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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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my student made a guess regarding my age and said i was fifteenmr ku insulted me by saying i look like david carrdine whoever dares to say there is a certain resemblance better be prepared for my wrath. plugged tagboard
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okay, aside from the EQ topics, i've still got school..cca..which i pon today budden it's because we saw them doing PT and couldn't bear the thought of hurling aching muscles tml to NAPFA..yupx..so cybil meiyan and i went to meiyan's house and trained there..and we DID train..cos now my hand is ACHING..and shaking..yupx..that's so great..i can't rest my hand on the keyboard properly without my left hand trembling..yeah.. and oh yeah..history is really interesting..aside from the fact that i couldn't read the subtitles..hmm..japanese are really really cruel huh? the olden days lah..den err..mr neo gave us a stupid project..interview someone who has been through world war two..yeah right..where to find such person? ah ma perhaps..budden according to my mama..she say that all ah ma did was hide..wahahah..yupx..wad the hell.. EFL performances was sucky.e.rr..well..at least people couldnt' tell that i played wrong..wadeva..naomi got off the beat for a bit..which landed mi in a panic..anyway, we're in this together so sorry arh, naomi for making you lose ur face..malu lar..anyway, 2/6 rox..can hear them cheer!! woo...this friday has another performances for upper sec..going to try my best..haix..wadeva lar..sux..despite all the EQ thingie..i still manage to be quite cheerful!! wooo hoo man..i dunno wad to say..i am..confused? totally confused by the state of things..people..make it clear..i really dunno what we are up to..i realy dunno..yah..and wadeva..people wun let you noe if they talk bad abt somebody in groups..wadeva..i dunno wad to say, how to act, wad to do...maybe i'll just wipe the slate clean and start all over again..regarding the why u would blast at mi even though i'm not wrong thingie, it's a thing about perspectives, that's all i'm gonna say..cos i really dun hav energy to keep this thing clean anymore..yeah, wipe the slate clean, not a bad idea actually..wadeva, i take in so much points of view from ppl and i dunno wad the hell to do...this person say i'm wrong, the other say nope, this person say sympathy, the other say unsympathy, this person say neutral, the other say failure..wadeva..i really dunno what the hell people are turning into, and despite all these, i still luv these people, which is wad? i dunno, but i still luv these people..yeah wadeva ...lots of stuff happened today..i might end up going up to somebody on mon and just slap that person for being such a jerk to betray all of our trust, pris is right, there's nth much more we can say other than, yeah, we lost, to such a cheap person, i've got nth else to say to mg: i know that you are really very disappointed that i was one of the people in the class. And i just want to say, i really feel as if i let you down. Among so many people in the class that i talked to, the only people i really really cared about are you, naomi and possibly pris. And so, what you think, really bothers me. If you ask me whether i'm going to do the same thing again if i hav the chance to reverse time, i would say no, because i dun wan to have the feeling i hav now: that i've let down your trust. ps: but i'm not the worst case, by mon u will see. done some reflection, and really think that i've really been influenced by priscilla and guys to hav a new perspective, in a way, they're right. Why be so hard to yourself by acting ur dislikes? the feeling i have now? sick and tired of all of these...If there are people such as the person i mentioned in front, what other worst kind of people are there? Reflection? I didn't really think what i did was really wrong, bad yeah, bad mouthing is always bad isn't it? But they are right too, you can't convince urself that u LUV everyone of the people that crossed ur paths, if you dun like the person, either stay clear of that person's path, of just tell the person. Why be so hard on urself? Look at this, Felicia, Ann, Sheryl, Meiching, Mei Gui,Ankita. Whenever i think of these few people, i feel like drawing a food web. Why is it so complicated? I really believe that deep down in the hearts, they know, who doesn't? It's just so confusing..and i'm TIRED AND SICK! i just want monday to cum quickly and settle it once and for all. Cheap.Hidden Conflicts. Just drag it out into the open and clear it out. I can't stand this anymore. Still to mg: you not being angry is realy really beyond my comprehension. If i were you? i would blast off, totally. i dunno, maybe like i said, one year is ,no matter wad, a short time to know each other well..or that i'm changing. No matter, wad i just want to say, i really care abt wat you feel and i'm really really sorry for letting you down, if for anything
..in a very bad mood..yesterday kanna shoot by my piano teacher..i was pissed at myself over appregios.i couldn't get them right..you hav no idea how frustrating that is when my exam is on TUES!!!!!! i was PISSED AT MYSELF..she began to shoot mi all sacarstic remarks when i played my pieces with abnormal agressiveness..so wad? my god..i feel like shooting her back.. den today? kanna fang ge zi cos i wanted to run wif px..den 6 plus woke up..my leg very very pain..like cramp lidat..den went bac to sleep..over slept..den she say 8 le dun wanna run cos later she wanna go her bro's karate lesson....dots... shit shit shit..i'm going to spend the whole day practising scales..and pieces..and everything..less htan 12 hrs..it's either i'm going to make it or shit it..i'm going to lose my 21 marks..heck..i'm so damn frustrated wif myself..tried to practise yesterday for half an hr..den i keep banging the piano..ARGGGHGHHGHGHGHG...WHY CAN'T I GET IT RIGHT????
okay..i'm going to sleep straight after i've typed this..cos i'm damn tired..reached home at 6.30 and realli very hungry so quickly go and bathe..(whoa..refresh) den go and eat eat eat..yupx..den err..practise piano..the full thing with scales plus pieces..haix..i'm so dead..den here i am..cos i dun wanna do homework..the math file gave mi a big headache already..wa liaox..sort sort sort sort until going crazy..den find out i forgot to let my mom sign the tests..had to call her down to sign..den copy copy copy..cos suddenly realize all my revision exercises all disappear dunno where..most probably down in the toilet..wa kor..realli going crazy..den after tat..went bac to class..pris and i step outta the door saw mr ari..den the rest playing cards in class lehx..quickly went bac and i shouted at least three times mr ari..but no one wanna listen to mi.(wa liao..i so untrustworthy mehx) den mr ari came in..den the boys got a shock..budden heng mr ari never punish them..or else they're soooo dead..and mg is so lucky cos she gave up her seat to anson..or else she would have been caught red-handed oso..haix.. okay..den prac exam..stress! die le lah..next tue..i realli need all the luck man..i just wanna pass..please just give mi the god damn cert..cos i realli realli realli need it..cos the exam fees are reali very expensive..if i dun pass..i can go commit suicide le..cum home sure kanna beating liaox..currently receiving super lame advice from our professional chim jia hao the chimpanzee..budden like very not useful...so forget it..den..err..OMG..thing just cropped up..gtg...bye guys..wish mi luck ps: yeah..naomi and i going KL..i realli very glad and excited..cos i first time go so far with my friend lehx!! muack :D okay..i've got inspiration to start a lecture abt my current life..hahax..first off..facts: i went for second volleyball training and scratched my knees and right side...wadeva..den the coach gave mi the "face" yeah and i gave him back tat and he didn't remember my name so like, what the hell u bastard, i hope you get rashes on ur buttocks or something.........:P there ya go..quite okay i guess..swearing realli help mi relieves stress..so everybody..excuse mi..^@$^#^@%@^$#^ u bastard......... yeah..okay..and err..reading everyone's blogs..realli think that problems are hitting us like typhoon..okay..erm..it's like..nowadays..people's opinions count? and it's like..a lot of ppl are disguising their dislikes and all..which i guess has become a survival skill that we all need..budden..just wanna say that dun let wad other people say influence ur own feelings...recognize the happiness in front of u and dun let it down...dun let it down cos people dun understand, it's their prob! okay..den err..this is my opinion lar..i dun like to..like..dig for info? it's like..esp close friends..they wanna tell u their problems..they will, they dun..it means they prefer to solve it alone..so i guess it's just their choice..and i respect tat..everyone has to.it's their right..right? and err..there are some problems i also dunno how to solve..everyone is hiding their own true feelings i guess..but it's inevitable..u dun like that someone..u can't say, cos it makes that person feels bad and u make relationships worse...yah, budden it's realli realli kinda bad to talk abt them behind..(i'm not pointing fingers mind u) it's just wad i feel..budden, including myself..i can't help it..yah, and it's like..miscommunication which is a big prob of my life..guess i'm not good at expressing myself either and misunderstanding happens.....haix everyone has flaws i guess..no one is perfect..u can't find a person that u like perfectly..this is just the time of the year that u get to know a person better, u began to find out abt the person's flaws..how good a friend u can be, depends on how much you can tolerate her flaws...so..it's just time..friendships can't be forced..it can be forged though..no matter how much u think u dun like the person now..by the end of the day, u will still find that little stuff dun matter, that it was childish in the past to cling onto the person's faults and mislook the good stuffs...stuff that are said can't be thrown back..time may not heal every hurt but it definitely can fade every scar. Everyone has their own share of problems, if someone decides to confide to u abt it, that person treat u as a friend, no matter how much the person wans u to solve it for her, no matter how much a chore it was, the person treated u as a good enough friend to share the problem wif u...isn't that worth something? k, i'm talking crap or wadeva..budden i just hope that people will understand that sometimes, no matter how hard u try, things can't be forced and that's that, dun try to bottle things up and carry the burden urself, we all need companions for the road ahead... oh and i'm getting senile..always forget who i quarrel wif.....to naomi: i dunno what came over mi this few weeks, budden i can tell u every little friction between us was a misunderstanding, but a friction nonetheless..hope to get ur understanding..and that i'm a bastard not worth ur anger over.....it's just that sometimes, i can't express myself well..haix..  Join the club, you're a Buffy clone! 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Hmm...skipped training today cos NONE of the secs two are going and seriously you aren't ever going to find mi partnering wif the sec threes..yeah..had a nice time in the free excess...wif mg sheryl and some of the 2/6 ppl..yeah..even been lame for quite a bit of time and it was nice to sorta find my lamer side again..yah seriously...hmm..i think wei hao sorta find mi buay song..it's my intuition..call it superstitious or wadeva but i believe in my intuition.and there are signs of cos..now i sorta understand how bad it is to be misunderstood for something..den err..yeah..i think i sorta changed a person's opinion abt mi..yeah..not convenient to offer names but it's gd..so it's sorta an exchange? but i seriously hope my intuition is wrong abt weihao..yeah  You are a kind person.You will never hurt a soul in less you are helping a loved one out.You are one sweet person.And you live by the word ><><><><><><><><>What kind of person are you!!!! 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What Is Your Soul's Trait? brought to you by Quizilla oh man..now in the free access..trying to find fun quizzes to do..brr..it's VERY COLD in here!!!! and i'm waiting for cca oso..although they say a lot of ppl not going..huh ah..den i dunno whether i wanna go or not.sianz..wif sheryl and mg..and err..watching kakei play neopets...duh..fifteen years old still play..such disappointment..hahax..wadeva..provdes entertainment can le..anyway...SO SIANZ ah. WOO HOO!!! oh man, i've just went for my first vball training in one month~!!! and it wasn't realli as bad as i imagined..goes to show i hav a over active imagination..anyway, must thank a lot of ppl for their support...cybil, meiyan, kellynn, mei gui, naomi and pris for their ever pesky nags for mi to go, sheryl and ann for their support......if not i wouldn't ever have made it!!! yeah thanks everyone!! in a pretty gd mood though i've gotta scrub quite alot of socks later on......duh.....anyway..realli realli glad..though my skills deteriorate..it was still acceptable..yeah :D hmm..and the coach treating mi invisible was just fine..den i can treat him invisible bac...yupx.. hmm..hav been doing quizzes..so check them out.....and err..reached home pretty late so just ate, relax and play comp, going to sleep in a while..(oops, the socks) yupx..and hope that tomorrow i wun embarrass myself for the piano thingie..HAIX..yupx! thanks a lot everyone!! realli realli realli thank u!! :D
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Sunny Day Woo hoo..changed my layout..comments? comments? hahax..hmm..today went to do ipw at naomi's house..dun think i talk more than twenty words today..i dunno why either...err..guess naomi was pissed cos we didn't contribute..i dunno wad to do..seriously..den felt as if i was redundent..so.. err..forgot wad i actually wanted to post....oh yeah..i hav the feeling i'm beoming more and more zi bi...dunno why..just my feeling..
oh man..the internet connection sux to the core.wa kor..anyway, the layout can't be changed again cos my inbox was full when that person wanted to send the layout to mi..guess i'll hav to bear wif the current one for a little while more..i'll put the tag board in as soon as settle the layout stuff..haix.. yupx..and did i mention i hate linear graphs? oh god..they realli sux..they give mi a big headache and blur my eyes cos i can't differentiate between the lines..oh man..and the whole thing looks so messy.... i hate linear graphs! wa kor....den somemore monday still hav to do IPW..it's YOUTH day............oh man...my life sux.. yupx today went out wif kellie to book the studio for my prac exam..haix..dun remind mi. i think i'm gonna fail..if i do, my mom will nag mi to death..speaking of whom..I HATE HER! omg! she nag like HELL!!!! i think it MUST BE MENOPAUSE..cos these past year she's been nagging nagging nagging nagging...OMG!!!! i can't stand it much longeR!!! feel like slapping her already..............do all parents nag like that? i think she thinks this is the age when everything changed..yeah right..i agree..i began to feel very very very very very very very very very fan by her!!!!!! WA KOR! MY LIFE SUX~! |
