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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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my student made a guess regarding my age and said i was fifteenmr ku insulted me by saying i look like david carrdine whoever dares to say there is a certain resemblance better be prepared for my wrath. plugged tagboard
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ahhhh finally no more tests!!! yay! three cheers for dear teck poh!! he scraped off the e math test!! oh gosh, i suck at chemistry la..all my sciences like shit.. damn. nothing much to blog abt.. except that, we're all growing so evil these days..... sian, talking gossiping murmuring.. .. but kinda cannot help it, need to destress .. hmm, got a lot of stuff to do..off le..bye! HELLO !!!! I AM NAOMI !!!! ya hi. this is naomi, the stupid fat idiot. im at sm's house now.LISTENING TO JJ'S CAO CAO !!!! anyway i'm here to tell you guys how much i think sok mui sucks (: GOODBYE !!! SPASTIC...-.-" that's me of course, the sucker she mentioned.. yoz yoz, sucker reporting yucks, my physics got B... naomi even worse i think -.-" and erm, i screwed up my bio prac i think oh, naomi screwed up worse.. see, there's always naomi to rely on..... -.-" anyway, people are so damn insensitive.... irritating annoying suckers.. do you know who i'm refering to?? and some peopl are so damn cowardy oso.. whatever..going out to play badminton.. den cum back just file files.. dun bother to study for histrogram.. okay, i figured i'm dead for the differentiation thing.. but seriously, i dun realli find anything to study abt i noe i noe, in the end i'll hav this kinda ending doing test dat time: shit, why i never do this kinda sum before after test : damn, should hav studied harder getting results dat time : oh my god, i hate myself overall results dat time : kanasai, overall results pulled down by differentiation....... yada yada but i'm seriously bored out by differentiation, especially when all you ever do is four rules.... quotient, product sum composite sighx oh and i just finished the bloody geography..borrowed kb's.den just copy haha..but different presentation dat kinda thing.. gonna send cybil..poor us, we both forgot to bring textbooks home.. and kns, i'm realli very very bored out by math later gonna watch the shen yi xia lu.. haha, quite cute .. thing is, i think i'm gonna regret tml when i see the test paper.. lord hav mercy on us!!! (bleah) see, we study so hard for one month le lehhhh and instead of rewarding us with As..you granted us almost failing grades for our languages!! and sciences are like..lost cause la so you better at least give me A for math.. ahhhh freaking homework.. i need a break.. been doing geog and compres..... ahh..take a break..den later finish compre summary(three leh) den file files...... den watch shows all day longliao if got time..maybe will tryto revise a bit of differentiation..think i've forgotten the basics. ahh realli realli tired.. kept lying on bed..den get up..den walk to the table..den do do do.. den after that, lie on bed again.. do do do.. shit la why anderson like to givei so much homework cum tests??? like endless wan leh btw, everyone chinese so damn lousy freak oh yesh, and i hate geography why so many damn thingsto do laaaaaa ARGGGH oh btw, did you notice? today is saturday yet i'm not lamenting over my piano.. i guess it's not totally a lost cause..... still got a bit of hope?? shall cling onto that hope.. -.-" some people are irritating like hell.. ahh it's finally finally saturday again.. and i'm damn tired realli realli damn tired.. there's a few times in ur life when u can't summon up the energy to do anything.. yesterday was kinda like that.. some time after literature for some unknown reason i felt unreasonably depressed.. even during the stupid health check i oso felt so down.. and it even started raining.. budden seriously i dunno what i'm sad abt...... and i can't concentrate on doing anything..couldn't do homework, couldn't joke and all that.. stressed.* nvm..today was better..the freaking e math test that i stayed up late to study was freaking easy........ so i dunno whether i should be mad or ..happy den..go bac bio..21/30 chinese, i passed 24/35 budden overall i got 60+ which sucks..cos it's the lowest mark i've ever gotten for chinese.. people hav diff expectations for they all.. hav this crap notion that i will score better in english den chinese..what crap i felt like blogging a few times during the wk.. but stupidly, anderson has something called block lesson..meaning i'm like so drained after sch dat i dun hav the energy to write anymore...... realli feel very tired.. and why is 4/7 so damn nerd la... haix..i wanna take a break....i wanna take o levels quickly so that we dun hav to suffer like this anymore.. block lessons, studying..tests..blah blah.. and tomorrow is saturday again. meaning piano.. .. sigh just hav to deal with it....... get this feeling that we're so busy with our lives and studies and the paper chase that we can't relax properly..can't enjoy life properly.... sighx hmm i'm online again.. time check..4.05.. will be going off at 4.30..den do fnish homework..(stupid geography, i dun care what u say mg, but human geog simply sucks like shit and so does the teacher who sets stupid homework) and math loci (mrs chongo so anyhow set homework) btw..mr tan teck poh is back!! ahh missed him so much haha okay.. erm got bac marks for e math..21/30..so amazing..same as anson..o.O..he say it's lousy..thanks hor.......show off oracy 14/16 (huizhen got fifteen!!=D) compre 13/25 (i passed! i'm one of those privilledged ten!! can't believe it..but actually, felt pretty numb) hmm..i think myc hem is dead..so is my physics..so i hav to depend on bio (but not as if i got any color awards to worry abt..-.-") sian got literature test sian sian sian whatever................................. feeling very tired nowadays.. tired physically as well as mentally.. as i grow up..realize that sometimes it's realli too tired to try to type it out..... somethings can't be worded.... maybe i'll write an essay..hahah haha i luv the colors of this blog.. and if you click on ONE.. you will see this thing..all blood den end with "i just wanna be loved" .. i dun wanna be loved.. but erm i think u guys will find the pic very "me" i'm not that killer-stic k anyway spent a lot of times doing this stupid layout html.. so hard to edit.. hmm nice right?? i like blood color -.-" oh yesh..today that stupid chemistry test SUCKS la i will be so surprised if i actually can get gd marks.. i wun fail i hope -.-" but the onli thing that's nice abt it is.. it marks the end of our ca.. yay! left literature..which haiya..considering how bad m ss is..doesn't make a diff.. hmm yesh! i feel so relaxed.. den now..i'm just going to eat dinner..den go do some literature btw.. to the munching..... can we start munching again? cos like i'm getting slackier and slackier.......... ahh no! tml is english...... yucks compre so wonderful.. oh yah..when i settling this layout.. realized got a lot of links..not even working..den might as well delete....... sorta get the feeling i'm losing friends..... choz! initally wanted to on music den study chem at the same time.. budden.. cannot.. can't concentrate on chemistry..-.-" btw..my human geog sucks. 20.5/30 ..erm huo yuan jia rox back to human geog it sucks!! nvm nvm nth much happened.. erm bye bye! yo hi btw, MY, linked u le..was thinking who the hell was MY..thought it was meiyan..last time from vball..lol anyway.. going to embark on the stupid journey to write the stupid commonwealth essay titled water.. hopefully, i can find info on greek and roman mythology to write it.. cos i'm influenced and inspired by this book i read.. by sherilyn kenyon..sins of the night it's a gd book. erm, it's greek based i think, there are gods like acheron, alexion, artemis and all that.. but it's a modern book ( or else i chunk it le) it isn't set in those victorian periods and all that (i love those settings in a movie but in a book..) yep..and it's talking abt "vampires" but in this book they are called daimons and they aren't realli vampires..... i recommend this bk....it's realli gd actually, i dun realli get the plot..but i'm just fasinatined by the characters..it's very vivid i think =D researching* ..greek mythology is very nice..... (having half a mind to go library and look up more info on it) *still researching* ahh. information overload.. whatever hi hi.. this sat oso not a gd day (..damn mg..why make mi so superstitious oso) .. i didn't cry at piano but almost.. my rhythm SUCKS......dunno why it just SUCKS......... nth else to say..feel like quitting piano..... ..hmm meijun just reminded me i hav this stupid commonwealth essay to do.. shall do it later before i watch show..or before shows.. btw people, if you see this entry before tonight.. WATCH KATE AND LEOPOLD!! 10pm at channel five!! it's nice! stars meg ryan and hugh jackman (he looks weird in this show cos he's supposed to be hmm from 19th century i think) it's nice kz ..watched it last time haha .. i'm not as happy as i sound. realli .. nvm just going to use comp as stereo..wanna listen to songs...den go do homework le choz why ami updating everyday.. -.-" anyway..why ami like every weekend oso say finally.. budden..this week is okay..i guess cannot eat dinne tonight.cos just went dental...den aching.. haix..tonight..finish all my homework..den get started on my commonwealth essay le bah.. yucks..why i talk lidat.. ..took train to orchard..den bac dat time notice that the clouds very nice..like very low..heavy hanging there..almost as if can touch..den somemore got very black de..but behind them got very very white de.. if you stare hard enough..think can forget u are on earth.. ...according to sciences..clouds are just condensed water..so you will just feel cold.. ..i hate science, cos it takes the mystery outta of everything.. why does human wanna noe so much things for.. erm..today did my speech..finally.i shook like hell..i think even worse than pris..they say i realli shake like hell..but voice didn't tremble i think..erm..think i did alright.. -.-" finally it's over..dunno why suddenly no feeling.. den took chinese common test..so damn sian..i dunno what it's asking for.. haix..why am i feeling sad every evening....forget it... try not to think too much........ haix..i'm still very worried abt speech........ today english test ma..so no speech..tml will finally speech... havin headache now.. nth much to say.. without mr tan teck poh..everything so boring!! .. sighx i think i'm going crazy...... why is it that humans can neva be content? ..he gave me the solution.. but i wan another solution.... why can't we just be satisfied?? ..god.. ..i on my computer because i want to edit my speech.. but now..when i stare at it..i feel very sian and tired and lazy....... .. i'm not in a gd mood i guess.. like i said.....i think i take music too seriously..-.-" ....as in piano..music..melody..the meaning..dat kinda thing.. i dunno how to say it.. but..i dun think i'm cut out to play piano...... ..ridiculous right? after eight years of piano.. but.. i ust feel at a loss when you give me a score..if it's romantic den it's okay..if it's classical or baroque..den i'm like dead..cos i dunno what it's trying to say.. i just cannot relate.. that's what i'm feeling so stressed abt...... i dun feel like sleeping early today..first time huh? had a nap this afternoon..so i'm okay..and somemore tml no test..so quite relax.. haix. dunno what to say.. music differs for everyone i guess.. what kind of music you like, how u wan it to be.. for me..i can't comprehend classical music and all dat..because..erm..i dunno how to say..some are okay.. i just like those which changes key quickly and resolutely.. it's those kinda weird sounds. but i just like....... and when i compose myself..it realli sounds not bad...... what am i saying.. forget it..do my speech.. i hav a feeling i will sleep very soundly tonight.. cos i'm exhausted over physics -.-" did the whole tys ..mcq except for latent heat and capacity..did the structured and essay too.. but gave up halfway .. i think i'm gonna die straight through tml.. cos.. I REALLI DUNNO THERMAL PHYSICS!!! SUCKS! .. you always get that kinda feeling that ur answer is one step lesser den the ans................... .... arggghhh and i haven't even researched on english speech laa! what alternate healing methods what the hell why cannot give me more relevant articles??? BLEAH.. doing now.. sian today valentine's day.. so nth going on.. chocos chocos and more chocolates.. eeks.. growing fatter each day -.-" the onli gd thing is today we all no block lessons haha .. miss tan teck poh.. he mc till next wk lehh ahhh yo yo yo go go go~!!! i love that show haha.. so funny and guo jing an very cute -.-" anyway..haix..i haven't even print my great dads' essay.. erm and i think i screw up my bio but think should be okay.. can pass can le la haha my mom bought me a new bed and new table so nice lor but hor..wat the hell..the table cannot fit into my small room who ask my room so small and squarish -.-" but i'm still very gd mood haha the gao xiao xing dong very lame like nothing to do act anymore -.-" stupid la ..okay okay..i just realize my physics is like dead..luckily tml onli got one science block lesson.. faster go home chiong physics SIGH ..i hate thermal physics who ask mr yu neva teach properly..otherwise sure dun need slog until so shit.. choz .. ah you noe, when u finished a 1100 word essay within 35 mins it realli improves ur mood =) ..... notice: i'm showing off ....... NO LAA.. cos my great dads essay realli like shit lidat..no objective wan lor.. i think it's like so damn immature.. -.-" but whatever oh yar, typing it in 35 mins oso proves another thing : how fast i type muahahahah ........ okay okay, i'll be surprised if miss heng even gives me a decent grade for it.. i potrayed my dad as an..AH PEI.. yep you read right but it's like so..soo..superficial onli ah.. i'll write better when my dad dies peacefully some time in the future CHOI CHOI CHOI (TOUCH WOOD!!) ........ but hey, death will cum at least his will be peacefully mah? .. okay i'm a killer i'm always thinking abt death hey..at least my mood not so bad compared to yesterday right ..we must be grateful for such small things.. but i guess my mood will deteriorate again tml when i go sch and see some sucky people.. ........... erm choz! ....... sighx .. i still feel weird -.-" ........ feel like...meng1 ..like realli wanna vomit dat kinda thing ....... more like wanna scream.. .. i'm hooked on because of you by kelly clarkson. i noe it's an old song.. but it pretty much suits my scenario ..... studied bio le. haven't even studied physics and all that yet hate some people. ..later do tys..(borrowed from px)..den..i dun wan touch anything else le......... dun feel like going to sch see people who dun understand what they are....... ... mg say she neva liked fridays.. .. i neva liked sats.. -.-" ..tell u why later.. anyway..today went marsiling to do banking (something lidat) with mom..den she sorta like prolonged the thing until we went bac around 1+..i wasn't in the mood to shop la..so i just nod and you noe..say patronizing things... not realli, but i just wasn't in the mood to shop.. erm..we were waiting for the mrt on the platform..when there was this guy..wore black all over and had tattoos all over..started to shout "eh, stare what stare huh? stare what stare?" den..being human, i turned around to see who he was shouting to la. ..turns out he was shouting at the malay man sitting behind me.. den he went up to the malay man say what "what, you buay song ah? stare what stare?" den according to my mom, he actually sorta ya noe..erm..provoked him by ticking (bad expression) off his cap the malay man was..very..tolerative -.-" he just stayed quiet.. den after that the guy went off saying "nah bei ji bai.." dat kinda thing .. den after that a poor guy around 19+ came up the escalator..he all but just glanced at him.. den he was given the same treatment..-.-" poor thing.my mom say he looked very si wen... .. throughout the whole thing.i just sat there saying nth.. cos i realli very buay song him for making my day so extremely shuay ..but of course, he so big, what can i do my mom gestured for me to move away..cos he was behind me.. budden i just sat there with no expression .. think there was something wrong with me. anyway.. i cried this morning at piano lesson.. i noe i noe, it's ridiculous.. i just felt..scared okay okay, i'm a killer, i where will scared.. ..but i realli did felt very scared..cos when i was playing the piano..dunno why, i just can't play naturally infront of my teacher. i can play perfectly alright in front of friends, in homes, in school, even infront of audience in speech day.. but i just feel damn scared this morning.. it's as if i dun dare to..to even touch the keys..dat kinda scared .. jiahao said it's nonsense..i've been playing for eight years, how cum scared now.. den my teacher oso say..cos i'm under too much stressed.. but i was thinking "i stressed meh" not realli.if i'm stressed..i wouldn't be here now..(i haven realli studied bio) so..i'm not reali stressed becos of academics.. but yah, i guess i'm scared to play the piano becos i'm scared of failing my grade eight..... i dunno why i give myself that pressure.. i just dun like to feel like an idiot who dunno how to play the piece.. bad expression again..i just..i dunno how to describe that feeling.. i see my teacher, i get scared, i play badly, den she disapproves.den i get scared somemore.. and den, she told me she was going to resign.. end of april, den she wun teach me le. i dunno what to say..at some points i wun say she's a nice person..she's kinda stingy that kinda thing..but she's sacarstic the way people are.(me am) and i find her very..dunno..just quite "wise" as in, she taught me quite a coupla things..? so i cried..for forty five mins i think.. couldn't realli stop.. dunno why i cry oso okay fine, i noe why i'm crying..i just dun realli wanna say.. it's just...okay okay you wan hear it right, -self pitying session begins- ..i feel..so.unsupported.. academics..i dun realli feel anything..i'm not realli bad in my studies..maybe onli math..and i'm not those kiasu people who always bia like shit..yet my studies is quite okay right. so i dun feel anything budden for piano..why is it my mom dun understand that i just can't comprehend classics? my teahcer say my rhythm is bad and she is beginning to think and understand that rhythm sense is innate..cos she has a friend who puts in so much effort but still can't do it.. and i can't explain to my mom dat..i'm gd at rhythm for modern songs..pop songs..i dun reali sing off tunes or off beat right? ..but for piano..i realli dun understand why i've spent hours infront of the piano trying to realli realli LISTEN to what i'm playing..trying to put those emotions in but i just can't do it.. i tried i realli tried.. den that thing yesh, THAT thing.. it's like..coming again.. den i'm thinking..why is it that YOU (meaning gods or god or the one or whoever making the decisions up there) always gave me hope den takes it away from me again? i'm realli trying to be optimistic you noe i'm realli trying..but it's ..crashing..to have that happen to you.. my mom dun understand i sorta beg her you noe to understand but she doesn't she says i'm ridiculous i think it's amazing that when i needed support most, my whole family rejects me and it's even more amazing i can carry on life as if it never happened.. sure it's not cancer.. but it's even more long lasting den cancer.. if i get cancer, i think i'll be even more happy choi choi -self pitying session over- (answer pris msn prompt) anyway, i dun realli like to self pity cos there are worse people out there at least i'm not dying there are so many worse scenarios.. i should be grateful.. and i realli shouldn't be stressed up.. but.. nvm..we'll see how it goes.. and then i see people who cares so much abt marks marks marks .. i feel like telling them, when u get a big personal problem like this, marks dun matter anymore den i think abt how huizhen looked so sad.. den i got reminded of myself when i took my grade seven exams..i was so disappointed with the way i performed, i cried even worse. ..anyway, envied huizhen for her braveness -.-" she can actually hold her tears in.... everyone got their problems.. why can't some people understand ahhhhhhhhhh it's finally friday... finally get over binomial test.. it's okay i guess..i guess i'll pass.. it's a big improvement laa!! from failing to passing!! congratulates myself* -.-" lame anyway. today get bac o level chinese results.. got A1.. erm..some people get A1 very loud ..den some people get B3 very sad.. ... dun sad la hor huizhen...there's always sciences and maths!! (argggh..) it's just one subject onli laa.. dun so sad.. and dun be so let down la..if too disappointed..den no motivation le oh yar..congrats to anson who got... A1!!!!!! what a surprise!!! -.-" treat treat treat!!! jiahao got B3 and a pass for oral.....wah sai..... there goes my free treat.. anyway..after dat did the live reporting thing WHICH SUCKS haha..i'm not cut out for reporting laa.. i feel so weird asking questions.. esp when i haven't prepared them....... who cares la hor haix so many things so many people wan complain wan grouch wan gossip but cannot. .... the adult world..(ee)..very complicated. i'm feeling pissed because the freaking weather is freaking hot like an oven because i have got a chem test tml to prepare and another binomial and remainder theorem test on fri to prepare because i dun get why anderson just can't scrape off the block lessons so that we have time to study because i dun understand why the principal just understand how stress we are because i am still online doing research on english and ss although i wanna study chem and math that's why i'm feeling pissed i think i'm getting the yanyu syndrome.. BOTH the yanyu syndrome.. i'm working harder now.. and i'm eating less now -.-"" not because i think i'm fat or what..i'm not realli fat (am i?) just that i always have late lunches den end up dun hav appetite for dinner..... and i'm working hard cos this is sec fours!!! omg anyway..had geog and e math test today. emath rox geog sux tada. that's my summary i forever hate human geog bleah 'what am i doing online?? to show my gratitude towards my brother. he spent the whole of yesterday fixing it..even brought a new part .. such that now the comp so fast..hahaha he rox.. so in order to show my gratitude. must maximize its potential must use until it breaks down............. -.-" told you i'm going cuckoo.. hmm..later going to do chem tys.. den night do some remainder theorem.... i realize i realli suck at remainder and binomial theorem....................... ahhhh nvm, when there's a will there's a way!!! anyway..today was.. dunno leh..i just see everybody as buay song and i realize how those who dunno me realli see mi as cold -.-" for e.g. mg said hi very enthusiastically during lunch.. den i just look at her and nod (or something lidat) cos i was preoccupied................. ........ nvm nvm ahhh fifteen mins before home munching.. so cool munching munch munch ah sux why did mi and jiahao volunteer for speech day??? why why why yo yo changed layout! this layout is so shu-ling haha.. anyway..not realli my type..so i'll change it later... cos i'm not ALONE haha...... why am acting idiotic.. i should probably go and study now..i noe i noe..my e math test might fail, my a math test might fail.. cos i realli suck at math.. so i should study right? budden.... my eyes realli feel swollen.. hmmph... GOD..why do you bestow upon us such a heavy duty?? the quest for knowledge via the bookish route!! .. diaox nvm nvm..going off!! wa sai.. finally can blog le -.-" my two comps both spoil..den although big bro's one can go online..it can't go blogger..what shit.. den wanted to do essays oso cannot..now sunday 2.25pm..too late le..forget it do it next wk lohx.. i realli hate anderson why do they give us block lessons even though we have tests?? i already studied geography..but erm..later read again..? den erm..going to do some math.. den tml tackle chemistry and bio..i hope damn..we are all nerds anyway..this comp now damn fast..cos bro spent the entire night reformatting..... den all the songs disappear..all my files also disappear.. luckily i neva do the essay before this.. going to change the layout.. i noe it's late sighx..at most tonight dun watch sunday shows.. what's the show tonight anyway?? wah seh..i'm blabbering.. cos i having slight fever and cold.... extremely..erm..uncomfortable.. btw..just watched huo yuan jia mv on the making of huo yuan jia. the making is..sucky.neva tell u what they doing..onli show you all the scenes.. the mv..erm. to mg: no i neva fall in luv with jay yet. in fact.. he looks horrifying in gu zhuang!!! (cowers in fear as mg the horrible beats me) WAH SEH..i have 27 new emails.. dun ask me why.. it's a long story i subscribed to some idiotic news website.. nvm nvm.. so many people's birthdays.. somemore got valentine's.. damn did i say i was changing layout?? ..later change le blog again.. I MISSED MY BLOG AND COMP!! |
