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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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so stupid lar sneaked outta school at 10..reached home around 11..bathe ate played piano read until i sian till 1.30 wait for px and karen.. den finally met up at primary sch..den lost my comb i'm pissed kz..when you spent like three hours pacing around your house waiting for calls.. den losing ur comb later on .. den talk a bit..gave miss sharon tan her present..den sat around looking bored.. den nobody wanna go out except gary who wanna go buy present for gf.. den jiajun dun wanna go, px and karen oso dun wanna go so damn anti-climax.. so here i am loh..ten mins after the above...... with a feeling of unfulfilment..... like, wanna study oso can't get started..wanna play oso can't get started..... dat kinda stupid feeling so wad..until listen to songs oso wanna cry. dunno why.. stupid lidat...lo.. erm.. long time no blog hi hi!! ~spastic~ anyway.. i failed both my e maths and a maths!!! what shit lar a maths failed by 1 mark e maths failed by 2.25 marks ..>.< am i suay or wad at least when i told my mom she like expected it le yay realli must pull up my socks now.. listening to twins... and no, they're not very disgusting when they sing properly..not the stupid act cute songs and second, i'm listening to their cantonese songs..cos i think it's so much nicer but chinese oso nice >.< should ask bro go hongkong more often help mi buy more cantonese album.. anyway..school nowadays..lidat lar..nothing much to blog about..we having be yourself day and teachers' day tml..lidat lor.. not realli excited i'm just so..determined to get good grades next term let's all buck up cos it's depressing to see red mark on ur result slip.. so sickening.. dat's it nothing much to blog about err..just..i dunno lar..dun feel like blogging now..mom went to get new washing machine lar.. i think i'm a little..crazy you know i can just take mrt..den listen to songs..den suddenly think of this scene in a show..den i'll start to get red nose and feel like crying.cos very touched >.< it's true lar i noe it's not me lar but it's true lorzz heh time check. 6.15pm just sent off naomi hmm..today's math lesson was especially nice..dunno why..just feel that at least for this question i understood everything so nice tan teck poh offers us remedial since we have so much problems..i think we are the only class..cannot let him down lehz..must pass math!! i realli wan lar..but plain talk doesnt work.. wadeva.. anyway.. nothing much exciting happened today tml getting back bio and social studies and physics prac god please let all three be good i realli am dead lar..lidat L1R5 realli dunno wanna put wad..both maths fail like shit..den science need two to be good lar.. wadeva i hope that mr tan wouldn't count dat test..so sian lar..i chose the wrong reagents lor..cos i blur..den anyhow choose..wad the..go to hell eh..realli nothing much to talk abt i'm on a search and rescue mission..search out the places i'm weak in and rescue my results.. realli..i'm suddenly like so motivated to start studying and improve my weak subjects and everything.. i'm so sorry people.. but in order to be able to study the areas i wan, must prove to my mom i can study.. cos i wan go poly! heyy yo man i almost flunk physics.. 16/30..den mr ernest yu realli very nice man lar..though when he scold very scary..but he nice so nice..when i asked him for marks..he say "k..see how much you got..i help u lar." den i was like yesh yesh..den he say, okay wad, quite high le you passed! (reminds mi of mg) den dun wanna add marks.. high mehz just passed nia wa lao but he so nice, i shan't blame him hee i'm feeling very very swell cos i just finished two hours of piano playing cum guitar playing and i'm feeling very very satisfied with myself..cos i finally learned the impromptu!! two pages! so happy! hmm..having so many thoughts run through mi.. but i guess o levels are still important aren't they? though i realli wanna say the opposite.. i hate math i realli do.. oh yar mr tan didn't cum today..so sad..no he ain't sick..:P he so healthy so fit where got sick..he went on course and we spent one blissful hour free of him and doing maths worksheet..>.< which is considerably better den him teachin lar..at least can talk lidat lor eh..why the show on channel eight now talking abt lingerie...... hosted by fiona xie and zhong qing..should hav figured.. choz..gtg psst..i think i realli know what i wan in life. okaayy... to mg: your blog very interesting lehhh...joan and hao bo..wahahha..so cute anyway.. your results quite gd lar. mi.. gd news everyone, i failed a maths and e maths both .. i'm so damn sad lar okay i realli am SERIOUS! anyway..e maths..might pass..MIGHT..cos still got one more test today..might be able to make mi pass overall but amaths.. i failed overall..main paper onli got 17/40..why? cos the last question? the graph? i kanchiong..den the x axis is 1.4.6.7 those kinda odd numbers, i just see got five boxes..den thought x coordinates are 1.2.3.4.5. .. lidat 6 marks gone lidat i was so pissed dat time i cried not cried, cos crying consist of sniffling snorting and basically willingly breaking down but no, i was like..so damn pissed and angry at myself cos i could hav passed and i didn;t because of myself as usual sherhan and huizhen scored very high..congrats.. sorry i dun sound too happy abt it but yar noe, hard to sound happy when you flunk lidat been thinking this evening..what to do before end of year..the onli thing i can honestly set my mind at ease is chinese and humans..humans like literature geog and ss..all i can honestly say i wun fail and most probably wun score too bad as for sciences..quite avg den math ..>.< fail..so must improve so much i'm so sorry i'm so academical..i realli dun wanna be..but parents wan u to get As..den talked with weilun weeyang they all today..was asking them why must do so much studying when they dunno what they wanna be.. weilun say, cos dunno, so study everything every well first >.< makes some sense but i still dun like wadeva i've decided i wanna go ngee ann poly for their film of school and media..a pity kumboon wanna go overseas first..haix..why? den i'll be all alone.. it's amazing..we reach sec three..den suddenly eveyone knows what we wanna be..at least where our interests lie..mine is in producing.whether music or film..huizhen's science..doctorate or something..den kumboon oso same as mine..wheras cybil wanna be deejay.. onli peole like ahem onli study for studying's sake yah.. anyway i long time neva blog..allow mi to drag and talk.. hmm..i watched the national rally..den it's like lee hsien long's face got more wrinkled by the hour.. i onli watched the english one lar was damn alert during the post secondary education part..cos so damn happy dat poly going to link up with special faculties of specific university so that you can oso study for a degree via poly yay good for us all and so damn happy jc's status is dropping..:P bleah to all those who keep studying wadeva den hmm..the downtown marina that was shown..very nice lehz..hope it can be done soon..by that time, i would be working le..>.< why do time fly so fast oh yar..and i got this tot..singaporeans realli have this knack of turtning something they dun understand into something which eveyrone can relate to one good example is the esplande..it is like such good architecture lar, if you look at it properly and it's supposed to be a prestigious centre for arts and dat kinda thing and singaporeans can actually take one look at it and call it durian but it's kinda nice, the way singaporeans always turn things around till they become homegrown for example, singlish..it's realli quite unique..i dun see why people just keep opposing it the problem is not speaking singlish, the problem is not being able to convert to proper english when necessary yup that's my thoughts sorry it bore u.. gotta go.. my air con spoiled lehz and my mom keep blaming mi for every single thing like spoiled handphone, which by the way i did not hav any contributions to, and now spoiled air con thought i haven't touched it since it was installed except for pressing the remote. so she blamed mi wat the she called mi the "spoiler queen" thanks dude FINALLY.. WHAT THE HELL THE INTERNET TODAY GOT BIG PROB... so frustrated.. arggggh sux lar why everyone talking abt superstar..can shut up not? kelvin win win lar..he sing nicer wad..den kelly win..win lar..it's not ur business lar.. it's UNFAIR lar can..this stupid world..what else is there to argue abt....some people like them shuai so they vote..some people think he pitiful they vote..some people know they are stupid and useless they still vote so? win lar what the hell..... even my mom is talking abt why kelly won.. like shut the hell up lar..ive had enough abt it at school le everyone talking abt them..hey, they're contestants okay, stop slamming them can, they still have pride lar fuck.. why am i suddenly in such a bad mood because of this stupid god damn computer lar..can? SHUT UP!!! ARGGGGH.. this stupid superstar..star my foot lar...star star.. makes everybody go crazy and blinded.. so bimbotic hey.. watching superstar..... hmm..i shall leave my comments to myself.. >.<..it's okay lar..lidat lohx.. kz..anyway..today..get bac chinese paper..darn it i lost to nigel..dat freak got 31..i got 29..sian..why can't another half a mark so dat i can get a1? so sorry..beginning to speak like barb.. anyway..changed seats le..sitting next to shuling and lijie..after several shifting..lidat lorx.. dunno wad to say lar..these few days..wanna hack someone..a lot of someones..but dunno how to go abt doing it.. like dat barb...... so idiotically clever...yet she still lidat... ahh.k k wadeva..tml no plans..think i'll go home and sleep..or read j.d. robb.. hm..i i have finally finished my portfolio on the death thingie..yesh..it's the longest i've ever written..two pages plus lehz.. got count marks ma and somemore narrative..so cannot dun write long.. .. xinhui so high..not bad sia but i'll still keep my comments to myself.. >.< dat's it..go watch lost.. omg omg omg i finished half-blood prince!!! sooooo nice lar!! i bought it on monday night..den finished it just now..soooo nice!! i was like so..unexpected when dumbledore died lehz..he didn't even hav a chance to retaliate dat kinda thing i hate snape eww i think the actor acting as snape in the show going to be very cham..everybodys's going to be spitting at him omg omg omg soo nice!! den harry with ginny..hermionie with ron.. hmm..nice combi omg i'm going simply crazy...i'm hooked!!! why is the next book the last book!! noooo!! i need to calm down.. deep breath.. WEEE~~~~ I'M STILL NOW CALMING DOWN~~ I LUV J.K.ROWLING~~ okay okay let's blog properly before the comp butts mi out for being too fanatic abt harry potter.. today..had a very bad mood..cos..a lot of things lar..dunno how to say..just very bad mood since morning..den somemore because of financial stuff..again, i oso dun wanna say cos dun wanna name people.. den..english lesson was..horrible..oh yesh i think i wanna demote to band two..miss heng asked us to volunteer and talk to her..i think i'll talk to her these few days..why? cos i feel dat i dun belong to band one.. den maths was extremely frustrating cos i had all my answers wrong..no idea why i suck at speed time graph but i do so everything wrong but i had to pretend i knew what was going on or else mr ttp will single mi out and ask questions den..chemistry..finally something to lighten up the day..23/30..a big improvement from last term..but cybil scored bad..dun worry lar...? everybody oso lidat.. den..left half a cme cos mr tan took half of cme to discuss chemistry..den mr tok gave us that sutpid cme worksheet we were forced to do..den..we started discussing abt class arrangements..which ended up very..unpleasant..kinda.. so well, i dunno wad to say den went with cybil and ruth and sherhan to eat at opp coffeeshop..den after dat went library with cybil and ruth at least dat part of the day was pleasant.. so yar..i'm very very confused and puzzled and can't sort out my feelings..dun worry people i haven't got a crush on any guy..i've decided dat the guys in this school are..okay, guys of my acquaintance are..very..lousy calibre.. so yar..i'm just..nvm..it's been a long day ahh.. anyone knows wad good games there are? i'm boreedd... download demo simsgangster... ahh came home very early today cos dad drove and i wanted to get my textbooks back.. later going shopping with aunt!! yippie! and mum lar at causeway point slack slack slack some people just dun wanna reflect upon themselves..seriously..why can't they just look at themselves..they are not of calibre.why would they then expect others to be of calibre? pur lease oh yar..and i still hav one summary..four portfolios and one chinese compo to do yippie nvm lar..i think all the teachers oso wanna slack lidat..so tired lohx? hmm..kellie and gary just started their exams..wahahah gd luck..i'm FREE!! kk..blog later.. chey..onli installed the installer onli.....stupid..den now finished the demo..but dunno whether can run... forget it..it's not connecting..wad the ~looking for more games~ ... ..... ....... ........ sian why can't people download from net?? why be so HIP lar.. stupid.. yozz.. lemme tell u how corrupted my brain is.. i'm currently playing a game that allows you to run ur own brothel... it's not dat bad lar..no porn stuff....the worse thing onli : two guys got laid tada no graphics no nothing i'm gd see anyway..wanted to play simsgangster de..but cannot work dunno why..dat one is abt u as a gangster..hav to pimp urself rob people blah blah to gain fame and wealth nice sia? i know i'm tooted anyway..i'm so proud of myself i finished maths!!! so damn proud lar!! i actually finished the damn graphs!! yippie! bac to the game..~ so stupid lar..dat game..going to look for more games yay..bro bac from hongkong..aunt bought two shirts for mi..bro bought one fish leong cd for mi..so damn cheap.singapore five bucks den got 36 songs! den bro go and buy TWINS lehz...omg..i wanna die..den bought a lot of stuff to eat lar blah blah..quite gd lar den horz..once again he asked mi how's maths..den i say fail lor luckily i think he understands haha one more hour till my brothel closes stupid right? choz..off to get more games hmm.. today is a saturday!! aka slack slack slack day!! piano was..as usual sucky..cos i feel so failure cos i'm grade eight and i dun even noe how to count properly.. and my teacher made mi feel like shit.. guitar was as usual..fun..but fingertips pain lar..den after dat went cybil's house..where we laze around doing nothing but playing piano and guitar and with her winnie baby pooh!! i becoming so lame lar..go ask cybil it's like so damn not mi..but so mi at the same time.. >.< den by the time i cum bac it's 4 le..i watched one hr of vcd..den came online trying to search for a good game that doesn't take too long to download.. and yay! today bro coming back from hong kong! i hav this feeling dat he won't bring bac a lot of stuffs for us..cos later he say wad very expensive dat kinda thing..but he will onli cum bac around 1+am lehz! siao arh.. but i intend to stay up and wait for him so decided that while waiting for him, might as well finish my long-since-rotting maths homework..and yesh, graphs..FELICIA I HATE GRAPHS!! but cannot let ttp down lar..he so nice guy.. he's given mi motivation to make mi study hard for my end-of-year maths...... hope i wun let him down...:D nothing much to do le......... eh.. dunno wad to say too much things to say but dunno where to start i luv gan chai lie huo dat show..comedy love story by yang qian hua and louis koo..so nice..my favourite among all the chinese shows lar...... haiz i realli dunno wad to say so choz hmm.. it's finally finally the end of CAS!!! yippie!! firstly... MR TAN TECK POH ROX!!! omg he's so cute lar today during maths lesson right..everyone was like so dreadful cos we neva finish his homework lar..in the end hor..he came in and said our e maths did very badly..den started talking to us earnestly for 1 whole hour!! it's like a miracle lar!! omg..no wonder 3/7 and 3/6 luvs him sooo much den he asked us why we score like that..den we say it's not difficult..budden we see graph den kan chiong..no time den kan chiong..den he started going into a lot of things..among which he talked about environmental friendly..haha..den he say "our survival comes first" compared to the environment..say if you are in a jungle alone and there's onli one bird and the bird is endangered..onli one left in the world. "just eat it" hahahah so damn cute lar!! den he started to say "but if got a lot of bird..ah, den okay okay, environmentally friendly, dun eat birds can eat cake." cake lehzz.. he's soooo cute lar actually right..he's quite right abt the way we learn maths lar..say we recognize the type of problem den choose a series of movements den we carry out the movements.. it's true lar but very hard to change lehz i think he's aware dat we trying very hard..say he saw us all lying on the table so exhausted.. wahahha he's sooo damn nice lar..... i luv tan teck poh he's so nice nice nice.. and cute!! i tink we are all infatuated with him.. seriously!! awww..tan teck poh!! hmm...anyway..physics was......i tink will pass..but definitely wun score lar..i think.. oh yar condolences to mg ..she flunk her a maths..i'm sure to fail emaths like shit..it's a first time dat my a math might score better.. ah shit i dun wan my papers to be bac english functional already sux like hell lar hmm..anyway..after school..had lunch with poor sheryl who waited so long for mi..den went over to grassroots where she treated mi to a session of bowling (i sux) den we basically hang around doing nothing but seeing cheng cheng jiahao hao bo james do stupid stuff..>.< it's like a complete waste of time but..i quite enjoy myself :D haizz i hate school.. i especially hate school when we get bac our papers nooooo wish mi gd luck.. shit..doing jigsaw puzzle now..the disney princesses wan.. den it's like i think i lost one piece!!! no no no!!! choz time check..2.33.. will log off at three..den study another two hours of god knows wad den off to watch mob sister with px! yay free movie..so shiok.. but tml still hav bio and literature test.. shit i dunno how to study physics when i lost my textbook.. gonna bunk with cybil tml..and ask her to lend mi.. god help mi and make mi score.. >.< in anycase..life's been slack..seriously slack..seriously.. been doing a lot of thinking..den finding out that i dun realli know people as well as i hope to.. maybe i'll neva know people as well as i want to. anyway..yesterday was singapore's b-day..happy b-day! i wasn't watching the parade..it's the same old stuf over and over again..was watching this stupid love dovey show..by louis koo (yah huizhen scream) but it was seriously idiotic.. i knew it. i chose to watch it. cos tha't the purpose to make the movie isn't it..i just hav this feeling of wanting to watch something silly cos my life's pretty much screwed up in layman's terms..: i wanna see somebody's life screwed up so i dun hav to feel so bad tml's school again..god i wish i could just stay like this forever..guess school sorta is fun..in the sense i dun get bored and rot to death at home hmm..i'm getting synched abt piano..must be jiahao's influence..now practising..pathetique by beethoven everyday.....it's nice sia..very nice..the allegro..hmm.. okay i'm sick told you guys already dun take up music unless you wanna be reduced this emotional bag... and laurell k hamilton's books are starting to stink..of sex it's like practically every page every chapter is abt sex lar granted it has a story line and it sorta makes sense but everything comes out like it's some horrible nightmare you're stuck in >.< so why i am still reading it? hope bro can cum bac soon to singapore..i wan my harry potter plus my gifts..>.< k i'm cheapo..cannot ah..i wan new clothes ma, is dat some kinda crime? voicing out my thoughts.. i dun feel like growing up..if you grow up you will hav this horrible burden of paying ur bills..blah blah etc no, growing up sux you will start to feel new emotions and you dunno wad to do wif it. it's ridiculous..like you wanan slap the person but you dun hav the reason to do it..so you hav to rein urself in and try to make sure you dun slap somebody outta frustration.. that's wad i feel these days what the heck.. got a lot of things to say.. but dunno where to start life's like..a cup of stagnant water..no change no ripples no waves.. sorta takes the fun outta being a cup of water (>.<) in any case......it sux being the audience..i rather be riding an emotional roller coaster den being an audience wanting to voice out my opinions and say that this is ridiculous and stupid and dumb but i can't cos no one hears opinion from the audience singapore scenary sux..doesn't inspire creativity at all.. sian eh idiotic lehz.. yesterday went out with mg naomi ann anson jiahao and sheryl (plus mc abit) after school..went k box..den was told can onli sing for two hours before the promotion period up..so okay..den the room was so damn cold till i keep shaking..and den hor the stupid food..the chicken chop was..horrible!! onli the sushi nice onli lehz..den somemore waited for so long..we tot it came so late so we can stay..den in the end they ask us to eat faster and go......... wad the.. kk..den after dat..went heeren..take neoprints..so many damn people..den went to buy ttp's present..it's a monkey seat with a box underneath.so it's like can sit or store stuff lar those kind..25 bucks..sharing with cybil they all ma..den mi sheryl naomi and mg bought one puzzle jigsaw each..nice lar..disney de.. lidat lor den after dat..went takashimaya..cos hungry..asked jiahao treat mi curly fries..nice sia..den now he addicted.den after dat ann went home..den we shop around for a little while..went kino where jiahao spotted a "crazy" four hands book and asked mi to play with him.. nod nod.. den after dat we tired so sit there..den jiahao went home..den left the four of us..den mg voted the idea to go watch fireworks..okay lox..so we tried to get people to cum.. den we took mrt to marina bay den dat stupid mrt driver right..siao eh lor..it's like open the doors for less than 5 secs den close..den mg so shuay kanna caught in between the doors..pain like shit den she squeezed through den her bag kanna caught den the doors opened..while anson is left standing outside.. so we got out at the next stop and waited for anson..den got onto the train..dunno where he is..so mg called him..and we wiggle through the crowd..so damn funny..mg and naomi cos they hm..shorter than mi right..den got this ang moh..his hand hold the pole ma..den they just hunch and walk underneath..den i was like.."i can't!" cos whether i hunch of don't..the hand still in my way lar.. den after dat go down marina bay..took the blasted bus..walked walked to the stands.. one hour later we realized the darned fireworks were postponed to midnight cos it was national eve and they had the countdown party........... ..... so we went home after seeing five Mvs... tada end of story >.< naomi went off at city hall while mi anson and mg slept most of the way to woodlands....... such an exciting day >.< i'm impressed..whoa no lar..today must study le..i've decided!! i'm going to do all my notes on my computer from now on! so that when end of years cum right, i just print out again and study if i lost them....... that bio notes lar! it's like..what the..disappear lehz..i do until so nice draw the mesophyll layers until so nice..den disappear.what the shit.... oh yar..and i'm making progress in the jigsaw puzzle..... shit..study study study! tml go free movie tickets of the jiang hu ah sao! credits of peixian! she dunno enter wad contest of channel u lar den won a pair of tickets..woo hoo!! yup!!! hey.. why am i feeling suddenly so sad although that's nothing to be sad about?? dunno why.. eh? anyway..had a very nice evening with meigui and pris..during which alvin rachel james and layjia joined us for a while.. hmm..didn't do much of studying..but it was nice all the same :D dunno why i'm feeling depressed eh..why can't we just switch ourselves off whenever we feel down? dunno why i even feel down which is stupid realli eh..i'm trying to make myself lameer what is the two men in shang noon doing.. playing stupid guessing games..den drinking till they puke.. >.< how do i feel like doing dat too? eh, why am i acting like i've been dumped? (no no dun get the wrong idea, i've not been dumped nor do i hav a crush) i'm just feeling down.. err..i just laughed!!! at the stupid games the two men are playing... seriously! okay okay! i'm sorry! i'm not blogging properly.....my apologies in any case..tml is national day celebrations...damn! okay okay i know i keep changing layouts but hey! 90% of exams are over like kum boon say! time to change to a more happy layout mah ahh..the song..so nice right? anyway..i haven't blog since thursday.. hmm..cos i was busy slacking away.. friday after school went to bowl with huizhen suyi kumboon and naomi..err..we suck at it lar..but not our fault wor! the ball right the finger holes so rough! cannot let loose properly.. so yup..we wasted 3.60 to see our balls roll into the gutter.. but anyway, jiahao owes mi sakae cos he said he will treat mi if he rolls into the gutter again which of cos he did but okay lar..after dat he very pro lehz hate him anyway..met a lot of people dere..got 2/3 people..weilun liwen leck hai then so fun met anson mg cheng cheng arthur oso (arthur lehz!) den after dat we played some arcade games which basically is oso wasting our money..jiahao and cheng cheng play daytona damn funny lar..stupid de..childish..but so funny hehe.. den after dat we wanted to play pool..but dat person say cannot wear uniform play..so we girls so smart just wear our class tee outside..den erm..mi and kumboon got taught by huizhen how to play..played like shit lar..but at least we didn't spend like one whole day getting the balls in right? and anyway jiahao and cheng cheng keep "koping" our cue sticks..thankx lar hor.. ooh..yar and naomi was like so bored..so sorry sia..but must enjoy! guess everyone was exhausted.. hmm..i spent the whole of yesterday doing nothing except reading and watchin tvs and sleeping..i slept more than half the day away lehz..shit..getting the sleepy syndrome from mg.. hm..today going to finish up maths homework and bio notes... wanna go out..but kellie neva reply or anything..so forget it lor.. wanted to play badminton oso..but haix..oso cannot... time check 10.10..maybe if i do homework now i can go out later? hopeful* oh yar..i noe i noe people are not supposed to cry over a horse..but yesterday i cried when i watched black beauty lehz.. very touching lar and somemore dat horse sooo beautiful can picture like a person ya noe.. sorry i'm so drama.. time check..9.30 finally finished the damn thing..the most tedious part is the aswan high dam.. thank god for mr gn..cos he made us do the mindmap..so i just printed it out and do some other notes abt nile why are we studying abt that stupid river when we can't even see it and anyway..just read mg's blog..31/40!! i'm like so dead..seriously made so many careless mistakes can go and die liao lor..... haiz..the shit we are in.. and anyway.. i've studied for two hours straight..i'm emotionally exhausted, physically exhausted and i pronounced myself brain-dead i need to recharge seriously my mom asked : what you doing mi : do home lar five mins later, she came in mom : next time when i asked you what you are doing , just say do homework, dun need add the "lar" mi : rolls eye (watever) see the shit i hav to put up? whatever..need to recharge..drink hot milo den pray for mom to go to sleep earlier so i can watch LOST while i memorise the geography stuff.. think abt 65% went in le..so i just need to memorise.. i can't wait for weekends cos den i can go out everyday and dun need see her face yah i noe i bad, budden wad? you guys neva see my mom flare up before..... it's horrible, terrifying and extremely unreasonable (most probably why my temper so damn fiery these days) cos i take after her and when i get realli angry..you guys better siam ..it's true..so sad but true whatever..i hate geography..okay no, i hate maths more mr tan teck poh came in today and asked how was it (and hey surrpise, he DOES care abt exams..i was wondering whether he knew it exists) and guess wad, all of shook our heads and said :not enough time and the poor mr tan feeling so disappointed shook his head a coupla times and left the class and the class was left feeling so damn bad cos we let him down kk i promise i'll TRY to improve my maths.. but seriously, my brain is one sided and it likes languages and humans better yah, why are we bothering to decipher those numberical numbers cum letters with some weirdo formulas.. kzz i'm still crapping.. cos i'm like so fucking pissed at my mom.and want to just leave home the thought crossed my mind like so many times.. what the..den my bro going hong kong..great..the weekends nothing to take her mind off except mi..real great what the..lemme plan.. on friday..either going bowling with huizhen they all or i going cybil's house again.. den saturday wanna go out with px.so long neva go out den sunday try to do bio notes.. den monday..national day after dat see whether they wanna eat or not..or else going swimming with naomi..oh yar mg wanna cum? den tue..study study study wed..study study study thurs face the devil fri..face the final devil and we're FREEEEEE i sound like some liberty shit pls so forgive mi but you hav to admit we're like wad, trapped slaves serving the monstrous lords called exams cos we hav no choice and we are just high classed slaves branded with the names students hah we're just slaves i realli hate people who dunno their priorities in life..like, is studying all there is to it? they study like their lives depend on it..they are actually pretty nice peole ya noe, it's just dat they seem to think exams and results are the whole damn package..yup..all i care abt is dat i wanna pass my piano but i stil fail but i still think music is better den academics.. (dat's my life) and you can go stick urs in the mud so sorry..getting to fired up..excuse mi for all the shooting-off-of-the-mouth but seriously.. at least even if you study you dun hav to flaunt it and hurt people's feelings around u.. haiz..it's like, it's just this tiny thing that irritates people..or else you're like so okay.. wad the.. i'm crapping.. i wrote this in amk library when i flunked my piano yesterday.. the rain like shattered diamonds reminiscene fragments the notes like Devil's laughter memories hurt your eyes like Angel's chocolate (dun ask why) bittersweet candy ______________________ the edges blurred the black and white melted into my scalding tears i wonder why i couldn't find the courage to know why your smiles so soft the words so bad and the melody like swelling winds like blotted image on the dozen keys and the rain swept me and bleached me grey not bad sia..quite lit huh..but whatever it doesn't mean anything..interpret it the way you wan.. and for ur info, no, i'm not trying to flaunt..>.< am taking a break.. studying geography..doing notes on comp den print it out..it works for mi lar but i wasting so much ink..not too much anyway.. today.. emaths test SUX! it's like..i noe how to do de lar..but no time den kanchiong den everything everything careless le lor..i think it's worse than a maths lehz.. wad the i hate people who can do math!! (glares at huizhen) den chemistry paper.. wasn't hard lor..it's like that mr liao came in half way to ask for questions..den everyone glared at him den he like so paiseh den laughed..den jonathan was like "bastard! set so hard!" and i was laughing cos i agreed..dat part on the stupid iodine thingie..i suddenly flashed on in the last 2nd minute dat it sublimes..den i wrote "iodine sublimes" and "heat" den time up!!! so bu gan xing lar!! i noe wan lehz! shit dio.. but at least i got the last part last 6 marks correct..so not going to complain wadeva la..den we got two hours of free lesson got miss gullnaz neva cum..den CI oso no teacher..den literature make up which was more like "leaking" lesson..den went cybil's house..saw her hamsters played with her bunny taught her piano and ate the delicious wanton mee.. neva studied.. reached home around 7+ cos i didn't wanna come home at all to face my mom what's her prob anyway..did i blog about all the bullshit she said yesterday? she said what..i piano deprove, academics oso deprove..say must guan wo..must discipline mi...cannot watch any more television..den say wad i say english test dun need study..den cannot learn vocabulary is it..den say wad i'm the most spoiled one among the three and the most unobedient wan..den all that shit shit shit..i almost slapped her across the face..that's not the worse of it okay..she said a lot worse..i was like fuck off lar you.. thus, she is the reason why i most probably wil fail my maths.. i'm like so damn pissed till i sms cybil and scribble furiously in my diary while she nagged and nagged and screamed like mu ye cha..wad the hell.. that's it lar.. i'm not talking to her now..i went to sleep so early yesterday cos i didn't wanna hear her fucking voice.. and again, dat's why i almost failed math yay back to studying .. people i failed my piano prac realli realli screwed it up.. i screwed up my scales..at first thought was okay de lohx..den after dat dunno why..everything screwed up..esp my appregios..why? den my pieces..the first part of beethoven..screwed it up...cos damn nervous keep playing wrong..den the second part i dun care le..just play like i wanna play it..den bac to the first part..where i played slightly better.. den second song..so unfeeling..how to pass the third song oso screw up the climax part.. den aural was disasterous..tot it was going to be okay cos i managed to listen to the lower part.den the upper part was disasterous cos i forgot to count beats..den the cadence oso disasterous..i forgot what's imperfect..den the last part..oso disasterous.he asked mi rhythm. i forgot, i said very equal.. ...what the hell is going on and somemore i lost the handphone accessory i bought with px..tot it was a bad omen already.. i spent one hour plus in the amk library today..could hav made it bac for chemistry de..but didn't want to cos i dun wanna noe chem prac results..den spent one hr in library..wanted to write postcards..but onli left four..so wrote to jiahao mg cheng cheng and cybil.. den i sat there and wrote crap in my diary for one hour not crap..just..strange annotations about my feelings which at that time realli sux like hell den came bac to sch..to retake english paper..den studied in school with ruth cybil and qijia who made my mood so much better den dreaded cuming bac home. now my mom is like supervising mi to make sure i dun jump outta the window.. of cos i would, cos it's totally not true that i didn't prac i prac until my fingers wanna chop off liao still didn't pass cos why? i was too damn nervous for my own gd what the hell is wrong with mi? i feel like just chopping my fingers off cos they're not fit to touch that piano what the hell is going on i realli wanna pass..really really wanna pass..cos i keep prac keep prac..but still neva pass.. den wad..die? crazy i'm not dat far gone yet yet if you are not intending to go crazy and weirdy on people, dun take up music..it turns your life upside down now i think my mom is feeling sorry for not comforting mi earlier she always does dat den what, what am i supposed to do i feel like crying .. no screaming more like it yo yo.. that stupid fooble chatter box..failed la..den hang up my whole site somemore..if anything wrong sms mi kz.. changed it to cbox.. hmm..anyway right.. today was.. A MATHS TEST~~~ AHHHHH~~ okay cool down cool down..relax relax.. the paper was..not very hard seriously..but it's just no time to do lohx..at this rate i think i'll still fail my end of year exam..anyway..i did finish everything..den erm..i'm proud to announce dat i secure 13 marks for my last question paper..so..i think might pass..PRAY PRAY PRAY..i hope will pass lar hor..we can still hope right.. hm..anyway..poor junjie..onli did the first three questions..sad lehz..but i think he'll still score not bad..cos he do so slow of cos everything correct right.. ahh, i think tan teck poh will be so sad..cos he went through one similar question with us the day before..but yet..i think we all forget why so bad huh tsk tsk i think he'll most probably cry when he sees my paper..cos kan jiong right..den hor..i used the front page of the foolscap..forgot got second page..den tear it out use another fresh piece.. >.< so sorry to all the trees i've killed in anycase..everyone was like "omg..ahhh..die lar~ i wanna commit suicide blah blah blah" after the damn a maths paper.. oh yah..sheryl, take it easy la..i noe quite hard for u..but dun worry, others will be with you! >.< not very comforting since that person might be me.. hmmph anyway..after dat was..chinese paper..it was okay..den it's like according to jonathan i was very relaxed..i think i was too lar..cos i write anyhow (meaning mr tok most probably can't read what i was writing) den left like 10+ mins after i've checked everything..so i just looked around..den everyone was like still scribbling.. *think i a little diao?* but everyone agreed dat the paper was quite easy compared to last time..like hell lar dat one..but i do chinese dunno whether easy or hard wan de lehz.. lidat loh den after dat..we had... 2.4KM RUN!! ahem..my timing is 18.02.. wan details de cum ask mi urself anyway..it's like everyone slack like siao lar..last year i ran 15.30 lehz..wanna die lar..den i'm sooo touched cos huabin cheng cheng and a lot of people ask mi and encourage mi not to walk but so dissappointing mi..i still walked but hor, realli quite moved lehz..reminded mi of 2/6 den i very very touched lor..especially hua bin..cos hor..i tot he change le ma.(think he wun be reading this so nvm) like become very beng den dun care for us anymore..(us as in old friends) but in the end he still okay.. so i very happy=) AH SHIT! no wonder i'm broke..cos joanne lee never give the money for sponsoring! i still owe my parents and my bank account money!! hey everyone..tml my piano exam grade 7 lehz..early in the morn so i wun be going to school to take the english paper.. however stil hav to go bac during efl lesson..sian right i tot i had the whole day to study chemistry lar kzkz but make sure you all on the phone..den can cheat hehe it's a good thing anderson teachers dun realli look at blogs.. or else shit shit shit.. today got bac math paper..i passed lar..but it's like so weird cos i scored better at functions den at sets..hupmm.. anyway..today social studies chiong like shit..but think it should be okay damn lar..tml got a maths paper ..how? later still gonna go to choa chu kang to test piano again..den wednesday test le...yippie..>.< i dunno how to study math lehz..it's like i look at all his notes..den okay liao lehz..still need to study wad?? but realli must study cos in order to pass the overall for this year math hor..i need at least very gd results for this semester lehz help~~ if you noe how to study please call mi and tell mi~~ okay it's stupid but i'm desperate..ahhhh |
