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Normal's Overated.
sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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my student made a guess regarding my age and said i was fifteenmr ku insulted me by saying i look like david carrdine whoever dares to say there is a certain resemblance better be prepared for my wrath. plugged tagboard
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you ever had someone who did something so horrible to you that you can't find it in you to forgive much less forget........ just a question did anyone in your life ever did something to you that's so horrible, so hurtful that no matter how much u wan to bury and forgive and forget you can't then you hide and hide and try to tell yourself you're alright that you dun bear grudges that everything is like before sometimes i realli think what have i done wrong did i kill too many people in the past or was i a horrible abuser in my previous life what exactly did i do did i let my friends down? did i hurt one of my friends so badly too? what did i do did i abandon all my friends? why is it that when the whole thing comes down, i'm all alone "something's just about to break" when i look at you(s) i think of whether you noe what i'm thinking i think of whether you rmb what is wrong with me think of outta the 365 days, how many days you remembered because i remembered, all 365 days every second that i forgot, i was truly happy every second that i remembered, i had to lie, to pretend, to act if i had pulled it off all i can say is that i'm an extremely good actress if i had pulled it off does it mean that people didn't care enough to noe i wasn't there if i had pulled it off does it mean that i was that good at closing myself off if i had pulled it off does it mean that i had forgiven do you feel amazed that i had done it nearly two years of just shutting it out i feel amazed and i feel tired tired of not being able to forget it do i have to wait till she's dead and even then, will i even be able to forgive dun say anything you dun mean i'm serious. dun let the ones that trust you drift no matter whether they're your friends, your bf/gf or family dun turn the other way when they come to you for help i feel so tired but i noe tml everything will carry on like before the human mind is just too amazing it shuts off the parts where you cant bear to live through i wun even feel this bad if i had just that thing so long that there's someone there with me through it but there's no one if you just found out that your bf/gf/wife/husband is a transexual what would you do maybe u wun noe, but the initial horrified look on your face is enough to hurt to strike a blade and push it through even if it's only for one second that's why they'd rather not say to people who dun understand, the you i kept refering to isn't any definite person..so dun speculte breaking benjamin diary of jane Something's getting in the way. Something's just about to break. I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane. As I burn another page, As I look the other way. I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane. So tell me how it should be.
What's Your Personality Cluster?
why can't you just shut the fuck up my mother kept calling different branches of my music school asking different fucking people different fucking clerks who know nothing about syllabus or diploma and they kept telling her the wrong stuff i told her so many fucking fucking fuckth times that you dun need a fucking theory cert for diploma what's your freaking problem if you wan you just go ask my teacher cannot ah why must you call so many freaking people what's your problem! just wait for my teacher to call you on tue cannot ah when i tell u nicely you dun listen you kept asking asking asking i TOLD YOU ALREADY YOU DUN NEED THE FREAKING THEORY dun make me kill you even ur own daughter has a limit to her patience fucking irritating i suspect she has one ear intead of two and her brain is disconnected in places what's ur freaking problem i can't find anything more vulgar than fuck feel like smashing this new laptop FREAKING SHIT GO AND DIE LAH erm, hi? err..i've just finished "beautiful life" ..sherhan lent me the thing is, i feel sad like, actually quite sad budden, i didn't cry ...... it was quite irritating den i realize why, cos the sad parts? they totally forgot the music. that's why i was left with the feeling of constipation..wan cry cannot cry sad budden, started me thinking the feeling u get when u keep calling someone and that someone just keep drifting uh u know one thing about having a brother that is not cooo? ..when u find porno links .... that's not cool like EWWWW shall pretend that i never saw them* interruption: to mg, i agree, he's a disgusting interruption: i can't stand it, i'm having this constipated feeling..and actually it started yesterday, like i got too many things to say but dunno how to say dunno lah, just feel kinda sad and down now dunno why oso that's the worse thing i think it's the constipated feeling from the show where was i? oh yar, the keep calling but keep drifting part. dunno..just keep feeling that so many things are changing i'm changing, the world is changing, my friends are changing how can people fight each day.. why do we keep doing the wrong things when we know it's wrong it occured to me it has been a long time since i cried ..anyone got shows that will make one cry? kim sam soon is too cute to cry and i think i need a "cleansing" session .. u noe the type of day when u just stare at the cursor and dunno wha to write? feels that way now sigh today's weather very good but it's a little too blue yay, pris wants t listen to the song so i can blog without interruptions no offense pris, but it's kinda hard to concentrate on typing while ur neck is trying to maintain balance on a phone i dunno what i'm feeling sad for i think i'm feeling sad for myself what a hypocrite i've turned out to be or i'm feeling sad for everyone we've become..truthfully, morons who dunno how to cherish each other you dun feel so? i've been playing a whole day of classroom politics not to feel that way maybe it's the onslaught of so many birthdays at once. naomi's..cybil's makes me feel that way today was..tiring arggh i realli got no artistic juice in me.. sigh trying very hard to do something ...... when she gets it i'll put it here anyway, today was a very very boring day again .. luckily, mrs chong cancelled the after sch math cos of NE quiz and mrs yeo most likely went to see her gynae hence we dun hav lit if not i'll likely die in class, or wrinkle up and just peel there .. it's so freaking boring throughout the whole math lesson ruth was copying..stoning..copying..stoning me, i just read my devil wears prada ..i still hadn't finish it cos.... cos.. in simple terms i dun hav the time lah i hope my printer has ink... mrs chong is so damn boring..its only when she starts telling stories den u can see the whole class look up and actually listen.. i asked ruth after watching her a coupla of seconds "you stoning?" she straight out told me "then?" aww sad .. laptop is here..but dunno where is bro.. just feel like these few days..or years..everyone is like. i dunno, it just feels like we haven't been making the effort you ever get that kind of feeling? like you wanna realli put in effort to care but somehow you just can't like take the time out for that .. sigh i dunno, it just feels that way and everyone is changing even the person i tot would never change changed. i noe, i changed too you know i never knew it's hard to try to remember what a person likes.. erm..printing.. shit i dunno whether got ink shld be..hav bah if dun hav..den waste my time sigh dunno why bro not home yet feels...like life's got no meaning -.-" excpet reading, watching shows, sleeping, eating ..... today is a very happy day =) happy birthday naomi! and rmb to check the orange stuff from holland boy for orange ring!! =D anyway, she was so generous today she treated us pasta mania and swensens such a SWEET girl realized today priscilla is such a talented poet can spin out such crap while watching such a disgusting girl eat ice-cream .. i very pei fu ahhh ahhhhhh no wonder i'm growing fat i do nth but go to sch, eat, watch, sleep my god but who cares onana (in honor of mg) is going to be here soon, so we shldn't oppress ourselves ..hmm, in any case, naomi has this dieting book from angelyn..i can always borrow it AHHHHH ....... suddenly lost for words laughed a lot today, dunno from the crap from pris or more from the broomstick haha, nice lah today shit i dunno what to do now shld i read the devil wears prada?? but got stuff to do.. sigh..go and do it now oh shit, i realize i very long time neva prac piano le shit shit ... got one whole piece of chopin...... argghghh anyway, hope what ever is wrong with be fixed =) whee! changed blog skin =) at last my favourite colour combi haha black with pink/red dunno lah, i noe you'll say cos i like blood whatever okay, blood is gd, without blood u'll be dead lah anyway, looking at the skin makes me feel so happy dunno why people like pris dun even wanna try personalizing their blogs sigh so fun lah oh yar...mg's gonna try watching samsoon?? i'm so happy =))) den me her and pris can get crazy together wahahahaha i just watched one episode oso been slacking lah wanted to go library wan..cos wan return the big van gogh book ..budden lazy .. tml lo tonight mother not home, shld enjoy the peace first sigh, all the teachers chiong-ing pracs so sian lah esp bio dun even noe what she saying later gotta finish the worksheets oso but those are chicken feet compared to what we've gone through today went home with pris den we were discussing why mediacorp shows so bad .. hmm lemme list the reasons #1 they dun hav good YOUNG actors/actresses (u mean u wanna see someone at 30+ flirting meh) #2 they have awful soundtracks (eh, songs are very impt in a show okay) #3 their plots are either very sad or very diplomatic or very officey..i mean, when u have to face ur teachers/bosses like five days a week, who wanna see the same boring office drama?? #4 the dialogue sounds weird, been thinking about this, it's quite weird to shoot a show with the characters talking in singlish right, but this is how we do it in a real life leh and it doesn't come out weird, i tot it comes out quite unique and nice, dunno why but that's how i feel. budden the shows? it's like the rhythm's off, i'm serious, dialogue oso needs rhythm de leh, look at korean shows, their dialogue just has that..i dunno how to say lah #5 the plots lack humor, please, life has enough sadness, you either go very very sad or you go very happy. when u do the in between like the (fa ting qiao jia ren) it just makes me feel weird #6 it lacks certain content, like history/substance, eg, in sam soon the interesting substance are the cake-making and stuff. in grey's anatomy, it's the surgery lingo i dunno why i even bother but seriously, mediacorp's shows were so much better in the past like, chu lu, dou fu jie what went wrong? the onli recent show i can rmb as funny and memorable at the same time is the..the..hao mei li wan lah, by chow chor meng, christopher lee and jacelyn tay .. how..failure-lish vomits* to mg: ur entry is so appropriate i feel like vomitting now if you ever get the pris-like-syndrome, pls dun follow her and eat up whatever shit you feel you should eat because some poor kid in africa is starving (i'm not being mean, you'll noe why i'm saying this) you see, because after you have eaten the so called delicious food, you'll start feeling #1 like a bloated elephant #2 like mdm chan with an ultra big tummy #3 like someone is playing roller coaster tycoon in ur stomach #4 like u badly need to vomit but you can't so yah, dun do it i was so damn bored this morn den so glad when aunt agreed to go shopping with me and honestly i dun think i ate alot just a bit more cos i couldn't bear to see the thing go to waste .. den DEN DEN i started feeling like the (@#$@#$ above ..... it sucks okay i feel like one helluva bloated elephant balloon about to burst anytime i think i'm having in (or is it un?) digestion i think it's a gd thing den i wun eat so much den maybe i can finally try to curb my growing-fat rate ......... it sucks jiu dui le i have decided! i'm gonna sleep at 11 everysunday because everytime i try to sleep at 10, i wind up tossing and turning in bed till 12 which is so wasting time so..now i'm gonna spend it listening to gd music and learning korean -.-" yesh, i printed out the god damn korean alphabet (err, something like that) and i'm very determined to learn it .... OH OHOHOH today drums roll* outside..what's that shop, haiya, wisma there lah i saw...i saw..I SAW.... HER!!!!!! ...... i saw her gulps* i can't believe i saw her again in less than two days ....... oh this time she saw me and she showed me this beautiful bag (actually it was ugly) and her hair was weird and she was wearing something non-whitish (thank god if not i'll have to throw away all my white clothes) she: "eh i ask u ah, if i bring this bag to school will it be weird?" me immediately gave her a horrifed look and said: "noooo, dun ever do that, do NOT EVER DO THAT" you noe i regret i shld have said yes den mg and pris will rush over to admire it den she'll be (in)famous ... the point is i got so horrified of her that i'm so scared i'll dream of decapitating her again tonight .... speaking of which, i think i'm realli going to write that story now.. THE HORROR.. SHUDDERS* i am taking this survey cos mg list me as the top person to take but i seriously dunno why u wan me to take a survey with losta questions on children when u noe bloody well i hate them , and oh, why you wan pris to take the survey when u noe bloody well she'll only marry jj when he zhong-tao-pio of 100 000 dollars or more but since i'm very bored...and it's sat and i am happily without homework.. 1. Single, taken or crushing? singleeeee, eh no, i'm in love with a pig called moomooo (no she's not a cow) 2. are you happy with your life now? very happy, what's life not to be happy abt when u dun hav papayas and i can sleep sleep sleep all day or go online to see stupid surveys like this one 3. when you meet the right person, do you fall for him fast? you see mg, unlike u, i have taken the time to change this stupid person's english. and hello to the dumb ass who designed this survey, how do i know whether i'll fall for him fast when i haven't met him? if i noe i would be called the oracle 4. have you ever felt like your heart's been broken? again see, mg likes to complain but never realli does anything contructive..see, i've changed the question again, noble me.and to ans this question, yah i got feel that before but it's not by a guy and no i'm not les so you just have to figure out why i got my heart broken by a female =D 5. do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? cheating love? what's cheating love? how do you cheat love? you mean u take a test with dr love and you cheat under his very eyes? that's so bad! and you have horrible english u, and im so tired of ur horrible questions that i'm not gonna change ur sentence this time..oh btw, if you take that test with dr love, you'll sure fail cos ur sentence structure is horrigible 6. would you take someone back if he cheats on you? it depends whether he's willing to spend a thousand dollars buying 250 momos for me, if he does, maybe i'll forgive him 7. have you ever talk about marriage with another before? actually no, why, is that against the rules?? must i talk abt marriage? what's so nice abt marriage to talk abt? oh u mean the big flouncy white gown all girls like? sorrylah but that image is so ruined by you-noe-who yesterday..oh, u mean the have losta kids thingie?? err, pai seh lah, that image oso ruined by mg.. 8. do you want children? if your inference skills are so bad you cannot decipher from q7 lemme tell u now once and for all that I HATE KIDS 9. how many? ...U should learn to phrase ur questions together you noe.i HATE KIDS I DUN WAN KIDS IF I WAN KIDS I WILL GO BUY MOMO AND HUG INSTEAD OF HUGGING DIAPERS EVERYDAY 10. would you consider adoption? maybe, u see, kids adopted are mostly older so at least they talk properly instead of spewing gibberish like MMOMMMAAA IIII BWANNNWNNN DHATTTHATT TOOOUUYYY 11. if someone like you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings? best way? buy me the momo, cos den he can't take it back and i'll use momo to let him know i prefer momo to him 12. do you enjoy getting into relationship? how i noe, never been in one unless it's with momo, but that one not counted cos it's not relationship, momo doesn't hug me, i hug momo 13. be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did? ex? ex what ex? ex-hp?? furthest? oh i dumped it, sorry, i lost it 14. do you believe in love first sight? ehhh no, u wanna noe why? cos all the shuai guys are either too short, or too gay, or too arrogant, or too idiotic in their dressing, this morn i saw one lucify-wannabe dressed in all black carrying a handbag with hairstyle like anime............ 15. are you romantic? err, if you mean those candles thing? no, candles are dangerous, they will burn up ur house 16. do you believe you can change someone? a bit here abit there lo, but if you totally change someone den u might as well go find the one u like, den no need so mafan to change right 17. if you could married somewhere, where would it be? ...thinking* actually i never think before leh..thinking*....hmm.. underwater with the stingray that killed steve irving?? o.O 18. do you easily give in when you are fighting? noooo nooooo are u mad, i'm a killer, why would i give in unless it's 100% my fault? 19. do you have feelings for someone right now? yahhh, haven't i said that i have big feelings for momo.. 20. have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up? this question is dumb, let's skip 21. have you ever broken a heart? ...yah several, i'm a killer dude 22. if one day your best friend fall in love with the girl/boy you deeply in love with, what would you do? i'll throw cake in their faces den add a dash of wine den i'll cry myself to sleep making him feel thoroughly guilty den i'll make sure he buys me momo before he goes 23. are you missing someone now? hmm..several, mostly pri sch friends and pris cos EVERYTIME I CALL SHE'S NOT AT HOME btw, pls rmb to read the below entry it's fun hmm i came to blog abt this dream i had ..if you noe me you shld know all my dreams very..original de right okay i think, i must have been traumatised after yesterday's sighting of you noe who .. you noe, you-noe-who -.-" anyway, i dreamt of her .......... coughs* i dun rmb much abt the plot lah but ..for the sake of making this story more entertaining..i shall make up some.. (actually, i'm quite determined to write this into a story) .. errm okay here we go -.-" my dream..err, i know i'm somewhere on a yacht, or something like that, somewhere near the ocean jiu dui le ..and erm, somehow you noe who is there.. and err, all i rmb is..i think she was trying to decapitate herself yah, DECAPITATE erm, right at this moment i would like to warn u that this is like the bloodiest dream i ever had, even for me (yah yah) okay, it's something like this, i think she was a bit crazy, and i remember the bit when i was in the waters with her, and the waters were bloody, and she was a bit crazy, and she slashed my neck with her nails i know cos there was this close up shot of my neck with three deep slashes still bleeding ...... ahem* err yah, den after the slashes, i think i fell asleep or something den when i woke the walls of the room were like, erm, sprayed with blood ..actually, not sprayed, it's more like somebody painted the whole room red with gore ... and err, there were decapitated body parts everywhere .... like, okay this image i remember ... (warning to the faint hearted) err, there was this headless torso, in tattered fabrics, without arms or legs ..... and there were well..broken arms and legs and trailing intestines .. coughs* they were hanging around on chairs and all that err yah anyway, after that, the scene shifted i think i was a bit mad after that (me as in in that dream, i did not kill anyone in real life okay, stop throwing me accusing looks) errr..there was this sch i'm studying in it's a mix of my pri sch-anderson-cum something else i rmb walking up the long staircase outside home econs room, that one? and my mother was trailing after me ..err, i think she wanted to talk to the class abt.."me" and the classroom was cavern like with slanting seats, like AVT like that but a bit high-tech, not realli stone-age de den, i rmb going a bit mad while my mother was talking to the class and slamming my hand into the board until it broke saying "enough" .... ahem .. err yah .. i dun rmb the details, whether or not "i" killed "her" ..... but it was honestly the most bloody dream i ever had ..... err, okay, good day =D yo just back from sakae-ing with mg, anson, ruth, naomi, jj, hz it was..very filling -.-" anyway, they didn't had any chanwanmushi cos the guy say something abt the machine spoiled and both me and hz listened to : yi nian dun hav chanwanmushi which is of course impossible so we assumed it's yi-tian ..... sigh anyway was quite a fun day =D just the fact that naomi's eating ettiquette still sucks ...which is normal i guess yay! people in meigui's term THERE IS NO MORE PAPAYA!! NO MORE! NO MORE!! aren't u glad??? =DDDDD we can slack all day in bed (okay fine, there's still sch) but you can now watch shows without feeling that tug of guilt that you are supposed to be studying !! oh my, today i spent a lot of money total like...forty bucks? 18 on sakae, 24 on this tchaikovsky cd .. shall put it on my blog in the future i wanted his "seasons" but there aren't any..so i bought another sigh hmmph what shall i do during these few days? suddenly no prelims so no meaning choi, hz is right, we shld treasure this feeling, no prelims is gd de .......... oh yar, pris and jj are officially a pair =DDD go ask them what happened wahaha eh, mg shld post on her blog the disgusting video she took of ruth and naomi it's naomi-leaning-on-ruth-with-ruth's-tortured-face video haha i forgot! this is very important! i saw momo at minitoons at bishan!!!!! but of course some stupid idiotic person who made me so worried i made him angry pretended not to see anything sighxxx i knew this would happen nvm, i'll save up for momo MOMO WAIT FOR ME!! good news everyone tml is our last paper!!! it's the freaking geog paper one!! yay!! just back from playing bad with jj mg cybil and naomi so weird and yesh, naomi can actually play bad -.-" for those who dunno, she was in her primary sch team -.-"" oh btw, let me be a nice soul and show you this cute pic  i noe i am not supposd to do this cos i'm the killer but ISN'T IT CUTE?????? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun mind me it's the resultant of having a splitting headache for the whole of bio paper wahahah i got this pic cos pris say she cannot see the pig in my display pic so i go find one with the two of them and the cute momo too hahahahah okay fine i'm going crazy to mg: i'm not checking my hp cos i'm in my room, just to let u noe haha in case you are annoyed at waiting for my replies cos i'm in love with a pig! named momo! what am i doing here when i have TWENTY TWO CHAPTERS OF BIOLOGY TO STUDY?? I'M REALLI REALLI DEAD!!! IT'S ALL UR FAULT LAH ANSON ONG COS YOU PASSED UR HIGH-INERTIA VIRUS TO ME SEE LAH LOOK WHAT U HAVE DONE TO ME IT'S ALL UR FAULT!! I'M GONNA TYPE THIS WHOLE ENTRY IN CAPS COS I'M FEELING HIGH WOO~ AND I WAN MY MOMO!!!!! MOMOMOMOMOMOMOMO!!!! momomomomomomo i think shuling and guys are like so amused by my moo-ing every morning momomomo so cute! i wan that pig! ANSON ONG U BETTER BUY ME THAT PIG COS YOU PASSED UR HIGH-INERTIA VIRUS TO ME IT COSTS 40 BUCKS THAT BIG ONE SO IF YOU SHARE IT WITH JIAHAO, BOTH OFYOU CAN DUN BUY ME PRESENT NEXT YEAR AND IF YOU BUY IT YOURSELF, YOU CAN DUN BUY ME PRESENTS FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARS! see that's how much i wan my momo IFYOU DUN BUY FOR ME I'LL KILL U hahahahahahah ps: mg ur blog very lame lah today is the start of the vicious cycle again today is monday emath paper one as usual, i screwed up more than ten marks even before getting bac the paper -.-" quite expected la ... i dun think jiahao will read my blog but anyway he said he's gonna fail paper one cos he careless a lot, sounds pretty bad budden his main wish is to further music : but you dun hav to go RJC to further music wad!! there are so many other channels to fulfil ur dreams! so. dun get too sad but i noe it sucks to fail e math paper one =/ just try ur best lo ..i'm hooked on jay's tui hou and yedediqizhang just think the first tune very nice and simple very like the jay chou style before all the nonsensical stuff came in like, simple tune, simple lyrics den the second one got elaborate tunes which blend very nicely esp the violin at the start and the lyrics oso very beautiful sigh what am i doing here i shld be studying physics i noe la i noe la i wun fail physics de lah ........... sucks tml pris dun hav sch got whole day to study so shitty the world is unfair! hmm today's piano lesson very ..enlightening?? heard somemore stories from my teacher he always like to tell stories -.-" mostly history and biography abt pianists, artists today he told me about vincent van gogh for those of you who hadn't even HEARD abt him, u should just go and die haha anyway, it's cos i'm playing debussy..an impressionististic piece it's supposed to ..erm.. let's put it this way when u hear this song, or see some impressionististic art work it's ..it's like listening to a song through the water or seeing an art work through rain-fogged glass get what i mean? anyway, i was so intrigued by his story i went to the library after that to borrow his biography just finished it he's this artist who suffered from mental illness,..err, it's supposed to be epilepsy and severe depression, but it's hereditary .. it's like very sad then all his paintings are very.bold and harsh and raw, cos he got a lot of bottled up emotions u can almost feel the raw-tearing of it like i said, he wasn't very stable mentally he suffered from some ear-disorder i think, that's what my teacher said but the book wasn't too specific, i think he kept hearing sounds from his ear so he cut off his ear and gave it to a prostitute if my memory isn't too bad (from the book) ..it's like, so tragic then his paintings were stark and dark and..just tragic he died around 37 years old i think, he shot himself and died two days later with his brother holding him like, sigh i really think it's very sad and you know what? his painting sells for dunno how many freaking billions today but during his life time? he only sold ONE just ONE painting cos the society that time wasn't prepared to accept his kind of style .. sigh makes me think about a lot of stuff like the pain he must have felt when you think about people like that, you dun feel as if ur own pain is a lot le ruth should be thrilled i'm interested in art works haha i know i can't paint, i paint like a pig buddden, we can always appreciate =) you know, his works are like really painted with his blood really looking at them makes you feel..feel..like, i dunno other words to say other than sad but it's like just cold blanket just envelops you anyway, i shld go study physics after all, singapore MOE preferes academic accomplishment to this reflections.. oh btw, i still wan that pig anson i'm gonna name it MOMO =D eh eh watch this!! especially the middle part when kim sam soon has to spit rice at him, super funny!! wahahahaha WAHAHAHA ignore me i'm mad i'm feeling very energetic now after a four hr sleep YAY! WAHHHH THERE'S NO MORE 金三顺 leh  this picture is for the benefit of SOMEONE who still hadn't buy me a birthday presentcos I WAN THAT PIG I WAN THAT PIG THAT PIG THAT PIG! I'M GONNA HUG IT EVERYDAY AND NAME IT MOMO MOMO~~ MOMO~~ ................................. anyway, that's my favourite shot la the two of them very cute like this hahaha I WAN THAT PIG!! I WAN!! IF U DUN BUY FOR ME I SHALL HAVE TO FORGO MY WALLET TO BUY ONE FOR MYSELF DEN U'LL BE SOOO GUILTY! SO U BETTER BUY IT FOR ME ................. if not i'll turn into that pig and come haunt u at night WAHAHAHAHAH yesh! yesh!! a math is over!! chem is over!! two more sciences and e math! we're almost there everyone!!!!!! GAMBATTE!!!! ......... anyway, i tot my papers were ok ok totally no feeling after my paper so dumb i think i zhong du tai shen liao .. totally cannot concentrate tat now got exams NO MORE 金三顺 how am i gonna live.................................................................... I WAN THAT PIG!!! idiot wan change blogskin but the website down again this is irritating i dun like exams .. i hav this feeling that prelims' are gonna suck .............. tml is chem i realli dun feel like studying -.-" how how how how wa lao, so many people online but no one i can realli talk to ... the blogskin sites up but dun hav the skin i wan haix shall ask mg to make for me after prelims haha -.-" i hate prelims i realli realli hate prelims i realli hope tml's chem paper isn't too hard cos i didn't study too hard and i'm realli realli tired le oh i love the pig in kim sam soon show so cute right!!!! but dunno where got sell leh.. today: the start of prelims today: english and a math ................ english can go and die liao the functional -.-" the onli thing i can tell u, when i wrote it, is like this: write....pause...write..pause..write..pause ................ irritating math..... i think can pass but i was so scared of careless mistakes i scurried home straight after ..-.-" ..what shall i do now i slack le half hour. hmm.. actually, it's one and a half hr.. whatever la..shall start in...in...when i feel like it -.-" ahh shucks tml is THE prelims THE a math paper .............. sucks big time I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY TO SUCH PATHETIC ME ............ somebody save me yay yay yay pris is online =D i'm just so bored now i wanna die ..... fine, i noe i'm supposed to prac some more math cso every little practise counts to helping me pass but BUT BUT BUTTTTTTT IT'S VERY TIRING AND BORING!!!!!!!! to mg: relax lah, it's just the jay album, i oso haven't gotten mine, cos i no money to buy -.-" anyway, had a quite constructive day . reached naomi's house around 11 den started work immediately naomi's father very good teacher=D ..hmm, today finally understood relative velocity and some P and C ..... but of course i still know i'll do badly for math dun worry, it always turn out that way......... i cannot cannot cannot believe that prelims (or papaya) is the day after tml realli cannot believe it and i'm still not getting the shivers/panics/worry/anxiety ....... i have high inertia I DUN WAN~~~ DUN WAN PRELIMS~~ NOOOO~~~ i know i realli realli sho uldn't be doing this la . i shldn't blog like three times a day -.-" and i shldn't realli dump aside my precious bio text or the geog text or the krishna text OH GOD DELIVER US~ .......................................... SHIT LAH i just dun like prelims trying to motivate myself the righteous voice (r) (r): you should be studying you noe, do you wanna get 15 pts for your prelims? me: but i have high inertia.. (r): you think u anson ah, he high inertia still can get A, you high onli get C leh me: dun hav so cham lah (r): this is anderson you noe, the papers are killer papers, u wan get killed? me: i'm murderer, i dun get killed, at most i kill teachers (r):...... me: in any case, i oso wan go poly.. (r): but you wan go with highscores right, if you know u can do better, you will feel bad that u didn't wad me: yah, correct lah, but saying and doing different lah and i keep getting distracted by samsoon (r): you HAVE to study!! do you know what a difference it'll make to your grades?? you can get 7/8 pts instead of 15!! me: but..i not that bad wad, i very bad meh (r): YESH YOU VERY BAD ..................... ignore me the internal monologue ........... I'M GOING BAD SOMEONE HELP ME HELP~~~ I DUN WAN TO BE ANSON WITH HIGH INERTIA!!! got some time before i go out.. lemme talk abt hmm..my dream job? sigh sometimes dunno what i'm saying dream job..as if anyone in this world doesn't ultimately wind up as a small clerk or secretary in some unknown company right? .. budden, since there's no harm in dreaming i wanna do work related to either of this 1.music 2.drama 3.books i wanna work at mediacorp to produce nice shows, (not the lousy ones they have now) cos i can't stand it to let fellow singaporeans suffer and watch those horrible shows everyday i wan work at FIRST magazine , in case you dunno, it's a magazien featuring all the movies and previews blah blah, i like their style, very sacarstic very fun and very frank i wan work as a book publisher or something like it i wan compose music for worthy shows i wan to be able to make people happy, forget abt their worries (like what samsoon is doing to us all) i wan to be able to allow people to go silly at their obsessions so many wants sigh budden, PRELIMS the PAPAYA word irritating huh that's why i wan go poly budden i understand lah, the academic needs it's irritating i wan learn korean and go learn their culture, their dramas, their songs i wan go hongkong, learn canto, also learn their dramas their showbiz i wan do a lot alot of things to make people happy, to create yah, that's the word CREATE i dun like doing stupid work the human brain is meant for us to exploit ....sai lah prelims~ prelims~prelims~ so sorry, remind u again prelims~prelims~ tml going naomi's hse to study math with cybil cos her father is physics/math teacher ma can ask him and seriously i quite dead for a math lalalalala~ maybe i'll aim for c5 too considering it's prelims c5 is quite good hor sucks. how am i supposed to be what i wanna be when i fail prelims huh? .. stupid stupid stupid and i wonder what we'll all grow up to be maybe in ten years when i meet mg, she'll be lugging 7 kids and when i meet anson he might be this mad scientist who's raking in 15 million a month or something or when i meet pris, she'll be getting the "most dedicated teacher" award den hz will be this reputable optometrics surgeon or something so many damn things den where'll i be? ..... a small clerk in some small unknown company? high chance no, more like piano teacher but i rather survive on instant noodles den do a job that i dun like why apply for a job you dun like in the first place shit i think i'm so dead i getting sicker and sicker later playing badminton, hopefully a little exercise will do me good. but seriously, i feel like someone switched on the watertap in me eyes are tearing, nose running and my whole body ache (but that might be cos of the bad on tue) but seriously prelims ..no hz online today to worry abt it with me she's prob chionging le come to think of it, i wouldn't have thought that i could get along well with her as in, the people i get along with now = her, ruth, shuling, naomi as usual lah, cybil too budden, them so weird right shit feeling stressed.. down with sore throat and a bit of flu. sian i dun feel like doing a math .. feel like giving up in fact, i dun feel like doing anything at all now very kns feeling and my bro just picked a fight with me he shld know not to, not when i'm in a lousy mood ... esp when i'm sick ..... woke up this morn feeling like someone stuffed a hot poker stick down my throat rushed down to get my fishermen's friends.......... been surviving on it till now. ........... very sian can someone teach me how to study i realli very tired liao my throat feels like it's burning i didn't eat anything heaty what what's wrong with it.... sigh later got dental i realli realli dun feel like studying but i think i'll cry if i score like shit for prelims why are students so ming ku these days this is so irritating i know you all will go : again ??? when u read this post. I LOST MY WALLET AGAIN YESH AGAIN ....... for those who chance upon this blog lemme state my record i lost my ez-link 7/8 tmies lost my hp 2 times (that's why i've never experienced trading hps) lost my wallet 2/3 times ........ i never lose ez-link this time round la i lost wallet inside got ten bucks, nets, kbox membership card and a lot of neoprints sniff to anson: i noe what i wan for birthday le, i wan a nice wallet, you can share with jiahao and btw you might as well make me a namecard with my contacts on it, so that the next time somebody can call me I HATE SINGAPOREANS OKAY ..wad the, fine i left it at the bus stop la px and i taking bus to bad court. den it's like, i never bring bag so i put my wallet on the seat for a whlie DEN I FORGOT ABT IT .. when i read court, i realized what happened den px's mom help me go down check la it's been barely 20 mi nutes AND SOMEBODY ALREADY TOOK IT!! what's wrong with singaporeans huh?? i swear i'll never do this kinda EVIL SINFUL THING ..just leave the thing alone la not as if it's taking up alot of space I HATE YOU!! ......... MAYBE SOMEBODY WILL RETURN TO AND SCH.. sigh fat hope anyway, so irritating. i forgot, the list abt what my boyfriend must hav? i forgot a very important quality HE MUST NEVER NEVER NEVER TAKE WHAT IS NOT HIS AND MUST TRY HIS BEST TO RETURN TO THE OWNER EVEN IF THE OWNER IS A JERK/BITCH/TWIT/HIMBO/BIMBO ..................................... PISSED anyway, i'm gonnan wait till sch reopen one wk, maybe some kind soul will return to me if not den i'll go make my nets lo ..hell hell hell hell .......... irritating see lah, me, the klutz again to pris: that's such a lousy post, i guessed what you were going to blog about before you revealed the big issue dumb lah but i agree, HOW CAN PLUTO NOT BE A PLANET??? ........ so dumb, why the hell did they vote it off after like a gazillion years...... so unfair hmmph today went studying with pris mg and anson who joined us later =D dun tell you why i'm grinning something good happened wor ~~~ eh you all why never tell us, so not friend -.-" sigh but i'm still very exhausted maybe another twenty mins..den i'll go do Amath very tired.. i hate A math ..i shld probably not do it now cos it's so not a suitable time but PRELIMS ARE COMING ahhhhhhhh i dun wan! my god! i dun wan!! -.-" i'm so not prepared SHIT!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO i can't believe another day has passed ..dunno leh, wednesday, shld i go for lit? it's so waste of my time and i can put it to much better use..... how how how give me advice! ...one more chapter to go.. need to rest......-.-" anyway. why no one wanna blog anymore or hiatus wa lao, den i blog for what? nobody will read -.-" ........ so dumb nvm, there'll still be freako anson who doesn't need to study......hor? .. what am i doing here anyway ..hm, i think i like typing leh i know it's a little bian tai to say it lah but dun you feel it's so much more comfortable den writing la i'll never grow tired of typing -.-" shit, the computer is brainwashing me ..my brother dunno go where, today i tot neva work..sakae so ke bo wan meh? ............... i wan free sushi......why he neva take bac de........ .. AHHHHHH one more chap one more chap......... i feel very..restless.. wanna spend money!!
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what the fuck my left hand second finger feels broken it's numb blue black and very pain fuck when i'm playin the god damn piano frustratedly it means i'm very frustrated okay so dun cum tell me i sound frustratedly i dun need to tell me that when i'm venting my anger on the piano okay and fuck, dun close the god damn door after telling me i sound frustrated cos i'll get angry and try to slam the door after you DEN I'LL GOD DAMN HURT MY OWN FINGER AND CANNOT CONTINUE PLAYING .........FUCK YOU ........ what the fuck, i wanted to do my physics after this why do you have to cum and tell me that huh fuck fuck fuck now i cannot even type with my second finger ........................... FUCK fuck fuck fuck you dunno how angry i am now okay no wonder my second bro gets angry so often can sympathize stop TRYING TO RUN MY LIFE OKAY i oso know that i should decide on what to do in life dun hav to tell me again and again okay dun hv to tell me that i'm not as rich as jiahao and dun hav the money to keep paying for diploma and a new piano JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP what the fuck my left hand second finger feels broken it's numb blue black and very pain fuck when i'm playin the god damn piano frustratedly it means i'm very frustrated okay so dun cum tell me i sound frustratedly i dun need to tell me that when i'm venting my anger on the piano okay and fuck, dun close the god damn door after telling me i sound frustrated cos i'll get angry and try to slam the door after you DEN I'LL GOD DAMN HURT MY OWN FINGER AND CANNOT CONTINUE PLAYING .........FUCK YOU ........ what the fuck, i wanted to do my physics after this why do you have to cum and tell me that huh fuck fuck fuck now i cannot even type with my second finger ........................... FUCK fuck fuck fuck you dunno how angry i am now okay no wonder my second bro gets angry so often can sympathize stop TRYING TO RUN MY LIFE OKAY i oso know that i should decide on what to do in life dun hav to tell me again and again okay dun hv to tell me that i'm not as rich as jiahao and dun hav the money to keep paying for diploma and a new piano JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP i should probably be starting on my red physics workout. but looking at its red cover makes me sick.. sigh, gonna go causeway for a while later, den go tuition den cum bac home.. am thinking of whether i shld sacrifice my friday show-marathons (smallville, charmed ghsotwhisperer/samsoon) to do physics........ ..i shld probably do it ..i would probably do it i guess cos it's dawning on me how little time we have left and i realli dun wan my L1R5 to exceed 10 ..since my a math is like quite hopeless.. so..sciences.. BUT YAH HOR sciences prac oso screwed leh ........................................ beautiful no wonder hz was so worried B-E-A-utiful ..... okay okay!! i shall do it now! the red physics workout is so attractive! i'll do it!!! .. i just dun believe that i can't get a nice academic score to complement my piano grade eight's.......... sigh cannot find a nice blogskin somemore oso cannot put up the 东方神起 song for you all to hear .. dunno why maybe next time lo .. mug mug mug study study study gambette everyone oh, must thank karen for recommending me 东方神起 songs cos those i find all suck, hers all nice -.-" |
