Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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tomorrow.. will be going to airport to see felicia off... feeling depressed by the thought of it... hua bin so cham..wanna go but mom like dun let.. hope he can go..... wan everyone to be there.. on the good news part..my compo wun fail! at most a c6! cos ms heng says that she will not fail us for out of point but will one band down...at least i will pass...that's all i can hope for. den today take the bio test..guess it's my own fault i neva study properly..actually not dat i neva study properly lohx, it's i mis read the question and careless alot...suckx... mm..tml got idioms..they all say quite hard..later go study....... hope arises again....i just dun wanna be disappointed again... felicia is going....... :( why? my life seems to be falling apart...felicia is leaving..my test results sux...and dat prob... nvm..still hav friends.....must be optimistic.. but so hard. all the best to you felicia... and to all of the rest of us who have to deal wif your leaving..... haizz..dunno how to say..suddenly feel so void... and the problem is i dunno why i either... maybe i do..just that i dun wanna face it.. zai shi jian xun xun mi mi xun zao ni de zhong ying que zai ming yue gao sheng shi fa xian zi zi mi le lu okay the above is crap..just suddenly feel like writing something..... guess mr tok's obsession wif chinese poems has influenced me.... still... i still feel very....vulnerable..helpless.. void tml's biology..i studied like shit..didn't study much... cos i was preoccupied the whole day. why.. to hav your hopes lifted up..den dashed...... not really dashed..just momentary dashed..can buy it back... hope... disappointment... again... why again... now i know how it felt when you get your hopes up den hav it dashed... feel like crying.. not much to talk about..today naomi came..den we prac..and it sucks..but it's okay, guess ms lau will be man yi..cos we so little time..still can lidat..not bad le.. haizz..i'm so sad..there's no one to turn to... when will the nightmare be over? when life's bleakness engulf you look towards the end of the tunnel towards the ray of hope haizz.... i didn't even start the essay..was distracted..nvm.. naomi coming up to my house...in a few mins..cos need to prac for ..speech day? wadeva..just need to practise... okay naomi reach le..so noisy ehzz...yeah...933 now playing the sun yan zi and tanya song..yuan dian..soooo nice...their voices blend together so nice.. nothing much to say..i spend like the whole morning slogging off the pile of homework..borrowed ruth's stuff and plain copied...heck...social studies metaphor i haven't even do...call mi the ss rep..yeah.. mmmm.....sianz...wanna blog but dunno wad to blog............................... naomi peeping* so fan... dunno wad to say...... haiz, let me try to write a short essay bah to vent my helplessness. write finish le den let u guys see... YESH!!! EVERYBODY! I OFFICIALLY DECLARE IT'S THE WEEKEND!!! god i can't believe i actually survive till this..... time now is 3.25, Friday afternoon and I've just survived a week of the common tests................YAY! okay summary chemistry test= should be okay cos ms goh says lowest 24 (can't fail) english test= goner.................>.< Geography test= not too sure but can pass bah Physics= even more goner than english........FAIL FOR SURE DE and will fail until very ugly... Literature= the one thing that i can say i did justice.....wrote all that i wanna wrote.... A maths= got some wrongs and hopefully i can score at least an a2 wif a little luck (meaning no careless mistakes which is like impossible) Social Studies= i forgot the name of our head of state! (can you believe it?) it's yusof bin ishak and i keep on "bin...bin...bin wad huhx???" >.< but overall still not bad... E maths= arithmatic problems all no prob..cos i double checked.but in front hoepfully no mistakes...last e math test already almost failed..please let me score this one god! prays* Chinese test= should be okay....think my ans are correct but we'll see when the test come out..... and that's it! left biology and idioms...should be alright bahx..at least i finally get to sleep!!!! sleep!!! going to go out wif felicia tml....and she's leaving on tuesday...sob* nvm..how big is the world? still can keep in touch de... feeling now= exhausted yes totally exhausted...brain exhausted physio oso exhausted...and had a very simple lunch..cos nothing to do in sch so cum straight home... everybody enjoy your hard earned weekend....we definitely need a break........ btw..mr tan teck poh is.......ssssick.....not sure what he's doing but while invigilating our chinese exam he went to the back of the class and filmed us! dunno is digital cam or something..in any case it's mechanism and he's definitely filming us or the ceiling...cos i finished the paper first den look up and there he was..the digital thing was facing the ceiling...den after checking look again...den the thing was facing us! >.< but neva wear specs so neva see his expression larz............ ruth's soooo cute..haz bye bye! whaah!!! feel like hitting myself and biting my skin off... english compo is a damn failure..for sure will get borderline pass onli.. the topic is "describe a scene at a BUSY shopping centre" i described it "deserted" deserted whaaaah!!!!!! FAILED!! feeling so regretful.....and so vengeful........why didn't i remember???? argggh.....it's 100% of my CA! damn! i feel like crying...arrrggh... wad else to do? just ask ms heng tml and let her hav preparation before facing that stupid script of mine haiz. geog test was.....a killer? i think i will pass but wouldn't score nice....simply that question about the flat top..i went totally blank..i tot i didn't study hard enough or something...what's it huhx? i wrote vulcanic plug..k i noe it's stupid but the diagram in the marianne chong illustrated that it was very flat stupid diagram three marks off AGAIN arrgh...... CAs are so stressful..... everyday oso hav to punch my own head or tear my scalp out cos i made a stupid careless mistake... anyway, heard jiahao and sheryl today......pretty gd actually..maybe still cannot perform but no prob, ms lau will train de..dun worry and dun get nervous...i noe it's hard to do, but just try to control your body..diao after sch went wif naomi to causeway...where we met meigui having a family gathering wif her mom and her sis and also........... FELICIA! yesh yesh! felicia and her sis alicia! sooo happy lohz..though i met her but talk very little..cos i lost my voice..........sooooooooo pathetic..but we took neoprints and walk walk cos tml is physics and lit..so can slack a little..physics that chap very easy.... okay. dun say so early..later tml killer how..... hmm..i lost my voice!! *scratches numbly at throat* this morning practically stone wif weilun from admiralty to yishun before meeting pris.....no prob wif pris cos she just tell jokes i choke on laughter....but wif weilun >.<..so sad that evon went early for guides..or else can translate....... mime mime* arrgh!! english compo!! so sad!! i'm going to hav nightmares over it........ OFF-POINT! arrrgh.....nvm..miss heng say before that she also did it before....soooo it's forgivable..luckily it's onli 10% PHEW! at the most i dun wan the 5-6 marks.....phew phew.....luckily not 20% or i'm sooo dead... still dwelling over it but too bad........i'm materialistic.....study-oriented.. not realli, dun bian mi i'm just trying to comfort myself.. btw, hotmail and msn still down.....so sorry..i'll try to get my bro to throw this pathetic pile of thrash metal away and buy a new one....... try, no promise haizz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! english!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! faints* and anyway..my plans for tml and the next day..it's the big big days...cos MATH!! arh......going to slog my butts off the whole day...rush off home straight den do the ten years series first cos those are the basics....den look at the questions he gave us and try to redo all...if got time...... den should be alright??? doubts* i'll still fail math cos it's my nemesis..........argghhh.. WS you are so damn lag...>.< never mind, i noe ur brain short-circuit..can forgive nods forgivingly* diaox.. never mind..so happy felicia saw my msg..haix...once again, everytime think of you leaving will sigh... hmm..i have just officially ended my tormenting time wif the books today..after this all watch tv..spent the whole of afternoon six hours revising chemistry and geog...eeks..i totally dun get geog..starting to get it a little little bit..budden still think that mdm neo teach very very wad..i dun get it..maybe it's just me.. oh yeah and they say that i can't do homework..(which btw, they say piles up to a ton) cos my dear ruthie jie jie neva pass to mg..>.< gonna screw her tml...:P she will be soooo fan by mi.. hmm..hope everybody score well in this ca.. hmm..and naomi say wad 3/7 people all very hardworking de..haix..hardworking hardworking lohx..i dun work oso very clever..(bhb) kz i noe...i'm blabbering hmm..later got black hawk down..should be pretty gd right? oh yeah tml got english..can crap somemore..english nowadays is sooo interesting..did i tell you we incoporated history lesson cum sex education into our last english lesson?? i thin miss heng has the potential of being a sex education lecturer seriously, her sex education is much more useful (not to mention more graphic) den what our teachers did.... hmm..let's see, i'll try to tell you the horrifying experience she had.. when she was around eight, and her bro ar ound five..her parents took them to watch this stupid movie about the nanjing massacre during the japanese occupation(btw, she cut out an article about it during sec four! is she sick?) yeah and this particular movie is more RA den RA..get wad i mean? okay... disgusting part one -the japanese soldiers threw the women and men into a cell..which has a cemented wall..so practically you dun hav anywhere to go, nor ram on...and in this cell, there were hundreds of rodens (cat sized mind you) which had earlier been starved so that they will become desperate... what happens to the humans were history.....yucks..bitten all over and covered from head to toe with the stupid rodens..(she says that it's soooo graphical that she literally freeze on her seat) disgusting part two -you noe that the women and guys were seperated from the children right? well these children..what happens to them?? for the guys--- sickening..they fed the guys so that they will hav energy to run and release them in a field..after that they used rifles to shoot them down..like a game..den there were actually spectators! they clapped! eeks! for the girls--- they were RAPED!! yesh raped!!! they were like how old? ten years old at most??? and they aren't even fully developed yet!! (no offence to any younger people reading this) and it's like so infuriating.....they raped them and they die cos their virginal tear...and their tissues broke..and they bled..and they couldn't take the impact and they died!!! wad the!! where's justice??? disgusting part three --the women of course were raped.(duh) but it's like so humiliating because the highest ranking officer practically categorized them ya noe..like "first grade" "second grade" wad the? we're goods? and it's like soldiers practically queued up...and they're even worse than whores! whores get paid alright? yucks..guys are disgusting sickening creatures that shouldn't be allowed to exist on earth......they let their c*** lead their brains...... disgusting part four the guys? they were lined up and hung up after being stripped bare..yucks..and the soldiers each got one and whip them and whip them..the one whose captive die first wins the "game" wad a sadist game even worse than meigui's disgusting part five i bet this is the worse nightmare ever for a couple..the wife gets rape by dunno how many soldiers while the husband was forced to watch... how humiliating is that? okay..tada..finished haizz... felicia's going... haizz so sorry felicia, couldn't attend the farewell thing yesterday..cos i was on mc.. sickening timing haizz...never mind, will get to see you the wk after the ca right? heng.. haizz..realli sickening timing.. somemore got CA..sianz... anyway..dun worry i'm getting better..thursday night realli very bad..but the medicine the doc gave worked..was better on fri..den now can hop around le.. *stupid weather...so damn hot..u wanna toast us arh?* den was studying chemistry...did the notes..den very sianz..so cum up here to blog..and see what's up....so sianz....why do we hav to study? i feel like studying the subjects one day before the exam...experiment if i would fail... sickening haizzz...now's three o'clock..going back later to study..AGAIN...try try try...going to do geog and chemistry today.... gd luck for all you guys.....it's the National Tormenting Exams again....... choz..... *going to miss you felicia* currently blog hopping... actually intended to sleep at 6...SIX..can u imagine? cos i started doing the chemistry..luckily most were correct or else my headache would totally increase in size..den later on do math..THAT'S when the headache came..somehow or another, numbers dun like mi..tada..so i do do do scribble scribble scribble..liquid liquid liquid...correct correct correct...still dun get the stupid ans.... numbers.dun.like.mi the feeling is pretty mutual ARGGH nvm..that's just the small portion of my life..hmm..soooo happy!!! changed cca! omg people congrats mi..no longer hav to face that idiotic piece of flesh calling himself the coach..yay! okay kay..and i noe long time neva update..cos these days..i'm addicted to the nine o'clock show...yay! so nice! and so i sleep so late, hence i always need to catch some nap after sch..just one hr or so..whaah..msn still spoiled.anyway.. i think i'm so going to fail my ca...definitely, esp the topic where numbers are involved..MATH..A math stands for A-definite-headache math while E math stands for Eager-to-fail-me MATH. Argh..hate math..realli envy those people wif mathematical brains..seems like my left(or is it right?) isn't developed enough..logical thinking...eek..meaning i'm not logical..which is pretty correct... school is pretty fun...i'm realli liking tan teck poh..hahax! his jokes so damn...hahax, funny..funny as in realli got depth and not plain lameness..cos he seriously look perplexed as to how we managed to be so untidy and soo...jia lak...hahax..so cute! ask ruth and she will say i'm terrorizing her everyday...keep bullying her..no lahx, find her jokes very funny..and we keep talking stuff about ...stuff..hahax..so class's not dull duh... hmm..english is pretty gd...like the lesson so far..though it's not very...eventful..haahx, but quite fun larz..listen to music brainstorm..somemore is bond! so nice! someone buy it for mi! budden nowadays like so many people talking abt bgr...arggh..no offence to mg and anson and ann and ben and..err..anybody else?? (>.<) cos i'm not refering to you guys...just think dat some people very immature..eek... and tension is pretty high too? still feeling like i'm trapped in a dream where i work in 3/7 but live in 2/6...talking about dreams...i dreamt that i went to an island to camp last nite and den suddenly for no apparant reason, our teacher tell us that he just realize that the island is a geyser...point? i'm reading too much geography...halt! realli need the ten-years series for math..or i'm totally going to fail..hope mr tan will be more lenient..chemistry should be no prob..already starting to enjoy her lessons..hmm..bio..another story..languages always simplest..fail fail. cos i can't study..yay!! hate math. >.< headache....~ whaah...so pain...yesterday went u.k. funfair..arggh..went on the roller coaster..grin* i noe waste of money..den the water thingie..oso waste of money..den spent the rest of the time feeling stupid standing there while gary attempts to win a bear for valentine's gift...yawn...den nearing the closing dat time..he beg and beg and beg and beg annnnnnd beggggg me to go on the G-force...the thin tall thingie with 360 degrees turn....den i kept saying no no no no no budden he like very pathetic...and he LIED to me dat there wasn't a 360 degrees turn...so i went...15 bucks but he spo nsored mi 5 so total onli spent 25 bucks...pretty gd..den went up turn and turn and turn..half the time didn't dare to open eyes..cos the head pressure enough liaox..budden pretty shiok..when i did open my eyes..saw the whole world wooshing past mi..onli tilted..so quickly shut my eyes again..haahx..den i shouted because it was so damn....fun! and exciting! hahahx..must thank gary at the very least pull me to something new...yeah den reached home around 11.30..still early..den wanted to sleep..cos hungry den nothing to eat so the next best thing is to sleep...den wa kaox..i kept thinking i was having nightmares but turns out like one hour later i realize the reason i couldn't get to sleep was because MOSQUITOES keep biting mi!!! arrgh...oh yeah..did i mention to you guys why i dun like the something that drop from high up to down? cos i already noe the feeling and i dun like it...when i was young i kept having these nightmares..but it's doesn't hav any pictures or sounds or anything..totally silent..budden suddenly i will feel as if i'm falling from a very high place...sooo scary..that's why i already know the feeling before i've ever even played the games..yucks currently attempting to edit my essay..but failing terribly..cos i dun even noe what i'm talking about..still got functional and math...functional dunno how to write lehz! siao liaox......help!!! and oh mg, my blog nice wad..so sadist lidat...nice lohx! mmm...and on friday i lost 5 bucks in black jack..wad the!!! bad luck! bye bye... great...turns out that both my computers went bonkas..i can't sign into msn nor hotmail..so can't check my mail and chat...wa laox!! feel like bashing the comp...arrghh.. so yeah peeps..this is one unlucky new year..yucks.. nth much to say..been watching tv all day long...yesterday oso..ending off wif amazing race..soo nice! freddy and kendra won!! yeah! lucky it wasn't rebecca and adam....their attitude..and hayden and aaron realli realli very unlucky...can sympathize..met the stupid taxi driver in china..sigh...bet they hate china now...hahax...stupid taxi driver... actually needed to go ms sem's house..budden we couldn't settle on a date even though we spent most of yesterday smsing...sianz...so in the end they say wad march hols go...like we'll rmb it den..haix...den buy the present oso for nth... mmm..new year...such a trouble visting relatives...no larz..okay lar..just dat all my cousins so much bigger den i am...sigh whaaah..i just realized i cry so damn easily.. anyway happy chinese new year first...today is chu yi..the first day..budden got nothing to do larz..our family is lidat de..so watch shows..just finished the shou zu qing sheng..starring zhang zhi lin su you peng and fan bing bing....it's a story about two brothers and sister who ended up in the orphanage cos their parents was killed by a person from the triads...soooo sad...den the second bro and sis got adopted and grew up to be educated blah blah..fortunate kind..but the biggest bro joined the triads cos he wanna avenge his parents' death..den when they grow up...the second bro and sis go find their biggest bro...budden the biggest bro refused to acknowledge them and bluff them dat their biggest bro was dead...as fate would hav it..ended up the biggest bro was given the task to kidnap them..of cos he let them go larz..den through the process they realize he was their big bro...wahhh so sad..den end up cos he wants to save them, he became a vegetable...ya noe..so sad!!! den ending is he still went to the second bro's wedding though he's a veg...budden his hand got twitched or something lidat......wahhhh so sad!!! everytime watch show oso cry wan lehz...let's see huhz.i watch this cry (bro there cos neva let tears fall) den watch huan zhu ge ge oso cry..watch titanic cry..den any moving scene oso cry.....sometimes i wonder whether i'm a water tap....diaox...but realli sooo touching!!! whaaaah!! feel like crying again larz...sooo touching..(okay not to mention the actors all so shuai..) :P hmm..yesterday...half day sch arhz..just wanna tell naomi and meigui they all something..to naomi: i wasn't realli angry larz, but i WAS pretty annoyed...but still i was teasing you when i pretended to be angry..but in the end..ahem, somebody cried?? just wanna say dun take things to heart larz... to mg: dunno wad u guys think about us leaving larz..like wad feli said..it's nothing against u guys..we just prefer smaller groups lar...no hard feelings? mm..speaking abt yesterday..i slept the whole afternoon....den evening went ah ma's house..met smallest uncle there..den chatted wif the cousins..den take ang bao..of cos..den cum home and eat reunion dinner...soo nice..oh yah and ask kellie if wanna go to the U.K. fair..she say sat..yeah!! ask gary weilun jiajun they all later...mmm..yay yay!! oh yeah so happy! my bro bought a dvd-recorder..meaning it's the same function as vcr budden it's recorded on cd-rw/r....sooooo good!!! and the quality so nice somemore lohx!!! hmm..still got the functional writing need to do lehz...siao liao..dunno how to write..five-day week..wad kinda topic is dat! finished geog and chinese..took my own sweet time...now taking an hour break..later catching the bai fen bai gan jue...den the he dong shi..den qian qian jia zu...marathon..oh yeah i wanna watch constantine!!!! keanu reeves sooo shuai!! okay okay getting too high le.. happy new year everyone! yay! finished my 1200 words essay!! needs a little editing and then it's done..budden i feel as if it's quite weird..it's part narative part exposition..makes sense? anyway just hope that she wun mark it like it's an assignment or something..or else i'm so dead lar.. tests and exams are coming lehz..sianz..needs to study again! but hey we should enjoy new year first huhx? my mood now pretty good..just now sooo bad and lousy..why? my mum kept nagging and nagging...wa seh..washed toilets..den scrup cupboards...wad the ...keep shouting my name.."mei mei mei!!!!" (it's what they all call larz) so shitty..i so fan lohx... but heng writing calms me down...oh yeah guang liang's latest album tong hua very nice lehz..i listened to it on internet..the whole album..and every every song oso soo nice..feel like buying it lohx..but like no money..maybe go china town..yup... hmm..not much to tok about..plans later.. -do finish math homework.. -try to excess hotmail and blogskins...brr -hmm..revise a little of geog -do chinese homework -see what else i can do..or just try to refrain from having a heart attack....argggh okie once again i wanna go swimming but nobody wanna go wif mi..ARGGH!! hiz hiz..it's finally the weekend..wahh..finally new year..finally got rest... weird..i just realize nowadays that i actually sleep sounder when i sleep later..or else i'll just get bug wif weird dreams... hmm..like wad sheryl said..we're doomed for talents time..i dun mind it much cos it's just an additional song to learn dat kinda thing.and playing duet is quite nice actually..hmm.. school is pretty much the same larz..and although i'm not as failure as mg to not know the people in the class..i still pretty much stick to the same click...what's wrong with this stupid computer! it doesn't register what i'm typing!! arrgh..anyway..i just wanna check is it just me or why can't i sign into msn? they say that my username isn't valid!! stupid..not much to say..like i say my life is pretty much meaningless..oh yeah one big news..i'm quitting volleyball!! joining sanguine torch...it's realli a big relief at last to finally finally settle my lousy cca life...haizz..hope it's gonna be good from now on..this computer still can't register...is it because i type too fast?? arrgh...oh yeah and i realli am settling well into 3/7..but i still miss 2/6...no doubt... |