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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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some people realli very fan.. it's not as if my tone very enthu can't you take the hint .. nvm today slept in yawn, so nice dun need suffer the horrible concert (as said by cybil) wahhaa happy teacher's day lo didn't go bac pri sch cos no one replied my msg. so.. i studied whole day ..sai la something is different. sigh, something i dun wanna be different is different people i wan to reply dun reply people i realli dun wanna see replied. .. realli feel like off-ing my hp very fan and the stupid songs site not loading fast enough i wan find soundtracks.. dumb dumb ass i dun feel like studying. talked to weilun yesterday he said wanna go out after Os, cos we long time neva go out together. feel sorta ..relieved? no, not the right word. as in, more like "wah, there's actually people who misses the past" ..wow ..i figured a lot of people just wanna look ahead.. this sucks 4.20 what shld i do been wondering what to do with my money den realize that after prelims we gotta pay the 35 bucks for grad ball .. sigh dunno what to do now .......... fan fan fan. FANNN i'm losing my temper with my mom .. freak, feeling fan over nothing and it's raining again AGAIN i dun realli mind raining if i can stone but i can't at home whoa blur blur blur .. settling tml's matter got five six conv at the same time with hz: discussing whether tml ponning with weilun, fan ching jiaping: talking tml whether going bac pri sch with kum boon: discuss chan chan blur whoa .. today went pass in past in a blaze. oh, and in RAIN .. yah, me and ruth walked to the amk library we were totally soaked and that ruth actually can change into her PE tee shirt tell u why she got pe, go laugh at her she thought TODAY GOT ACES DAY . whoa, enthu anyway, i couldn't go home, cos my pinafore, lower part dry faster den upper part den got two distinct shades so embarassing bleah den got do some work la .but mostly is stoning nia i tot i'm past the stage whereby i'll grow frustrated when playing piano .. i hate beethoven.. .. i think he must know how to use both his hands .. or his left hand must be damn balanced.. ...... I HATE HIS SONGS very hard to play you noe for those of you who didn't think so, piano takes up energy ... i sweat like dunno shit cos all the songs i learning now ALL VERY LOUD AND QUICK wad the. and esp when ur left hand refused to cooperate and the base sounds like muffled shit it totally sucks somemore it's NON RHYTHMIC muffled shit ................ irritating oh btw, my bro started work at orchard sakae he's training manager la but they say have to work from the bottom up . so he had to wait on people (waiter duh) and he came home complaining that the students there very kanasai i say "it's orchard leh, what u expect" den he went on and say "they very what lah, like no jia jiao like that, so kanasai, dunno like what shit" muahahaha but quite happy he got a job -.-" and no, i'm not bringing u guys there to eat, cos it'll be too awkward. maybe if he become manager.................... I'M VERY PISSED AT MYSELF OKAY my prac??? it's easy lah EASY lo but BUT BUTTTTTTTT the very stupid STUPID STUPID STUPID sok mui once again did a STUPID THING . my graph? axes? ALL DRAW WRONG I DRAW THIS AXIS BECOME THAT AXIS ......... win liao lo I WIN RIGHT? WHERE GOT SO STUPID DE?????? mus thank ruth, for forking out four dollars to treat me and naomi wan die ahhh it seems like everytime after prac i wanna scream I SCREWED UP SCREWED UP AGAIN!! fuck this stupid chem paper la i test for whatever gas oso get nothing la (poor pris, cannot even test) stupid stupid stupid den mole concept is the worse i dunno how to do lah four marks of mole two marks ext plus three marks of identifying everything gone! .......... the fuck with it naomi oso same fate as me den some people very irritating still say what "fail la fail ding le" PUR LEASE fuck you too didn't know "i don't wanna miss a thing" from armagedon can sound so bad .. some people decided to hold a karaoke session opp my block it's HORRIBLE i tell you this woman..screech this man, like male version of screechie ... gosh suddenly appreciate gary's vocals so much and.. i'm taking a break just did bio paper and granted it wasn't very long but i feel very tired .. later shall read and do math read bio, do math what a fun sunday but.. sigh i'll probably wind up watching shows..again eh, i've done it i've resisted the temptation of KIM SAMSOON! ..i neva go rip it apart you noe i shall savor it every wk -.-" hope you guys have better luck studying den i do.. i have good news and bad news oh btw, i really wan u guys to read this entry, i dunno why, but humor me, just read haha if you are rushing for time, read the bold parts good news 1 I PASSED MY GRADE EIGHT PIANO!! =D i got 123/150 it's merit and the reason i neva get distinction..is cos of aural and sightreading sigh, expected budden, quite pleased with my pieces =) 24 25 27 three pieces upon 30 hee good news 2 my aunt bought MY LOVELY SAMSOON VCD!!!! SO COOL RIGHT i think i'll hyperventilate here yay, den i can lend pris and spread the samsoon-virus around hahaha and i can watch until shuang during hols but i've decided, i'll continue to watch the channel u broadcast cos..after studying for one whole day, after 24 hrs of anticipation the show will be sweeter -.-" i noe i'm weird dun hav to tell me WAHAHAHAHAHA feeling very happy =) erm, bad news I WASTED ONE WHOLE DAY LAH lemme tell you what i did today i went piano i went shopping for half hr after that, to see hp and some other stuff den i went home watched ghost whisperer which i taped den den den erm i think i called cybil and naomi and since aunt came over, we went to causeway where we pored over vcds, see some clothes, ate some stuff hmmph like that i came back, couldn't resist repairman jack so picked it up and read abt two hrs ...... GOD oh btw, i think my house can officially rent our vcds i collect korean vcds my mum collect hongkong TVBI ..she bought tian di hao qing (it's a very gd show but it's kinda old, so unless you watch tv as much as i do, you probably neva see it before) cos she spent over 80 bucks on it, that's why got 10 dollars voucher to buy samsoon anyway, i think i'll take some photos tml to show you guys my room is in a wreck and not just my room okay lemme describe my room my piano looks like a tornado hit it cos on top of it, got like dozens of books the big mozart, the big beethoven, the big pink file (photocopied brahms and chopin) den got dozens of pop scores which i kept playing so i find it a chore to put them onto the shelf den beside that, there;s my table beside it, got dunno hairdryer, magazines, money, a lot of shit den my bed is a mess as usual and below my bed is a half finished jigsaw (courtesy of my mother who upset it) and i can't find time to finish it so it's collect dust UNDER my bed cos i can't find any inch of space to put it cos if you haven't noticed it, my room has only four walls, one wall is the window, one wall is the room, which leaves me two walls to put my piano and my bed . somemore the floor beside my bed is piled by books and one volleyball books i bought from the library sale books salvaged from my bro's stash my second bro cleared out his room, found so many books (i dun even noe why he buys them) btw i found this book on ..healthy sex and masteurbation something like that it's supposed to help you enjoy sex, or to have sex, or something the likes of it .. i flipped through it (based on curiosity of being a bio student) and it actually has stimulants on helping you erect ( i have to clarify this to people like mg and anson who dun take bio, it's biology the disgusting subject which has made us all into crude people sprouting these vulgar anatomy parts) like EWWW why my bro got that kinda book shudders* i found great expectations, treasure island, journey to the centre of the earth and to my utmost surprise i found MACBETH by SHAKESPEARE in case you a a lit noob like anson, it's a very famous play and when i flip inside, i found notes penned by my bro like GODDD my bro actually took lit why the hell did he turn into this insensitive prick when he actually TOOK LIT?? ..okay, so maybe anson is like that oso (so sorry, dunno why i'm shooting anson like this) so i have like dozens of books next to my bed piled up (and they are all yellowing and falling out) which i have to find time to clean and wrapped .. sigh okay, next stop, the wooden desk outside my door upon which i do my work there's like a pile of at least (measuring) 3 feet thick books .... i dunno what happened possibly cos i brought back geog files and bio files .. but i still dun understand WHY IS IT WE HAVE SO MANY BOOKS THAT I'M SUPPOSED TO KNOW MY HEART?? hold on while i have cardiac arrest ..... okay see, this is the reason why i've been camping over at my bro's room for this past few wks (aside from the convenience, cos i can just sleep after samsoon show) cos i have really no space to do my work god o levels suck right, bad news 2 (whoa, only??) my mother refused to buy me a piano cos she's poor so she claims (where's all the stash a housewife is suposed to keep??) so. she wants me to WORK. SHE WANTS ME TO ASK MY TEACHER IF I CAN TEACH LOWER GRADE PEOPLE so okay, maybe i passed grade eight BUT I'LL PROBABLY HAI THE KID TO FAIL AND FAIL AND FAIL LAH i got no confidence, esp the part of rhythm (my own suck enough) .. but i need money very much for piano, for hp, for...for..to mg: that thing yah so after much consideration i think i'll take it up with my teacher . god i hope he dun give me a slap me? a teacher? i'm SIXTEEN BTW oh, as to that, my mother said this very flatteringly : you look like twenty she said it with a smirk i shot her a look and said "not funny" ........ bad news 3 i dunno where the hell to go after O cos see, i'm gonna take diploma for music den i browsed all the various JCs yesterday none attracted me, well, maybe VJC cos of their theatre studies but in case you didn't notice ARTS SCENE IN SINGAPORE IS SUPER DUPER ULTRA BLEAKKK ..... like BLEAKK gray bleak ..so and somemore, i need to find out whether i realy like classicals or contemporarys (cos i love them) or if i love the PICTURES more like films, shows blah blah blah actually, i love all oh, how abt books? my god i am one confused person so in summary my room is in a mess i have no place to study and i just wasted a whole day on self-pitying and i'm still writing here cos i dun wanna go face that awful chem phy bio paper they gave ........................ oh, cedar girls math paper too from tuition swell, everything is in place all they lack is a do-er ME .......... ps: why can't we just keep studying primary sch level and be farmers?? ans: oh, cos we need to stupid DEVELOP .. chow i am so pissed right now okay i screwed up my bio prac until like anything .. my stupid histogram, instead of .5 boundary i put .9 the most stupid thing is, i erased, ERASED the .5 put .9 second stupid thing: the question asked why seeds got variation in seed length i said cos the seed got longer dormancy period, seed need to store more food ...... WHAT THE HECK IS THIS .. and dun even mention the FIVE MARK EXPERIMENT after this ....... after i studied for like bloody long for this test .......................... i seriously very pissed at myself i lack a lot of common sense .. den jj smsed me say he at admiralty food court heard he couldn't finish the paper -.-" 1.5 hr and he can't finish -.-" really but.. i can sympathize so i went to look for him, he finished his late lunch, i finished my milo ..might as well, since i planned to gorge myself on sweet stuff one milo is not that sinful .. and we sat there talking about how much we screwed up . sigh it's PRELIM fuck .. but feel more calm after talking to him and ten long gans and one hr of little bride ..feeling less murderous i wanna kill myself, so not murderous just self-terminous ..blasting FIR songs now maybe later pan wei bo ..but his is fast, not explosive i need to scream fuck ......... SUCK OKAY SUCK ..it totaly suck when u studied and still cannot score SUCK ah quite tired dunno why think i'm gonna be sick soon later will drink losta water .. had oral today the male examiner quite shuai leh-.-" dun think he's gay la..more like westernized, americanised..... but hor, he's quite disrespectful to yawen and lin hai they say ..biased person but..he was quite nice to the rest of us -.-" so shall forgive him he was late lah can , and he saunter in den when he came in, me and naomi were like, eh, not bad leh cos we painted this ULTRA gay picture of a man with long wavy hair and leather pants. those super gay that kind but he looked...quite nice actually........... budden, oral was..exhausting lah after the exam, came home, slept..cos got headache got up, didn't get any better .. so ate panadol now feels it ebbing away....... think i'll do some comprehensions while waiting for MY LOVELY SAMSOON haha damn nice the show .. i'm blabbering think i'm falling sick soon.. you know, fast computers are a very good distractant...... .. i came online to listen to songs -.-" and as you noe very well, songs dun mix with good with math. sigh anyway, it's getting a tad scary .... when u think about all the stuff you haven't really got the hang of and you have only 68 days to o levels .... it's really fast like..woah ... quite tired in class today but after school very energetic le haha ... -.-" was a nice day today =)  was surfing the net with naomi just now... den spotted this idiotic photo from two girls who think themselves clever......................... ......HOW DUMB IS THIS LAH ..why show us two big TE-KA (that stands for pig legs) ...... what mountain and hill..i onli see two TE-KAs lahh ..... wait..lemme see whether got somemore..  see, trying to act nostalgic by looking out at the windows.............. ..and so inconsiderate somemore..why put your ugly legs on the seat infront of you oops, it's ugly TE-KA ..  Another pic which shows how stupid they are........... WHERE GOT MIDDLE FINGER SO UGLY DE LAH ....... i think they must be super bored.. ..oh, i know, cos the middle finger needs to cover their ugly faces...... hmmph it's finally finally FINALLY the weekend.. you have no idea how happy i am it seems like i've been living on coffee and biscuits and minimal sleep this week and the thing is, i dun even know why i'm doing it ..... maybe it's the boring lessons we have in school..so damn stupid la make us so bored and lethargic such that our whole bio clock is screwed up...... .. my bro is smoking think i smelled cigarettes. .. dunno what my mother is gonna do abt it .. i dun really mind people smoking you noe i noe, i noe, the whole lungs cancer, emphysema, bronchitis thing i take bio too ..budden i still dunno what to do..... .. ah damn ..am tired.. weekend.. is for resting i think, but in the end we'll wind up studying .. just read pris's blog and come to erm, comment? yah fine i also envy kids more accurately, i envy the life i had when i was a kid not only was it chan-chong free (mdm chan and mrs chong) it was homework-free and more importantly, i was more myself den anytime else not happy, i showed i wasn't happy ..when the class is unbearably noisy and getting on my nerves, i shout a certain guy grows irritating, i screamed at him maybe it's a little screechy but that time of my life (and i still remember it damn clearly) was damn good everything became screwed up once i stepped into sec school and pris? it's true, everyone is self-centered that's why i dun believe in UNCTUOUSNESS that by the way, is a new word i picked up it means "too friendly and nice to be sincere" i dun really like people who appears to be like, wonderful, nice, sincere, friendly unless time passes and i know that they are really like real .. gtg to mg: i think i used the wrong word today .."despo" ..didn't mean it that way.. anyway..life is.... erm, sucky.. cos mdm chan is still biased against us us meaning huizhen, me, naomi..blah blah blah ..... so dumb ..made me buy new socks...5 bucks.....-.-" .. in any case.....any family oso has problems.. sigh my bro started smoking again i think .. it's quite horrible.. the hai de er zi .. li nan xing still very cute -.-" i think la ..and his acting is one of the best oso leh .. but WHO THE HELL WROTE THE SCRIPT LA it's not funny, it's crude there's a difference you know.. .. sigh, next week is prelim prac suddenly like so overwhelming ..den in another one month, it's prelim another month, den it's Os ......... dun realli feel stressed. more like..hmm, realisation? ... time to really study i think but we're all so dead everyday when we get home i wonder how we're supposed to study ............ i hate this kinda school days spend all day in sch, den get tired den get home, too tired to do anything properly thanks a lot man anderson and some people are as irritating as ever ..... so irritating blogger ..change template, i type all the details.. den suddenly shut down -.-" i had to do everything again .. anyway, the skin nice right? MDM CHAN IS MAD I TELL YOU ..she confiscated mine and sherhan's socks on friday did it again today even touched my shuai ge huizhen and xiang jun! .. so dumb lah ..dumb ass .. we were saying what she put the socks as flavouring into her soup or something .. or hang up and wait for christmas .. or maybe wanna wear herself (but arkar say her ankle too big, so each toe wear one, hence need a lot) so mean.. budden she started it first !! diao, i no money buy socks for her la ....... dun she feel disgusted or something .so innocent wide eye* oh, heard they screw up their oral meaning mg, anson, and weiwen(the i'm always confident thing) .. so cham nvm, you guys did your best le lah .. got back most of the results le sucks like.. okay lah, at least language i'm quite okay ...... sciences.........i screw up chem prac like anything.. math... at least i passed =/ went to the library booksale yesterday so many god damn people lah singaporeans~ den the helpers were wearing orange so on that day, you need very keen eyesight, sharp hearing, quick steps, long hands keen eyesight= to spot the orange helpers sharp hearing= to hear the rattling of the metal shelves quick steps= to hurry over and follow the line of people lining up around the helpers long hands= to snatch away the books before they can eat them up .. it's seriously that bad ..anyway, i prefer the mph sale so much more civilized i hate people who treats book as if they are shit .. though the books there dun look very nice but dun need to throw and whatever right so irritating ........ got a lot of things to blog de but now too tired and arms are aching from yesterday..cos lugged the books home bought 9..dunno nice not i quite regret the sandra brown de.. cos the condition really can go feed dog.............. wanna sleep one hr de.. but now like quite awake..-.-" i go lie lah..until 6..wake up do some stuff lo ......... i hate mcq for this term all i ever get is 27/28 blah blah upon 40....... which totally sucks BUCK UP PEOPLE!! THIS IS THE REAL THING!! O LEVELS IS THE REAL THING!! serious la, we really need to slog le oh, my second bro went out to look for jobs we have very nice relationship these days dunno why his mood quite good.. we even watched one whole show yesterday night together (btw, hulk sucks) ....... and it's quite...appalling that my second bro is looking for a job le he was browsing jobstreet.com.... so.. like, wah, my bro, really working liao ..makes me feel damn young -.-"      
can't blog long cos bro coming back anytime.. he went down to buy breakfast.. actually got a very long entry to post.national day eve that day went pasir ris and went to see fireworks mah .. budden cannot do it now..cos like i said, the big bad wolf coming back soon seems like i wasted away my whole holidays........ so dumb oh.my.god ..i know it's a little late for this .but .. i just realize the extent to which i've screwed up my biology essay ...... god, why didn't i just figure out how to do test-cross? why the hell did i do that stupid other question on plants?????????????? ................. oh shit shit shit shit ..... i screw up really big .. (cos i was reading bio text) and you noe that question pulmonary circulation..the what, concentration as the blood travels there?? ........ that question that we really dunno what to write? ..we are so dead .. i think i know what is it they want..i hope i'm really wrong oh man...sucks it's such a late realisation AH DAMN SHIT okay, fate has shown me a sign that i shouldn't be studying today .. my aunt came to my house!! since she's at my house, i should play the gracious host right, so i shouldn't study! and it's actually quite futile to study while she and my mom is chatting, and since i cannot ask her to shut up, the final conclusion is, god doesn't wan me to study today =) .. but i'm not that slack la at least i got read books -.-" .. anyway, to mg: that guy sucks la, why didn't you retort and tell him that i'm from freaking anderson and anderson has got a lot of guys who are so much more gentlemanly than you freaking huayi-an..sounds so gay -.-" so yucky that guy, where got people wanna fall on a porcuppine and get yourself poked? .......... to anson: you didn't get an A????? *shocked* nvm nvm, huizhen oso got fail before ma...at least this is only the prep-prelims!! oh btw, your b-day coming, please be reminded that me and naomi already gaveyou an advance b-day present, the world cup book(although it sucks) heehee today got piano! first time in years i look so forward to it....(eh, grammatical error) it's so nice not to have exams for almost 1.5 years..it's just repetoire, repetoire, repetoire meaning just play play play play for the fun of it!! oh..and my mother is cooking crabs..........can smell it already sniff sniff* haha today mood not bad cos as i told you, my aunt is here!!! no studying allowed!! .. i shall do abit la abit abit..here and there here and there lo ..somemore today got superband finals....... this kinda thing must support ma music lovers! i am so crap today........ youtube very slow on weekends leh.. wanna watch grey's anatomy i love the oncetherewasaway user..uploaded so many episodes!!! and i'm BROKE ... cos i shared anson and cheng cheng's present........... but that's not the most expensive.. den mdm chan..used psychological measures to coerce us into buying the food coupons........... ..sigh she so fierce who dare dun buy ..and here and there here and there dunno why broke le loh oh yar. most impt, went to watch lake house ..super expensive on fridays......... budden, was nice wad, why you all say the ending sucks?? it' quite illogical lah i admit..budden hor, it's okay what .....hmm i sound so.. hah, the show very beautiful jiu dui le .. i'm talking crap la. pris say cannot enter my blog go see got nice blogskins to change not ............ study study study!! (psychoing myself) you know what i'm DONE doing this why is it that every single time i have to give in to you? i feel like a stupid boyfriend in a love-lost relationship why is that that everytime i have to pretend that i'm not pissed when obviously i'm steaming and it's darn obvious you're the one with the problem you're the one who fixed the date, you're the one who unfixed the date if you are really so damn unwilling, den just forget about it alright and not everyone is goddamn as rich as you and stop giving me the shrug-off it's irritating and everyone knows if i wanna give the shrug-off, i'm an expert at it you wan sacarsm, i can give you one big strong dose of it but i didn't i try so hard to just you know, bear it and i'm GOD DAMN DONE DOING THIS it takes two for anything bad to happen i may be pushing but you you are just so damn..what, sluggish? .............. for god's sakes we have issues, i need to thrash it out if not i'll wind up venting it on poor souls like what sherhan? .............. -fucked- feeling... quite numb think i napped too much..-.-" call pris to chat bah..hope she's at home.. anyway, i did nothing today. even though tml got p and c.. budden couldn't be bother to study... cos..i feel very bloated -.-" mother cooked curry chicken and veggie..nice..ate too much la .. den eyes still can't open sigh ........ feel very..numb, tml den jia you study lo.. ... ..another boring day ..damn humans day la ...very tired now..just read finish geog notes..den did half a question of lit..half onli 2+ pages...... so i gave up -.-" but the prose is very interesting.. i always like stories about weird families ... ..very tired..go sleep now..later wake up study P and C......... OH OHOH i forgot to say la i've been finding ways and means but i still cannot find the way to rub this in SOMEBODY'S face.. you know she got bloody 76 for paper two for chinese and AND AND ..i know i behave really terribly but i really wanna rub this in her face. preferably she'll ask me how much i get den i'll reply like this "eh, how much u get for chinese paper two?" "erm, okay, la 85 onli ma, overall only get A2 sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh " SIGH YOU YOU IDIOT just to rub it in her face.......................... but to anson: dun scream yet la.. my essay sucks like anything -.-" all i wan is fo her to cry....... it's just a simple wish sniff* i just figured out the blue dusty thing on top of the CPU is actually a card reader -.-" anyway, i upload the pictures le......lazy to put them here...... http://www.imagestation.com/6783159/3988004265 in any case..i looked........traumatised in there...-.-" lucky only got two pics..feel rather like using photoshop to delete my face..-.-" ..i noe i finally found the word i looked..HARASSED. -.-"""" in any case..today was quite a fruitful day..... as in, i did work but i do work everyday.. force times distance....... ...... dun be mad ........ i'm going mad oh the hwa chong guy at the EFL was sooooooooo irritating if you are good at science and math, hwa chong is the place for you if you are interested in the arts, hwa chong is the place for you ....EXCUSE ME?? and he kept "hold on! that's not the whole story!!" "hold on!" "hold on!" .......... i neva even urge you to hurry up you still ask me hold on...... idiotic i almost died once again under mama chong. super boring cybil fell asleep literally oh oh oh i forgot to publish this news i think i think mg will find this extremely interesting........ SOMEBODY thinks she's model material......... story of SOMEBODY ..SOMEBODY'S two friends were approached by agent from modelling agency in orchard.. den the two friends told SOMEBODY (no wonder she was squealing like a pig during recess..so irritating) den den den SOMEBODY told SOMEBODY'S goodfriend who happens to be my very good friend too who told us that SOMEBODY said that the agent was desperate cos her two friends were baggy clothes and they were still approached and and and AND! she said this "i thought only like me will get approached, they also got approached!" .................. i shall give you all a few moments to digest this and either shit it out or vomit now .. ... .... ..... finish?? oh oh, pls if you are in the same class as the two friends, dun go talk to them about this or else i'll get slaughtered.. MODEL.............................. her with her long lashes, flat figure, corpse like pallor, badly permed hair, bad complexion and short stubby legs MODEL? ..... i'm so sorry really i dun wanna be mean de i'm not a mean person de la! but but.. but. .. erm it's kinda.......eh... HARD to not be mean i think hz almost vomitted when i told them........... okay, happy vomitting!!! i'm so fucking pissed. with everything this morning pissed at you then at home oso must pissed my brother lied to my mom and transfered 500 dollars instead of the promised 150 dollars then doesn't feel guilty at all about taking her 50 bucks this morning, didn't even think to mention to her and now my mother wants me to find info on the university of new south wales in singapore so that he might enrol what the fuck if you study until need people to tell you what to do then just go knock your head or something can speaking of this issue i dun get it i really really dun get it you say study so hard, get results for what? just to go to a good jc? NO, study so hard is not just merely to go to a gd jc you mean you feel shuang to go poly with a score of 20+ is it? you mean, you feel totally good about havin that score when you know you can do more? what, don't you feel you have let YOURSELF down? that's the point you know, it's not abt others or whatever degrees of shit i can choose to go poly but it's not where you go that matters is HOW you go that matters if you put in your best and you still get a lousy score, at least you can tell others there that you studied, not like them who didn't put in their best and lie awake at night thinking "what if what if" if you put in your best, even if your score comes out like shit, you'll still be at peace with yourself, because you didn't allow any doubt, any doubt that you didn't try, that perhaps there's the one chance you might score i used to hate people telling me this phrase "you study for yourself" i hate it, because i understand it enough for you to stop nagging at me i understand, but the hell you do and i'm not just speaking to one person here, there are a couple maybe maybe you all think 4/7 is nerd class yah i noe, i think so too but at times i disagree, cos we can be so noisy and boisterous till you dunno what happened. yeah fine, a lot of people in my class take studies TOO seriously, but those are bad examples but there are good people in the class who knows how to balance things maybe it's the class aura or something, but at least everyone in the class is trying some of them maybe selfish, but that's not the point some of them are studying for the wrong reasons, that's the point but some people in that class aren't and i know some of those people, i know people who try damn hard to fail, to flunk, to totally screw up but they never truly give up why? because most importantly we dun like to look back and think to ourselves we could have done better like me, i look back at my vball days and thought "what if we had stood up, would it hve been different?" "what if we persevere, what will happen?" and you, you guys? what are you guys doing? it's 90 days to o levels i know i sound so sherhan by saying this but if there's a time to study, the time is now you wanna play, play all you wan after the Os what's the point of playing when people are speaking of your lousy attitude behind you? wouldn't it sound much better , wouldn't it feel better to know you did good and now you're rewarding yourself? what the hell is wrong with you people? i just can't tolerate it nowadays it's not anything you noe, it's the attitude i admit i dun realy like studying either but at least i god damn try it just fucking sucks to see people trying so hard and failing and you not even trying. sure, many people still become successful even if they screw up their exams many people do that but only because they righted themselves thereafter why do you wanna make that mistake now? why not just swipe that mistake off your board? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE |
