and sulked even though she A1 le granted everyone sulked due to practical i oso sulked cos i may have borderline A2..and i get the feeling i shu bu qi that's why my mood suck so bad, cos i recognized i shu bu qi and berated myself over it den... i saw someone sulking nvm le den after that, i heard and saw somebody so KE YI de ask naomi how much she got, what her compo very gd wan mah, chinese always get very high marks......... very purposely ask ruth, even she so naive oso can hear the damn boasting in her tone, hey, i scored higher even though you always get higher den me, how's that? you noe something u bitch? you are no gd at it it's called tyco if people like xue qian oso failed you think you realli earned the damn marks by MERIT? dun bluff, tyco and point and pick ans...it's called LUCK my lady and stop boasting abt it regarding the other subject, what else can i say but you SLOG YOUR ASS OFF for it?? can't say anything la, i dun hav the damn capability to score so high, so sorry, i'm damn ordinary human being...... but hey, u slog ur ass off and obtained high scores doesn't give you the damn right to rub it in people's faces u noe bitch okay, lemme count in total i have encounted.. one bitch two bitches three bitches and possibly one bastard wow my beautiful life (continue later when i'm calmer) hmm today is wednesday as usual, waste our time onli..the one and a half hour CI and EFL haiya at least today's EFL was fun........ and mdm chan baked a big big chocolate cake for us !! even though she say she no time =/ hee kou ying xing ruan anyway, heard that the freaking anson got 55/60 for a math....... FREAK!! den jiahao got 53/60 what shit is this!! ...... i for sure wun get high lo..i already minus eight marks...... sian ah today gotten bac the differentiation test..... huizhen failed!! everyone clap your hands pls! huizhen de shuai ge FAILED!! for the FIRST time!!! woo haa!! makes u feel so much happier eh? haha, she got 16/35..me got 15/35 so sian nvm la at least neva fail until too bad and the whole calss failed with me! =D hmm today got a lot of thoughts..sighx but.. the older i get, the more i realize that sometimes you can't afford to offend people......... sighx whatever ..den ms lau listened to our shitty song kanna scolded. nvm la, xi guan le..not first time anyway bleah jia you lo!! .hmm..shall do my math corrections here......can dun do mindmap for alcohol?????? sian la nvm..shall do it here with comp!! -.-" ahem..i noe i'm supposed to have start studying e math by sat..like most people but today is monday and mm i haven't start -.-" it's okay it's okay (fan myself) if people like anson can do it..so can i!!! at the most..just PASS lo .......... shit no!!!! okay, i need my drive.(wah shit, talk like drug addict) .. it's okay!! i'll get it later! .. anyway, this weekend has been.......woah hmm let's start with mt utmost admiration for my new piano teacher mr Chin Ying Soong ..sound so korean the name anyway HE VERY VERY VERY VERY PRO!!! my gosh.. (i go find the "resume" for u) ..(i onli type those impt) gained his grade eight ABRSM in both theory and practical at the age of 15 during his years in high school, he was a drum major and conductor of the school band and before furthering his studies in Birmingham Conservatoire in England (my gosh) he gained his Trinity LTCL and FTCL (the two last levels of diploma piano) in 1990 1992 took part in piano competitions at the state and national levels where he won several awards inclu ding Yamaha Malaysia piano Competition, finalist in Penang Mozart Piano festival and best accompanist in Rotary Club Violin Competition he has been lecturing in University Malaya, segi college and University Institute Technology Mara..he received his Licentiate Diploma LRSM from the Royal School of Music with distinction (by the way Royal Sch of music is the highest standard college) ... my teacher teacher teachers DIPLOMA students k .. my god and he went to the Louvre museum, went to Vienna, went to Mozart's place... blah blah blah i feel so damn ashamed and inferior in front of him laaa ...... i'm inspired -.-" i'm motivated to do well for piano if not, so dui bu qi him he so gd i so bad so yucky -.-" but he damn gd k!! and he not that lau cock cock until he dunno who's jay chou, jj and even ...chen wei lian! .....wow oh yar and he plays in hotel lounges and performed at esplanades before......... man but he's a bit tweeny tinny proud .. but i guess he got that right la being so..wow okay okay.. i forgot what i did during sat afternoon le.. oh yar i attended his seminar HIS seminar .... he talked abt post grade eight onto diploma stuff but that's for another day..... hmm den sunday went tuition, den after that went to watch Daisy with peixian the whole cinema onli got a few people but it's very very gd!! go watch it!! the two guys right, u see like not very gd looking? but damn shuai la! -.-" i sound damn bimbotic okay fine, at first you will like dun realli get why the guy act weird weird de and in between u will feel quite bored realli but..... it's gd!! it's realli realli gd!! very sad la i cried ..as usual -.-" i cry very easily hmm..den after that we took a very expensive neoprint.......cos the machine ate our one dollar . den it's 10 bucks .. and it didn't turn out very nice either -.-" nah nvm den we went over to causeway..eh, px bought necklaces..she likes those got shapes one, like angel la, heart la that kind u noe okay fine i weird i dun like ma..onli like those like stones, or gems de anyway, after that, she ate pasta..i kope a lot from her haha, den we talk den went library.. den she had to go for her sunday flute lessons at the amk temple... it's free you noe! i wanna go!!....so cool! and it's free!! -.-" but hav to ask mother first anyone interested? den watched the hong kong films award thingie so boringgg eh, but andy lau very shuai -.-" den slept so here i am today .... trying to squeeze in studying shit SHIT!! e math!! test!! |
