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sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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facts about my life i've been assaulted by an illness that's been a week long already the sickness alternates between days so much so that i'm getting fed up with it kumboon, lijie, naomi are also sick. (what's wrong with all of us?=() so borrowing kumboon's words, i have totally got a reason to be distracted about my studies so tired and lethargic and..... okay fine, i deserve it lah honestly, who ask me to keep messing up my sleep routine and all but well btw the bian zou qu THE ENDING SUPER LAN CAN??? omg the last fifteen mins of the show, the last ending walaooo shuling pls tag and echo my disgust for the ending what kind of ending is this??? i was hoping for some climax where all the people die or something in the end NO ONE DIED as opposed to all the tragic endings o.O so anyway spent the whole of yesterday at xinyun's house her house is SO suitable for sleeping and slacking lah and her sister xinhua is so interesting can quite refreshing to talk to her after talking so long to a dumb xinyun (no lah no lah) but i can see that her family are all.......quite weird hmm but like i told xinhua, i like xinyun cos she feeds me without me asking so i sorta crash at her house alternating between studying econs and reading my book and crashing on her couch, which her sister claims is very nice to sleep on i actually fell asleep for a while but something shocked me awake, can't rmb what and it's RAINING AGAIN! beginning to sorta hate the rain yah i noe, so unlike me but honestly it's depressing when i'm trying to get a bit more energetic and positive about my studying urgh btw, congratulations priscilla! even though the red font you use is really ugly ...... URGH i hate being sick=( and oh yes i forgot to reply michhy i miss u too=) (nah not really but must say like that right?) and hor, mg, i'm too sick to do ur quiz. later and i dun attend the sch of master killing or whatever wo kuai yao xiao si le (loosely translated is i'm gonna laugh to death) if i ever EVER um-chio like vic zhou can you please just kill me his um-chio is really .......wo kuai yao xiao si le so anyway i didn't sleep the whole night .......-.- i didn't noe this would happen when i drank the cup of coffee yesterday night at 7 and WEI SHEN ME WO ZHE ME KE LIAN AH .............. i have nothing to eat at home you noe! no bread no nothing! i was even contemplating cutting tomatoes and eating them like that got eggs but the wok got a lot of oil after mom fried stuff last night ..so what am i eating? ........crackers with coffee albeit it's my favourite brand la but still at this rate i'll get diarrhoea de loh and yes i've realized that there are several things you can do when you have insomnia #watch mei wei guan xi episode 15 and tell me that vic zhou's um-chio is really very stupid #do a mask. yes. do a mask. there's no time better than 3am in the middle of the night when you are lying down and there's nth to do cos your comp hang and you wanted to try to get an hr of sleep. so do a mask. # look out the window and stare at the maid doing her chores # take out your camera and attempt to take decent pictures in the night with your flash off. believe me it'll take up several minutes of the long night #watch vic zhou again and um-chio with him anyway episode 15 is really cute i'm sorry to disappoint you all with my lousy taste even i myself am appalled but his um-chio has gotten me cracked up so many thousand times i'm tempted to skip my appointment with naomi and continue to um-chio with him so yes why can't i get macdonalds breakfast? i've been planning since 2am to get it and eat it along with his um-chio (i'm going siao liao just watch me go siao) but why? ........cos i have a horrible creature at home her name is called mother and this horrible creature has six senses! yes! she can SENSE that my light is on in my room! and it's not even the room light, it's a table lamp! she can sense it!!! and she creeped over and i was doing my mask! so when she knocked, i got the fright of my life and tore the mask off and threw it somewhere on my bed ......................... and because that creature hates macdonalds because mac has cheated money out of her before by charging 5 bucks for three lousy pieces of floor..... she'll totally bite my head off if i go down and because she feels that at 5am it's very very dangerous to go down because other creatures will be waiting to eat my delicious head she'll nag and nag and nag and nag that's her most potent weapon her nag. so..yeah i'm drinking coffee sprinkled with um-chio and i repeat if i ever EVER um-chio like vic zhou please kill me. ps: is this my earliest post to datE? no right? S.H.E - Jie Kou (with jay chou)
so yesterday in partyworld they sang this song which i never knew existed..kinda cool lah so yep yep (maybe xinyun who's eternally searching for songs with oomph will like this...) even though i'll prefer if jay chou is the one rapping.sigh. all he does here is act cool..the more i listen the more lan i think this song is -.- ah~ i've had my favourite brand of coffee i've shitted i've read the latest issue of FIRST (which was free cos i kope money from my mom to buy it along with the coffee) i'm satisfied and content and happy life's simple pleasures can't be simpler than these=) .....so it turns out that my lethargy and sianness and emo-ness earlier today has nothing to do with myself but only with one single thing ..one pill of panadol -.- yeahhh so i slept away my entire afternoon den i woke..studied geog and realized to my horror that the bloody lecture fisher gave and the bloody supplement notes fisher gave contradicts. i spent fifteen minutes staring at the lectures, the notes, my own notes and decided to surrender and ask cass who happened to be the only one i know who had touched physical geog. and .......... we both had no idea what's going on so anyway we've decided to email fisher (correction, i'm gonna email fisher, cass is just gonna free-ride) the only dissatisfaction i have is that i'm left with only one hr to email fisher, find my phy geog case studies, call pris to find out how her competition went .. oh and another thing i realized i haven't watched accuracy of death ..on the other hand ..i'm so broke nowadays that i've decided to just forgo it. and pls dun ask me to watch narnia with you watching the dvd of the lion the witch and the wardrobe was painful enough my favourite character was Aslan. personally i felt the lion was the only thing that was beautiful and kingly for one thing, can't they rename the stupid children? king PETER, king EDMUND (this one still passable) Queen LUCY queen MARY. .... i mean, C'MON it's already very hard for me to picture four brats as kings and queens why do you have to make it harder by giving them such.....such pre-century names?? at least prince caspian sounds grand-ier (though it reminds me abit of casper the friendly ghost) apparently for this show the four kings have grown up abit and matured and "gained wisdom" according to FIRST. but still. if the whole movie revolves around Aslan i'll prob be more happy to watch it ..6 dollars to watch four brats be kings and queens. why would i even pay just go to orchard road choose a comfortable seat beneath a shady tree and watch the dozens of brats that go by so many varieties somemore, really entertaining some of them squealing in prams (which i really really hate) some of them hanging onto their mothers' hands squealing some just trying to test whether their throats will tear by squealing. who needs a crown? so yes in response to xinyun's sms which asked me why i blogged less during the hols than in busy holidays my ans is for some reason this week has passed without me knowing it ..this is so awful why do holidays pass before you know it and you know what, i think both me and xinyun are pigs all we do is eat sleep eat sleep eat sleep and oink to each other oinks oinks* kinda enjoyable but not very productive. ..hmm maybe i'm like the smarter pig... yes i think so definitely *rereading what i've typed* sometimes i really think i'm so amusing ......scratch that righttt off to email fisher fishy fishery (oh shit dun say i said that) and CAN'T I BE CURED OF MY SICKNESS SOON??? btw, kenneth is sick too =( this sucks right, how come we're all sick during the hols =((( i know i KNOW it's irrational for me to say this. but i sort of miss the sun. ..like why has it been rainy days for both these last days? especially when i'm having a slight fever i really wanted to feel the sun .......and when i went down just now to get my paper the sun was nowhere to be seen. ...i TOLD you i KNOW i was irrational.. at this point in time..xinyun is probably in sch suffering in cic again so sad and famine camp sent me the confirmation email le ..for some reason i think i'm gonna be super miserable this camp. cos yanyu wouldn't be there. =( and i realized it clashes somehow with my last piano practise with my teacher.sucks ..sigh shall see how it goes went out with the girls yesterday and after several running here and there here and there finally settled down at party world to sing. was quite nice but shouldn't have gone-.-.. my throat is worse and i have a fever AGAIN. ..if i don't know better i'd say i'm down with a terminal disease. nahh..that's just me trying to exaggerate anyway i realize i miss weilun peixian and gary alot. ..kept thinking about them the whole of yesterday during k. ..maybe i'm falling in love with them =( ..or maybe it's just the fever and i'm hooked onto mysoju and i just wanna stay home everyday to study during the day and watch zhou yu ming during the night (i can't make myself say zai zai, eww) ..quite fascinating *nods nods* it's not like a terrific show but i have no idea why i'm so hooked. ...irrational i miss xinyun too=( ..and naomi=( ..i think it's my fever. urgh i realized that my whole weekend has been totally unconstructive. honestly lah, all i remember is .. oh.. going to the aust thingie and..err..harmoc concert, giving hz and wuyue the very ugly roses (sorry lah) and then trying hard to recover like what i told weilun when he asked what i was doing "i'm concentrating very hard on recovering" ..it SUCKS to be sick during the hols cos it's so not worth it if you get sick during the sch days at least you'll get the satisfaction of skipping sch cos you're not feeling well enough to attend irrtating lectures.. OH OH let me tell you how shuay i am today if this is not shuay i dunno what it is me and yiling were on 48 to amk (yes to shop but i didn't buy anything except something very nice and cheap.show u later) and then this uncle sitting behind me sneezed. like SNEEZED. like sneezed very hugely WITHOUT covering his mouth to the extent that it's like the panadol extra advert?? like his sneeze ruffled my hair. ............. den one hr before this. i started sneezing like shit and i was thinking to myself : i only got fever and sore throat leh, where got flu? and i was very careful to on my aircon at a higher temp incase i get flu ..then I FINALLY CONCLUDED. it was that uncle. and his potent sneeze. ......... win, win loh and my father's apparently sick too i thought i would never hear anyone sneeze as much as yiling but today when i left, i think he sneezed like 10times straight. sneezed lying down somemore, must be damn uncomfortable oh btw bosco wong fans (shuling and kb take note, i got correct le hor) dun think he looks VERY nice in black? ..yah i random lah (uber fans like michhy will say he looks nice wearing anything and wearing nothing) but i insist he looks especially nice in black. and my illness is not subsiding. my sore throat and fever is like, bubbling below the surface waiting to explode lah ..so i've decided to try something new instead of sleeping it away ..i'm going to try jogging tml. maybe if i overuse myself i'll recover better you know. sometimes it works like that -.- wish me good luck if not you wun see me at ktv on wed people, i'll sound like a slaughtered chicken. and aren't the songs on my blog nice=) by the way, i'm gonna swear my ella's jeans ella is this shop, that on first glance, looks like an auntie shop which sells really outdated clothes BUT THEIR JEANS VERY COMFORTABLE=D at least, to me lah and cheap oso so yeah, got another pair (mother paid for it this time ha.ha.ha.) read pris's blog and in response, just gonna say that i read this article somewhere that there's monopoly in charity oso and that in essence, there's not enough funds and resources to aid every single individual so ultimately, you have to make a choice and there's monopoly involved the article cited how the gates foundation (bill gates and melinda gates) attracted all the top-notch researchers and scientists and there's very few left that's dedicated to other issues not under the gates foundation. yeah, felt kinda ..sad i guess when i read it cos if even charity has to be listed under business ..den we're really so screwed eh, mg, the proposal thingie show? i'm gonna watch it soon=D and to everyone else, i have NO INTENTION WHATSOEVER of quitting mysoju .......DRAMAS SERIALS AND STUDYING GO HAND IN HAND. =DDDDD and...... you'll prob see me blog everyday too=.= dun ask me how the hell i study like this ...looking at the pile of notes is nauseating. ah i forgot to post i'm so sad that i can't possibly go to boat quay to watch the waterfools, the arts fest opening and all and somemore so rare that weilun asked me out -.- sorry xinyun too but really feel like shit ..........damn shit=((( i feel like shit suddenly fell sick yesterday during harmoc concert the moment i sat down i knew something was wrong. =( must be all the late nights, and i mean really late nights like 3/4am ..and the most stupid thing is that i voluntarily stayed up so late to watch shows and yes ISN'T ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND CUTE??? ..my plans for today are simple sort my files read newspapers sort my room drink a lot of water and get well before the bloody 4hr test tml ................ 4hr ..by which time yiling may have to carry me home oh my god i really hope i can recover by tml lah for goodness sake anyway harmoc concert =D it was entertaining to see shuling prancing around seldom u see her do that btw, the shoes right? both pairs you can dump le ..i need to get another pair of court shoes anyway for my piano dip.sigh ..ooh i forgot to blog abt xinyun her low eq and iq ..budden i'm too tired and sian now lah very sapped of energy my whole body feels like it's being chained and locked up sore and everything ..so yeah, next time ...low iq de xinyun tiring day it's THE LAST DAY OF TERM! and i see all of singapore(those who are subjected to the cruelties of school) rejoice even priscilla has come back stronger=D glad to see you survived ur cts. let's go out soon=D next sat? alvin's cheerleading team is competing at ngee ann city mg can't make it, but you wanna go see the sissy? it's PROFESSIONAL cheerleading so it's gonna be damn good=D ..yucks my milo is tasting like vomit again reminds me, this morning, vj full day off yippie yeah yeah me and enid waited for xinyun like ten years before we went off to katong to scour for food. ..it was bloody hot and we had a lot of food for some reason i'm infatuated with katong food ..it's all xinyun's fault ever since i met her all i can think about is food. must be her face, looks like a bao or something. so after that we went to hungary talk ..err so apologetic to say that me xinyun and enid were all .. trying very hard not to doze off -.- we tried you noe, we really tried, but we couldn't understand the president at all .....there were a few phrases we caught. budden his accent was too strong and all of us were trying SO hard to keep our eyes open. this guy sitting at the last row just nodded off, jerked himself back up and tried to appear to be not too rude anyway, the president was quite nice q&A was better though good exposure lah ..i chiong home bathe, took a glance at the newspaper (ever since kenneth chided me for not reading newspapers i've been making an effort to do it okay) den went out again for anson's sajc choir. err, not very good lah the choir ann has educated me on the standards of choir. so i appreciate vj's more but it was very funny to see anson he still walks like an ah-seng haha very distinctive. and now i'm at home midnight eating fried chicken to quote najib "i'm going to carbo hell" ...nah it's okay, i'm gonna shop for GSS so hopefully i'll eat less (rightttt) oh yes did i mention? xinyun treated us =D she said she's rich cos she feels rich or something like that the most brilliant sentence i've heard her say i wish she can say it everyday and mg tend to speak like a drunkard after 11pm. ..really and i think it's very scary to offend her you know that she scolded an auntie who was so rude as to push a pram over her feet, saw, and didn't apologize? of course the auntie was super wrong but the fact that she scolded the auntie. SO SCARY. ..*must remind myself to always be nice to mg* but right, sorry about tonight i really didn't wanna join u guys at first cos it was so awkward. in the sense that i'm really not that kinda sociable person den aaron was there, hanhui will be there, den arthur somemore ..too much for me to take lah so sorry=( whoa, super long post sometimes i think the sound of typing on keyboard is very nice don't you think there's a certain rhythm to it .. omgg mg pls be a bit more careful i think i'll cry very hard if anything happened to you and she's so weird she's upset cos she lost her jay AGAIN. ..sigh, you are not meant to be with him ..i forgot what i wanna blog about already lah tml sucks oso busy schedule kns. i need to sort out all my notes and start planning wad to study unlike the others, i got stuff on every week so i plan to start studying/playing at the same time. like day study, night play ..yep yep .. what am i saying bye bye 就算我们之间有什么问题 依然想念着你 虽然被放弃 虽然我愿意 就算我们之间有什么难题 黑夜我还想着你 心碎人孤寂 虽然我愿意 伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意 当你关上了门离开 这个房间 关上了仅有的光线 只剩想念 我还感受到温柔的幻觉 月亮的背面 写满了我们的细节 我的回忆种满你曾对我说过的预言 开成了一座遗憾的花园 也许一天在挤满行人的那一条街 你才会发现我留下的空缺 幸福需要的磨练 我们都误解成搁浅 活在想象的明天 忘了今天未完结 okay i admit it the moment i stepped in the house i cursed at the weather my mother scolded me and said i shouldn't scold the weather (tian) BUT IT'S SO HOT! and please remind me NEVER never, to take 966 in the night again -.- disregarding the time it was so bloody hot. but since all i do when i reach home is have dinner, blog, read a few pages of my book and fall asleep..... it's okay =D it's very strange what experience one trainstop=2mins=half a song can yield when the train started moving, you know there's a kinda breeze? ..and suddenly ...there was this strong strong waft of... sweat. ....and i dubiously sniffed myself to see whether i really stink that much and i concluded, no, shouldn't be, if not lijie would unbashedly point out. so i concluded, must be the uncle next to me that looks like he's labored for 50 years. poor guy. and, when i'm almost reaching my admiralty stop this guy tapped my shoulder and told me my shoelaces were undone. i think i was so tired by that time that i gave a very ungrateful sniff. ....but honestly, how come he goes around telling people to tie their shoelaces? i PURPOSEly lazy to tie cos reaching home soon leh -.- .. uh well anyway it's so bloody hot that i'm dressed like a slut. okay, not like, LIKE a slut, but more like a slut than usual fats and bulging hanging body mass cannot triumph over this stupid weather. interact installation was. ..well, lame. me and lijie just wanted so much to bury our heads when they announced the service awards lahhh we DON'T deserve the service awards come on just because we happen to be there every week doesn't mean we did stuff. all we did there every week is to ka-jiao edward (a boy there is called edward he's so cute) for his food, listen to his stories about his family, and TADA! another cca day done=) ..so it's really like, quite undeserving of us to get it lah so i've decided to dedicate mine to.... NAOMI SIM YUXIN=D cos she's the only one who really did a lot ..even though i suspect she gave away so much food cos if the food are left at home, she'll be tempted to eat them.. but anyway, she really did good lah =D WAKAO sia my mother doesn't have a cheque book ... honestly please go tell ur parents to stop doing this kinda ridiculous things what, am i living in the stone age? how come my mother doesn't have a cheque book only my father has one and he's ASLEEP he's ALWAYS asleep at least he's ALWAYS asleep when i'm awake HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MY CHEQUE FROM HIM????!! which reminds me YOU ALL WANNA SIGN UP FOR FAMINE CAMP DE OR NOT i'm so tired of asking you guys one by one. so reluctant somemore you guys i'm so irritated by somebody in my house no prizes for guessing who right keep asking me to ask this ask that when she's already signed up for mio i'm so bloody irritated please, if i ever become like her can you just drag me to jeju island or sentosa or somewhere where i can be less like her i dun wanna be like her so fan~~~~~ walaoooo!!! these are evidences to show that inflation is HERE # the bloody dumpling i ate has like so little fililngs and they weren't nice # my mother is telling me that a 90 cents bun is expensive IRRITATING LAH how come i can't just come home and there isn't anyone at home except myself???!!!! ..even the nice mood that i cultivated today eating with xinyun is gone URGH Labels: u ahhhhhhh stupid xinyun she just told me that miao qiao wei is like very old so i googgled him and he's 50 years old leh. ...... but he doesn't look like it and xinyun very irritating lah oops it's ah yun ah yun very irritating loh she kept insisting that he's so uncle i told her kenneth more uncle den now she say she dreamt of edward SHE DREAMT OF EDWARD EDWARD LEH THE IMAGINARY EDWARD LEH walaoo i asked her whether he had a face in her dream she said that very blur. ...her blog name is www.onlyonepost.blogspot.com that's what she wants lah she haven done it ..so dumb right ..she say it's cool she say it's cool ..omg she say it's cool this is my fifth entry today anyway i really think that ah yun is very lousy LAN LAN LAN LAN zhen de hai lan LAN we must send ah yun for counselling she's still living in her own bubble bubble OH i forgot to tell you all i told xinyun before if i have a dog i'll call the dog BLUB BLUB BLUB BLUB BLUBBLUBLUBLUBLUB THAT'S ALL! for more entertainment call xinyun=D omg let me blog properly i can't believe we did such a childish thing =D aniwae (just to haunt u for a bit) todays' a great day i spent my entire day watching shows shows shows and more shows i wanna watch dicey (such a stupid name) more than the channel 8 show leh how ..so sad but i choose hk drama over it and ah yun very sad oso, she had to go out with her family even though she dun wan awww ..is today the lunar 15th or something the moon outisde my house is so round so big so shinning dun you think it just makes u very happy to look at it? (go on tell me i'm delusional) but i really AM in love with miao qiao wei (i think that's his name) you wun noe who he is lah, not very famous but he's damn nice=D and i realize why songs are always about euu leavve mii ii don wan euu but dun have songs that celebrate ppl falling in love de? (i'm not falling in love dun worry if i am i'll call each of you and tell you) it's just a simple observation so yes! one more week to june holidays! so happy!!! i have this sudden urge to go cycling and bbq isn't it nice if all ur friends knew each other? haha, but i supposed that's not practicall SO SHIT! MY CHEQUE! FOR WORLD VISION!! URGH!!! aiyo kenneth you sho shuckx at being twit. (Actually i oso quite suck at it lah........) (in any case all the following content are true, in the sense that it IS what i wanna blog abt...but eh well the tone is so not me) (if you have a sudden urge to vomit it's okay i dun blame u, i give u all the right to get outta my blog and come visit it when we're all normal again) aniwaees todae verii scary lehx!! moi house downstairs ggot sho many ah beng ah sengs!! sho scareed loh mee eui wuld neber noe woodlands in the nightx sho scary de!! (..i took like maybe five mins to try to write these out?? no wonder kenneth blogged so short only...) aniwaees kenneth shooo cutee horx? he asked moi to type like tis to entertain him...(urghhh) mi tinks mi wants tho vomitz wah liew (forgive the lousy twit language.) i wann him to blog about xinyun but he didn't (i dunno how to be twit with this sentence lah) it's sho funnii! (i'm reading this twit's blog) reasons why i lubb ahyun (xinyun) # she's shuch a cuttiie! # she ish kenneth's gf?? # her face ish owaes sho cutttie red! #she reminds me of a shugar bunni! haha! iie lubb shugar bunni! #ii cann't do wibbout her iin moi liife! .......gosh i can't go on (let's just try) aniwaees mie lubb DU CHANG FENG YUN mani mani muchx! sho niice show!! got a guy sho shuaix! ..ookie! miiss euu mani mani much! smuack* (oh gross) (i'm off to vomit) Oh myssss peoples, todazes is SHO SHO SHO veri hot! Euu knowz ah, I realli kan't stand e weather nowadaz. As I sit here doing moi GP project, I hav to switch my fan on 4 full blast so that i won't hav to fan moiself. Washei, if onli i can switch the air-conditioning on. Guess what peoplez, I've bean doing absolutely nothing. Nothing! for e last 3 daes. It's like the long weekend is sho wasted on me, oh mys I feels sho veri guilti larhs. I keeps reading freakonomics that I start to neglect moi work. Haizzzzz. I went to search for some kawaii blogskins just now. I saw this one that says, "I'll be your rainbow if you'll be my sky." Don't euus all tink tis ish absolutely cute? Hmm, I am tinking of changing my blogskin to this. Comments, peoplez? Haiz oki I guess I will stops here. For your information, the above blogpost is not typed by Sok Mui, so I forgive your "what on earth has happened to her?!" reaction when you saw that. It's by me, Kenneth, who has hijacked into her blog =D In case you are wondering, no I don't type like that. I am trying something out. Sokmui, it's your turn now. 先賭為快 - 李克勤 (賭場風雲主題曲) 作曲：伍仲衡 作詞：張美賢 主唱：李克勤 站得太久 分岔口怎麼去走 我夠膽孤注一擲 完全沒有顫抖 愛你那段時侯 簡簡單單經已足夠 到任何東西應有盡有 誰還留力舐傷口 人生太短 出手要更大 旁觀者不需理解 贏得風光 豪得精彩 自己偏偏感覺失敗 自尊心都可以出賣 忘記我也是無壞 連幸福都輸掉醉在長街 依然是我最大 連夢想灑一地再任人踩 依然笑得爽快 hi all! *gives very cheerful grin* i'm so happy because........................ MY MOTHER HAS A NEW HONGKONG DRAMA *whee! it's called dicey game, about gambling and it has all the stars i like!!! there's ouyang zhen hua, xuan xuan, the very very shuai guy who acted in shui yue feng yun oso, and.......... BOSCA WANG=D and he's quie cute inside too not to mention ouyang zhen hua with his huge belly is extremely cute..and an extremely awfully amazing good actor i watched like eight episodes last night lah cos when i reached home my mother was watching the first at 7 den i watched all the way to midnight slept feeling extremely happy ahhh this is the life man go out study, come back watch shows ..i think my eyes are feeling abused though so sad, but no rest for them, i dun care, the show is too nice met up briefly with meigui yesterday but she who cannot study properly got so bored of me who can study properly that she went home =( and i spent a lot of money again. on food. ..not even nice food actually. okay! ciao! happily skips off* since i promised kenneth that i would read up on the earthquake in sichuan, china... i'm reading the newspaper later-.- cos he's so exasperated by the fact that despite it being on the headlnies and everywhere in VJ, i didn't know about it till yesterday -.-""" i'm so sorry lah, i was too immersed in my judas strain and my own life i didn't even have time to prac for my own dip, not to mention reading the newspaper.....sigh so yeah anyway there's this huge report on straits times today so shall read it later hey victorians, josef said something about him being interviewed for recruit?? when is it huh i wanna read and see him haha so yesterday pon sch and went for guitar concert guitar concert was nice=D much better than music fest actually i think i was biased towards music fest anyway i bet michelle and justyne must be feeling super shiok now i know i did, kinda relieved that everything was over but sad at the same time but the repertoire was sorta bad for the ensemble? only 6 pieces were played by the entire ensemble, the rest were small group performances. haha but it's almost full house! so shiok right, i doubt piano ensemble ever will be like that.. the guest of honor, miss ng ling kai i think, she was super good lah maybe i'll find the youtube and let you guys hear, she should cut an album honestly by the end of it, i was pretty tired clue: read it whatever way you want to today's saturday! sunday! den monday no sch! shiok sia anyway read my ip friend's blog she said friday the teachers say is full day apparently they've been informed.. wonder whether it's true. but oh yeah! to mg: we are going? yes we are??=D pris still dun wanna go. i think it sucks to be her friend. always so unsupportive pouts* i'm prob not going sch on friday (again) so yeah will prob meet you earlier=D you tell anson or i tell anson? what else did i wanted to blog abt. .. i feel tired, by everything. haven't blogged for very long not going to sch tml actually i haven't really decided on not going..but this afternoon's piano coaching just made me very sad you know, i always experience anger, frustration, tiredness but seldom sad but today i really felt quite sad. (i know it sounds kinda weird that way) cos i can tell ku is really disappointed in us (as in vj piano ensemble) it's obvious that way and i dunno what i was feeling sad about (okay fine i do noe, i just dun feel like saying it straight out) on the bus i was stoning and reflecting den this woman came onto the bus she was big, dirty with mud smudges on her face and was wearing ragged clothes and talking uncouthly not someone you would expect to see in singapore but there you go apparently she didn't pay enough for the ticket so she asked me for 10cents, which i gave, of course. then she thanked me, walked halfway down the bus and thanked me again very loudly which was kinda embarassing but the thing is, the whole bus was shunning her like, because she's so different, and maybe she was very poor, a beggar, who knows. but she was nice, and polite and uncouth maybe, but she was nice and it's just life really isn't fair you know nobody had the right to give her that kind of life, but she apparently didn't have a choice and i'm so tired of living up to standards you realize that from the moment of your birth you're being forced to live up, or to measure up to a certain standard. your mom expects u to be like that like this like that and i'm tired of having to pass thru exams, tests, or even just have to obtain the compliments, the assurance of someone to know that what i did was good why can't i just play a piece that sounds lousy to you but i tot was brilliant because i was playing with all my heart why can't i write a piece on env conservation that maybe totally lousy in grammar and structure but i tot was brilliant because it's what i wanted to say why do we always have to pass a certain standard, be acknowledged by someone else before we acknowledge ourselves that being said, it's unavoidable my piano teacher said before, exams are inevitable, but you dun have to take them too seriously either and i was feeling sad because i realize how ..preoccupied we all are i'm so preoccupied with my own thoughts that i failed to say what i wanted to say when i wanted to say it like today cass said that she wanted to go and run on sat maybe start a healthy lifestyle or something what i wanted to say was sincerely, good for you! like, it's great you should keep it up, even if it's just for the sake of keeping healthy or like when junru got so tired on tues of piano ensemble, i wanted to say something but i dunno how to put it this is such an emo piece sometimes i wonder what place i hold in my friends' hearts you know because ultimately we're all selfish people it's very true, there are always moments when you forgot/neglect someone because you happen to be preoccupied by your own thoughts. or failed to see how important you are to the person because you were too insistent on ur own beliefs, ur own feelings. such a sad depressing entry this is -.- to mg: knowing kMnO4 is used to oxidise doesn't count. cos i knew that two years ago >.< anyway that day i met anson at citylink on our way to choir concert he shouted my name and i dunno how to put it but i sorta miss how he used to shout and scream my name in the anderson's corridors and instantly i knew it was him it's just..brings back fond (and not so fond) memories i miss him. but no one wanna go to sajc choir with me =( forgive me but i feel an urge to be sentimental i was so happy that px's mother said what yonghong wanted to come into vj cos i really think he'll have a good time here there're a lot of things i'll miss when i graduate definitely not the waking up early and running 2.4km part okay fine, actually even the 2.4km part, when the whole clique ran with us as a show of support (thank you all, FYI i passed=D) i'll miss josef's lecture, i still rmb his first lecture, we all thought he's a damn guai lan lecturer who just plain likes to pms. i'll miss najib's constant crappy lessons i'll miss how vj cheers like shit and annoys the hell outta other JCs during school matches i'll miss how we cried and sang the sch anthem last year when soccer guys failed to make it into the finals i'll miss sara's AH MUI~ ..and alotalotalotalot of other things. it's only when everything pass then we realize how much we loved it back then it's a common mistake of us, one that will be repeated again and again and i recently begin to feel that actually i'm rather immature i dunno how to put it maybe i'm being childish in snubbing zhongkun but i got so angry when i heard he injured his hands. how can you be so careless with your own hands?! you're a pianist you know? a damn good one at that and you were so WRONG in ur priorities as to injure your hands. i dunno what to say to that in any case i think i've long forgiven him already (despite him not saying a single sorry and not knowing why exactly he pissed me off) just that i dun wanna see him again cos it'll be awkward and it'll prob lead to more misunderstandings. piano ensemble is a bunch of nonsense. i miss who i was with you. and i wonder where he went. -cinderella beautiful, peter cincotti i swear i might as well just go and die why is it so HARD to study??? i had a terrific night dreaming about..some monsters or something (again) (maybe i was born a queen monster or something and they want me back in reign) and woke up feeling quite satisfied with my night and i wrapped all my books! so pretty! and organised them den. DEN I GOT HOOKED ONTO A JAMES ROLLINS BOOK it's called judas strain and yes it sounds religious but it's not ........my mother just came in and told me she missed the 2nd prize of 4D by one number *rolls eyes* .. uh oh family crisis* pls hold sometimes i think my brothers will kill each other and no, i didn't say that in exasperation i really think so nvm so yes i got hooked onto the bloody book the first two pages are more exciting than the first half of twilight's put together i told michelle yeong that the first half of twilight, all the dialogues that are supposed to be funny? i think xinyun and my convo are even funnier.ha.ha.ha. goes to prove something so yes i purposely went out to study to avoid my comp and the bk den MY AUNT CAME OVER TO SHOP wth and more stupidly we never even buy anything, only toothpaste (she going overseas) so i spent three hrs in causeway getting nth (curses at melissa's goods) den i spent a ridiculous 2.5 hrs on OWEN ESSAY i told enid it "tops the chart of essay shit".......... i never wrote a more crappy essay in my life *family crisis unfolding in the background* shit. and anyway today's mother's day i dunno what to do abt it so we bought her a cheese cake which was like 3/4 gone when i reached home (my house rears pigs or what) but i was super stuffed le lah just eating for the sake of eating it and den i read EVEN MORE of the book arghghghgh den now i'm tempted to watch show again ..well at least i did some lit.......... tries to comfort myself* ....... this is just super great watch me fail 2.4 *stomach bloats* oh shit ..wo wan dan le i'm dead so dead D.E.A.D dead i've found ANOTHER show that i like. this is so #($:@ $&!#( i'm doing it again i'm spending my weekend watching a lot of shows doing NOTHING and just feel like SLEEPING.. oh my freaking god anyway i've finished twilight. i am gonna reconsider my opinion of it the second part of it was actually not bad.... or maybe i was just in a better mood to appreciate it ...but you have to admit she writes better in the second part. no more irritating word structures that keep starting with "i" i"i"i"i"i" yeah and new moon actually seems quite promising maybe i'll finish them after all=D oh okay so this new show you'll never believe i like this new show .....it's called mei wei guan xi a show abt chefs and food and kitchen etc etc storyline is cliche enough missy loves father's cooking, father dies, missy sad missy can't do anything, is a kultz missy drinks soup by a chef that happens to be PMS-ing all the time missy cries, wanna learn how to cook that soup, so wanna work there ...... and. missy=hou pei cen. ......go on, go -.-" i oso had that face chef=.......zai zai zhou yu ming go on go on -.-" i oso had that face but he's SO MUCH BETTER HERE OKAY no more pretty boy image i'm SO GLAD HE DITCHED THAT IMAGE and i'm really amazed by how hostile he can look outside of meteor garden really, he looks like really unfriendly and hostile =D .... fine i have a fascination with hostile stories and guys okay ......but it's surprisingly CUTE leh that show and i'm not bullshitting you agenda for coming weeks watch shows ONLY AT NIGHT after FINISHING HOMEWORK/REVISION IN THE DAY ..................................................... i've decided i shan't watch any more of these shows until june comes so i can study in the day and watch in the night and actually be productive you dun hvae to read the following agenda for tonight vacuum house/room mop house/room wrap MPH books finish homework (consisting of..err.math normal dist prob takes five mins since i wun noe how to do..econs tutorial..look thru some lit) agenda for tml wake up early, go run =D practise piano go out and STUDY ECONS (i'm saving all my math for june, there's simply NO point trying to do math now) START AND FINISH MY OWEN ESSAY=(((( reminder to self* stop thinking abt fictional stuff aka books aka shows by the way i'm pissed off by the fact that i've found nice jap show (Absolutely boyfriend) nice taiwan show (the zai zai one) nice hk show (the 7pm and the healing hands 3) but no KOREAN SHOW i'm deprived of korean shows! i wanna hear korean lah i really think korean language very nice........ it's okaay ... bae yong jun's show is coming up and he actually looks quite nice in it........ *cass is looking doubtful* ..well it's true and my life is increasingly becoming hollower-.-" keep being filled up by shows shows shows and more shows and no i'm not in love with edward, not yet theoretically i should feel relatively happy today it's the weekend my week has been quite nice, there were no cca, life's been good with great shows and enid lent me twilight today before i get started on emo-ing let me just get this over and done with i'm sorry to tell you guys that i can't decide whether or not i like twilight ..i googled the movie trailer though, and i can tell you i think i'll like the movie better ...for some reason i can't really get myself to like bella ..for SOME reason and i seriously think my lack of enthusiasm for the book has something to do with myself been sorta in a daze today not in sch but once i went home.. started reading twilight..den went to run, whatever shit stamina i had is gone and i'm positive i'm failing 2.4 but at the same time, you noe the feeling when your heart is pounding but ur head isn't really registering it? like ur head is still super light and dazed even though u're sweating and pounding and shit tot i would be better after the run and the 7pm show but am not i'm still in a daze even though the 7pm show is great, the guy was really cute i dunno how to describe the bk for one thing i agree with yeong, the descriptions are a bit......redundant. err and i skipped quite a couple of pages. only to realize suddenly belle knows he's a vampire and edward and her are dating already. which made me go "wat?" so i went back and see if i skipped some stuff that were impt but i couldn't find it, so i got pretty annoyed there's just this bleakness in the whole book okay despite all the attempts at being funny most of it fell flat. honest i dunno why maybe i wasn't in the mood today probably because xinyun enid and mel had made it out to be so good that i had too high expectations for it and they fall short and edward is just so UNREAL. and sometimes i wonder whether bella is being purposely unaware that she's beautiful it's a failure if stephanie meyers is trying to construct the image that she's unaware that she's beautiful despite so many admirers (it's so bloody darn obvious) and the constant reference to edward's pefection is getting me pissed off. like i said i'm rather irrational today pls dun get angry at my irrational opinion of the book but that being said, i have to admit that i'm still reading the bk for what i dunno, more like because i wanna go on and see what's so incredibly nice abt the book that got two million readers hooked. xinyun mel and enid included of cos so yeah i'll update maybe tml, am halfway thru the bk but frankly, i'm already quite sian of it .......... okay i retract, i'm sian today my bro is raving again some nonsense raving mad at my mother and my mother is driving me mad by insinuating that my father only wants to buy a piano that's around 6000 7000 kept saying "then how's the, that one you tried?" "don't talk abt yamaha, or the 56 000 one, the others leh?" i was so irritated and annoyed and frustrated that i shouted at her "if like that i rather you dun buy" i'm so freaking fucking annoyed seriously like that you might has well not buy i'm in such a foul mood that i kinda can't be bothered to watch the 9pm show. and i still have to go to sch tml i dun feel like it maybe i'll ask yiling to pay for me first. i honestly dun wanna go. cos i'm feeling like shit ....really really does she need to emphasize so much that edward has great eyes, great chest muscles, great skin, great everything? and in such a non-subtle way some more ..i'm sorry, i think xinyun is like madness now ~ maybe i'll change my opinion~ in any case the movie looks nice. nicer than my family i think which made me think abt what miss wong said the other day melissa said that miss wong is more real than other teachers i told her it's just that she tells us about such things and it's true, life IS unfair and we just need to deal with it i dun think you guys noe how unfair i think my life has been because there are some things even you guys dunno and it's making me so extremely tired like what pris said i think i need more good shows, more good sleep and get well soon pris p.s: i laughed out loud at the bird shit part, did you buy 4D? count me a share prob will come out Peter Cincotti East of Angel Town
Do me a favor and watch this! I am still STILL in love with this guy and i haven even shown you guys his jazz improvisations!!! Watch pls??!! realized i haven't blogged for quite a few days apologies to all my dear blog fans (muahahaha i'm being bu yao lian like priscilla) i've been busy chasing shows=D it's so horrid the tv it's really horrible sometimes i think that our generation is sooo screwed my life is happier simply because i have better shows to watch, cuter guys to see, and more people are dying it's warped isn't it? it's honestly warped! but i have to admit, it's nice to just think abt the 7pm show, the 9pm show, the 10pm show and of course the 24hr crunchyroll show ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND jap drama is VERY cute=D it's so rare to see me rave abt a jap drama (cos i usually prefer korean dramas since the guys in there actually look like they eat and dun spend most of their time beating up teachers and chasing skirts....) but this one? it's funny .ha.ha.ha sidetrack: mg ur entry is so stupid. i read so many om shanti om ..it's terrifying ...*an ant crosses across sokmui's screen* *sokmui meanly blows the ant* come to think of it i think the march/april/may season is the breeding period of the ants in my house intially i tot the.. *spots ant on pillows* blows* i tot the bloody idiots were just on my bed because i suddenly grew a bigger mouth and am leaking food but i realize, THEY ARE EVERYWHERE i simply left the coke on the kitchent able for five mins and the next gulp i took i swallowed like a family of ants. ....................... at least i didn't bit a bee yiling bit a bee it was very big she's very traumatised go remind her go go point is, it's irritating to co-exist with these little buggers when they keep biting you when you're sleeping i've been waking up with weird bites and before i spotted them i tot i was developing a new strain of handfootmouthdisease or something. ......nvm where was i before the ants? oh yes, shows and mg's stupid entry ...errr so yes my life has been much happier due to the bloody tv ..which ought to make me feel miserable because i'm basing my happiness on fictional characters but everyone is doing it twilight by stephanie meyers is kicking up a storm in my class ...i think mg pris and naomi you can try reading it even xinyun reads it xinyun finished three books of it which means it must be very good since xinyun finished it i emphasized again, xinyun finished it =D (got the point i was trying to make?) so yah everyone is like living their own world xinyun is fantasizing that a vampire named edward would come and fly her away i'm fantasizing that not paying attention in lectures would not have any detrimental effects.. it's USELESS i'm telling you everytime i'm in sch i get these URGES to study (due to the fact that i couldn't bloody understand what the teacher was talking abt) but whenever i reach home the bed...ah the bed, it's calling to me my laptop, so big and bulky but still kinda useful (in watching cute jap show) is calling to me in fact i just spent an hr and a half reading FIRST magazine and a page of newsweek talking abt post-american world mg will be glad to noe this apparently the biggest investment in movie industry is in BOLLYWOOD, NOT HOLLYWOOD so possibly her om shanti om might have sequels or whatever .................. i'm possibly dead already ...everytime i think abt piano and a levels i just wanna freak out ...AH THIS SUCKS i have wu4 out a philosophy this is why our lives are so miserable *xinyun is rolling her eyes over the phone* this is the MAIN REASON WHY OUR LIVES ARE MISERABLE because we are good at NOTHING we excel at NOTHING *but xinyun says she agree, just that her eyes itches need to roll* we are not geniuses like PETER CINCOTTI did you noe he turned professional at 12 and played in clubs den he learned his piano at 4 ....... SO I EMPHASIZE OUR LIVES SUCK BECAUSE WE ARE GOOD AT NOTHING NOT EVEN FLIRTING life would be at least a bit more interesting ... i find my blog very amusing xinyun is speechless xinyun says she can't stand the attitude of the blogger whom she thinks is slightly insane might i add that the blogger herself thinks so too .. well at least i'm good at something-being insane ...not like her who's stuck, somewhere in between accomplishment #1 i actually found a way to finish my assignment poisson .2 and i have an official confession to make i'm absolutely in love with a guy It was high July Another Summer On the boardwalk His skin was brown As a rosary bead The year before He was everybody’s hero But he was losing ground And gaining speed He could’ve been a girl But just one good hand of poker That could’ve turned The whole damn thing around But that July Something was lost That never did get found He was the sun That was waiting to rise He had the look Of a king in his eyes And everything Everything was possible And now he just laughs And says what the hell And clings to the secret That He’ll never tell But I wish i knew What kind of scar Can turn a sun into Just another falling star the euphoria was short lived. finally received the approval for my dip exam. finally finally finally but the thought of facing the piano again is daunting. i think i should never do anything that's too stressful i'm a person that shouldn't try to compete or whatever.. feeling tired like shit i supposed it may be the influence of very very painful cramps but somehow i think i just get so tired of sch actually must thank xinyun for some reason it's quite impossible to become depressed when i'm with her so i told her she must always remain so upbeat if not i may possibly sink lower and lower till i.....well, drown or something goals for today finish poisson tutorial and assignment try vectors 5 do some lit in the remaining time.. i think i need to learn to find joy in piano i am in such a foul mood that's an understatement to the extent that i almost punched the auntie who asked me to pay 10 cents for the toilet use. but i didn't, of course not. don't you think that there are times when we all wish that we had the capacity to be evil some of us have more of that capacity some of us have less but at that very moment i wished that i had alot of it but at the same time i was also aware that i can be very.....angry my brother drove the car out when he doesn't have his license worse, he let his friend drive the car ..our brand new car his friend some stupid dog cat stupid friend who can't possibly be any good when he doesn't tell my bro to stop it stop the nonsense the disappointment is so huge that i thought my heart might explode. i was quivering and i almost slammed my hand into something for many times. and then because my elder bro hates my second bro things weren't made easier ........ and i can only summarize to tell you i really feel like asking them to fuck off i think i sorta just threw the bag of his friend to my mother and slammed the car door when they finally came back. let me just give in to one of my i-hate-the-world bouts. you can either read it, sympathize or just get out of here somebody up there really hates me what the fuck is wrong with you why do you not learn your lesson? and why is it that my elder bro seemed almost happy to be proven that his judgement was correct at that my second bro had strayed again and my mother, the more i look at her, the more frail she looks and i'm just struck with these huge huge anger and i just wanna slap her around, my brothers around and just throw them out of this universe my 18 birthday is coming soon i think i almost forgot what i wanted to do for my birthday the one thing that's so important that had me living in a lie for what, like 4 years? and then we went to look at pianos the only piano i liked, was a german grand that costs over 50,000 what a joke. really what a joke. you dunno kind of fury that's boiling inside me now everything just boils down to money money money money money fucking money if you dun have money you can't do anything if i have money, i can buy a dozen cars for my secodn bro to crash until he either kills himself or he gets his license revoked if i have money, i can buy so many dvds for my mother so she can just watch and stop worrying abt these kinda stuff if i have money i can buya piano if i have money i can stop studying, stop going to sch and talking to teachers and friends who just make me feel that i'm a better person when i'm not i'm not a nice person i'm telling you i may be like nice and talkable and whatever with you guys but i'm really not i can be extremely selfish and when this kinda things happen i just wanna fucking kick someone i dun even care whether you are old or my brother or whatever shit or my grandmother for that matter, whenever they say she's ill or not feeling well i dun feel anything what, am i degerating into this heartless psychopath i dun even know how to carry on blogging all i can feel now is anger anger at my bro anger at my broS anger at my mother and father for reaping what they sow you wun know what i mean unless you've been here yourself they ARE reaping what they sow anger at myself for not helping things and being so not sympathetic anger at this stupid country for its academic importance anger at the fact that i can't anyhow skip sch cos i just dun feel like going to sch and i might probably end up punching miss wong if she asks me to do anymore group work anger at the fact that i'm angry 1$#%:($ @&$1R3%B3[` FUCKING BULL i really dun like self-pity since it doesn't serve any purpose except making urself feel more miserable but at times i just want to feel more miserable i WANT to feel that i'm this pathetic person that has the worse fate in the world but i'm not, and i dun feel that i just feel angry that i can't just die here and now since living no longer seem to serve any more purpose i wun ever get married unless i'm absolutely certain that my family wun wind up this way mg, i can't wait for end of year to come when i have enough money and i am eligible enough to undergo that treatment i'm so angry that it's crippling and affecting my playing and i'm so angry that my mother hasn't given it more thought or that my family hasn't really noticed that i never got over it fucking sucks Peter Cincotti - Goodbye Philadelphia
i can't do anything at all all i keep thinking about is that stupid piano. why am i so incompetent A Sun- just another falling star attention to all Andersonians did you guys know................. OUR UGLY GARDEN IN THE MIDDLE OF OUR SCH BLOCK, YES THAT ONE? IT GOT FEATURED!!!! IN THE NEWSPAPER! ALONG WITH.......................................... DRUM ROLLS* THE EVER GREEN........... EVER WORMISH. (FOR MG) EVER..............SHORT EVER..........IRRITATING YANQI!!!!!! =DDD i had no idea..this is a little tidbit from ruth poh xiujing of HCI so any discrepancy please drop her a mail, dun email her, she still hasn't figured out the essence of emailing so yes! our garden is supposed to be quite beautiful you know! i still rmb mdm chan (our form teacher sporting the beehave-halo hairstyle) saying that it looks like a tomb and basically spoils the fengshui making us horrible at trying to focus in class it was the one thing i agree with her on not to mentiion that it looks muddy whenever it rains and it just makes my mood even sadder that there's a pile of soil dump in the middle of my sch .oh and mg's sake, it draws worms. a lot of worms.. well hurray for anderson, our grave garden has gotten huge recognition! and hurray for yanqi!! he's one step closer to being GREEN saturday night ..i dunno whether to curse or celebrate was a horrible afternoon cos i played SO badly during piano lesson was quite appalled with myself my fingers were just like..jellojellyjell................ simply very shit. i was totally in shit mode sorry girls for putting on a dao face, i was trying very hard not to -.-" but anyway new york new york was a nice getaway though..the coffee really sucks. dun order coffee there. and everyone was dressed very nicely =D after that went walking around with mel and jess mel tried some dresses, one of which was quite nice but was so ex!! and the sale assistant was so..erm, persuasive -.-" anyway she managed to worm outta the situation with a sincere ahem face and some very bad chinese. i put on jess's trench coat, the one that mel said looked like flasher's coat err i tot i looked like quite weird but jess started mistaking me for her bf..and kept clinging to me.. i think she has a thing for trench coats and flashers......... well err nvm den jess went off for vocals, me and mel went to the book sale i think mel was quite horrified -.-" i forgot to tell you that i stay very long at booksales de, like one hr two hrs cos i errr am fascinated with books. she like took MINS to choose her bk while i snailed around and all haha so she went off first my bro came to fetch m=D okay go on and curse xinyun, i know she's like super defensive for my bro and insists that i'm exploiting him but if you see, if i dun get him to do such errands he'll probably always wall up in his home and shrink and disappear so i'm actually doing a good deed....... the more i look at my five dollar denim bag the more happy i become... the more i look at my fifty dollars worth of mph purchase the more happy i become too but once i look at my piano ......... my mood plummets (is this how you spell it?) btw, i think i'm a very bad senior. if you wanna know why, pls ask me i am very willing to tell you all abt it ha.ha Labels: I i promised to pay a tribute to the very brainy Jessica Lai of 07A14 since it's her birthday today but i'm a bit too zoned out -.-" so i'll do it later okay?? anyway, by means of clever manipulation and calculative timing i've managed to "wormed" another extra 5 bucks from my mama, after paying for my two pens =D i have new pens=D please remind me not to drop my pens i may cry =( you have no idea how much it hurts to drop 2 dollar pens , and realize they can't work again=( so yes our whole class was extremely inspired by mr james ho and the girl who submitted the absolutely brilliant script on malfi so i spent my entire night erm, reading some literature stuff ..but like i told everyone, i was highly distraught as to why i'm not in science -.-" i do seriously think i'll do better if i was in there you know. sighhhh. i have this feeling that no matter how much thinking i do, i kinda can't reach that kinda god-like trance sob sob* and this is shit i need money for contact lenses i need money to register for SATS (which i am so so so ohlazy to register..i'm dead lah, i should have made huizhen promise to ying ying pull me to register..left alone i'll never do it) i need money to..well, intake healthier (and tastier) nicer looking (not like tau huay) and erm, basically, mentally more satisfying food (as endorsed by xinyun) oh yes well if i have more money, xinyun would benefit too cos i tend to be generous to her as well (at least up to the point when i run out of money and i start whining again) ....gtg! before i blog abt anything MEIGUI!! YOU FORGOT THAT I GAVE YOU ONE LITRE OF TEARS IN FEBUARY FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!! =(((((( hee~ yeah that's one post it is ridiculous the kind of things money-deprived students like us have to worry abt xinyun is cursing that she has no money to make something for yiling i'm cursing cos i'm running low on pen ink and it means i have to get money from SOMEWHERE to buy pens again i'm also cursing because my finances are getting from bad to worse due to the the self treat JTS last night. .........we nice seniors couldn't bear to make the juniors bear all the costs so in the end, we paid too. kns and cos i just got maybe ten bucks from my mother i can't get money from her again AND tml is another sch day! which means money-spending day! this is getting ridiculous! and!! i dunno what the hell i'm doing at home lah i have no motivation to do anything except my lit essay finished my play one, but the owen essay really really sucks cos i have to kinda re read owen which isn't gonna be fruitful cos the env isn't exactly conducive, if you haven't noticed, the weather sucks to the core. it's SO HOT~~~ so i was thinking maybe i shld do math but it's POISSON! poisson!!! i dun wanna do poissonm!! cries* den i tot maybe i can start reading on geog reader but the geog reader is so disgustingly irrelevant! so you see you can't exactly blame me for not knowing what to do right den i tot maybe i can start revising for math ct2 by starting on some revision topics but once again the bright sunlight is streaming thru my windows and hurting my eyes my back my fingers and every part of my body is screaming for it to rain but it doesn't so see i'm stuck i just wanna be one of those bums who do nothing but surf the net and drink coffee and wait for the sky to release rain there's NO CLOUDS you know omgggggg we're experiencing high pressure drought i tell u there's no clouds! how can there be no clouds? it's s been so hot these days that surely surely there's water evaporating every meeny second??? ....................................... the world's gonna explode we should all just sit around and wait for it to explode. (#@%&!@$%t $"@#$1 okay lah!!!! i'll do my owen lah kns. okay let me blog first before i do other stuff i think i kinda can relate why my mother bitch so much when she does housework cos i do the same -.-" it's sorta this struggle between obligation and laziness like "why the floor so dirty then u all don't mop always wait for me to mop" urgh which is true why doesn't any of my brothers mop?? irritating piece of shit but neway, yes i cleaned up the damn house again, took a bath, went blog hopping and stuff ohhh btw our junior's blog is VERY interesting winks* you guys know which one? it's super interesting, i read alot last night and grew more amused as i read anyway so excited that xinyun me and cass all wanna pursue the same area of study environmental conservation/study/ or whatever thing they call it but the thing is, singapore don't have such courses so maybe we'll all try to get scholarships and get into the same uni or something which is kinda impossible but err it's just dreaming i have so many things to do but for once i feel kinda you know energetic i think it's cos IT'S finally settled=D yesterday went quite well and our group was very happy and all actually i had this very strong urge to hug you but enid and yiling beat me to it and then i got rather pai seh cos i'm not a huggy sorta person but i laid in bed last night feeling very happy that things ended well and more than anything i feel very grateful that i'm in this class in this clique yiling says she doesn't feel this gratefulness cos all her life she's been in very accepting groups but yeah well not everyone is as fortunate as she is -.-" i can't imagine how much life would suck if i had to travel all the way to VJ and still gotten some sucky clique or bitchy class so i guess someone up there must be rather fair after all i really really like this class this clique alot like what yip said, it's very precious, because we never had conflicts and we all care for each other, sure there are two distinct cliques but it's not as if we ban each other out, it just so happens that we take to each other differently so yes i'm really really very happy we're all still together in this=DDDDD oh yes and we're super touched that josef tan said 07a14 is the best class in his eyes according to char like we're first, then our senior class den something and we're so touched and surprised cos we never even interact much with him in fact i sorta find him a nuisance now and then cos ...well he's really full of shit haha maybe najib whines infront of him everyday and goes "my class is so nice~~~" and all i think he said something abt what he misses the fun he had when he was in jc studying and can't see it in the classes now except in our class=D 07A14 rocks i think priscilla is getting increasingly envious of my lfie -.-" (except the one hr travelling to sch part..) i dunno how to comfort you really but you really got a very sucky class it's okay, life is fair lah you can't be stuck with sucky ppl all your life and i know it's super miserable but at least amongst those sucky ppl there are still rare rare ppl that you are glad to know yes? 07a14 rocks and finally with everything settled, i have this new energy to do my work (no it doesn't mean that i'm ready not to pon sch -.-") okay i wanted to blog a very long entry but~ ..i need to shit ^^ later~ before that just a quick list, you can stop reading here things to do #email monday lit to yiling so she can do her essay #do owen/gatsby essay #do analyse play essay #do econs essay # do poisson assignment =( # do whatever shit i need to do which includes shitting bye bye |
