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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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actually humans aren't all that complex okay, rephrase females aren't all that complex (actually i do think we are complex, but in some ways we aren't) see, okay, for the benefit of the opposite sex who reads my blog (too few.....) very simple things in the world make us happy #1 getting smses from friends to ask us out #2 buying and shopping for clothes (more imptly, buying clothes with money that doesn't belong to us) #3 getting to eat nice food without paying #4 having nice songs to listen to #5 in pris's case, winning chess games (i'll remember to tell weilun to always give in to you) see, it's easy it's really easy to be happy what =D yah lah yah lah,i did all the above today (without the chess games cos i'm a noob at chess) that's why feel exceptionally happy bought two blouses! aunt's treats of course haha and ate a very very full dinner at fish and co actually right, i prefer eating ice creams and cakes to full meals -.-" erm..gotta go do some work..must practise piano cos tml got coaching..sigh den MUST do finish that damn pip essay den..hopefully got time to do the geography case study that i was supposed to do long ago ..oh man it's been almost a week and i haven't accomplsihed anything!! omg omgomg howwww i noe i can definitely finish all the above by today if i dun slack but it's kinda hard not to slack leh especially when the weather is so damn hot argh okay, aza aza! oh and pris's blog is quite meaningful .. i love having a laptop=D okay that's random and mg is on hiatus! ..the thing is right, i tot you guys wanna mug? but no one calls or anything leh .. erm feel like chatting let's call pris and see whether she's asleep yet.. and oh yar people do you guys actually check your voice mail box??? cos see ah pris has one and i'm afraid of using it cos seriously, it feels damn...sick to talk to empty air so yah, do you guys check it? oh and btw, this phone number i have now right? there's no caller id so if you guys called and no one answered can you PLSSS LEAVE BEHIND A VOICE MSG hahaha oh yah pris i told weilun you told your mother that you wanna marry him think i said it like "oh pris did a stupid thing..she told her mom she wanna marry you" and he replied i quote "oh that's not stupid...that's a wise choice Haha eh tell her dun crap la" i almost laughed out loud WISE choice oh and seriously pris and her 10A1s is sooooooooo cute i said the same to weilun and his reply to my compliment was that on what basis do i have to call him and that it was rude den i was like "huh? rude?? " haha like damn funny oh and i cannot tahan it le GUO JING AN IS DAMN CUTE CANNNNNNNN why dun you guys watch the ten pm channel u show? he's sooo cute!!! especially the part when he decided to buy a new pair of shoes for the ah shan cos she scratched hers den his mother say "you are buying shoes for a girl??" den he honestly thought that buying shoes for a girl is very common and simple and doesn't mean anything and the mother said "oh okay, den you carry on, i go look at guys' models and buy one for my boss" LIKE DAMN CUTE!!! and his face was like "dun get it" he's sooooo cute! oh damn it i just realized i haven't replied ruth's letter for quite long ehh shucks hah and yah you noe it's been almost a week since sch endded and i haven't done ANYTHING CONSTRUCTIVE!! omg all i did was the damn literature essay that's all! like........arghhhh dun care tml must really do something GUO JING AN IS SO CUTE!!! you noe it's a pity that nobody films down their "Dating processes" cos i get the feeling it's really cute sometimes but duh, no one parades the stupid things you do and say when you are dating but it's really so cute!! hahah the show makes me very happy leh -.-" ohhh!! you noe the yu mei ren show from very long ago? the one with guo jing an and xu huai yu? i wan that show! I WAN I WAN! i wan that show!! =DDD ..i think i'm going abit hua chi hahaha okok i'm off to find a nice blogskin right so priscilla is hooked on chess games and winning her twenty, eh no, it just went up to forty dollars oh yah and this is one time i so wish weilun reads my blog (peh, wait milleniums oso wun catch him here..unless i post an entry on how to score As with ur scholarship interviewer..which he prob wun need anyway..did i mention he not only got the MOE scholarship but also one with the A*Agency thingie)..right the point is, priscilla told her mother that she wants to marry the 10A1s like LOL that's not me but i seriously laughed like shit when she told me .. oh..err will be back..i'm off to watch the cute guo jing an show AWW my god he's so cute i can't believe i'm going ga ga over him but he's ALMOST FORTY and a father and he still looks like he's in JC! ..like oh my, why can't i be his daugher or something i bet he looks totally cute cuddling his son/daughter (i dun exactly stalk him so i dunno) like a child cuddilng a child aww but anyway the old cute uncle acting as his father in the show oso very cute i laughed totally shitless just now when he climbed the stairs dunno how many darn times to throw a dummy for testing just to please his son twenty years from now on like SOOO cute oh man ..why am i aww-ing over uncles all of a sudden (technically they are all in the beh beh category you noe..my gosh) I want to be Priscilla. says: the prob is he looks like he's in JC I want to be Priscilla. says: while 10 A1s looks like he's forty while he's only in JC ORH HOR! people!! the above is PROOF. c'mon people let's all testify to the fac tthat priscilla just CRITICIZED HER 10A1S!! oh man, shame on you pris, how can do that? i thought you loved him do dots dots dots millenium??? (notice i'm really really enjoying this) I want to be Priscilla. says: i didn't say he looked like a forty year old!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be Priscilla. says: i didn't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be Priscilla. says: you imagined it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I want to be Priscilla. says: but then like that better ma I want to be Priscilla. says: no one will fight with me over him oh my god oh my god look!! further proof of priscilla's evil plot!!! this is her evil scheme to HAVE 10A1S ALL TO HERSELF!! horrified look* AWWW the show! it's so touching! it can turn from hilarious to super moving in an instant la! like the father is so cute the son is so cute den when they both screw up their faces and wrinkled their skin and start to frown and cry like AWWWW so sad laaaa ... my god i can't believe i'm doing this but all he wanted was his son to call him "PAPA!!" and he can't! cos den he'll have to tell his PAPA that twenty years from then he'll be DEAD ..like sooooooooo sad sob sob .. okay back to pris ORH HORRR YOUDIEEE DIEEE DIEEEE (i wan an ipod nano for birthday present..one slice of cheese cake..one new disc man...how many i can't count albums.....) ORH HORRR YOU DIEEEE see la pris's marriage is ruiined =(( and i'm soooo sad nahh i'm not interested in weilun at all cos A1s are hardly edible (maybe it's only edible to priscilla) ok ok, back to serious blogging i can't believe i derive joy from doing literature essays in the library -.-" but i do i think i'll start studying in the library it's quite condusive you noe oh and recently i found out that see ah peixian doesn't have much to say to weilun nor gary , she told me gary told me he doens't really have anything to say px too den weilun told me he also dun have much to say to gary too so..all in all if you look back on the years and chalets we spent together the one person who benefitted from all the gatherings and all is ME -.-"cos apparently i'm the only person who has a lot to say when we all get together which is extremely weird now cos only after ten years do i realize that all the gatherings? like i'm the only one benefitting the thing is, den i started asking them, den isn't it weird during chalets cos you guys dun have stuff to tell others but px say, it's not boring even though she doesn't speak much weilun says even though he not much to talk to gary (even though believe me they talk a lot of rubbish together) he doesn't mind him, just a TWEEENY bit awkward ..well ..that's really quite interesting so now i'm like "huh, so you mean i'm organising gatherings for nth?" .. that's seriously weird out ..ah ok i'll go back to kajiaoing pris i'm so extremely bored and this freaking weather is making me very very fan when is it gonna rain properly it's been like..drizzle..drizzle..drizzle like that seeing that i just bought a lot of books from the mph sale...i dun see any reason why i'm feeling so fan now ..i think it's really the freaking weather ..i think i'm gonna go to the library everyday from tml onwards to do some work if not i dunno what i can do at home and so angry la,i bought scores but i took the wrong one instead of duet by chopin i took nocturnes instead brr but nvm la and i have no idea how to ask my mother to reimburse me you noe my bank account now only left like three hundred dollars which is damn pathetic aarghghghhg ..and no one updated their blogs.......... super sian and gary's isn't replying my msgs......... kellie isn't either............. pris running make up napfa i think. mg got something on.. oh man i feel as if my circle of friends are like as big as a donut that's so pathetic ................. arghhhhhhhhhhhh man the freaking weather really really sucks and damnit i think i should throw away my handphone again so that no one can find me but the point is if no one can find me den i can't find no one either .......den wouldn't i be even more bored WA LAO EH contradiction la it's HOLIDAYS! and i'm so sad cos priscilla doesn't miss me =( if you've noticed, my bouts of unhappiness have dissipated ...it's my way of dealing with things and i know it's not gonna go away but..for now, at least it's not here yet oh and holidays rock i've accomplished what i wanted to do for soooo long i've finally cleared out my wardrobe! =DDD and there's like TWO bags of clothes my mother say give to the maid cos most of the shirts i cleared out was too short for me so this proves something: i've grown taller -.-" i wish yah yah so now after clearing out my whole wardrobe i realize there's only like..less than ten blouses =D see my smiley face? cos this means i have justification for all the clothes i'm GONNA BUY wahahahahha oh yah and i cleaned the living room vaccum and cleaned my room too and i feel super SUPER accomplished wahahhaa if only life is so simple just stay at home and clean clean clean eh now have sudden cravings for male singers as in haha, i suddenly have cravings for jay, lee hom and cao ge ..talented people wahhaah and cao ge is really good la his album is so uncommercial which is so different and rare in the industry and it's gonna rain! at lastttt like, it's been no-rain and superhot for the past three days la!! yay!! and i'm in a very very good mood today =D oh me and mg watched pirates yesterday i think spiderman was better leh mg agreed too i thought they could play more on the love relationship between davy jones and..the..the crab woman la but instead they only touched on it loosely, no definite ending oso like, huh erm what should i do now ..ah i know! i'll organize all my stuff so that when i start studying, everything is at least neat and tidy first yepp ..but quite lazy now leh maybe wait for another half hr la ..erm, hungry oh man..i'm getting fatter and fatter =((( how ah ehehh who wants to play badminton?? and when are we gonna mug? can we go to the library to mug??! i like the big table a lot! why am i talkative today anyway people, have a nice holiday!! oh, and can you all remind me that on jun 2 i have waitressing, i have this feelng i'll forget -.-" ok, enjoy! cao ge 37 20 1 is so jazzy and so nice whhahah i suck i hate myself i suck how can i have mixed up the appointment date WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?? and the bloody centre forfeited the ten dollars deposit even though i doubt my mother still rmb the ten dollars deposit but it's not the point and i'm just unreasonably angry at the centre for forfeiting my ten dollars as if it's all my fault i di dn't turn up for the bloody appointment you guys didn't sms and remind me ok ok ok ok ok back then i still had my bloody hp and you guys didn't sms me and it's YOUR responsibiltiy to do it since you are charging this bloody high fee for consultation no wonder people all say our health system sucks and it's supposed to be one of the best unless you are the POOREST POOREST POOREST RAG you wun get subsidy and unless you are bloody rich, you'll wind up getting pissed off at the health people and i'm middle class like all the rest of us and i hate YOUUUU i hate myself i hate you i hate this bloody world wad the heck and the person manning the phone was super super super ultra attitude la! stop treating me like a kid can i hate myself how could i have forgotten nobody noes how much this means to me than myself it's so bloody important and it affects whatever i'm doing , like ANYTHING i'm doing is affected by it and there's so much things coming up concert rehearsals, competition practise, what what the hell am i supposed to do you tell me, WHAT am i supposed to do why does it take so bloody long to get an appointment why? maybe it's really true that singaporeans are.....what the hell black and white why can't u be more humane maybe that's why people couldn't wait to queue up to see a specialist and only rich people can afford to see specialist i hate this you guys dunno what it feels like and then i look around me and all there were were people living in this bubble of happiness it sucks you noe it sucks and even though i can't possibly stay glum throughout the day whenever i reach home and see the piano or when i go into the piano room this feeling ..this stab of feeling will hit me my mother didn't really scold abt the hp surprise surprise i'm not sure why maybe she got used and i just can't help thinking why is this happening why is ALL this happening can't you make it stop? someone make it stop i can't carry on like this i can't carry on trying to be happy in school and realizing in the end that there's a barrel of baggage i carry with me and it makes me bitter and biased and all those things negatives which i dun wan to be i dun wanna look at envious people and hate them i don't wanna look at melissa and cassandra and xinyun and all the other andersonians and hate them for being so happy as if they've never really taste bitterness i don't want to i'm trying so hard not to but it's difficult when everything seems to be crumbling right infront of me and mg, the 2% better may come from the fact that my mother isn't very pissed off but it just plummeted another 90% to negative region cos i mixed up my bloody appointment and now, everything looks set to fall and die bad news people i lost my phone and this dell keyboard sucks ..in sch library now using comp cos even though i have like two hrs to finish all of my homework i dun have the mood to do them i lost my phone again and surprisingly i'm not very uncaring about it as usually i would be, cos you guys should noe i dun really care if i lost something but the timing really couldn't be any lousier coming thurs is the follow up appontment ...i already have enough problems with it without having to lose my phone and what's with this tupid lousy keyboard, it's so damn hard and small losing my phone is not just abt losing my phone if only it's so simple can you imagine how HARD it would be for her to take me there now that i lost something worth two hundred dollars ..i'm thinking of lying to her, you noe just dun let he rnoe by buying a second hand motorola phone same as mine .....scheming right but i dun even noe what to do now like, it's thurs and somemore there's bloody coaching on thurs THURS THURS THURS if i dun go on thurs i'll have to trouble marc to stay back on friday even though it's half day and i hate the bloody principal for not telling us when the half day is what's ur prob like, why can't u just tell us i hate everything everybody everyone now i really feel like giong up to heaven and ask whoever is in charge of these kinda things why of all people do you like to mess with me i lost my head phone, i lost my pencil case, i lost my hp and i can sense the bloody BLACK DOWN ON MY LUCK WEEK arriving like that one week two years ago when i'm absolutely suay on my luck mg said things can only get better when they are at the worst apparently yesterday's scenario wasn't the worse losing my phon emakes me worse i might as well get knocked down by a car that would simplify things alot more going by how bloody bad my luck is these few days, i think a bomb might drop on me when i walk or slip and fall and crack my head that would make me so happy and sometimes i wonder how much people really care do they care or not but how can they care for you as much when you dnu tell them what it entails it's not just losing the bloody phone feeling damn cold now and honestly i can't see what i'm typing cos not wearing glasses and i'm so bloody pissed off at what's happening why, you really like to screw with me so much is it having a "broken yet unbroken" family isn't enough is it having two brothers not talk to one another for ten years and even hating each other isn't enough? or having this THING isn't enough? o worse, having this THING but not being able to seek help isn't enough? what, what is enough you tell me me getting knocked down by a car? i really dun wanna comlpain or lament or whine or whatever shit but i really can't believe what's happening when shuling said "eh, cannot find leh, how" i really just shut down and cry like, what the heck what more do you wan maybe i shld be crippled or blinded or deaf or whatever i noe there are people worse off than me but honestly, it sucks it downright sucks ..........i just feel like screaming right now i think i'm abt to explode and why is there no freaking msn on thsi comp so that i can at least tell someone what's going on but what's the pt they wun get what it means for me ihatemylifeihatemylifeihatemylifeihatemylife i'm so so so so so tired stop manipulating my life and stop making it hellish fo rme stopitstopitstopit my brothers are pitting against each other, my mother cried on mother's day i've never seen my father so angry and my brother smashed the glass panel my mother refused to help me, i'm underaged to seek help, she's putting all this on me.............. even if i wanted to seek reveneg, i dunno how to find and what's more i'm too tired to seek revenge how many people can be so serene and peaceful how can anyone be so worri-less like cassandra you guys just dun understand dun wanna go to sch tml come to think of it i dun even wanna go home finally got time for a proper blogging session fifteen minutes before ugly betty starts.. i forgot to blog about spiderman! =D it's really really really good i highly recommend those who doesn't have the money to go to the movies to save up! cos it's really good! i was actually deliberating on skipping it since i dun have the money but in the end wind up seeing it with huizhen and naomi and we all agreed that it's super super good like really lah! i dunno how to say it kum boon says tobey (with an e right?) mcguire put on weight and.erm, he has a double chin and he's erm, kinda not in shape eh, i sorta agree after seeing spiderman two just now..he looks so young and innocent can but it's like, it's the fact that he's not your usual erm, tall dark handsome superhero that makes the whole show sooo nice! like, he's the average nerdy person next door and he's so like one of us that's why we can relate so much i realize spiderman three is the first time i actually watched it in the movie the whole franchaise? i only saw this in the movie, the previous two was on PIRATED vcds bleah and i cried! it's so touching it's like, the whole movie is about misunderstands and more misunderstandings and avenging when you dunno all the facts and misunderstands and everything and it's just so sad! like it can happen to anyone of us to misunderstand anyone and not know how much the other person has done for you or how the predicament of the person and oh, watching spiderman three, is like watching a warped superhero version of great expectations haha it's like, this pure innocent person turning rogue and being snobbish and irritating and disgusting which we all agree when peter parker turned into this extremely..well, snobbish person and we all highly agree that tobey mcguire should never never take up such roles first off, his face is too honest second off, his dancing moves, though sleek as it is, just cannot cannot cut it hahaha, it's just not him la it's like watching jiahao trying to be ..err..some sleek person, we just can't help but cringe but it's LOVELY MOVIE ahhh i'm in love somemore..erm what else was i gonna blog about i can't rmb ..give me a moment eh yep holidays coming up and my birthday coming up speech day coming up and pris, are we still going for anderson band concert? and i find life EXTREMELY SIANNN oh god ..my table lamp is throwing tantrums again ..it like, decided to give up and turned itself off just totally blinked off and there's no light den five minutes later it'll come on again ..like eh, you PMSing is it my dearest table lamp ..there it goes it just blink on again .. and there's literally a BLINK sound i think it's gonna blow up in my face real soon oh and people look towards the left for my birthday wishes =DD and pris can you do one too! maybe one day we can do THE PERFECT BIRTHDAY EE hahahah and i miss u! as well as mg! and anson too! and i miss anderson =( i'm dead ARGH why did my mother bring me to look at furnitures yesterday?? if not i would have finished at least ONE essay!!! omg omg somemore i'm going out later to meet px for dinner la die die die there's...... MATH TUTORIAL POETRY ESSAY ANOTHER POEM ESSAY ONE GREAT EX ESSAY ONE GEOGRAPY ESSAY ECONS TUTORIAL basically everything! oh god oh god somemore i wanna watch show tonight de! my condor heroes! arghhhh die die ahhhh AHHHHHHHHHHHH i think i've never so fully utilized my email account until this year ..as in, when i was in primary school it used to be filled with stupid forwarded mails praising friends gods blah blah now it's filled with countless documents on ..PW .. currently in the school library cos i have two hrs to kill before piano coaching.. thinking of it makes me sick and somemore the weather it's so nice...nice to sleep in and i'm stuck in school brrr anyway..i think i've never actually told you all how nice our school library is esp the computer section the computers are fast (any computer is fast compared to the shit connections they have at anderson) and there's no stupid ban on sites such as blogger. and basically the people inside the com lab are really doing work (note i didn't say including me) while..blogging takes away stress you noe the point is, it's really quiet and condusive..and i even find the sound of my typing slightly disturbing cos the others' are "tap...tap..tap" wheras mine goes "tapptaptaptppat" ..you get the idea. ..argh..gotta go do stuff must make full use of time one more wk to june hols, even though it's not a relaxing holiday but at least i dun have to come to school so early WO RENNNN This is a cool poem (Besides the point that i have to do an essay on this..but it's really nice, read!) blogger does't show the spacing so the ___ are all spaces, imagine them not to be there -.-" Prayer before Birth I am not yet born; O hear me. Let not the bloodsucking bat or the rat or the stoat or the _club footed ghoul come near me. I am not yet born, console me. I fear that the human race may with tall walls wall me, __with strong drugs dope me, with wise lies lure me, _____on black racks rack me, in blood baths roll me. I am not yet born; provide me With water to dandle me, grass to grow for me, trees to talk __to me, sky to sing to me, birds and a white light ____in the back of my mind to guide me. I am not yet born;forgive me For the sins that in me the world shall commit, my words __when they speak to me, my thoughts when they think me, ______my treason engendered by traitors beyond me, _______my life when they murder by means of my hands, my death when they live me. I am not yet born; rehearse me In the parts i must play and the cues I must take when __old men lecture me, bureaucrats hector me, mountains _____frown at me, lovers laugh at me, the white _______waves call me to folly and the desert calls __________me to doom and the beggar refuses _____________my gift and my children curse me. I am not yet born; O hear me, Let not the man who is beast or who thinks he is God __come near me. I am not yet born; O fill me With strength against those who would freeze my _humanity would dragoon me into a lethal automaton __would make me a cog in a machine, a thing with ___one face, a thing, and against all those ____who would dissipate my entirety, would _____blow me like thistledown hither and ______thither or hither and thither _______like water held in the ________hands would spill me. Let them not make me a stone and let them not spill me. Otherwise kill me. Louis MacNeice ..hmm i've developed a new routine and before i say anything it's only TUESDAY i woke up this morning thinking to myself "today must be friday..cos i feel so tired" .......... but it's not! it's only the MORNING of tuesday ..my god but at least it was nice cos it rained ..listening to this weird song on 883fm (which is a very nice station compared to 933 they talk less cock seriously) ..it's english but it sounds like those teochew songs ........... like seriously a bit weird out junru got food poisoning! so sad! haiyo, take care ..inconsiderate food sellers pls stop harming everyone else ..wa lao eh her whole family also kanna ..today's piano prac was.. fruitful shi fruitful ..but it's also very...irritating agravating agitating like where got guys so damn xiao qi de la! ...... ..hmm .really quite slack these days will reach home around seven plus den bathe den around seven thirty finish eating le ..so i'll usually pop online to see who's online..not as if i'll talk to anyone..but well den i'll sit at my lovely wooden desk and on my lovely table light and feel strangely satisfied ..yeah i noe i'm weird den i'll take out my lovely "think again" notebook kindly given by ms fisher from national geographic (i love the book it's thick enough and it's the right size somemore it's FREE) and flip open, look at my list of to-dos conclude that : essays..too long, no time to do tutorials: too boring..very sian ..online research: ..need a lot of time, not enough time now. ..and wind up only doing some scrap stuff bleah okok, hmm good luck for anyone having SPA..the memory of those irritating laboratory stuff still makes me sick..but who asks u guys to take science..so good luck loh ..off to flipping notebook.. OH how can i forget ..wait wait, lemme talk to you guys about germaine greer (i think it's how it's spelt..i think) miss chiam my gp tutor showed us a video with her interview she's seriously ..well, erm, the first person i came across whom i have no words to describe she's a feminist. and well lemme see if i can rmb some quotes by her she said females, before religion, before race, before age group, before anything, is foremost a woman and that no one other than real woman will ever be a real woman, not even transvestite and that rape, is like being run down by a runaway vehicle, it's an accident queer analogy isn't it but she categories rape as being raped by a stranger, which is the above, or being raped by your lover, which is plain devastating and i think the runaway vehicle analogy is quite..well, ingenious and that rapers? they shouldn't get the death penalty, i guess it kinda make sense, of course it makes better sense after how miss chiam phrased it, like, giving them the death penalty, doesn't it accentuate the feeling of victimization in the woman who was raped? ..well? queer but surprisingly logical isn't it ..erm something to think about oh and she wrote a book, and she thought it's nth great or good but it's "made great by women who read it" like, a book needs an audience, and the book is great only because the women who read it made it great ..another insight but yeah, she's awfully intimidating, i honestly think the interviewer must have been cursing when he got the job like "so prestigious interview but ..man, she's scary" cos she' s really scary and though i respect her cos she's so extremely different and refreshing, her views and her theories right, i totally dun get it, like it's still so vague and some of her principles of life, like the fact that she doesn't believe in commitment, i just can't understand loh i honestly think that without commitment, relationships have no feelings no matter whether it's male and females or friendships without commitment, ther'es nth is there? ok there, something intellectual for you to chew over =D ..well i realize the atmosphere at home now is much better ..just that it's still a bit.....erm you noe weird like when you come home you know for certain something had happened ..now it's more like it still hadn't dissipated, this atmosphere ..ah well, as yiling says i realize i actually have quite a lot of nitty gritty stuff to do before i can retire for the night awwwwwwwwww i can't make myself do anything else other than just typing on this computer! and i can't freaking believe we have to hand in GPP when..it's like, only one drafted. ....... ah ok ok and i'm gonna land myself in deep debts again cos i'm going for HCI's drama and VJ's harmoc like.......ARGH money money not enough .. oh and we went for interact today you noe, like, i'm not really good around kids la sorta thought "what the hell am i doing here" cos you noe, i can't make kids happy by talking to them in that kiddish way and much as i like to, i really can't behave like naomi la so i realize, i'm quite contented to just you noe sit around and watch them play with naomi they all oh man i gotta learn how to talk to kids -.-" kinda worried cos like i wun be able to do the "job" well and oh we met KENNETH! from HCI! he was doing voluntary work too! like how coincidental right?? hahaha quite happy to see him http://www.box.net/shared/0t4izrxy9i download and read there's seriously something wrong with blogger in any case if you dun wanna see a depressing post entry about my depressing life i highly suggest you skip this entry and check back next week i sincerely suspect that if i should write my family life into a novel it should most certainly be more tragic than let's say great expectations i have the most peculiar, or should i say worthy of analysis characters in the family further more, the setting of the story should be quite terrific cos, let's see, it's mother's day and even more appropriate is xinyun's call "aren't you going out later?" to which i respond "for what?" "it's mother's day" and noting the tensed atmosphere positively shrouding the air around me, and the cold stone figure (my father) sitting on equally stone wooden furniture i said "i'll tell you tomorrow" maybe i should you know, be in fact writing this into a story okay man, let's do it, be back later to post the story and if you are friend enough, you should read it sorry about the false warning about it being a depressed entry I'M SO ANGRY! typed one whole list of stuff but blogger didn't publish it! arghghghgh so angry la waste my time yuckssssssssssssssss ..dun type le i was typing out my dream house ...den all gone EEE there's something really weird with blogger these days but oh well ANYWAY i have a new idol IT'S.. PENGUINS!! =DD THEY ARE REALLY REALLY CUTE! oh my,i'm not typing fast enough ok ok yesterday i watched planet earth and they featured those polar animals and how can you miss those CUTEEE PENGUINS and!! not just that! lemme tell you how they bring up their young! first off, they all waddle waddle to the faraway place called antartica where they will mate den the mother will produce the egg the egg is given to the father who tucks it comfortably inside this pouch near his webbed feet den the mother who is exhausted, goes waddling back to the ocean i was thinking, what kinda mother! so selfish de! but..wait first so yep den ALL the papa penguins all gather together and they try to huddle into this huge huge huge pattern so that their body heat will keep everyone warm and to keep the cold air from penetrating the inside of the circle and when night comes, the COLD COLD WINTER AIR COMES they take turns to stand on the outter side so that other papas can wait their turn to be "warmed" inside the circle and they showed the penguins, got ice frozen on their feathers lah!! so wei da! and they were so cute! you tell me how many guys in the world will do that for their children huh?? you tell me? yep yep, so they do this for a lot alot alot of nights until summer finally comes! then the egg hatches the little penguin feeds from the papa's mouth, when he kept one meal and one only but they hadn't eaten for FOUR MONTHS! like wow! so noble laaaa just to watch over your child and make sure they dun freeze if they dun eat soon, they'll all DIEEE sooo MAMA PENGUINS TO THE RESCUE!! =D "with the sun comes hope!" the mama penguins come waddling back with their bellies fullll fulll full of fish!! =D and they call to each other to find each other in the millionsof penguins and then the mama penguin even had to coax the papa penguin to let her nurse her child like SUPER SUPER SUPER CUTEEE awww like, tell me, where else to find a better male huh? you tell me! dun have loh, i think i rather marry a penguin than marry a human male la beh i no time la, go now shall elaborate on this post in later days PENGUINS ARE CUTE!! AWWW so noble parents =D hmm..gonna bathe..den prac piano den call pris cos in her blog she's turning into a loner! and how can i allow her to turn into a loner! received ruth's mail and her freaking father just returned from europe..bringing back a lot alot alot of chocolates you noe one day i might bring pris over to her house..the sight of so much chocolates may cheer her up abit =D anywayyy got quite a lot of things to blog abt. but like not much time oh, my second brother is cute serious, i wonder why he hasn't had any girlfriend (or maybe he had but i just dunno) cos he's seriously quite weirdly cute erm.and i read mg's blog sigh, i think i sorta understand the feeling just sleep and, if it doesn't work, try watching world disasters shows, so that you'll feel that there are worser matters on earth. it sorta works hope you get over it soon, if not the feeling wun help anyway i feel like crap people, dun ever ever ever eat burger king from parkway parade ......i ate..and i vomitted fifteen mins after that was with naomi..and i intended to eat den study while waiting for bro to come fetch me and then realize for some reason i ate very slowly and not much appetite even though i hadn't eaten for past six hrs den naomi left and i feel totally like crap ..so i went in search of a toilet..locked myself in a cubicle and wait for the vomit to come it's damn gross i vomit the burger out you know you sorta noe what you are vomitting? yah it was the burger with the onions and the pickles and tomatoes.. den i felt so much better..so went to buy halls sweets to clear the taste from my mouth and went to wait for bro ..den he was late. and he finally called and said "eh i reach le but i dun see you" so i stood up and walked aro und trying to spot him bad move.. i felt like vomitting again so i squatted down near the roadside, feeling totally crappy and..he drove up finaly i dumped my bag into the car and squatted down near the road side and let the vomitting begin den he parked somewhere in a carpark while he ran out to buy some stuff so there's plastic bag and i felt increasingly crappy in the car when he returned and we drove off i vomitted again into the plastic bag even though by now there's nth much to vomit i had almost cleared my gut le la den poor him had to get me to the doc beneath my house and he hadn't eaten the whole while! he looked ridiculous carrying my bag ..aww but he's my bro the doc said it's stomach lfu from contaminated food CONTAMINATD FOOD argh so i finally reached home at 10 TEN AT NIGHT and not to mention my mom's incessant scoldings as if eating contaminated food is my fault got MC stayed at home today and i can't believe i slept away the WHOLE day really around 1am last night i felt totally crappy, the stomach bloated like hell and i so wanna cry out but since there's no one there...no pt so i ren ren ren ren until i either fell asleep after it subsided or i just plain fainted and den i slept all the way through to now, 6pm ..so, tml's econs test is screwed sigh DUN EAT BURGER KING FROM PARKWAY PARADE shld have sued them something's serious wrong with blogger prays* pls dun hang on me ANYYWAYY i must have an ultra high entry cos pris is feeling ultra low =( but it's ok, you can always xiang xiang 10A1s to keep yourself going ohh new term NERDISM people, pls dun succumb to this new disease NERDISM oh, warning, pris is under invasion from the new disease anti-toxins include: movies, Mahjong, 10A1s, and oh, for her case, MONEY NERDISM it's bad for your health!! it's a global phenomenon!! so pls take heed! ok ok you noe there are some days of your life when you be lieve in "all things beautiful" kinda in that period right now cos this past week i've been superrrr slack oh, erm if you count the fact that i almost became the second to die in VJ this year ..i didn't finish my 2.4km test you noe it's super super super lao kuii wa lao eh, but at least i didn't die three rounds finished and i was feeling quite ok but for some reasons..i grew giddy..nauseous..and.. nah long story but the thing is..tues was labor day thus i got enough sleep thurs went to see phantom and i pon sch on fri so i got enough sleep again ..its superrrr shiok so yah the whole week is like super slack and somemore got very nice songs on my phone, so it's like "i believe in all things beautiful" DIAOO i can't believe i just said that ..waiting for melissa to find her thumb drive so she can send me my EOM and i can PRINT.. tml is monday again ahhhh okay i'm supposed to go for dental, that's my legitimate reason for ponning sch today but..my alarm clock screwed up, den i missed my appt ..so i'm gonna tell mr najib that the dental last min got emergency appt so postpone to monday =D the point WE WATCHED PHANTOM!! me and vanessa went to watch yesterday she was still as pig as ever la erm..okay, talk abt phantom the sets wereSUPERRRR nice there was one point the phantom had to stand on top of this..erm device? it was suspending very high up and we were like my god, he can sing like this ah? if it were me i'd have trembled like shit lah cos the thing was hovering like some werid space ship but the effect was gooood even though from our lousy seats we sometimes can't see stuff -.-" oh and the costumes were damnnn sophisticated i think they took damn long to make it la and i cried! during the last part..cos the phantom was so pitiful like damn sad brad little was the phantom was quite good...erm, but christine was a little..i dunno lah, i'm not really an expert on this..but she doesn't sound as good? raoul was damn shuai though =D and the orchestra was BRILLIANT ..the songs are DUH NICE NIC ENICE NICE NICE ohhh and the souvenir shops right got sell this music box, playing tunes from phantom it costs 28 bucks!! i so wanna buy lah! den also got sell necklace 20 bucks not as ex as i thought you noe it's damn cool! but i was thinking of my empty pocket..den was c o nsidering whether to give up the necklace..sob the music box very nice lehhh i dunno how to say lah, phantom of the opera jiu shi very beautiful =DDDD i wonder if they feel tired you noe, putting up the same play singing the same songs the same dialogues over and over again but how can anyone fele tired, it's so beautiful!!! haix, but hor, more to reality i really dun feel like going back sch later cos got pianoooo den must go back cos it's AUDITION like i care like that..but it's AUDITION so i'm supposed to go back but without shuling's car..it takes one hr plus to go back..wa lao, damn jiu leh sob hey hey changed song remember this song? dunno whether you guys remember mr tok showed the liang shanbo and zhu yingtai cartoon before this is one of the songs inside for some reason i can't fathom, i actually found the song =D oh my i've got to stop aggravating anson he's so mad he missed the sa vj match it's soo rocking lah so many victorians were there cos they sent loads of SA people down and of course we're on home ground how can we lose out and we cheered and cheered and cheered initially weren't that enthu cos not much to cheer abt den SA scored in the second half, leaving nearly only ten mins left of the game and victorians began cheering like MADDD and like a miracle, VJ team really scored a goal =D and the moment they scored a goal we really really cheered like mad the feeling rocks loh but one thing that really impresses me is that we cheer for SA as loud as we cheer our team (ok not as loud, but it's still loud you noe) and even though we only played a draw, we cheered as if we had won you noe vj really like to cheer no matter it's win lose draw we still cheer =D that's why it's so..erm touching? and the captain spoke to us and said that he's sorry they didn't win but he ask us to come down for some more matches then he'll win for us victorians =D that's how sch life is supposed to be!! ohhh how can they ever say our skirts are short!!! mr chan should just look at the SA girls skirts lah everyone is wearing mini skirt can we look super toot beside them lah!! oh and today is YILING'S birthday! happy birthday!! i'm so sorry i didn't send u an sms yesterday..cos i fell asleep at midnight cos i was super tired when i reached home at eleven...i think i like that number, i kept reaching home at eleven well you see, naomi wanted to go down to visit this girl whom she met during her japan tour (and she grew angry at me cos she thought i pang seh her when it was a simple communication break down lor) since her address read "south buona vista" she assume it's near buona vista mrt so we took 196 den on the way she finally realizes that it's wiser to call the family to ask if it's really there and she realizes, hyperventilating that, the brother is telling her she should go to harborfront mrt isntead ........... well smart me looked outta the window and saw that =D we were just passing by marina square, suntec so we immediately chiong down to get off since we're near city area ..the bus had stopped the door wasn't opened so, complying by the rules the bus company had set i pressed the bell i pressed ding dong the door didn't opened press press press the door didn't open I ALMOST KILLED THE STUPID DRIVER hello?? aren't you suppoesd to open the door??? soooo we drove past esplanade and the wonderful view of singapore river and we kept worrying where the next stop will be in deed, we wind up somewhere ulu, just past the merlion and got down ..den being smart me again i checked the bus routes to realize there is a bus going harborfront mrt station phew so after we reached the station, we took a taxi (glad to say the taxi driver actually knows where we are going) and we reached the girl's house erm the girl has like..erm i dunno how to spell lah jiu shi a kinda learning disability? in her writing and spelling she can't like, errm spell properly or phrase the sentence properly like that but she's very sweet and cute and open but it didn't make me any more knowing of how to behave aroudn her -.-" i realize i seriously seriously dunno how to deal with children seriously lah cos i've never been so naive in my life what she said to naomi " you haven't seen my barbie house" "i'll say goodbye to my barbie for you then" like, very sweet loh but..i think i bypassed that stage while growing up (how to be like that when you grow up around gary and weilun) so yah, children like that actually scares me=.=" cos i dunno what to do, say or behave around them ..you should have seen naomi i think she morphed back to being a eight year old but she's great with children though unlike me =( but it's ME lah i can't change it tooo bad so mg the next time you have children, stay away away from me oh and the little girl asked me why i kept saying "whatever" and she said it was "girly" ..i didn't ever thought whatever was girly ..so yep OH MAN IT'S LABOUR DAY LABOUR DAY IT'S A FREAKING FULL DAY OFF SCHOOL BUT I HAVE SO MUCH WORK TO DO!! I BETTER GO DO MY EOM... oh my freaking god |
