i'm watching this really really amazing documentary
about this woman who has only half a body
please read this entry, i think it makes me feel a bit better to know that you know that i'm trying to say something impt here.
she literally looks like her lower body has been chopped off
she has a schizo father, a mentally handicapped bro who's 29 but has the intellectual of an 8 year old.
AND she has a son, caesarian, but don't you think it's amazing
and i think her husband is amazing/great/terrific/freaking miraculous

she's just so POSITIVE
i mean if you put it crudely, she's just a plain freak.
Come on if you see her on the streets you'll be upset. I will be.
but she's just so optimistic and she's dealing with everything
her exact words were "the world doesn't owe you anything. you just have to use all your resources."
i think she lacks so many things that we have. and i'm not even talking about the outside, the looks, the appearances,
but the freedom,the mobility, the normalcy, the respect that a normal human being should expect from others.

I think we should all take a leaf out from her book.
OH HER HUSBAND PROPOSED TO HER ON NATIONAL TV!! that's like so sweet~ despite her husband's you know whines and complains that sometimes he gets neglected, i think he's so sweet
how many guys really really fulfil their vows and take care of you in health and in sickness.
aww so sweet

okay so anyway, jia you with life and the junk fate piles you with
Sure we have problems too, so many many many problems but no choice, let's just go on~

http://www.unr2008.blogspot.com

UNDER NO ROOF 2008
it's an overnight camp at vivocity on 7TH TO 8TH OF JUNE
basically it's to let you experience poverty and blah blah blah shit
if we sign up as a group, they'll group us together so i'm trying to psycho as many of you as possible
PLS TAKE A LOOK AND CONSIDER GOING=D
AND TELL ME!!!
DATELINE IS 5TH MAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omggg
the weather is so hot that i've lost all my urges to blog
honestly it's UBER HOT TODAY, like ESPECIALLY hot
is the earth exploding or something?
or has singapore been secretly shifting southwards so that we're at the bloody equator....................
i'm honestly amazed that the trees didn't melt into green gooey lumps.

oh michelle yeong told me today that apparently her FATHER is very appreciative of my blog.
i dunno whether to be flattered or horrified.
apparently her FATHER does very concern-for-daughter things like sourcing for blogs of her friends.
.........well hello uncle if you happen to be reading this
i suppose cookie monster has really a lot of charm, she said that her father was so laughing over the cookie monster (glances above)

well okay
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINLING
even though it was really weird how we always just stand around and wait to be fed cake
i remarked to someone how weird it is that our class simply doesn't learn
like celebrate so many times le still no many bring tissues and everybody just share 7 forks and feed each other.
kinda warm in a sense, but.err kinda stupid too

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MG
i tot tml is 28 -.-"
i can't believe she's 18.
i've known her since.......13.
omg, that's a bloody long time.
..den wait, come to think of it..i've known weilun since.......8
....that's BLOOOODY long time.
..erm, well okay

i'm telling you i have a distaste for public transport
i think i openly tsk at someone today around yck
a bunch of guys who disrupted my sleep
..is there like a sleep hormone or something, cos i think i have too much of it
it just doesn't make sense the amt of sleep i need
imagine my surprise during lit lecture that chris was also abt to fall asleep
it's MONDAY leh
what's going to happen for the next few days?
oh shit, reminds me, tml got NAPFA.
sokmui cries and runs into the toilet*
tml got napfa!!!!!
how!!!!
i'm surely definitely confirmly guaranteely yi-ding-ly gonna die.
SHUCKSSS
why do they always wanna put students thru this kinda emotional turmoil
it's enough that i am traumatised every morning upon going to sch
now this too.

oh man, at least tml's BEN AND JERRY'S FREE CONE DAY!
=DDD
drop by any ben and jerry's stall and get a free cone ppl!

goals for today (adjustment allowed.swallows*)
#annotate lit (i saw the psg already, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ANNOTATE IT? MUCH OF IT ISN'T EVEN AN PLAY!!! IT'S JUST THE BLOODY DESCRIPTION! OMGOH!:@($!#?!:@$(!@)
#do poison (poisson) try to understand, if not call mg
# do poison.2 try to do, if not wait for miss ding to go thru and enlighten me
# look at econs essay
# look at lit essay

OH
MR JAMES HO IS SO OH OHOH CUTE~~~~
i wish i have a picture of him.
wait let me try to find one
scours vjc net to find him*
can't find leh
nvm i cant emphasize more on how cute he is =D

pls read my post on UNDER NO ROOF

omg
i'm just super tired
i just dun feel like doing anything today
but if i dun do anything time passes very slowly too
but i really dun feel like studying! ~~~~~
weather is damn hot

oh shit, it's been like one and half hr since i blogged that last sentence
all i'm doing now is reading forums on shampoo/conditioner/serum whatever shit and talking with px online on the same topic.
i have this STRONG STRONG URGE TO NOT DO HOMEWORK
omg.
i just CAN'T make myself do it lah
feels like xinyun when she say "i just CAN'T write lit"
...anyway i'm justified in finding hair stuff.
since my hair really suckks and all
i inherited my mother's bad hair haha
px says she inherited her mother's big bones
oh well, we're our mother's child. no choice -.-"

shit
even more time wasted
ah.i'll wait for night to come den vacuum and mop the floor
prac piano.
and..........
annotate lit! (that i can do,i'm not xinyun)
den...read ..read what.
oh, do poisson. the one she finished giving answers already that one hahahha.
erm.
what else.
OH SHIT LAH SOMEBODY JUST KILL ME OR SOMETHING

So U B U
And I'll be me
Just don't hide a thing
And we'll be fine
Even if it's all wrong
It's all right

And don't remember
What you're supposed to do
U B U
And in unforgiving light
Even if it's all wrong
It's alright


U B U-Peter Cincotti

okaaay
i'm the first to blog abt last night..since pris is doing CIP at the library, offering free labour and allowing evil librarians to order her around........

den mg is prob either still asleep or out already celebrating birthday with her many many friends......



btw, i woke up at like 1pm today
and strangely enough, my mother and father never even say anything!
you have to understand, that is REALLY REALLY very rare because normally they'll tsk tsk here tsk tsk there reprimand me and say how lazy i am

and my mother asked me where i was last night

and i got defensive and said i was catching up with mg pris and naomi

and she actually said very nice "no i was asking you WHERE you were, not doing what"
so i said, err, somewhere in orchard eating dinner

(i lied lah cos i dun think she noes where marina square is)

and she was like "oh, you all book the place is it, why can stay until so late?"
and me (who is increasingly amused at her very very good temper) said "no just sat there and talked"

........so amazing! did the sun rise from the west today? (or is it east.)

met up with jess and guys in the afternoon but mel had already left =(

we went to eat in the hk cafe cos i was seriously very very hungry having eaten a very light breakfast..(and let's be honest, talked abt how best to help mel)

den went to the flea mkt where i got a very good bag=D

the flea mkt is nice! will bring some of you guys there next time

jess said it'll be her weekend haunt.

pls watch out for ah soh wandering the stalls every flea mkt day.....

oh she got very good buys too, from this very affable woman=D

but the music was HORRIBLE, i tot my heart might suddenly fly out and land onto the floor with a wet thud.

met mel halfway thru with her mother who expressed the same concern (not the heart flying out, the music)


so yeah anyway after that went to meet mg and pris and naomi

had cafe cartel

the bread was terrific, service was shit (since they dun charge service charge i supposed i can't complain.) and i still love the stlouis ribs but apparently "it sucks" in naomi's words.
talked talked talked talked

i think the purpose of the meeting was to celebrate mg's birthday

..but i think it was more of a "catching-up" session lah

i loved it though, i think they did too

i think that's how i want my birthday to be..just talk loh, nth much to celebrate oso wad

anyway we really REALLY talked a lot
and we were haunted by waffles
cos we stayed at marina square till like pretty late, 10plus 11 plus

soo all around were those "Waffles at half price" sign

..after we left cafe cartel, we saw this sign at a nearby restaurant whose name i forgot...so we went in and ate again =(
ate so many shit

..okay pictures..
my friends are shy. except the one you are about to see







i hate naomi's faces.

she makes my blogger hang like shit.

anyway she's supposedly doing xi nu ai le face, please decipher for yourself which is which cos to me they all look disgustingly the same.


booo i'm so tired now~
somebody offed my air-con (i just typed piano..) at 7++, causing me to wake up feeling like a roasted potato at 730
after which i looked outta the window and saw such a pretty view that i went running.AGAIN.
but it's not as if i run very terrifically, all i did was mope around, walk..run abit..look at the grass..look at the cool machine the guy was using to suck up rubbish (it's uber huge and has long long silver trunk sucking thing)..

but yeah i like this kinda saturday
early start makes me feel abit more.erm content with the world..

i think everyone also knows what's on everyone's minds lah
(Warning: this may seem coherent to some)
and please believe me when i say that we are really really really trying to help
to the extent that i think our imagination is overfried and we've imagined all kinds of things that can happen and what we do abt them
so please give us some time
meanwhile, let's just have fun and take our minds off things
and please believe us as a clique
some of us say that we are very fortunate, because we won't ever detest-detest, no matter what happens we'll still be there
so please have faith and all hang in there

and this erm, incident? no, erm, period of time really reveal more things than possible
for e.g. i'm really quite impressed and touched by cass.
her intellectual capacity is much higher than i would give her credit for
=( so confession i promise to stop being too TOO mean to you =D

sigh this is frustrating
AND IT'S SATURDAY
you noe, you sleep one more night, den that's it! you have to wake up early again!
don't you think it's VERY disgusting?

went to the wet market just now with my mother
realized so many things had changed, the stalls have this new stall sign now, looks intimidating
but some things never change.like how all the patrons are still all aunties.
i always wonder where are the uncles
don't you think the wet market will be much more civilised place if uncles do the shopping instead of aunties?
it was very disturbing to see aunties poking at fishes, squabbling like monkies and wearing clothes that seemed it was cut up from the curtain that morning (only not in the enchanted movie way)
.....it's HORRIFYING to think that in forty years time we'll all be like that =(
..but it's okay, i'm sure i'll be a very pokish auntie.

..ciao, i have to go and make sure my brother(da-ge) didn't boil himself while boiling eggs.
..or crush the egg accidentally when he tries to crack it.
..and no, i'm not kidding.
he's taking an awfully long time -.-"

i have a strange mosquito bite on my upper lip.
..are mosquitoes blind these days?
or were my lips looking extremely juicy that day (which they so rarely are)

..
oh and yes let me just be random
i was very annoyed just now with myself because i had wanted to make coffee
but i ended up making milo.
cos i wasn't paying attention
i think i've been dreaming for the whole day lah

i have a lot of gan-chu
but dunno how to put them
i thought i found a very bad side of me today
because it occured to me that i never thought cass would be so senstive
and i was rather touched actually by how concerned she was.
and i realized that i have a tendency to..erm hastily sentenced people
well at least i'm revoking my opinions so i should be quite an alright person yea?

shan't address mel's predicament here..cos it's afterall private
but just wanna say that i think my clique continues to amaze me everyday
i dunno how to put it just that we have quite a high..acceptance of each other
dun need to lie to you, we talk and tatter abt each other
(obviously, who doesn't)
and there are certain traits of each other that doesn't really match, certain behaviour we can't really accept
but ultimately not knowing where we find this kinda acceptance, we still do it
i might still disapprove of what you are doing, why you are doing it, or be annoyed and disagreeable but it doesn't mean that i think you are bitch or that i wun talk to you again
and when we realize someone is in trouble, everyone is concerned
yeah, that's what i wanna say
i hope my clique people reads this
and i'm really truthful when i say that our clique amazingly always always surprises me
and i'm very grateful that i'm in this class and clique=D

it's gonna be a series of posts lah
i have nothing to do for tonight (well okay pls ignore the stack of whatever lying there.) i'm too tired and to quote yiling and jess, my brain rejects academics.
and anyway looking at my math notes give me a major headache
there are HUGEEEE hearts drawn all over it
FILLED somemore, so many colors
i think yiling was trying to cultivate my love for the subject
but the hearts were simply too ugly.
and i dun think xinyun helps loh, she keeps egging yiling on
as if she's trying to develop her artistic talents but simply deriving sadistic pleasure for herself.
we almost died in today's math tutorial though
statistics KILLLLLLLLLLLL
my paper zhuang lie de sacrifice le, filled with nonsense by yiling thruout the lesson.
we need to keep alive *

anyway coaching was tiring, stony, but quite fun cos ku was in a nice mood today
what else did i wanted to blog abt..

....if you've noticed why my font is so weird today
it's to accomodate ah soh xinyun whose eyesight has deteoriated to the extent that i have to enlarge my font if not she'll turn blind.

and i'm ending THIS post here cos she wants to read my lovely blog

YOU SEXY PANDA

the video nick in my class did! he's the chinese botak in the video and the girl inside is my classmate cherrisa! aka bobo haha, watch! they won second prize for music fest !!


i'm sian
i'm sian i'm siannn

reason i wanted to blog is to let you all listen to peter cincotti
but imeem is crashing on me
OH now it's working
great
listen to this, he's really good
and look at the lyrics too

..anyway
i think i'm going thru this phase
it sucks
honestly
i just feel super tired and sian of life and i just wanna stop studying

kenneth is disgusting
he says he's excited abt studying
how can you be excited abt studyingg?!!

now imeem is hanging again
i'm damn disgusted

went to the zoo today for the wildlife buddies
thought it was interesting and meaningful
but am too tired to talk abt it

..i'm extremely turned off by something
but same thing here, i can't be bothered to talk abt it

THIS SUCKSSSSSSSSSSS~~~~~~~~~~~~

oh my god
i am SO mad
SO SO SO MAD
i'm watching planet earth: the future online, final episode on living together
and this bloody spokesperson
Peyton Knight, from the National Center for Public Policy Research, whatever bull that is
you know what he said?
he said that " the folks promoting sustainable development, what they are promoting is actually NO development"
some bullshit abt how environmentalist wants NO development, to hoard the solar power and windmills
"it's very thinly veiled, they don't want any development, development of any worth to the developing nations of the world."
and it's a "clever phrase created by environmentalists"
SO BULL SHIT CAN

i'm SO sorry for being crude
but do you really really think that people are getting hyped up over this issue when there isn't evidence to show that we ARE having a problem?
and don't talk as if you care what's going on with the developing world, if you even open your eyes you'll know that all the effects of UNSUSTAINABLE development, like the huge amounts of carbon dioxide US is pumping into the air is directly hitting on the developing nations.
i am SO MADD~~
how can anyone be SO blind?
so what maybe all of us are wrong, maybe the world is perfectly fine, we're perfectly over reacting, the world ISN'T going to blow up
let me tell you what's NO development
NO development is when blizzards and snowstorms hit China and rice prices soar like shit
NO deveopment is when global warming causes global temp to go up and malaria is able to reach higher regions than before and cause MORE people to die
NO development is when more heat waves hit europe and MORE people die.
......
CAN YOU TELL I'M SUPER MAD AT THIS GUY?

you know it's always struck me as how BULLSHIT humans can be
we are such superior creatures you know
if we, such puny tiny humans
can manage to kill and capture HUGE HUGE HUGE WHALES and MAMMOTHS and hunt them to the point of extinction
PLS don't tell me that we lack the skills and technology to protect them
and in the very first place, i dun even GET why we hunt these animals
most of them we just hunt them because the successful elimination of them inflates our ego as a superior race, no?

and one of the scientists put it very nicely
what kind of place would the world be if there was NO development
everything just STOPS here, right here right now
of course there's got to be development, it just has to be ANOTHER kind of development.

urgh. my disgust.

anyway before i get carried away
me and px watched forbidden kingdom together
and jackie chan was right
the script IS crappy
it's INCREDIBLY crappy.
and the only thing that saved it was the perfect rapport between jackie chan and jet li
honestly i think i have a thing for the actors of last generation
they are just SO charismatic don't you think
and my brother says that jet li has sunwukong is very cute
i agree, it's just so, well, cute
no other word for it, a bit weird but yeah cute
and jackie chan and jet li are still so funny, i dun think there can be anyone to replace them yet

and FOUR months since i meet up with px
i just feel so comfortable with her =D
everytime i go out with her after such a long time of no-see i'll have this worry that we'll become strangers you know, like wun have anything to talk to her about
turns out i'm worrying for nothing
for some reason i just feel very comfortable with her, there's no pressure to be particularly interesting, no pressure to be anything other than myself
when we're tired we'll just say we're tired
i hope we'll always be like that=D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH sch again tml
..gosh, i have THREE pieces for coaching this wk
that's FORTY FIVE MINS WITH MR KU
....kill me just kill me
he's charimatic but too long with him will poison him
i'll prob leave him looking like someone who have been bleached.

oh no. life seriously looks set to suck.

WORLD VISION 30 HOUR FAMINE CAMP 2008
14-15 JUNE 2008
VENUE: UNKNOWN
=D

right, forgive me for the really weird outburst
for those of you woefully inadequate in your knowledge
the 30 hour famine camp is exactly what it says
30 hour of starvation
and you might ask, what for?
for AWARENESS you fool
of course us starving doesn't mean food will be automatically given to the third world countries
of course NOT
but somebody explained to me once, it's about awareness
hundreds of youths coming together to starve themselves for 30 hrs (which believe me, is a short period of time) is something to be reckon with yes?

it's a REALLY good experience, pls trust me, i've been there last year
and even though it's really bad cos again, my inability to make friends totally made me feel miserable and erm well, hungry as well, it was a really good experience

what i recommend: get a lot ALOT of your friends to join, because we are going to be sort into huge groups, so the more number of friends u have, the higher probability you'll be in a group with them yes? and obviously your starving experience wun be so bad den -.-"
so yes, people, pls join (registration is not NOT open yet) but pls consider joining, and spread this to all your friends

mugging for CT2 needs a break, what beter way than to starve yourself?
~.~

not really, but the point is, it's really fun

me and yanyu went last year
and what they did was break us up into smaller groups of family unit, around five or six, with a father mother and children
and some of us have HIV, we have to periodically go to a station each hr to get a jab or else we die
some of us were crippled, so you have to literally be tied to a friend while you walk about for the duration of the game, which is abt..four hrs?
and some of us were blind, so a patch was slapped over one eye
and handicapped people must only use one hand

and they stimulate situations where you have to work very hard to get your basic supplies
like queue for AGES to get a job
and carry cartons of water up and down and up and down stairs to get WATER
something like that
it's really nice lah

oh but the second day you'll wake to feel relief (cos eight hrs of famine has passed by just sleeping) and disgusted (you dun get to bathe so ppl who MUST shower after one day of running abt, i suggest erm, you bring a towel and some wipes -.-")

they were so cruel on the first night to say that "your supper is waiting for you all outside"
and everyone's eyes LIT up like crap
until we went outside
and the supper
..
was PACKETS OF SOY MILK AND CHRYSANTHEMUM.
yeahhh

but well, it's for a good cause
and wuyue can take this chance to starve herself.
after 30hrs you'll feel VERY slim.
....and accomplished of course
and oh yes, if a question on the world's unfortunate happens to comeout, you'll have loads of eg (i noe, cos i did that question last year and got quite a good grade HA.HA)

yeah, PLS CONSIDER JOINING
14-15 JUNE 2008
STARVE FOR A GOOD CAUSE!

btw, TML IS EARTH DAY

before i promise May and blog about famine camp..

let me do the usual whining first=D

so yes i'm officially 80% cured of my illness -.-"
other than the fact that i feel tired no matter how much i sleep
and that my nose is blocked.
and that my throat still feels slightly weird.
i'm okay=D

and i like monday mornings when i'm at home
and i actually wake up early
cos my father is around
and he will do the rare cooking
cos having woke up at 6am (he can't sleep more than that, gotten used to being nightowl i think) he starts cooking and cleaning up the house at around 7am
i dunno how to describe the feeling when i wake up and see him around for once
when we both are feeling relatively energetic instead of tired and sleepy in the evening

goal for the day
read geog reader
read my book
read online stuff
study a bit of vectors and if possible some other stuff perhaps

right so just now i tried humming a bit to the song i'm gonna post up later.
and i sound totally like the ahsoh version of wu bai
honestly
pls dun ask me to sing now
i sound worse than the worst crow
i sound like a GUY lah
one that's smoked for decades

urgh

anyway i supposed this is why people get upset over politics
cos leaders of the country just have to do stupid stuff
and prove what idiots they are
lemme quote from straits times review today

Mr Bush set a target for halting the growht in carbon dioxide emissions by 2025, without specific mandates to achieve that, and in the meantime he blasted proposed Senate legislation for tougher measures as UNNECESSARY.

(the bolded words are not quoted, they are added by yours truly)
HONESTLY
is it so hard to tell that our earth is quite possibly DYING
i mean, it's not SOO hard to tell right?
outta the ten most hottest years recorded, nine of them were in the past decade? (i read somewhere lah)
and even if you happen to be living in your own world, i'm quite certain you would have felt that the weather is becoming weirder by the day.

and anyway for those of you would remains sceptical due to the lack of figures
here you go
the US allocates just US159 million for solar research per year-about what it spends in Iraq every NINE HOURS
somemore
since 1979, US spending on energy research has shrunk by about half, taking inflation into account. Spending on military research, meanwhile, has more than doubled and is now roughly 20 times what is spent on energy research.

i realized i'm running outta time to do the stuff i wanna do since i'm meeting px later for movie (finally! haven met her for FOUR MONTHS omg haha, she must have grown prettier=D)
and yes we're watching forbidden kingdom the script that's debased even by jackie chan himself
but i just wanna see him and jet li, yes yes go on and say i have a thing for older men

back to the issue
don't you think it's time we wake up to the fact that there are so many things that's worth our caring other than when's the next math test?

TOMORROW IS EARTH DAY PEOPLE
you noe when they first announced it, everyone in sch didn't care less
including me
it's just one of those issues that struck you as unimportant when you are in sch
when you are in sch, the only thing that'll make you sit up is
a) GOT SUDDEN TEST!
OR
b) TEACHER NOT HERE!

so yeah, that announcement totally didn't strike a chord.
but pls take a moment and think about it
the fact that somebody established Earth day
isn't it heartening?
at least SOMEONE (ahem obviously not the person mentioned above) realized that the place we are living in is being endangered.

something for you to think about
as children, we have always had a natural love for the nature
which child doesn't like to go out into the wild?
and play with rain, sun, mud sand, whatever
(that's our miserable notion of nature in singapore so yeah)
but as we grow older, as we see buildings day in day out
aircon day in day out
cement day in day out
i think we've all sorta forgotten how majestic the world we live in is

nature really puts humans in our places.
as puny little creatures
really

SO BRING UR OWN LUNCH BOXES TML!

i am cat hear me meow
rabbit couple
mugshot
jay shot

okay i'm just using this space to list down some stuff.
you prob wun understand anyway

i'm beginning to suspect that i have a stomach prob.
........
and i'm probably not going to sch tml
since it's about time i slack and take a break anyway

shit!
it's noon already?
ahhhhhhh
i have so many things that i want to do
but feeling like so lethargic all over..............

ah
i'm sick
again

spent my whole saturday afternoon sleeping away
dun think i'm going to sch on monday..cos quite bad in the sense that i'm always lethargic
my cute piano teacher said i was less than agressive this morn at my attack on the piano
sigh
he's still very cute for ur information

shouldn't have gone for music fest, think it's the late and long hours, gotten sicker
but first thing first
i think it's seriously overhyped
it's not even that good lah
and i honestly thought that melissa should be in the finals.
and olivia should have won, she freaking should have won
the judging was quite bullshit.

but nonetheless it's nice to get out with friends and see them dress up and all

...me spilled jess's drink the in the canteen and i had to go get the mop and coerce yeong to carry the pail around with me while i mop up the juice.
sigh, vgems anyone?
it was seriously very no-face.
but i realized i've gotten very good with the mop -.-" all the household chores count for something

so yes i just realized tuesday got 2.4 =(((
really wanted to run and PASS the stupid thing. but now i'm sick
bleahhh

and yeah i'm glad u guys are amused by my funny looking bread. i think my whole family is totally sick of tat bread now that we have to finish two loafs of it (even if one of them is hollowed out, it still counts)

and readinig pris's blog is very saddening
sigh, makes me grateful i have a great class.

but still, been thinking
you know, we all have flaws.
and i think i know what my biggest flaw is lah
but i wonder whether if someone else knows.

..nvm
it's just the judgmental part of me talking.
..want to chat with someone but i'm having sore throat
and AND
i think i might lose my voice soon
it's the KIND of sorethroat
=D
actually i like losing my voice
don't you think it's nice once in a while to have an excuse not to speak or respond.
of course i'm not making fun of those who are mute.
i think it's a very shit life to not be able to express urself.

ahhh feel tired all over
every muscle ache
and i've realized why my arm has been aching with no reason that day
..........
it IS piano
practised till it ache. diao

right have a goood day u all

if anything the breadtalk HR department is very efficient
..or is it complaint department.
whatever
they called me back like one hr after i sent the letter
very efficient!
anyway, i'm a proud honor or another packet of the bread loaf.
.....................................

my mother, her majesty is appeased.

and i suspect the person sitting infront of the comp must be so bored of his job that he perked up at my complaint letter popping up infront of him..

so yes, breadtalk stil has hope=D

right......i've finished gp essay, which was rather fun since i did the question on biodiveristy and i was rather interested in that section anyway........
and i read more books..

haven you thought abt it this way
why are meat priced only this much higher than veggie?
if you take into account the costs that are incurred along its production..(feeding the stocks, need money, process the stocks, need money....) its price should be quite a few more times the veg's........
interesting yes?

and apparently, for every edible kilo of a cow, you feed it eight kilos.
such a lousy deal, we shld all cease eating meat.

budden again, it isn't that easy
humans are born carnivorous.

AHHHHHHH
VECTORS ASSIGNMENT AND BINOMIAL!
PERSEVERE~!

today has been rather constructive.
filed a complaint and received free loaf (checked)
prac piano (checked)
scolded my mother 38 (checked)
did gp essay (checked)
read on cows and meats and veggies (checked)
=D see, my life is fun!

The advances of technology have one more advantage
to which i've never been more grateful
it makes complaining much much more convincing

You see, despite my mother's CONSTANT NAGGING and CONSTANT COMPLAINING
this time round, she's ABSOLUTELY right
even though she's so eager at the prospect of complaining that i had to shut her up and tell her to stop being such a 38
Honestly i think this is the highlight of her life. having her daughter agree with her that this deserves complaining

Since the price of bread has increased, this loaf which used to be 3.80, is now 4.20 at CITYHALL outlet.
so yes if i'm going to pay 4.20 for a loaf of bread, which i dun mind since i really like that bread
i do expect to get a full loaf
and even if there happens to be some "hole" now and then due to ...i dunno yeast or something, it's okay
but i really really didn't expect...........this


don't you find it amusing to open the packet of bread, as my mother did
and found that it seems somebody has been naughty and nibbling at my bread?
her first question was
"YOU ATE IS IT, WHY ALL NO CENTER ONE?"
to which i replied rather irritably that "OF COURSE NOT" (you see i was in a bad mood after standing on the public train for one hr, another woes of a very bo liao singaporean)
and not that i like to complain, those who know me should know, i dun usually like to complain abt the F&B ppl since i normally sympathize
but
THIS IS TOO MUCH LAH

the WHOLE loaf was like that okay not just one piece
i think there's only like 2 dollars worth of floor inside that pack okay
and it's not as if i can NOT choose that pack cos it looks fine and okay on the outside

so yes i was rather amused and took to photographing these very memorable little bread pieces.
upon which my mother got very excited and wanted me to send complaint letter to breadtalk
and i must say i'm quite agreeable
.......
since this is obviously quite..ridiculous

so yep
let me be the typical singaporean for once.
complain!
wheee~

and dun worry i'll still buy bread from breadtalk
it's just that since i have such a boring life, let me just entertain myself a while by complaining..=D

you know
i'm afraid to look at pictures of body mod and tattoo-ing cos my mother is around
-.-"
i need the pics for GP presentations
but i'm extremely afraid she'll get paranoid and think i'm morphing into an ah-lian ah-huay who wants to tattoo herself
or worse, mutilate my body.

..
but waiting for her to finish her show is getting irritating!!!!!
i want to do my powerpoint!


...urgh

the number of people who are falling sick is becoming so huge and unmanagable that the clinic below my house has taken to putting extra two row of chairs outside the clinic
depressing isn't it
there really didn't used to be so many people falling sick
-.-"
and they have even locked the chairs together so that innovative singaporeans dun attempt to steal them.
.....
we indeed really do think very far don't we?

...okay so i actually have a lot of things to blog abt.
but i forgot what.
prob suffering from early onset of dementia or something

yiling says that i look at cassandra like at a bug.
i'm so sorry
i swear i really didn't noe
though yeah, when i look at cassandra i think there's this feeling of incredulity (got such a word) rushing thru my brain
..must be the kinda of feeling biologists get when they discover this new amazing specie
"how can it possibly exist?" hmmph

i think i tend to look at people with..erm, disdain or..erm, condescending look,
pls forgive me
i dun mean it
it's the same as when yiling looks patronizing and all she wanted to do was encourage you by nodding encouragingly.

i'm born with this face. sorry!

anyway, not to sound proud or anything
i realized that i've grown erm, if not alot den quite abit? since i've stepped into 07a14
seriously
because all of us are so different
i think we are all constantly trying to give in and accept each other
maybe there are times when we really find each other weird, irritating, annoying or just plain can't be bothered
but i think we've all learnt to be more accepting =D
im really really serious
cos anderson's culture is totally different from u guys
yes yes
and this "enlightenment" i derive from a talk with naomi=D

okay wait i need to drink water, do some work stuff.
be back later to update if i'm still alive

you know
it's not that i bu gan yuan help my brother scrub his shirt
it's just that i really dun understand the logic of it
my mother used to do it
like REALLY scrub
cos he gets his shirt very dirty, near engines and all
but i really REALLY don't see the point
why must my mother ALWAYS help him scrub ?
either you scrub it yourself
or you just get a new shirt lah
why must my mother, who's so old already help you scrub?

and now my mother 's sick
she wants ME to scrub
and honestly if it were some other thing i'll be okay
but don't you think it's ridiculous?
a 26 year old guy needs his female relatives to help him scrub his SHIRT
why don't you just get a new one?
and okay fine i'm being lazy
but you dunno how DIRTY it is okay
and besides
i really thought it was ridiculous

my mother say she always help me wash my stuff oso
but HELLO
my stuff doesnt need so much scrubbing can???????
and they are not like stained dirty with black streaks on them
(if they do i usually just throw the thing away)
i noe i noe, not being thrifty
but his shirt normally wear like one year or more already okay
it's high time to get new ones
and she say what my bro sponsor me this sponsor me that why cannot wash for him
I SAY ALREADY, IF HE'S BUSY, UNWELL, STUDYING OR WOKRING ON A PROJ
OKAAAAY
i'll do it honestly
but he's FINE, TOTALLY NOT BUSY, LOOKING AT HIS COMP
WHY MUST I SCRUB FOR HIM??????

it's a principle thing!!!!!!!!!
it's like totally FUNNY lah
you know when my father asked my second bro to go out and empty the rubbish in the chute
you noe what he said?
"AIII..AIIYA ASK MEI MEI LAH"
den my father went "what ask mei mei, ni bu ke yi dao rubbish meh?"
.............like YAH LAH
wth
why everytime must i do

and this is so ridiculous
I'VE NEVER SEEN MY BROTHERS CLEAN THE HOUSE
AS IN THE HOUSE
NOT THEIR OWN BLOODY ROOMS
i've SELDOM seen them empty the kitchen rubbish
or vacuum the living room
or mop the floor
just their own bloody rooms

i'm whining okay
i'm TOTALLY whining
but don't you guys think it's so UNFAIR
(kenneth has mentioned before that being a guy exempts him from doing housework)
hey, guys should volunteer okay
it trains ur gentleman-ners
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS STUPID WORLD???????????
and how come i have to clean their socks for them when they never NEVER clean mine???
and fold their clothes for them when they NEVER fold mine
..................................................................
it's not a he-sponsored-me so must help him clean thing
it's a principle thing
and it's not as if they are too busy earning big bucks
helllloooo~
most of the time they are idling around at home trying to look busy by staring at the laptop
which is totally totally RIDICULOUS

this is a loooooooooooooooong complain entry
but dun tell me i'm being unreasonable
surely there's SOME logic here somewhere
.......
BOYS SUCK

Polar bears VS Walrus


to say that i woke up early at 7am to run isn't accurate
...i was plagued by this anxious feeling throughout the night
which was kinda disturbing
woke up with this feeling that i had to do something....but wasn't sure what
so yeah, i went out to run

by the way, mg, did you know that at 730am the big patches of grass behind our houses look like australia?
in the sense that they don't look like singapore
cos there are no tall buildings and there are mists rising above the grass cos i think they are respiring or something
it's VERY beautiful =D

and i think i ought to thank the PE dept
if not i would never have really improved my stamina. nods nods.*

i forgot to blog something i felt yesterday when we got back PW results
me chialing alena cass we all shook hands
and it was kinda funny, like we were concluding this huge business deal
like, yes, we finally did it
had a rather corporate feeling to it, which was erm, very amusing
and nice too
cos even though alena chialing and i aren't like the closest of friends
we still did good!
and i think we all felt quite accomplished, to finish something beautifull despite all the differences in views, all the MIA sometimes, all the unfamiliarity and strangeness between each other.
=D

i watched planet earth the future yesterday online
for those who are interested
http://www.watchtvsitcoms.com/planetearth.php
this site streams VERY VERY high quality planet earth
all the episodes are there
watch it
you can full screen it and it's still bloody clear
i was so excited when i found it yesterday

so yes as i was saying
i was watching the first episode of the future yesterday, on saving our wilderness
and i was kinda angry and sad
i think the filming crew was incredible, they took five years to make the series.
and they managed to capture incredible footage
and you'll be struck by how human-like the animals are
not in the physical sense but in the way they relate to each other, even their expressions are distinct and certain feelings can be seen clearly on their faces
like how desperate the polar bear was when he launched onto a walrus to try to catch it
the desperation was simply quite palpable

i've posted the clip below, it's not as clear
but watch it
i think it's rather obvious that we're starving our polar bears

there were so many thoughts rioting in my heads after i watched the show
it's true you know, that we don't have enough funds to save EVERYTHING
and ultimately it boils down to choices and decisions
what do we choose to save?
do we save those that are perhaps more endearing, which we can relate more to?
like pandas, elephants, rhinos and all
it kinda makes sense, and they discussed it in the show as well
if i told you that about 1/3 of frogs species are endangered, that is 2000 species are endangered, would you care?
i for one, didn't particulurly care till it dawned on me that often it's the slimy disgusting creatures of the undergrowth that are the building blocks of the ecosystem.

and then they also discussed this issue
in a nut shell
how do you tell a farmer to save a rhino when he's struggling to feed his son?
it just doesn't make sense
so the gist of it was that we had to resolve the problem of global poverty first before people would be free enough and comfortable enough to look at animals.
i think it's easy for us people who are living in urban conditions to say that we SHOULD conserve animals.
but for them, choosing between an animal and ur son is a simple and obvious choice, and you can hardly fault them for it.

so if you wish to lift them out of poverty, then isn't it quite inevitable you need globalisation? or urbanisation?
and would that not require more depletion of the env?
it's just a complete clash of interest
the way i see it, the only way out is to have this conservation economy that would bring them the comforts the wealth equivalent or comparable of the urban economics
it's like forcing them to keep the forests while they run out of fuel to exploit.

maybe i'm blabbering but it's the way i see it.

and you noe it's really quite amazing how poaches are ..well, exaggeratedly superior
for obscure creatures like snow leopard the crew emphasised how much time and effort they need to even glimpse one
but poachers, well no, they easily wipe out whole populations
but the thing is, aren't poachers human as well?
since they obviously have much more knowledge and skill then conservationists, i think having poachers on our side would be rather smart wouldn't it
if only so...

okay enough of all my preaching-.-"
nice day people

let's see
i think my mother is cold-shouldering me
honest
apparently she's sick and i didn't show my concern
...
the cynical part of me would really like to say this
and it IS what i think
and you may say i'm mean or whatever
but she has never taught us to show our concern.

i'm being frank
she has never taught us to show concern with kind words or whatever
it's always been sacarsm, cynicism and all
rarely kindness true concern
so yes, even if i care, i dunno how to express it

the other part of me
..well, i'm speechless see
sometimes i think without my friends i would totally be this mean person with no ounce of kindness

so yeah, i'm now being labelled the "unfilial one"
=(

okay PW results
it's disgusting how VJ did
only 57% A.
that's like freaking low amongst the top JCs.
but i supposed i can't complain...AJ did worse i think

i can only say that i was very happy for my group
truly
all the efforts that we put in was finally worth it
esp ESP the WR mugging at starbucks
and all of the sleepless nights chialing had while roughing it out
and the near-conflicts friction that was so frequent during the last period
and all the times we had to change our proposal, from voting, to finally ITV, from one event to coming up with a new one in two days
i think we were quite amazing =D
it feels good to succeed as a group
that's why i felt quite bad as a class
cos i would have felt very very happy if our whole class did good
but someone of us didn't.
sigh
but yes congratulations to all those who did well =D
for those who didn't, don't dwell too much
take it as a sign, it's PW, not core subjects

but still
i think it's kinda careless of us all
when we are doing PW, we couldn't care less
but when the results are out, there's this tinge
yeah
work hard all!

anyway
i had this HORRIBLE dream
became totally down with flu in the middle of geog, which was really weird
den went home and slept straight away
i dreamt that there were big huge flies/insects in my toilet
and my mother and i were tryng to kill them
they were HUGE MUTATED insects
and they feed on DETERGENT
it was simply horrible that dream

i've been having weird weird dreams
the other one was about how all my friends became monsters blood sucking
and i had to run away from them all and hide in my room
and i rmb the anecdote was in this nondescript bar of chocolate
even got zoom in function like CSI like that lah, zoomed in on inside the choco, apparently got this weird chemical that is the solution.

......
SUPER weird
i wonder whether my brain is degenerating like xinyun's

..
so yeah, that's all i wanted to blog abt
super tired and worn out every friday
feels like i've been thru a battle or something
gotta rest properly
NAPFA coming lah
dun wanna fail again -.-"

besides almost suffering from cock-eye and dizziness
i survived today's coaching=D
which was a torturous one and a half hours
although things were pretty relaxed and everything..
reading semiquavers, or what you would most probably relate more to as TOW GAY BEAN SPROUTS notes..is extremely detrimental to health

..
there's this boy in my block who's under the illusion that he's a nocturnal animal of some sort.
making these weird noises..like mating calls.

oh i just read pris's blog
after countless times of my browser telling me my browser is not available when it's clearly connected to the internet.

oh wait! i have this urge to shit! finally! so i'm off to shit first. will be back in a shit (lol)

back!
oh yes this week's issue of newsweek is interesting
like really
quite interesting.
talks abt all the issues that are relevant, to me and my studies lah at least
the rice-shortage
how beijing is totally humiliating itself
and how the rich are acting to save the poor

i wonder sometimes whether the rich are too busy becoming richer so much so that they tend to neglect counting their money and giving some away
..
honestly, what do you do with so much money?
buy nations?
..totally impossible unless you live in j.d.robb's books

so yeah how DO people do with like 10000000 billions for e.g.
i'm sure bill gates has that amt of money

oh, our class blog is active again
we're ONE entry away from the 100th
shouldn't we make it special or something

..anywaaaay
nick's orange boots are totally conspicuous
i think he purposely wears them so his supporters (namely us a14) can spot him more easily.
you see it's kinda hard to spot him because ALL soccer boys sport similar hairstyle
that is, NO hair.

sometimes i wish that i'm a guy, as may fantasizes.
cos why? guy has the right to punch ppl when they feel like doing it

my disgust has exceeded my capability to express it coherently
....................................

i think i'm an extremely short tempered person
i was SO fed up when i realized that i spent two dollars to get an ez-link ticket cos i couldn't find mine then when i reached home and emptied my bag..THERE IT IS
the little liar, bluff-er, cheater
CHEAT MY TWO DOLLARS
and not to mention, because i didn't have a five dollar/two dollar note or enough coins, the bloody machine refuses to accept my ten dollar, i had to buy this loaf of ugly bread from breadtalk
IT'S BLOODY INFLATION OKAY
the price shot up again from 3.80 per loaf to 4.10 now
it's SOOO bull

AND why do ppl insist on bringing their kids everywhere with them??
it's so inconvenient!
and they are a public nuisance
or why are there forever noisy malays at starbucks
i was so frustrated that i couldn't finish my stupid hot chocolate
so, i wasted my money again

AND why is it that my mother seems to be under the illusion that she HAS to provide for my three meals?
i already told my father that i would get my own dinner, since they never prepare for my share
cos originally supposed to usher for the IU
den he called and said my mother will cook
so i was like, okay
and when i get home, what was it she cooked?

FRIED EGG WITH CONG AND PRAWNS
...................
her defense was that i like it
yeah of course i like it
but it doesn't mean that i like a meal with ONLY WHITE RICE AND EGGS
i'm NOT cassandra you know???!!!
and the point being that, i could get my own dinner! no problem! i live two seconds away from the food court!
and it's SUCH A WASTE CAN
she always cook these kinda egg thing
den my brother NEVER eats these kinda egg things
so by 10pm when i see a pile of the bloody things still there i'll be compelled to finish it
..............................................

so yes my dinner was WHITE RICE WITH FRIED EGG
i totally cannot be cassandra
i was so fed up with my dinner that i chomped it down within five mins.
URGH

seriously, what's wrong with my mom???
i told her " you think eggs very cheap ah? dun anyhow cook lah!!! where got ppl eat rice with eggs ONLY de?!!!!!!!"
...........................................................................................
so now i feel unfilial since she was just trying to be nice
but really
RICE WITH EGGS
....i tot only kindergarden kids eat that

AND I'M SO FED UP!!!
why do they insist on giving stupid assignments like
"think up ten questions for a particular essay"
WHY? WHY WHY WHY?
it's not as if it's useful you know?
i dun mind doing essays aqs and compre
like REALLY
but doing these kinda things just make me feel stupid
and a waste of time
............................

ARGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH
this was supposed to be a good day loh! cos i got home early like 330
URGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH

sunday night 9.41pm
to quell mel's fears
i didn't do any studying this weekend =(
haha it's okay,meant to do it today after blading with enid
budden mg msged and asked for afternoon tea
so i spent my entire afternoon with pris and mg doing nth but talking and moving from one eating place to another.

you know
life can be really simple
but at the end of it you need a certain amount of money lah
every weekend i feel that life can be truly simple

i dun have to have too many outfits
and i'm extremely happy just to talk cock with mg and pris
it's nice you know to talk abt alot of stuff with them
it's a nice change away from vj peeps (not that there's anything wrong with u) but it's a connection to my past
came home around 8pm
and had this sudden urge to do the whole "clean house thing" again
it's quite theraputic actually
i plug in my mp3 (which i realize, to my horror, was on all the while) and just started vacuuming mopping den wash plates, fold clothes, iron clothes and tidy up stuff

then i was thinking
the one hr i spent doing these things
i could have spent it reading stuff, doing homework, revision
but doing the cleaning thing makes my mother happy

and i think sometimes we really take housewives/mothers for granted
mopping and vacuuming is more exercise than u would think
u SWEAT de loh

in any case, i think i'm a mean unreasonable overbearing person
my president smsed me stuff blah blah
and i just said "yeah okay sorry abt that part"
sounds totally flippant and unsincere
but seriously, i've realized one thing
there's just too many people in my life that i like, and even for those ppl, i dun have the time to really talk to them
so for those that i object and reserve my comments, i simply dun have the time to be nice and hypocritical to you
maybe my opinions will change, so i reserve my comments

but so you see, i can be a rather mean person, dun offend me

i like sunday nights when my mother is sorta sleepy
and happy to see me mop the floor
and my brother is at the living room watching soccer
being gratified to see someone mop the floor
(i'm trying to make him feel guilty by mopping past him...)

ah see, now he's uttering weird comments again
"blah blah lousy lah.kayu~~~loussssy! kelong~~~"
..my lovely cute little family
.....why do guys believe that making noises during football is essential?

reading mel's blog makes me feel..envious?
she knows so well what she wants
me..i'm still searching i guess
but i noe that i dun wan a job that just pays
maybe something more meaningful than that

may says that if i'm a guy she'll fall in love with me
oh pls, of course
i'm so cool~
no lah, there are parts of me that are totally female
.......sounds very wrong
aspects aspects, cancel the parts

anyway i read this particular book
there's a quote inside that makes a lot of sense. not quote, but a particular thinking
humans are always lying in their daily lives that everytime an honest sincere outburst comes we feel compelled to draw people's attention to it by saying"honestly, truthfully, frankly" which further accentuates the fact that other than those moments, we are fundamentally liars.

true yeah?

sigh. we are all flawed.
some of us can see it clearer, others don't
doesn't matter though=D

in a while i'll start doing my homework
kinda late in the day but i've got nth planned for the night. so should be alright

..later in a while
when i don't feel quite so ..restless

..everytime i play the piano it makes me restless
you know what it feels like?
like i'm abusing a person who hasnt got the strength to fight back
simply irritating annoying
or just NO KICK

anyway me and xinyun went to the maad bazaar today


http://www.maad.com.sg/
for those who are interested
it was really interesting!
and plainly people are going for the "be green" angle cos many stuff there were made from recycled materials


i bought a notebook recycled from a banner
very pretty
and there were bags made from toothpaste/mamalemon wrappings
they look nice but werent' my type lah
and there were very nice necklaces(that were too ex)
and i bought these box and err box-look-alike that were from recycled paper too
they were very pretty
=D


and we bought something for yiling's birthday!


xinyun kept egging me to buy stuff for "good cause"
but i dun see her forking out the $$ lah
but i was quite happy to see that many people are going green
cos the products are env friendly, AND they look different and unique

the brochue we got for the recycled mamalemon and sorts

technically i feel tired.

and sian. AND TOTALLY sian

has an urge to just punch someone


i forgot something
just in case you think i'm a stuck up who never reflects
i reflected
and i've decided that i DO hold disrespect for the whole MA session affair
and i still think it's a waste of time
but they do try so hard
alicea guowei and all
so yes i shall go for all the MA sessions without complain
even if just to root for them
(and see somebody's face amusing myself he tried to warn me)

to adopt a phrase of mel's
TGIF
thank god it's friday (a little belated seeing as it's now saturday morning but still)
it's FINALLY the weekend
our whole class almost died yesterday throughout the whole slew of lessons.

oh yes i shouldn't digress myself from my goal of this post
nods nods*
my president of piano ensemble wanted to give me a warning letter
yep, you read right, a WARNING LETTER
though what he wants to warn me about i have no idea
(okay okay, lack of respect, lousy attitude??)
anyway thanks to junru, he didn't, cos she spoke up for me
thanks junru! but actually even if you didn't i wouldn't have mind=D

in fact
i'm damn proud to be considered for a warning letter ha.ha.ha.

okay let me tell you what happened
on thursday cca was SAID to end at 6pm
it started at 5.30pm
and it's MA session, music appreciation session but in that afternoon, a very rainy wet tired afternoon we were doing discussion on how to do fundraising
and afterwhich, we were supposed to have cca dinner in sch, eating takeouts from thaipan
anybody see anything wrong abt the picture yet?

the thing is
no one knows anyone very well (except the j2 lah)
and it was a VERY VERY rainy afternoon and i was VERY VERY tired
i was just VERY tired okay
and due to the fact that i lived on some niao bu sheng dan place, forgive me if iwould like to go home earlier.
and that i had no patience for things that dunwork and dun serve their purpose

so yes me and a friend stood up, walked to him and said "we're going home first, k?"
and we were fully expecting okay, since afterall, we HAD stayed for the bloody session, which WAS bloody late and we DID contribute to the discussion and we were afterall leaving just a tad earlier than the others,
AND it's not as if you still had some important stuff to do

but what did the stuck up do?
i can't quite rmb what he really said but the gist of it was
-cca times are from 5.30 to 6.30 (oh yes so says you, how come i never knew this)
-he also lives one and half hour away (ah but you see , i dun think you have a mother who nags and i sorta think you ENJOY staying out)
here's the most important point
at this particular moment i got fed up and said "so you want us to stay until 6.30 lah?" i repeated this sentence a couple of times
and all the coward could say was "it depends on whether you are commited to the cca"

a couple of thoughts went through my head but forgive me i can't rmb the details to tell you guys since they were underscored by the most wonderful of expletives.
COMMITED?
well yes considering he was the president he SHOULD have the right to say that to me don't you think?
but ah here comes the problem
let's see
he DIDN'T take up a piece for the january concert owing to his busy schedule climbing mountains (he's in odac, i'm not discriminating against odac, just him)
i DIDN'T see him around during cca walkabouts, i saw EVERYONE else in the exco EXCEPT him
i haven't seen him for a LONG LONG TIME in the piano room, which implies again that he somehow wasn't being coached for his piece
he DIDN'T used to come for meetings himself!

and the most ridiculous thing was
in his simple shallow mind, commitment was measured by how long you stay in the bloody meeting
NOT apparently whether you practise with ur partner, whether you go for coaching with the very intimidating ku-ster (calista's quote)

and so yes of course i attitude him
wouldn't you?
so i went "fine, okay! i'll stay"
and went back to the group to whom i said "my dear president said i couldn't leave, since i have to be COMMITED(double, triple gazillion stress this word)"
"so says he who's not very committed himself"

and i glared at him when he finally finished his little speech
acting all friendly and nice

you see, i dun understand how people like him exist on this wonderful planet
they are HYPOCRITES i tell you
worse than snakes, since snakes TOLD you they would sneak up on you
he's just SO nice to the authorities, to the students
but he's just so incredibly STUPID
i'm SORRY and APOLOGETIC to be debasing him like this
but you can't blame me, i've grown to dislike people like him
and since they all sorta spew out of piano ensemble like a factory spewing out bad dolls(ugly ones too) i'm sorta frustrated.

and so he wants to give me a warning letter
to which xinyun chortled and said "warn what???"
precisely
go ahead though, if you see this letter to expel me or talk to me, or issue another warning letter
the only thing i can say is
you are such an insignificant little tinny tweeny little pest that i took two days to blog about you
i was SO tired on thursday
and the next day when i heard you wanted to give me a warning letter, i didn't even get angry
i was just very amused by your stupidity
and how presumptuous you were
but to give you credit, you did bring certain entertainment into my joy

quote from yiling
"WELL DONE!"

congratulate me
i DROPPED H3

i repeat
I DROPPED H3

the fact that i'm relieved should already say something
and let me tell you this
if ever you are bothered by a problem, or your mood is damn bad
just sleep and wake up earlier

the moment outta my whole day whereby i am the CLEAREST as to what i want
is 5am in the bloody morning
btw, when i looked outta my flat to the opp flat, NONE of the units were lit. how sad are students lives.
okay so anyway i woke up this morning at 5am (after having a very good sleep with..weird dreams) and know exactly what i want.

to drop h3
..actually i'm a very simple person leh
..i think i'm getting simpler every year

..
does that make sense??

yep so i "celebrated" with naomi by eating subway
and coffee and toast at city link
the mocha latte very NICE!
and cheap too!
it's from real coffee beans i saw!

so i'm feeling fat and broke AGAIN.
sigh.
what did i wanted to blog abt again...

life of an eighteen year old suck

i'm in a super bad mood now
and to think when we ended geog this afternoon i was in a rather not bad mood too
........

i think it's all the small things in life that makes you irritated
and it's also the small things in life that makes you happy, but for these things, we seldom notice them

so, all the small things that made me irritated today
#135 did it again. TWO came at the same time. Don't you just get irritated when that happens?
it just makes me wonder how long the other people will have to wait for the NEXT bus to come. what's WRONG with bus companies anyway? if it happens somemore times i'm really really tempted to write to the stupid straits forum and complain about it. Surely if you are talking about improving bus services, pls start here. if not it'll be pointless.

# my muscles are aching without reason. and thus i can't play my piano properly.
you may think it's nth much, but when u couple this with a lousy piano. the results totally sucks.
imagine tofu arm playing melted ice-cream piano.

# i can't wait till the govt builds the two-way rail. YOU NOE HOW STUPIDLY CRAMMED THE TRAIN WAS? even though i had a seat. but still, why is it that i feel guilty when i'm sitting? doesn't make sense

# miss chia hasn't replied me. i finally made up my mind and now i'm left hanging. totally knows what mel is feeling

# attended human geog remedial. everything made sense, i learnt some new stuff. but it never fails to amaze me how unamazed i am at human geog. it's just as though i've learnt something i've known all along. which makes me feel like A levels is shit gone.

# tml got PSC talk. wasting my time

# i havent prac with shimin. coaching is gonna suck.

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i feel like i have a gazillion thing to do but dunno where to start
when did life become so freaking frustrating
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ARGHGHGHGHGHHGHGHGHGHG
and the thing is, when i'm in this kinda mood, i suck at everything i do
even blogging
...fucking irritating.