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sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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a little tidbit for those of you who visit my blog =D America has a National Corporate Philanthropy Day . was it yesterday. and the empire state buliding had blue and green lights all over..(it's the color of corporate philanthropy.) and despite all the bullshit they spin, America's donation to the needy is only 4% of its total output so yes if you ask me i fully agree that the rich and powerful are bullshitting .. but i do think that some people are trying hard but still it's bullshitting if you are going to light up the whole empire state building in blue and green, i think you can save up the energy and cost and go light up a certain village in africa in just florescent lights. THAT would be the color of corporate philanthropy. food for thought: somebody accused the bill gates foundation of distorting research for malaria..cos you see, the sorta "lock up" all the excellent scientists and researchers..an unintended effect..but i supposed it's quite true. and i never realized there's monopolistic power in charity org as well. .interesting. ..i know i know this entry is full of econs/geog tidbits but hey, besides reading these, i dunno how else i'm supposed to study for the two subjects (i'm beginning to feel more and more insecure abt them..seriously the notes aren't telling me anything new) in any case, me michelle and xinyun spent our after sch mugging budden i dunno about them but i dun think it was productive for me ..my gosh it's like i've reached saturation point without realizing it WORSE tml i'm gona start on math ..let's pretend to say i love math my brother asked me to take accountancy yesterday i was like "are you serious? i never wanna see math again after a levels" dun mistake me i respect math, honestly! it's a different way of thinking and you derive pleasure out from it unlike any other subjects and in its way it's beautiful (argh) and..mysterious .. but if you ask me, me and math? we're only fated to go this far *nods nods* so yeah, we have to part =( ..i can't believe i'm saying this but..when is CT ever gonna come? i mean i'm getting BORED preparing for it you noe like hurry the hell up lah it's just CT and if i happen to get super bad grades..at least i'll feel very very mad and either go crazy or just work very hard but i'm really serious wheni say i'm getting BORED preparing for it you know i never thought i'll say this but it's interesting to read about singapore's economy today's newspaper said that our marina bay area is gonna be as good as london's canary wharf or hongkong's financial region.. it's kinda exciting.. and the artist's impression of the area looks so nice =D it's so un-singapore oh and it's true singapore has no international brands besides..SIA and sembcorp ..temask holdings? but that's regional it's so sad right i mean if all the foreign investments pull out we're DEAD and we should really try to innovate and come up with world leading brands to feel proud of when you go to starbucks almost everyday....... #1 you realize it only when it's too late that you spent almost fifty bucks on caffine and iced chocolate, which besides abusing your stomach and adding calories, doesn't do much #2 in addition to point 1, especially useless when i'm a person who doesn't get affected by caffine random sidethought: do you guys realize that chris asks VERY stupid irrelevant questions when he hasn't had coffee yet??? seriously! you can totally tell cos he crafts the question VERY. VERY.VERY. slowly and more often than not the question is TOTALLY very redundant. (dun tell him i said that, but it's so true loh) #3 you get to see interesting couple developing their interesting relationships. there was this teenage couple there today. the guy had a cold drink. the girl a hot drink. and it's obvious they were only starting to date cos the guy looked like he didn't know what to do with his hands so he put them on his thighs, the girl twisted her straw till it looks kinda sad and droopy and wrinkled and grouchy..but they talked for THREE BLOODY LONG HOURS.omgosh. they were very sweet together you know and i was quite entertained by them since they were sitting directly infront of me (they were much more appealing compared to daisy and gatsby who are totally.....qian da) #4 your farting tendency increases exponentially. i'm serious and absolutely sincere. (..makes me wonder whether chris has the same experience...) try drinking a mug of coffee, or two and you're not human if you dun feel like farting. or okay shitting. #5 like what i told xinyun, you observe that starbucks employees all look like brazillian, hmmph, highly suspicious hiring system. okay, something aside... i've been observing the library have you ever noticed how convenient laptops are now??? cos they are........ # a cover for couples who wanna snuggle together and look at porn photos together # an excuse for guys to sit closer to girls cos "laptop very small lah" and i realize a lot of teenagers are in the same..situation as me we sit in our seats , put a book infront of us and stare straight ahead at passerbys i know it's true cos i caught a lot of teenagers' eyes when i was wondering about ...really lah, we just sit there and stone ... sad lives sia anyway i drank like one whole mug of coffee, cos i wanted to go home but it sudenly poured... crap probably can't sleep well tonight le even though i REALLY wanna sleep... i can't study anymore lah saturated.. not gonna do anything liao ..this weekend and monday, i'll study but before that CANNOT LAH oh btw i'm showing off photos of my beautiful class with my friend and she says that we look very happy =D and that najib looks nineteen ..her father said that najib looks like he's a zoo-keeper remind me to tell him that ..melissa actually typed out the post card my gosh. not to mention she showed it to like thousands of people -.-" dun think i never see horrr wa lao, so horrifying lah during the geog thing at nus she showed it to her guy friend from..what's the sch, tj? something. den the guy came over where she was sitting, where I was sitting and i heard something about "she very close to you" kinda thing ......... and i was right beside her almost feel like strangling her =P but thank you for the sandwich, you were totally random -.-" and yes even though i sound extremely not like me (but den again, i'm actually a very nice girl..shush to pris and mg who's snickering....) you do deserve all the things i mentioned so yeah, glad to see you're cheered up =D got back early today..gonna pack and go starbucks to waste money and study lit no math till tml if not i'll go mad and so sorry to yiling cos i pon OCIP.but i really wanna get back earlier even though you guys prob can't tell..i'm still feeling kinda ..unsociable. haha, yeah, i dunno why but ..still.. it's a HOT day jiayou for common test! anyway (i'm waiting for my hair to dry so i wun look like pokey monster when i go out) i realize that i've been thinking about things that i could do to make ppl happy -.-" i noe i noe, that sounds so unlike me but in fact i really do like a happy world, not a bloody world as mg might think so i was thinking..for this year's teacher's day... shall we do a music video for najib? ??? think it'll be quite fun...... .. i dunno who reads my blog but if you are from 07a14, den share some comments lah my tagboard so empty................... shit, having sore throat bu hui so unlucky bah go KL den sore throat .. argh and yes, nine of us from 07a14 are going on a geography trip to KL next friday! =D damn nice but a damper might be the horrible jokes mr josef is gonna tell.... shudders* .crap i can't stop playing michael buble's everything. ...even when i couldn't squeeze on the train today at jurong east, playing it made me feel ALMOST happy and yes, me michelle and yiling and michelle's friend..kenji? yes we were on the horrific monster they call a train and we couldn't squeeze in at clementi. waited for the second train. took to jurong and ME couldn't squeeze in so i classically waved michelle and yiling goodbye as they passed me not that i dun wanna wave to kenji, michelle's friend but he was too busy being shoved up the wall by..well people, or sardines rather so yeah, couldn't see me ..let's see..what should i do tml sch ends damn early lah!! at 1245!! i'm so excited! haha i've gotten addicted to ponning sch like seriously. erm..shall dedicate the whole day tml to literature..and readings just go library take down economists and all that shit and READDD just read regardless of whether they are relevant -.-" and erm..bring along geography in case i get bored of reading. den yes den on friday i'll start the monstrous mathematics again .. sigh wish me luck in that today's geography career talk was .erm . well, i'm still half hearted about it honestly urban planning sounds quite.erm interesting? (weilun put the idea in my head..rmb he got say before ..) GONG ZHU XIAO MEI VERY IRRITATING LAH yucks .. i still dunno what the hell i wanna do. no matter..i'm hungry..shall go eat even more bread to stuff myself ............ argh oh yeah najib's back with fresh new fashion sense....army green -.-" no lah, he was in jess's opinions, even higher than usual this morning during geog tutorial (which as usual was pretty..erm, enlightening) but yes i've missed him. 07a14 just doesn't seem complete without our young and hip and slightly neurotic ct =D and our year book is sooo nice! i wish i have a camera hp so can take photos for you guys to see it's seriously glam lah can like i told the others, it makes our colllege lives look so happening and glammed up but.hello.not true.zilch but yeah where was i, oh yesh, our class photo is the NICEST among every other class okay everyone of us was smiling AND it was so from the bottom of our hearts awwww and we were saying jiawei looked like he's posing for the some big shot business magazine he has this pose sitting down, with legs slightly open, leaning forward with his hands perched on his thighs looking "yeahh i'm a successful business guy" serious!!! and mr najib totally looked like one of us -.-" purposely wanna camouflage .................. CT IS COMING SOON screams and runs around* oh no, the woman this morning say must relieve stress the correct way *shuts eye* thinks of beach* of waves* .................... *doesn't seem to work* ..probably cos singapore's beach aren't really very stress-relieving (looking at polluted waters and high cranes doesn't really inspire much calmness..) .............. byeeee oh my i'm so hooked on michael buble -.-" i noe i noe, weird but really you should look at him croon and his smile is adorable (though he's grown a tad fatter...) you should listen to him sing me and mrs jones oh my taufik can never match up to that .. ohh man anyway today very productive =D very happy =DD to melissa and jess: dun feel sad okay!!!! you guys rock as far as i'm concerned. i bet those judges were bribed or something tsk tsk, corruption in court cheer up! esp mel! omgggg i am SOOO in a good mood =DDD lalalalallala shuling and kb never go sch never tell me?? oh gosh i waited stupidly at amk station before calling them and realizing they're not going! which, also means, that there's no one taking me to school! omgg. which means, i'll prob be late to sch aiyo tsk tsk i'm so disappointed acts affronted* aiyo like that how? ..no point lah, can only go home lor~ lalalalala .. i wonder what najib would say if he sees this post -.-" it's FATED hello it's FATED eh! i tot i overslept this morning you know, cos i off my alarm, went back to sleep cos was raining..den had a complete dream. woke up again and tot i as late but when i glanced at the clock only fifteen mins has passed so disappointed me woke up, ate cheesecake, put on uniform and went to amk! ..imagine my utter disgust when shuling said she wasn't going to sch yet ..ohhhh tsk tsk so bad sia .... NOTHING can spoil my mood i think even my mother is secretly overjoyed she was like "huh? you come back for what? no sch meh?" and i gleefully told her what happened and she was like "huh, like that ah..aiyo, okay loh" =PPPP see, it's fated there's nothing you can do abt it.. well there's the fact that i could go to sch and be late.. but... what's the point??? =DDDDDD imagine how stupidly i was grinning at myself on the train back home everyone was going to sch i was going home! and there was this damn shuai hockey player so good heart somemore! gave up his seats for kids, kids that aren't even bawling, nice kids, but he still gave it up! unlike someone going by the surname goh.. hmmph *recalls the time when she insisted i sit down with her and forced me to look at her instead of the needy who needs my seat...* *compares her and the guy* hmmph, the latter is more shuai.and good hearted. =D oh anyway i was SERIOUSLY in a good mood and xinyun called so i gleefully announced it to the whole train via my sexy throaty very excited voice that "yes i'm not going sch!!!!" .....the auntie beside me gave me a very very suspicious look indeed felt like turning to her and say "eh, i VJ leh, very far you noe!" even the shuai guy gave me a suspicious look like "wth....pai kia lah, never go sch." ha.ha.ha.ah.aha i bought newspapers! gonna read them, watch one episode of my girl, pep myself a pretty mood den go starbucks study again =D for some reason, today shld be nice studying day it's raining people are working I am not working NOR studying in school ..so to maintain this kinda pretty mood i SHALL NOT STUDY MATH TODAY HURRAY PEOPLE C'MON CLAP FOR ME! APPLAUSE APPLAUSE* (i think this post would probably warrant somebody to shoot me...oh but go ahead, shoot me, i'm so deliriously happy it wouldn't hurt =D) i really want to apologize if i made anyone feel less of themselves cos of my post i was only trying to vent. so yes, i'm sorry if i made anyone feel bad mood hasn't improved much ..looking at the stupid lit comparison, my mood's still bad melissa isn't going to sch tml sigh i wish i can pon consecutively two days too .bullshit. and you know what after studying for three days i only realize today that i've been memorising the wrong formula wow. i feel so smart ..i went to starbucks for three hrs. den i walked out of there.not really feeling like i did anything den i found myself walking aimlessly around causeway saw the clutch that i've been aiming..but for some reason couldn't bring myself to go near it den i found myself turning round and round at turns. hur hur. i feel stupid. stupid over nothing yeah, if only i have xinyun's laid back attitude. i need someone who'll make me laugh happy people upset me very happy people really really upset me I'M SO FED UP WITH MATH absolutely fed up FUCKING MATH what's wrong with my brain man why is it that simple arithmatic i'll get it wrong????????? fuck fuck fuck fuck everyone is quarreling at home EVERYONE IS QUARRELING AT HOME I DUN EVEN NOE WHAT TO WRITE HERE ANYMORE OVER THE FUCKING BLOODY COLOUR OF A CAR THEN BROTHER SAY HE DUN WAN SHARE CAR WITH "THAT PERSON" SECOND BRO SAY "COLOUR MUST ASK THE TOU, THE PERSON WHO DECIDES" FUCKING SHIT DEN SECOND BRO KEPT HURRYING THE CAR SO THAT HE CAN GO OFF SOMEWHERE TO SHOW OFF FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I THINK I MIGHT BE SUFFERING FROM MENTAL BREAKDOWN SOON QUARREL QUARREL ALL DAY LONG FUCKING SHIT MY FATHER ALSO DUN CARE, WHO CARES, HE JUST SLEEPS MY MOTHER NAGS AND NAGS AND NAGS DEN SUDDENLY TALKS ABOUT SOMETHING HAPPY WHILE I STILL STRUGGLE WITH FUCKING INTEGRATION AND DIFFERENTIATION I'M BITTER I'M CYNICAL I'M SELFISH I'M UNHAPPY OKAY I'M DEPRESSED, OPPRESSED, SUPPRESSED STOP ASKING ME TO BE HAPPY HOW CAN I BE HAPPY what do YOU know? your mother loves you, your father's rich, your siblings are all there happily joking with each other your ah ma isn't abandoned by your relatives your family isn't falling apart over a CAR i ran this afternoon i ran already and i still feel like boxing someone FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I DUNNO WHAT THE FUCK I'M SUPPOSED TO DO I JUST WANNA STUDY IN PEACE, I WAN MY BRAIN TO WORK I WAN MY MIND TO WORK PROPERLY STOP GETTING STUCK YOU STUPID PERSON STOP GETTING SIMPLE ARITHMATIC WRONG STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP pounds the keyboard pounds the keyboard pounds the keyboard my blood feels like it's stuck at my arteries it's the second time i almost cried in my piano class fuck you, fuck this world why are humans on earth, to cause misery for one another? i want to be a bad ass a bad person, evil cruel heartless cold i can ditch my family ditch my brothers stomp on their faces throw money on their faces crush them under the goddamn car spray their faces with paint bang their bodies against each other till they say sorry to each other i can tell all my friends i dun like you all use them all to become filthy rich tear at their faces their hair their bodies scream in their faces that NOTHING FUCKING MATTERS i envy everyone of my friends i fucking envy everyone of my friends EVERYONE of you the only time when i feel remotely happy is when i'm running at the broad green field and that i can only hear my mp3 and nothing else i can't even hear my own breathing and there's no one around me except grass and air grass and sky grass and grass and grass i want to sever everything everything i am so sick and tired of everything i feel like i've lived too long and seen too much if siblings can become like this if a filial son can suddenly throw his grandma out if relatives can commit suicide and die if the whole world can be obsessed abt edison chen if my mother can reject me and say i am mad if i can slap my brothers in the faces and wish for them to both have their faces smashed if i can tear up my math paper and geography and tell the world to go to hell if i can look at my teachers and say i'm not in the mood if i can tell melissa beauty doesn't matter and that we're all too ugly for cosmetics to work if i can tell xinyun family ties won't last, they all die anyway and some are simply working corpses if i can tell lijie to quit being happy cos i am unhappy if i can tell cassandra that beauty doesn't exist in the world no matter how much cream you put on if i can tell yiling that i can't feel anything for cats because i can't feel anything at all if i can i would but i can't a bottle overflowing but leaking somewhere within choking full empty bottom too much too few i believe but it seems too hard to believe i forgive but it seems like i never did i see everything too clearly. a quick one before i go off to starbucks to study =D ..i think studying gives me back the order in my life .. i know that sounds extremely dumb/stupid/ridiculous/incredulous but it does ..at least there's still one certain thing in the world. you have to study i have this feeling i'm gonna do quite badly this term. dun ask why. it's just like that and turmoil still persists at home. i already declared to my brothers that i will really slap them awake one day . how many years old already and still so childish and unreasonable and unsensible .. there's a reason why i turned out so cynical and sometimes i really can't care less what people think like i noe, my hair doesn't suit me yeah yeah yeah but at least now i dun have to care about it ah ma is nagging me mad mother is going mad herself brothers are stark madness i think they are back to seek vengence against us from past lives anyway having read mel, mg, pris's blogs all are so cryptic ..what the hell is "i can't bai tai sui anymore?" .. oh my maybe i shld follow the trend and go cryptic too .. ...........shaaaig (it's shit) but studying geography makes me feel like sleeping as well ..shaaaig .. i think i'll go spend some money the more i think about it, the more incredible it is to be a couple .. it's incredibly sweet and selfish at the same time. hmmph today. is a damn tired day but damn satisfied=D cos me and naomi went to eat aston's afterwhich we got the nice durian puffs and durian muffins =D so was very satisfied. spent a lot of money but who cares, we need to eat a proper meal before..CT wheeee i'm too tired to elaborate ..wanna sleep now but still must wait for hair to dry ...........ahhhh things to do tml buy pens buy foolscap print out geog notes study geography and math pc gatsy pc h3 ............shit not a lot of time sia OH GOSHHH prob shld read abit of lit now.. i'm TIREDDDD i just look through NTU NUS SMU websites quite thoroughly and still i have no idea what to do .. wow life sucks and i'm kinda slacking right now cos it's finally finally thursday i feel damn tired and i just wanna go to bed but still have got to finish economic growth tutorial and the darn geography assignment (speaking of which, najib still hasn't given us back the last one) and fifty dollars bet you that we wun get THIS assignment back bfore CT .. unless josef tan suddenly becomes very very hardworking -.-" .. weekend is coming finally even though it's meantn for studying i've decided i'm gonna try to wake up early on sunday to book starbucks =D ..there's some strands of hair at the top that's turned frizzy.. hmmph .. TIRED i dunno whether any of the other JCs have started it's called the "damn your future is almost here" programme aka the "damn everyone is suddenly asking what u are gonna do with ur life" programme ..if you are brainless like xinyun and dunno what i'm talking about it's called the "cAREER FUTURE PATH WHATEVER" programme and yeah, it's the time of my life when suddenly teachers are very very interested in what i wanna do honestly, i'm sincerely seeking advice pris mg what are you guys gonna do huh? and yeah i noe anson is digging up dinosaurs that's so very practical in dinosaur abundant singapore anyway back, mg pris what are you guys gonna do???? university is different you noe like you can't just close ur eye pick one course and ..erm, pray for good results cos there wun be a next time o levels can anyhow pick combi jc can still anyhow pick combi university anyhow pick combi, might wind up flipping burgers at mac (or worse, do a stint job at pepper's lunch with naomi) you noe i've decided i've been wasting one hr a day five days a week on transpo that is five hours, which is equivalent to like one sch day so yeah, i've decided to study on my way home each day unless i fall asleep studying and by studying dun be appalled, i mean reading through all the stuff i'm supposed to read like MALFI, JUNO AND THE PAYCOCK AND SOME OTHER IRRITATING STUFF yeah okay that's random back to career stuff that's the hot topic for today okay shit i just wasted half an hour online talking to xinyun abt her blue blood and kenneth abt the above hot hot topic it's okay i need "me time" that's what the person said on subjectif (btw you shld read it yah? it's quite nice actually..though of course yours truly can write much funnier crazy stuff..that's a brag ignore me i'm kinda mentally fried now) okay yah so what are you guys gonna do? i need advice you noe? so shoot shoot tell me on the tag board or sms me we did this stupid survey this morning that asked you to IMAGINE abt ur future dream lifestyle dream job kinda thing and you noe my dream job is to be this hotshot columnist that can write abt anything i want, lament anything i want and be able to take photos, write about social work, the deprived in society and all that or to set up this company that makes sure social workers get paid properly (xinyun asked me how and i had no reply) but the gist is to make entrepreneurs appreciate social workers.....erm, to endorse projects initiated by youths abt social work? ...something along that line .. and i bet you there's no course in university that'll teach me what to do AND i'm so envious of mel and enid and all who knows what they want they're going into banking and finance think it's the money but i honestly dun really care for money (like what i told weilun we both just wanna be comfortablely well off, dun need rich, just so that i wun have to cry whenever i buy starbucks or a blouse that costs forty bucks yeah) and today i've really really decided i'm never ever going to buy a car they are so..HOMOGENOUS and BORING yah like serious! i'm gonna buy a cute van so that i can put some nice sofa and seats at the back it's bigger anyway and it's less glam so i wun have to give a ride to ppl i dun like and most impt of all, it's unique, i can decorate it, and i wun have motion sickness cos it's shaky and unsmooth like a car (funny, i just hate it when i'm in good cars, they just dun lurch, it feels weird) .. okay i need to sort out my life things to do before tonight is up DO ECONS TUTORIAL NIA PRAC MATH READ NEWSPAPERS YESTERDAY AND TODAY ......... think abt my pathetic life and the fact that h3 is gonna crash down on me soon .........ciao like what i told mg i dun like sch year two seriously quite..sucky honestly, what aspect of sch do you hate the most?? mine is without hesitation THE STUPID TIMING OF IT i am ALWAYS sleepy in classes you know it's unbelievable how is it possible that naomi, being made up of the same human anatomy as i am, only requires five hours of sleep to maintain that high ecstatic energy level? i need at least eight you noe! and that's LEAST and recently i have the constant feeling that i'm being SWAMPED by work and it's not obvious tutorials but to-dos that is driving me crazy for e.g., after this entry i'm gonna try very very hard to PC my H3 lit (speaking of which, i haven even bought MY LAST BOOK omgosh i hope the teacher dun read my blog) to come up with an essay outline or something..den run it through miss chia by this week fri den during the weekend, i'll seriously try to write a draft, and source for even more torturous readings to read and speaking of WHICH, there's a psychological book that my author swears on lying somewhere on my shelf and i'm supposed to read it and her bio oh my this is great this is ABSOLUTELY LOVELY like i said, i need more than twenty four hours ...and i can't say i love my rebonded hair. it's weird on me honestly i think my face is too long lah and for once i totally get what gary said .. it's weird but like what i told naomi at least it's neat, and it doesn't.you noe get unneat ..so i can concentrate on doing all those to-dos instead of getting frustrated over my hair .. OMGOSHHHHH gtg gtg , time is VERY PRECIOUS something's wrong with my msger ..it keeps blinking even though i've replied already .. so yep anyway i think i need more than just 24 hrs a day i have too many bloody things to do i wanted to blog so much abt my parents but..i guess my anger's passed so isn't that pissed anymore the gist is, my mother threw away kenneth's rose cos apparently having a white rose in your house is bad so i was super pissed off and she upset the cookies that i wanted to give eugene which means i'll have to source for other presents and the pt is she shouldn't have poked at my stuff in the first place (i put it the plastic bag so it's obvious it wasn't for the family..) and you noe what i realized? parents dun say sorry they really dun it's really her fault (c'mon, parents CAN be at fault you know) and she refuses to admit it ..she just sorta argues with me over it..saying what i shldn't have tied the ribbon so loosely den she started treating me very nice afterwards and i was super rude to her when we were quarrelling but even my father stayed outta the way ..it's obvious it's her fault right oh and i forgot to blog abt x-country on a random note: i quite wan a camera phone cos i realize i wanna take down so many photos of my fun class 07a14 ..and with friends ah okay x-country i finished the whole route and didn't feel like i was dying! omg! xinyun (or was it mel) said my stamina's back..yay..not VERY gd stamina lah (i got position 687) but at least i ain't dying michelle yeong was the old me hahaha i ran with her all the way and she kept saying sorry dun need say sorry lah, run together more fun mah oh and this year's prizes were DAMN bad last year there were jumbo vouchers and all that, so sad mel missed last year's this year's BEST prizes were like soup restaurant voucher and jean yip discounts that's all the rest were some ulu branded bags and SOCKS ..i bet jess's socks were better than those i had to clear out my room today cos ah ma coming over tml and i realized that we are all selfish seriously if i ask u to give up ur room, would you be 100% willing to? ..i mean it only happens in shows lah budden the pt is, even if you dun like it you shld still do it cos in the first place you aren't being nice already (filial piety and all) so you should still fulfil ur duties through ur actions at least.. hai and this is mean thing to say but i really dun wanna grow up to be like anyone in my family like seriously they are such lifeless, boring, meaningless people .. honestly but anyway..been wanting forever to brag about our CLASS SPIRT! =ddd PLS GO TO www.07a14.blogspot.com pls lah, just go =D i'm too lazy to post everything here -.-" must load leh oh and back to my very busy lifestyle i tried studying math this afternoon it was productive..and not ..i finished very little ah den i had to move my stuff outta the room and been slacking ever since ..gonna boycott closer and jude law to try to do it again ..den tml i'll go to the library to study econs..h3 lit..and some of it again studying studying studying you noe i think i'm eccentric honestly i can't stand being behind work or like, giving sub standard work when i noe i can do so much better and i get very frustrated ..i do really think i'm weird i was almost ready to cry today in piano you noe, cos i played so badly and i know there's something holding me back sigh oh! my piano teacher is SO NICE!!! he gave me ang bao you noe! only four bucks lah but he said he gave it to all his students imagine the amount of money he must have spent so nice!=D i wan a bf like him next time, good natured humorous and kinda stupid at times -.-"" and. you noe actually i think i'm perpetually living in a drama like zhen qing ..the family feuds never end like NEVER .. AIG is gonna compensate us a new car and..the quarrels have started again and i find myself tuning it out again .. it's a sad life. really HAPPY VALENTINE'S EVERYONE! in a superb mood today =D not even my mother's incessant nagging can spoil it haha today is the BEST valentine's i ever had haha like serious and allow me to be hua chi over the most unlikely subject ever I LOVE 07A14 I LOVE 07A14 I LOVE 07A14 =DDDDD our class simply rocks okay these two days totally showed our unity and affection for each other so many of us turned up to support melissa and jessica for their music fest audition! even though the venue was changed to music room, we all stil squeezed into the tiny room adjacent to it and listen to the audition mel's and jes's voices sounded quite soft so we had to be REALLY REALLY quiet and there was only like this tiny slot through which we can see them plus the room was dark thus nicholas typed a msg on his phone that said "this feels like a funeral...." it was super funny haha but it was so nice! most of us turned up even though some may not noe mel and jes too well we have two major groups in our class but we are so super nice to each other k and it's not like other classes when we will dislike the groups overlapping and all we are PEACEFUL AND LOVING PPL =D rachel was saying that the SC shld give us music fest tickets cos we were the only class who were so super on, turned up and support our classmates =DDD it was soooooooo heart-warming nods nods* and today, valentine's day thank you kenneth and mg for your wonderful roses haha, kenneth's was really badly crushed -.-" and i'm soaking it in water now in the hope of saving it but seriously the petals are..erm, dropping fast? mg's rose is still beautifully intact though =D and thank you all the rest who gave me food/sweets/chocos/cards/flowers blah blah blah and the main purpose of this entry is to blog about the GUYS in 07A14 they are SO SUPER SWEET the four guys bought roses for each of the girls (17 of us!) and bake cookies! (and they actually taste nice you noe!) and wrap them up drew cute cartoons and wrote our names and gave them out to us! so nice!!! so sweet lah seriously so in return we girls think we shld do something in return so me mel and enid went up to the library to print a little something that advertises their eligibility as bachelors and pasted the posters all over sch =D and mel was right i think only vj has this kind of culture our walls are permanently vandalised with students' initiatives but it only shows our spontaneity and isn't it nice to walk past a corridor feeling bored heading to the next lecture and seeing ur lovely face on the wall??? anyway i'll try to get the posters and videos of the guys' reactions to post it up it's super funny and i feel accomplished =D mel and me pretended to go to toilet in the midst of lecture so that we can put up the posters ha.ha.ha. ..I REALLY LOVE 07A14 too bad najib isn't here to see us so bonded i think he'll be REALLY REALLY proud =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD omg, i think i sound corny and all i've sorta figured out what i'm gonna do for the class lah i felt so bad cos everyone keep giving me stuff and i didn't even prepare anything =( so yep, gonnan stay up tonight (since tml is cross country!) and try to do some of it and you noe, I LOVE TERM ONE OF VJ SCH YEAR it's filled with so much fun and activities! OGL, Chinese new year, Valentine's Day, Cross country, Geog trip omgoshhhhh i'm in love! =DDDD with my own class gosh as i told melissa this is why i dun like to do my hair cos my mother NAGS until wakao i have no idea why she has this much energy to nag and no energy to do housework i'm too tired to write out in complete sentences so here you go me rebond=me being vain=ang bao money=turning bad=wun focus on studies=becoming badder=becoming ah lian=waste money=buy ex clothes=buy ex shampoos=buy redundant stuff (which i do i admit but i've never wasted a lot of money)=buy alot of shit essentially becoming a bimbo who only cares abt looks and neglect studies ... which if you noe me even for a day you'll noe it's not true ............ so it's bloody irritating observation number two at 10.10pm at kranji ..there will be alot of ah pehs uncles ah ceks boarding the train alas, turf city close shop ah observation number 3 people have a tendency to tell me their..love stories.. xiuzhen auntie told me hers..last time that auntie oso. .. do i have a "confide in me" face? observation number 4 i am a weird person stay away it's tuesday! and i'm happy! i like tuesday cos i always wind up getting home early =DDDD and we had chanwanmushi again just now..i think i'm totally in love with the place gonna go to causeway later cos i got a ton of things to do ..must pick up my library bks, return my library bks.. go ntuc watsons or guardian buy a ton of stuff that's seriously seriously idiotic (all the commodites that ran out at the same time) nth much to blog abt mr najib is at reservice kinda hard to imagine him in army colors and all (green is so not his color) and getting down and dirty (err) ... imagines* *shakes head* cannot lah and xinyun was so perceptive that she said, upon hearing he's at reservice "does that mean we can not come to sch and no one will know?" smart sia, all my positive influence yep anyway i realize i'm totally behind on work on life basically my piano scores at ..erm, bullshit and harmoc scores at coming AH and my math is TOTALLY behind omgoshhhh i need more time -.-" =(((( lu dong bin is so shuai =(((( so sad lah the show it's the first time i've watched dong you ji properly lah, despite it encoring so many times, never really caught the whole show so SAD lah ..really dunno how to put it into words except so SAD lahhh why immortals cannot fall in love??? ......... okay ignore me this is atrocious this is utterly utterly ridiculous it's SUNDAY omgosh i haven done like anything! why is it sunday???? !(@$#%(!Y##$(@%$ yesterday was the BEST night sleep i ever had since new year hols for some reason slept really nice yesterday so this morning i woke up feeling quite happy at 9am! so early! and then i was stricken with this feeling that today is sunday SUNDAY omg tml is monday! there will be no more breaks till after our bloody common test!!! agrh!! oh man and i haven done any homework i tell u but i DID revise.... ahem, atmosphere..and international trade that's all =( feel so unaccomplished but whatever, i swear i'll spend all my weekends from now on studying -.-" ..and have you ever noticed how all your commodities seem to be used up at the same time? i think i have to start making a list ..my shampoo's gone..conditioner's gone..my facial's almost gone..my MOISTURISER is almost gone..what else..oh my pen, my liquid paper, my highlighter should have been replaced yesterday..and erm, oh yes my toothbrush is almost in a devastated state.. ..see?? all of those things would cost me fifty dollars at least! and my father isn't giving me allowance for this week! omgod! not to mention next wk is VALENTINE'S day this is STUPID i tell u all my ang bao money will be gone! it's stupid valentine's day which means you have to make sure you have some chocos and stuff to give out honestly ppl can't u guys not give me anything this year?? even though i'll feel reallyreally jealous of those who received stuff..budden if you give me, i'll have to give back, which means more money dropping outta my pocket whines**** and it's ruth's birthday! planned to get her something doraemonish cos she's hooked onto him now ..apparently it's cuter than all the korean guys i've gone gaga over .. now that's odd, i never figured anyone can get hanged up over ...machine cats back to the topic of money sometimes i think i'm turning into priscilla I HAVE NO MONEY LEFT LAH bloody shit and yesterday xinyun called me to exclaim how nice jay's kungfu dunk is, how nice cj7 theme song is (sung by SHE) and i sorta just fu yan her i think it was..morning? or early noon when she called ..well i was still feeling very.erm, pukish and anyway she has enough enthusiasm for a whole room of ppl and i love her house her house is so meditative and so sleepy no wonder she turns out so peace loving (yeah minus the aggrieved face she's so good at) and her breakfast is..erm, wow! she offered me toasted bread with "good quality butter" "you want to eat good butter? if you dun wan i dun open, you wan you wan?" *offers eager face to eagerly thrusting me the good butter "you wan try you wan try?" it seems like her house has a million things that i shld try .. but i really like her house =D it makes me less angry everytime i go -.-" .. second brother is irritating eldest brother is disappointing christopher lee as ah hock is cute lu dong bin is shuai as ever watching you fu has made me really really happy =D i really like christopher lee in the show haha. so dumb so naive so innocent so nice =DD i've decided to take a more active stand in my family matters can't stand it anymore my brothers hurling abuses at each other that really hurts it's the tone and the way they go on and on and on about each other OMG it's so fucking irritating and annoying i dun feel like i have a family at all today has been a really really SLACK day i did like puny revision on atmosphere den i went jogging the rest of the time i was watching all the shows i mentioned above oh, i forgot my girl the lead actor quite shuai yor? and den tml hopefully i will go out and shop for presents sighh ohhh you noe my father that lousy person say that he gave us so much ang baos so this week no allowance =( omgosh i have to survive on bread like poor xinyun oh man duno what else i wanted to blog about .....seems like everytime i have something to say i'll forget to blog argh .. study then! it's that time of the year again luckily for me i haven reached the age where relatives start to enquire when i'm gonna get married ...but it's that time of the year when time passes SOOOOO OH slowly ..omg another uncle just came it's like a geometric progression flock mentality .. one pair came, another pair, and an hour later ANOTHER pair omg and i almost couldn't suppress my laughter my uncle's son (which i shld address as something i can't rmb) is SO GAY omgomgomgomgomgomomg that's so mean i'll probably never get a bf for what i said okay then, erm he's VERY METROSEXUAL? omg..what the hell is he wearing???? it's like a tiny top with this white long sleeve thing anyway it just looks wrong on him . ..well at least he's nicer than the other uncle's son whom i bumped into yesterday and didn't even smile or say happy new year the nerve of him i mean the least you can do is smile and say happy new year right!!!! arghh .. okay i gotta do this routine walkabout the living room that i do indeed know they are around and fulfil my duties as this..erm, daughter of the house (although everyone is dressed so nicely and i'm just in white tee and vj shorts) ..hey the weather is HOT you know why would u wanna wear nicely in ur own home??? .. *does routine walk* omg almost po shui ping an glass almost toppled over i've done this more detailed analysis of him he looks like he has foundation on (i dun think he HAS it on..but still) new year's reallyreally weird see middle age aunties like mother and my aunts sit together and talk very loudly abt everything insignificant..in this pitch that may suggests why my glass felt compelled to topple over middle aged uncles like my father and my uncles sit together and talk in this low low grave voice abt something that may be significant and appear to be less irritating wheras young people from the age of 10 to below 30 tend to just sit very still, eat all you can eat, drink all you can drink and eve pretend to be drinking when the packet is empty so that you can avoid all the nonsensical stuff floating around and yeah, they are people like us girls who have to fulfil our duties of being the "Daughter" lemme summarise for you what the"Daughter" has to do first, it is our utmost duty to appear..well, to be the perfect hostess we have to first of all make sure our guests dun die of thirst make sure they have stuff to eat chairs to sit in our rather small living room then it is your duty to do the routine walk smile and nod while thinking "the hell" and sympathetize with fellow Daughters and Sons who are forced to accompany their parents into doing similar things sit down nicely, attempt to tune out what they are saying (since it's in dialect and i wun understand) and settle into this meditative state that guests will interpret as being "attentive" wait for the similar compliments "ah so guai ah ah mei very guai de hor" and smile widely and laugh and wave your hand in this way *waves waves* and act shy "oh hoho" ....... i might go mad if any more comes and anyway the gay oops erm, handsome cousin appears to be very bored but so sorry, it isn't in my job description to talk to strangers in the same plight too bad, he just has to fend for himself by eating more goodies ...... I WANTED TO ANALYSE MY LIT AND READ MY GEOG TODAY YOU NOE i can't believe it's only like onepm this is..totally unbelievable i believe the gods up there are taking a vacation and enjoying themselves among us suffering mortals ..must explain the time lapse ..gosh *routine walk* oh my!!! they are gone! the guy was smiling so radiantly =D and so am i .. okay lah even though it's kinda irritating to have to socialise with ppl i dun really noe it's what new year is supposed to be like right.. the sudden silence is really quite..contrasting .. what the hell shld i do now feel like going swimming it's so bloody hot can ciao 童夢奇緣 is nice =DDDD i cried leh just very sad you know..and andy lau is such a good actor (not to mention extremely good looking..and nice..and you noe) and huang ri hua (the guy acting as his father) is also very good=) and the show is SO sad i guess the un-yuan man ending is supposed to emphasize the pt you only live once anyway my all nighter last night was worth it =) lucky miss chia said that the proposal was much better i slept three hours when i reached home..den ate reunion dinner den changed bedsheet..wiped and cleaned my own room i like new year cos the whole house looks bright and clean and even at 10pm my mother and father is still not asleep =D it's like more lively and my room is so clean! haha i think i'm eccentric i got so angry with myself this morning cos i tot the proposal i submitted was quite crappy den i just walked outta sch cos i couldn't handle happy people celebrating 失去容易 啊 回头真难 日子再坏也必须要走完 啊 在生活中 每一个人 应该有对自己最诚实的那份勇敢 happy new year to everyone! let's hope this year will be better one for everyone =D (now what shld i do..clear my closet..or organise my files first..sigh so much homework!) my brother is STUDYING on new year's eve! damn sad sia the time on my desktop reads 1.36am yeah you read that right, it's AM and i'm online and i'm not intending to sleep anytime soon dun worry i have nothing catastrophic to report about my life life's rather.nice if you dun count the work load of course and to pris: yeah we can just go eat cheesecake and share the cost together, i'm glad u didn't get me the flower too (we are all rather short on money eh?) but the fact that u tot of it and i tot of it makes me happy =) cos we tot of each other (friends sometimes dun think of each other which makes me sad..) ..i think my tone is starting to sound like hers or maybe it's just the effect of the caffeine in my bloodlines for those of you who dunno, caffeine has no effect on me until past 10pm den it keeps me SO awake and i drank a huge cup just now cos i really am not intending to sleep.. okay, keen to noe why? not because i'm pinning for a lost love (cos not) but......... i am doing H3 LITERATURE okay go on laugh say that it's all my own doing why the hell did i sign up on such a torturous ...adventure so very exciting and let me remind you tml is new year's eve? and that i am supposed to stay up tml night too?? anyway, i was feeling rather satisfied with myself today i came home early i ran and speaking of running, my stamina is not getting better..okay abitabit but my calves are swelling so much so they resemble pigs' calves now but i've decided to kan kai yi dian..at least ppl will noe the pigs calves were due to exercise right? and isn' t it more important to keep healthy than to look healthy yah? ..but still..why can't hardworking ppl like me be rewarded with nicer legs? i do wanna run longer distance you noe..but it just ain't possible yet =( okay so after running me and lijie watched 27 dresses JAMES MARSDEN IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE and KATHERINE HEIGL is beautiful and basically the whole show i was just watching for the scenes of the two of them bantering with each other...which were too few in my opinion it's not a bad show so if you are looking for something to watch to sorta just let ur brain drift..watch 27 dresses they are cute together, and it kinda makes u believe in love again (now i sound weepy) okay here's the main point after the show i took out my phone and guess what? miss chia smsed me to say that she's gonna call me and discuss the essay at 10 i said omg to her and postponed to 1030 ..so we talked till 11 during which i realized (:$(!@$&%#@ that my proposal is rather screwed it's REALLY screwed and i need to come up with a better one a MUCH better one in ONE night ...... well, even an efficient worker like me can't do it in one hr since i can't finish by midnight i might as well not sleep seriously sleeping three hours is worse than not sleeping for me and i'm still contemplating whether to go to sch i have half a mind to just pass the damn hard copy to kum boon (there's still the question of printing it..how do i print it when my brother is sleeping?) and go back to sleep i'm screwed after i finish the proposal i still have to check to make sure that i can DO the actual essay which means sitting down with the texts and dutifully analysing them to make sure there's enough to say to at least guarantee a pass (but i dun wan just a pass!!! omgosh!) i think i'm gonna be damn sad when my h3 lit results comes out it just totally shows my inaptitude at it ARGHGHGHGH and i agree with pris i am SO planning to use my new year holidays to do homework and revision how sad is that huh (in case u are wondering, i'm blogging now cos i jut finished my first draft and everything seems broken up and singlish-y..i need to take a break before my english resumes back to normal) i have to go through all my geog case studies again (cos najib says we are supposed to ..you noe, do notes on them) i have to revise all my econs (lectures were basically spent vandalising notes, vandalising yiling, vandalising table and observing curious sleeping postures across the hall) i have to revise all my math (similarly, lectures were spent trying desperately not to fall asleep) i have to make sense of atmosphere (which i absolutely hated with all the stupid isobars and latitude and altitude..makes u wanna just let the ozone deplete) i'm rambling almost 2 in the morning i NEED to get this done soon omgoshhhh seeing a mail from TAN HUI HUA of vjc geography department really doesn't excite ppl... anyway melissa did her hair it's nice=D xinyun did her hair and now i think i'm much more tempted to buy a xinyun doll that's what yiling said xinyun doll dun you think you would wan one? to pinch and kick at and whine at and do all sorta things u wanna do with the actual one (that sounded wrong) but seriously a xinyun doll is quite saleable you know? she has the intellectual of a doll (quite low) looks like one (those can pinch ones with those rosy cheeks) likes to give tortured looks that is quite amusing to the oh so sadistic me (it's true ask yiling) ..i came online hoping to send roses lah but i seriously think i lack funds =( so can't lah and the only one i wanted to send was ruth since it's her birthday on valentine's budden i can just ask mr postman weilun to help me give her her presents so yep why waste precious money?? and in case you think i didn't think of you i wanted to send pris, mg, kenneth (i checked u guys are all registered eh? interesting..) vanessa liu is RJC so can't send o.O speaking of money juno and the PAYCOCK costs 29.95 i think even mr harris is appalled for those of you who doesn't know what's a paycock it's a peacock, spoken with an irish accent ..what bullcrap oh and these few days i've been having this particular train of thought in my head .. the new weapons of the modern man is not gun or any other weapon but a barraging pram carrying a squealing baby with wrinkled face ..honestly have you been to the malls? it's crazy i tell you parents just push their prams around as if they are tanks or those..what you call them it's quite a chore to have to siam the prams you noe i hate it!!! argh .. okay where was i oh yesh lit essay i think i plan to call xinyun in a while since obviously a doll wouldn't noe how to do it as well .. it's SO HARD LAH ..i think i'm gonna have to spend the rest of my new year hols studying sigh |
