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sokmuiam a cynical person who hates orientation and the ridiculous rah rah atmosphere. shares a love-hate relationship with ku-ster and the piano. god should populate the earth instaneously with adults, thus skipping the absurd toddlers and squealingn babies fan of korean shows and the rude ah jun mas, secretly think bae yong jun is not bad looking. listening to classical music on the train is a waste of my battery. Dislikes babbling women who are not efficient.adores House. Thinks that friends are sometimes a burden Adores Xinyun immensely. Life is too short to bother socializing with people I dun like. You either choose the pill and live your life barely feeling your toes, or ignore the pill and accept pain as part of the life. Secretly clings. Sometimes. |
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my student made a guess regarding my age and said i was fifteenmr ku insulted me by saying i look like david carrdine whoever dares to say there is a certain resemblance better be prepared for my wrath. plugged tagboard
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newest cute quote from xinyun: sm: talk talk talk abt business* xinyun: AIYA! STOP MOVING OKAY!!! I'M TRYING TO CLICK YOU!!! sm: *takes a while to realize she's talking to her comp* *bursts into laughter* xinyun:...okay, guai le. my clan is AUSTIN POWERS. my og is FOXXY. hz's og is FRAU (apparently it's someone in austin powers or something) dun laugh lijie's clan is JUSTICE BAO. (i laughed like shit when i heard it) vanessa's clan is MA TA (who knows wad's that, i told her it's malay for police) at least huizhen and i high class, we're french. and kenneth is covertly and openly gloating abt the fact that i'm going O week. shit him. and i had planned to go shopping with xinyun de leh =((((( so anyway, tml is master class with geoffrey saba. who apparently is a pretty accomplished pianist. you can try googling him if you are bored. a conv today ku: yeah i met him once when i was a boy calista: so he must be pretty old right? ku: after a pause* ohhhh so you are implying that i'm pretty old too huh? calista: flustered explanations* ku: yes yes, he's abt 50/60..and yeah he was a man when i was a boy... (it's tough to imagine him as a boy. some days i think he popped out from a rock) conv with xinyun at nearly midnight ytd sm: can't rmb wad rubbish i said * xinyun: ... sm: wad you doing xinyun: lets out exasperated sigh* i'm trying to create a new signature! i signed a few forms these few days and it looks so ugly!! sm: ...okaaay xinyun: i really like these two but i can't seem to..to...to...searchs for words* sm:..replicate it? xinyun: yes, replicate it. sm: pls try to extend ur vocabulary since u're going to be in fass sm: i dun understand why you are so upset at ur signature. it's just a signature xinyun; nooo, a signature is very important to me okay! i want it flow! now my surname and name seems disconnected! sm:..okaaay xinyun: and signature shows that you take pride in your whole being! sm:...so are you implying that i am utterly shameful of my whole being....? xinyun: noooo! i never say anything!!! i just *flustered justification* okay i just accidentally confirmed friends with this person i dun even rmb. ..walao and i'm happy, i've found lifelines in my alum group. yippie! confirmed! two friends from primary school wah, it's really a damn small world okay it seems like i keep running outta time. it's very weird. i dun rmb doing weight lifting ytd, but my arms ache now. hur. .. good lah hor, unconscious toning of arms. wad bullshit i sound incoherent right. jess never answer my sms. bleagh wad else. oh i got my time table. it's pretty suck on thurs and fri thurs i have 7 hours of lessons in grps of 2/2/3 fri i have 2/2/2 monday tues and wed not bad. just that i haven't add in my USP i'm so dead -.-" plus piano wah. crap dead. i'm very very incoherent right. tsk amazing. why is it time to go nus again? (i really like practising piano cos time passes very quickly. i wish uni life doesn't have to start.) Proof that all dogs are male: 1. Dogs, like men, are completely predictable. 2. They are supremely interested in your nether regions and pathetically unable to hide this fact. 3. They don't respond when you shout in their ear, but they can hear the sound of a packet containing something consumable being opened a kilometer away. 4. If you once let them hog your sofa, they will feel like they own it. 5. They eat anything. Their basic philosophy is put stuff in their mouths first, ask questions later. 6. They are intensely loyal but sometimes stray through sheer stupidity. 7. When they are not happy, they don’t say anything, but sulk and growl and knock things over. 8. They emit large amounts of gas from both ends. 9. They often consume ill-advised items until they are sick, give you a sad "never again" look, and then do the same thing again the next day. Proof that all cats are female: 1. They are completely unpredictable. 2. They expect to be worshipped all the time. 3. They look cute but are surprisingly tough-minded creatures who make all the decisions. 4. You can call them, but you never know if they will actually turn up. 5. They leave bits of their hair all over the place. 6. They completely ignore you when you come home. 7. They take the stance that you exist solely to ensure their happiness. Snowcake Clip-"Cracker"
if you have nothing to do, and even if you something to do, spare 2 minutes to watch this clip, it's really cute. okto is showing quite good shows this weekend watched Snow Cake ytd, the cast was good, alan rickman and sigourney weaver and...i forgot her name -.-" erm, the summary of the movie is like this: http://www.calendarlive.com/printedition/calendar/cl-et-snow27apr27,0,6300922.story i'm lazy to summarise lah. but the acting is terrific. though it's extremely disturbing to see professor snape having sex... and flirting. and smiling. i thought his face might crack. but alan rickman is better off blonde..i supposed anything is better than the drippy mop that passes for a hair on snape... it's seriously quite a good show. though i dun quite understand why they wish to dwell so long on the sex scene....i kept switching between the illusionist and okto because i felt really very disturbed. but it's good, if you wan a change from things blowing up in dark dark environments (transformers/harrypotter) this is a very good show to watch. and it's light hearted dun worry. it's endearing and refreshing even though it deals with autism. and the screenplay DEFINITELY triumphs harry potter's (your shoelace, harry) Linda Freeman: Have you ever had an orgasm, Alex? Alex Hughes: It has been known. Linda Freeman: It sounds like an inferior version of what I feel when I have a mouthful of snow. [Shoves some into her mouth] you shld really watch the show just for the acting. i really meant to go for the 2/6 dinner today..cos i wanted to really take a look at people whom i've shaken hands and wished well for two years ago during O levels. .. but i couldn't. i even bathe and everything but at 5pm i looked at my debussy third movement and gave in to the fact that i really can't afford to go. we switched movements you see, from second to third, cos the second proved too hard to learn within 1 week and perform within 2 plus weeks it's a goddamn race all over again. anyway it's really nice. the french people (once upon a time) really could write melodies that....english people couldn't. (again, at that same period of time) btw, do you know that if i meant to take a second diploma exam in Singapore, it costs........... NINE HUNDRED AND NINETY-SIX DOLLARS. my teacher showed me the cost schedule today. both of us were like "it's nearly a freaking 1000 dollars!!!!" and even he went "i think you prob should consider carefully..." it's only like wad ringgit 800 plus in malaysia??? singapore govt.tsk. oh and anyway, i'm reading freakonomics, quite enjoyable really, kenneth why didn't u like it? there are subtle but definite signs that the guy has a freaking sense of humor!!! for e.g. he quoted this expert saying this "babies should be allowed to cry for 15-30 minutes everyday. it's their form of exercise." i really snorted. really. i was drinking coffee and almost choked on it. OH PLEASE. den i should be allowed to whine every day for up to 1 hour, it's my form of exercise. walao. they are crying because they dunno how to talk lah for christ's sake. btw, i slept for 12 hours between today and ytd. i dreamt of....... i can't rmb. i know it involves stefanie sun, this huge beast/monster, ice cream...and alot of screaming and slaying. yeah i know. i'm interested to join Rover's Club in NUS (it's a cca that does a lot of hiking/trekking that kinda thing but it's not as intensive as ODAC i think, and the ppl all look pretty normal, no bulging muscles, females dun look like covergirls on FHM and the guys dun look like coverguys on men's healthy. yeah) and i'm interested in CSC too of course. but see. ... i might drown. wanted to blog abt dinner with vanessa xinyun and kenneth the gay.. but realized we are another group of friends who dun take photos. hmm. anyway, glad u like your slippers. birthdays not supposed to give slippers but ..ah well you need them. naomi gave me one pair for my sec 2 birthday and i'm still pretty much alive..so. i dun really recall what we laughed at the whole night but..yeah, fun =) okay, gonna drop dead now. .. it's 7pm. i'm going to sleep it seems like i have no stamina for long days and wading in a pool of cca booths. registration for biz today. plus a lot of wadings in cca booths. huizhen coolly told this girl "no, we don't dance" when approached. so cool, she's my new idol now. omg, it's freaking tiring. i almost wanted to drop dead when i went for coaching. and okay, you prob wun hear me say this more than twice a year. prob wun admit it. but i like piano cos when we're doing it, nothing else crosses my mind. unlike lectures i dun think abt the time, i dun think abt what i wanna have for dinner later, nth except making the sound that i want to make. that's why i like it. omg. i really am gonna drop dead now. newest random whiz inferred from my mother's strangling relationship with painkillers: life's like that, you either take the damn painkiller and live through life drowsy and barely aware of anything, or you ignore the pill and go through life painfully aware of everything. i think most people choose the latter. besides House and Michael Jackson. House could do it and still be popular cos he's a fictional character, michael jackson probably lucked out, that's why he winded up with that plastic face. pris, i can't read ur latest entry on things to do on a truly tues day. did you change ur password or is my internet cocking up again? and mg, i want those photos. those are the second batch of decent photos we've taken. pls post even though i know blogger cocks up alot. i watched harry potter ytd. and i agree with pris, the only exciting part is when harry potter is grabbed by a hand. throughout the film i have this nagging feeling that i walked into the wrong theatre and was watching a ghost film instead. and xinyun was right too, the film gets darker and darker every year. mostly i dun see anything besides ron's grin. which is really very creepy too. but i thought the film was the more coherent one amongst the series. but it was really awful slow. and whoever wrote the screenplay between ginny and harry really should go ask opinions from their teenage children. purlease. *ginny tying shoelace for harry* quoting hermionie: excuse me, i have to go and vomit. what else. oh yes thank you to the clique who gave me beethoven virus dvd, foot scrub and moisturizer i think, i haven't really looked at it yet for my going to evolve into elephant stump foot, and a new wallet that looks uncannily like my old one (the old one was better looking i think) but anyway they are really very useful presents cos den i wouldn't have to fork out extra money to get the dvd, and i can now try to amuse myself by scrubbing my foot on a sunday when i have nothing to do. but i shan't use the new wallet yet. cos for some reason, using a new wallet= losing it very soon in my mind. i dunno why. oh i was walking along orchard, and i was damn pissed that the only starbucks along that stupid stretch was the one in wisma. which is dark and noisy. yeah. they closed down the one next to heeren for renovation. i was really very pissed off. so i had to go and sit in gloria jean's. btw their iced blended mocha sucks. you're better off drinking syrup plus a bit of brown-coloring. because that's exactly what it tasted like. i bet you they just added 2 stingy drops of coffee. really. there's no taste of coffee. speaking of which. i shld go make myself another cup of coffee. the one i made this morning sucks. agenda today: wash toilet. (whenever i do this i sorta feel like msging yip to tell her i'm washing the toilet. kindred spirit you know.) vacuum and mop living room wrap books (i bought another one ytd, j.d.robb's latest, and like BUTS, it seems to get worse and worse. and i'm halfway thru it. at the rate i'm stocking up, i can prob hold a mini book fair every year. not good.) try to tidy up my closet. and cultivate interest in clothes that i haven't worn before. prac piano (i've received several emails in my inbox telling me abt this concert and that coaching and stuff. i really wanna stress i'm not a full time music student. it feels oddly that way.) figure out, and settle on a date with my mother when i can kope her atm card and go buy stuff in ikea. with regards to the last point, i've realized it's very useful if you have a good friend of the male specie. you see, i really wanna put stuff in my room. and i really wanna get stuff from ikea cos they're cheap. but see, the reason it's cheap is because they come in parts, with screws here and there and weird sections of wood that you dun really see how they fit into the furniture. which means that i have to fit them together myself, nail them into the wall. which, to any female specie of 19 year old, is not a very easy task. .. so i'm considering whether i shld bribe weilun with an icecream (he's very easy to bribe) and ask him to come over one fine day and help me nail everything together. or i was thinking kenneth, but he lives very far away. and if he accidentally steps onto a nail with his other perfectly fine and functional foot, he'll wind up paralysed for life because he will have two sucky feet. and then i'll prob have to write him as the beneficiary on my insurance form as compensation. there's my father of course, which is the logical choice. but lately i get the feeling like they dun like me (strange words i know) because i've been missing alot from our little family and i dun care that my mother is sick (she is not sick, sick people dun nag while they cook food and dun holler at me when i play the piano. sick people lie down and rest.) so, as a show of compromise. i've therefore decided to clean the toilet and house. so that they'll see i'm actually the same obedient filial little girl that i was before going to vj and meeting mr ku messed me up. i met with vanessa on monday, when i ran a pathetic distance and ate alot of sushi with her. she reminds me of a very comfortable couch. yiling is sofa, she's a couch. i dun really know how to explain but yeah. and she hasn't changed. in the sense that whenever she breaks out into those suck-from-lungs laughter i really wanna bury myself somewhere with a headstone that says "i don't know that girl" okay byebye. time to wash toilet i think. ps: why couldn't it rain all day? woo hoo i've just completed my first booking of piano studios as a NUSPE member. woo hoo feel a strange sense of satisfaction to see my booking there. -.-" no lah i'm being lame. so, you'll see me at CFA (stands for centre for fine arts or centre for the arts or something) on tues morn 9.30 to 12.30. ..i really feel like i'm just entering uni to play piano but alas, i have LPP and USP and accounts too. ........ my future is bleak. Twilight : New Moon - Official Trailer [HD]
...this trailer looks dumb. Sherlock Holmes - Official Trailer [HD]
hmm. honestly sherlock holmes has never triggered an image of ....well, a muscled robert dowdney jr..and..watsons normally comes across as a thoroughly boring person.... House MD Season 6 Preview #01 [HQ]
HOUSE!!!! omgoodness i can't wait. i sound like one of those fanatics but hey, it's House! omg. i'm genuinely so freaking angry at this newspaper report that i just read. it's in sat's times today, you shld try to read it, if not can ask me, i'll lend it to you. it's about this man who sexually abused this girl for 7 years since she was 8. it's rather obvious that the reporter didn't have any sympathy for the man either. he violated using a BANANA. and this stick that's used during...i dunno rituals (he's a goddamn medium. den somebody should have told him long ago he's going to hell) and now, even though he's being punished (he's spared the caning cos he's over 50 years old the bastard) the girl is suffering from extreme low self esteem, being sexually promiscuous cos she feels cheap, and self-mutilates herself. wad the hell. i'm still damn agitated. 7 years!! and it's cos the family trusted him as a "close family friend" and often asked him to babysit their girl or let her spend holidays at his house. wad the fuck lah. and he said he's remorseful oh purleaaase if you are remorseful you should have been remorseful maybe wad, 5 years ago? or 4 years ago? snorts* remorseful. my foot hmmph. no one seems to find my last post abt medical exam funny. i thought it was pretty funny leh. and right, why is no one updating their blogs, huh huh?? right...i have a NUSPE member card now! woo hoo! i haven't even gotten my matriculation card and now i have this really flimsy made of paper piano ensemble member card with my name written using silver ink on it (because kelvin, that's my new president, said that must standardize mah) anyway no, they didn't give us the card because they wanna welcome us into their big family. they gave us the card because that's the only way we can have access to the piano studios and practise. because you see, calista lives in the east, i live in the north. and we're currently not students of either vj or nus. that makes practising a little sticky. btw, how come on a friday night no one is online? that's very weird. only 8 of my contacts are online. i went ikea ytd, tampiness ikea. it's seriously the best place to shop on earth. very few pesky kids and very very few adults. it's terrific. it's so peaceful. and then when i reached tampiness, i thought i might explode from all the noise. so yeah i went there and gaped at all the beautiful furniture and tried to shop for ideas abt what to do with my room...... i need a new bookshelf and preferably a corner whereby there's a nice cozy chair and nice lighting so i can read books and look nice. and also some place to put my cds and stuff. yeah. it's not very easy considering how small my room is -.-" oh..den me calista and jr went back vj to...."scold the juniors" as per what ku wants us to do. ..we didn't scold..shall leave out the details cos i've said it too many times to kenneth and xinyun..... we sorta...gently reprimanded them? okay jr wasn't very gentle. she was quite harsh. they had this post concert briefing during which everyone was very happy, contented, sentimental etc etc. in a nutshell it was a really "bu cuo de" atmosphere. so us being nice seniors who really felt that mr ku cheated by leaving first, decided to not say anything to the members but just told the exco after everything had ended. i tell you they looked devastated. i would be devastated. i truly understand how upset they are. can you imagine, you put in so much effort, and you are so tired alr from all the exams and stress and stuff and you finally pulled the concert off, ticket sales were amazingly high and you thought you played quite okay, not terrific maybe, but quite okay............ den your seniors come to tell you that your teacher actually thinks it's rather bad. and "rather bad" is the polite term for what mr ku said. i think if it was me, i might spend 1/2 weeks moping and after that give up piano ensemble and probably dun wanna face mr ku ever again. ..tried to comfort them a little..but..it's part and parcel of the cca to...feel extremely useless helpless and ..imbecile....... been there. sigh. so yeah i've been feeling sad the entire day today cos i couldn't get the images of their sad faces outta my mind. xinyun is rather perplexed over why i feel so sad. den i realized, that i'm pms-ing lah. hormonal imbalance. i'm blaming it all on the hormones. coaching at nus was okay..though i secretly think that mr ku was being exceptionally generous and forgiving towards us seeing as we are new and we look like, quote calista "deers caught in the headlights." seniors (the few we've seen) are pretty nice..and when we stepped in they sorta like lifted their heads and surveyed us like surveying fresh meat...... and mr ku told us something like, even though we might be green..but try to act like veterans.... dun think we were very successful..erm. but i thought everyone starts that way, not meh =( there's two grand pianos in the nus studio! terrific! but after that me and calista sorta missed the vj cramped piano room in which, after fitting in 2 upright pianos, can only fit like maybe 5 people? it's sorta cozy. and..you know, memories...alot of tears plus happiness happened there. yeah, had this rather..i dunno, abrupt sentimental reflection. and i told calista "this is it leh. we're stuck." and she went "really ah, stuck meh?..cannot get out ah (if it sucks)" i went "..we're sorta stuck." "this is the beginning leh." calista: "yeah, the beginning of the end." *explodes into laughter* it's just, you know. yeah, we're stuck. and i had a very brief glimpse of how my next 4 years will be like (calista says she'll drop out maybe after 2 years cos...it depends, maybe it's gonna be very hiong? or we might like it..yeah) it's really REALLY the next phase of life huh. you know when i reached jc and looked back on sec life, i tot we were childish. den at this point of time, when i looked back at jc, i thought we were pleasantly....i dunno, driven? motivated? fulfilled? and still rather..innocent? naive? now..abit like "lao jiao" kinda feeling. .. makes you wonder how mr ku feels huh. he prob feels like an antique hah so anyway my mother made the comment again that i dun really care abt the family anymore. and i'm sorta annoyed and irritated because i know she's correct. i've changed. and i dun think it's for the better. i dunno what it says abt me that i dun feel anything when i see my brother depressed, my mother upset because her leg pain is getting worse and worse, or that i spend more of my time facing the piano den talking to any of them. no, i know exactly what it says about me. i just dunno if i care what it says abt me. so yes, i'm forced to face this quite, depressing? sad? fact that.......i've become rather....... see, i can't even find the word. the day can't get more terrific when you get to stay in your room for 6 hours straight and finish a book you just bought in the afternoon =)))) AND it's a cool weather today. and for once, i'm not having headaches or diarrhoeas. hip hip hurray ..but i have to go to funan to help my brother repair his Xbox. bleagh. i'm wondering whether i shld go down to tampiness ikea den to cityhall.....not really along the same route i know but i feel like going ikea.. it's kinda urgent cos my book case is bursting. AND i dun even have the books i lent to friends. so i really need .."home furnishing solutions" ah huh. i'm not blogging coherently right. feels kinda, drugged today, in a good way. yeah oh, while i spent 6 hours reading j.d.robb ytd, i spent the later half of it trying to peel deadskin from my right sole. i tell you ah, it's not just a second skin, i think there's probably 5 layers of deadskin on my right sole. omgoodness. it's disgusting. i can't peel it off!!! i really need like a very very powerful scrub. and i'm starting to understand why my soles no longer hurt when i wear heels. it's probably the same rationale as why elephants dun hurt when they step on pesky humans like us. yep. deadskin= power. but it's rather disgusting now cos i tugged and peeled at the skin ytd so it's like, grooved, and rugged and.....you know, just disgusting. waha! it's only 10.30! i feel the happiest in the morning cos it's like there's still an entire day ahead. went to shop at jurong point ytd with lijie after medical exam. i really had to stifle a laugh during the medical exam in the females toilet when we were supposed to collect our urine sample. i was imagining girls in all the cubicles all struggling to collect their urine sample. it's really very amusing if you put it that way. and then i was thinking, so how am i supposed to wash my hands? because of course i'd have to wash my hands, it's unthinkable to not wash your hands. but then i'll have to place the cup of offending liquid down near the basin so that i can wash my hands. and then, there's the fact that after you wash your hands, you have to pick up that cup of offending liquid again. but yeah anyway we were supposed to place our samples at this little window (it's like the little window where they dispense medicine kinda thing) because i assume that the lab people really want to avoid the awkwardness when we pass over our urine samples. so i opened the door of the toilet, meaning to check if there's anyone near the little window. i'd hoped there isn't anyone so i can just quickly deposit the damn thing and scurry off. it sounds a bit like fleeing from a crime scene when i put it that way.. so anyway, there was this other guy at the window, and apparently he was being "Questioned" by the lab people from inside the lab. and so because i do not wanna enter into a conversation with two cups of liquid of rather intimate sources between us, i closed the door and waited inside the female's toilet, meaning to "give him some time" it's a very awkward and anxiety filled 2 minutes you must understand. all the time i was thinking, "what if another female walks out of her cubicle and see me standing near the door tapping my feet and delicately holding a cup of you-know-what" den what am i supposed to grin and give a knowing look at her? she might be mistaken that i'm mocking her you know. so in any case, after 2 minutes i peeked out again and he was still there. and because i really thought that another female was gonna come out soon, i just put on a show of pure bravery, and placed my cup (it's really really very weird to use this pronoun) next to his. and then i scurried away because i was really trying not to laugh at how ridiculous it is. i wish i could photograph the scene. little lab window, two little plastic cups of you-know-what sitting side by side. it's REALLY hilarious. i'm sorry, the lab people must be angry that i mock their livelihood. so yeah that's the most funny part of medical exam. oh and the fact that lijie continuously has high blood pressure. she gets nervous during medical exams -.-" i'm not sure why but i kept laughing cos the nurse kept telling her she's gotta relax or else she'll keep getting very high readings for the blood pressure. it's super funny and i've shrunk by 2cm, which makes me shorter than lijie, a fact that both me and her deny. and also, i've gained 1 kg. i also choose to ignore this fact. i'm not living in denial, according to their machine lijie is now a proud owner of a 52 kg body. pls look at her, she's all bones. how can she be 52kg. impossible. so okay, back to more mundane topics. shopping! jurong point is really quite a nice place to shop now! i bought ANOTHER bag. i'm turning into xinyun. i can totally foresee how much stuff i have to clear by new year next year. but it was cheap! and it was nice! ...excuses* but the whole time lijie appeared very bored, i thought it was because of my company until she told me, several times, that she's missing her afternoon nap time. she's really a pig. i'm serious. even pigs are fat and adorable and kinda cute when they snort. she's just...she just inherited all their characteristics minus the cute factor. and i bought basics too, for morons it means like plain tanktops that can go with almost anything on earth. i dunno why i feel very happy buying basics. and they have so many nice notebooks there! alot of shops from korea/jap that kind. nice place to shop! shall go again soon heh. all in all, spent quite a bomb. i forgot to say i bought a book too. yeah the one that i finished last night. life's not bad heh. oh..the first time i read ku's sms's beginning i wanted to be a coward and just delete it without reading the rest. the beginning went something like "hey, thank you for performing..." and then i thought he was going to continue abt how i screwed and stuff... but you know what, apparently besides the alumni items and NUS item.........the rest of the concert is shit according to his opinion. he didn't use that exact word lah. but yeah, to simplify things. and so he wants us to go down on thurs and solemnly tell them that yes the concert was shit and that they cannot continue to play shit. i told him honestly, that "i'm not good at such things..can jr do the honours? i'll stand next to her and nod solemnly." and then even more honestly, i thought the concert was rather not bad, considering the juniors were in such a tight schedule. ..but ah, his majesty thinks it's..shit. so..yeah. and then there's the matter that i feel like i've screwed up so i have no right really to tell the juniors they played crap........... ah huh. that's a very major reason why i really dun look forward to thurs. ..i'm beginning to realize that mr ku brings out my cowardly side. ......... nvm..shall go prac piano, pray that the sun doesn't come out and see who's free to brave the maze of funan it mall with me later.......-.-" oh we're entering uni soon. i dunno whether i feel apprehensive or ....... to quote pris "i really dun feel like making new friends now." >.< okay, i just read the magazine that you guys gave me thoroughly and okaaay i really did laugh out loud a few times while reading it. see, i'm not a cold blooded murderer, i do have a sense of humour, just that it's a bit suppressed with you guys around... and okay it's really quite cute the magazine. just that the facts are all wrong, pls make another magainze for my 21st birthday stating how much i've changed okay, i'm no longer a murderer lah come on, my JC class never even made that association, see? and we seriously need to take more photos. all our photos are so, to quote naomi "ko-yak" really loh, we must take decent photos. and by decent i mean that naomi cannot do her signature "tilt my chin as high as possible and GRIN" pose. and oh i kept the birth cert of the rock even though the rock was erm...sadly thrown away by my mother. (you can't blame me since you gave me such an..insignificant gift right) btw, why did you guys give me a schedule planner without dates? it only has monday to fridays, no dates. how to use? okay, thank you guys =) No one learns to ski or be sociable just by watching it done on TV. Nurture the habit of walking up, with poise, to an executive or a professor and striking up a conversation. Smile to familiar faces in the corridors and exchange pleasantries with our canteen and washroom cleaners. J Participate in as many competitions and conferences as you can; even help organise some. Help with ushering and be a School Ambassador. Gain an overseas experience. Build your vocabulary and keep improving your writing. Be Articulate. Branding is everyone's responsibility. i think i've entered the wrong school. i feel like a full time music student. zz. tried the new score, it's terrifically hard. like, hard. and it has all my "si xue" all the techniques that i have trouble with. mr ku simply has too high expectations of us. crazy. i think he is half apprehensive of giving us the score now, prob thinks he should have given us simpler ones. urgh. anyway i'm so irritated, i wanna know the schedule for O week, and wad do they say? "check our facebook group at blah blah blah for more details" kns. why is the whole world using facebook lah. and why is the whole world assuming every little human being uses facebook lah. i just wanna know the freaking schedule and what's going to happen at O week!!! if it's just games and shit, i really dun feel like going. as i said, i'm not big on making friends or on orientation games. bleagh. i need to run. my bio system is chaotic and refusing to rest properly because of the lack of exercise. i wake up every morning feeling like shit. shall we run? sometimes i wonder why i put myself thru such things... shimin's gone back to china, he said something abt witnessing a full eclipse on his birthday. bleagh, we'll probably never get that kinda chance here. i'm either tired, or still a bit ..wrung out from concert.. yeah, i cycled that day at east coast alone, wanted so much to just fall asleep right there and then at a ulu part of east coast. in that kinda mood now. as first impression goes, NUSPE seems filled with..well, political people. kinda assuring zhongkun will be the md, at least he's kinda.. nice. i know this sounds absurd but i'm realizing that i'm really not a very scheming person. shared my famous amos with students, now i have one bag left. ps: kenneth i've started reading excavation, but i fell asleep this afternoon cos i was tired. only had 5 hrs of sleep last night before i woke to teach piano. my mother asked me whether my concert was a success. i didn't really know how to reply her. just continue trying den. shimin: never give up the pursuit for good music! talk abt scheming-less. ha. =D seems like there's a lot of loose ends to tie up even after a concert, like sms-ing people telling them "thank you." so i shall do it all here, easier huh? =X meigui, priscilla and naomi thanks for the really really big magazine and reebok waterbottle. everyone backstage was admiring my birthday card and telling me what nice friends i have. okay okay thanks for all the effort but seriously, when they say "what nice friends" i tend to go like, erm..? more like retarded.. oh and i'm so sorry that meigui fell asleep again, but that's surely her own fault because..erm..yeah even kenneth stayed awake, and i thought the concert repertoire was really pretty good~ in any case, thanks for supporting me even when you guys dun really appreciate classical music =) ps: pls dun do the super spicy shiok cheer ever again. it embarrasses me......... yip jess yeong again, thanks for being there!! and i know you guys secretly found it boring, dun lie, yip's face had a very "erm" look when i asked her how was the concert. thank you for the make up! i went home and looked into the mirror and realized my make up is nice de loh. how come nobody compliments me on the makeup? and yes okay jess, i happen to look less like a dead person with make up. i'll hook you all up for a crash course when i need to learn make up eh? thanks alot for being there and the famous amos which erm i'll eat yes yes. even though i have quite a lot with me erm, shall share it with students later. kenneth xinyun vanessa kenneth gave me chicken essence!!! you shld have given me PRIOR to the concert lah. i was such a nervous wreck. but it was very amusing yes, i unwrapped your present with xinyun on the phone and it was very late alr so i didn't call you. and thanks for the book also, now i have his complete series!! i'm not kidding! so happy, the first time i finished a series. and yes your flower, thanks for the flower, even though it looks kinda squashed when i got home, but i think that's my fault.... vannesa for her..honey lemon..drink? it was so sweet that in the end i didn't drink it, next time just get chrysanthemum -.-" and thanks for running errands for me and carrying all my stuff because i was just swamped by stuff and stuff. and particularly thank you for your last msg cos it really helps to be understood by a fellow musician (even though i dun think i've reached the stage where i can call myself a musician..erm..) xinyun for just being..xinyun! i wonder whether she'll even read this post. called her at like 12am cos i know her house is as usual, rather active, and she had to bear with all my complains and whines and depression and she sounded very agitated when apparently i sound very depressed. thanks for your chocolates, they seemed rather ex, but erm. you dun seem to think so...yeah..and thank you for just being you lah. rachel jielin i'm running outta time, need to eat breakfast before i teach piano omg. anyway, thank you for coming!!! you are my two newest friends haha! hope i put up a pretty good performance (even though i get it, our piece isn't very likeable yeah) see this is what my life revolves around, piano piano piano piano and when i enter NUS, even more hectic stuff. i really feel very happy you guys are there lah, seems like my 5 month stint in IRAS paid off cos i gained two new friends =) next time call me to your band and CO concert yeah? i promise i wun fall asleep. i generally have more musical appreciation than someone up there.........ahem. and finally.... my own partners. shimin calista and junru. i think only jr reads my blog..nvm can tell shimin to read it in china haha. i thought you guys played brilliantly! really! i thought you guys were brilliant, which makes me feel sad because i'm the one causing the unsteadiness in the music.. shall thank them anyway..thank you shimin for all your optimism in playing, i told him that he radiates joy and he must continue to do it and come NUSPE so that i'll continue to be inspired. it is impossible to not enjoy piano while playing with him, really. i enjoy it everytime we play, just that another part of me is being destroyed by nerves..but i really respect you and zk alot for your playing =) and you for being sooo soo nice and putting up with all my whinning and noise-issuing and all kinds of crap and my basic incompetency at shaping and pouring myself into the music. i'm trying lah. i'm running late, shit!!! jr and calista for being willing to prac and prac and prac. you guys really rose up to the occasion! i realize this might be the last time we're playing together..but, you never know =P the next time we do, i'll play better =) i'll always try to play better. thank i'm being rather harsh on myself but, i can't help it. xinyun says i'm just being me. and yes calista, we still have to do that piece together. how brilliant. my teacher bluffed me when he said it's easier, petite suite somemore, walao, it's not very easy can. i was anticipating crotchet crotchet crotchet throughout so that i can take a well deserved break but....well. i guess there's no break for the weary..... but still, prac was really fun, i keep recalling all the practise sessions we have together, all the silly jokes we made (i sniff*) and interesting things that happened, (calista smile!) i think it's all the under currents that made us interesting..how i'll kick shimin's foot away or his hand away when he plays an octave lower, or how we peer at each other whenever things dun seemed to gel together ... i supposed that's why piano ensemble works huh, even though our cca isn't very ..recognised? in vj..but how can they close it down when over 20 plus of us spent so many afternoons working a piece and enjoying it. thanks ya'll okay my mood is precisely like the top two songs on my playlist. i'm irritated. but i dunno why. and i feel like pounding the piano but because i slept badly, it feels like my fingers have all turned to mush. and they're not responding. so i've taken to pounding the keys on this laptop instead. i really dunno why i'm so irritated but i am. and my eyes feel like they are on fire. normally what works at times like this is running and cycling. which is impossible since it kept raining the whole day i really wish it could stop raining. the more it rains the more irritated i get. it's like watching someone bawling when you are in a bad mood yourself. so stop it alr. i wish xinyun is around. normally i could call her and the conv will go something like this "walao i damn irritated etc etc i dunno why etc etc" she: hmm..hmm den after a lot of outbursts from me she'll go "haiya, wad you want me to do!!" den we'll take to sort of snapping at each other until all my negative energy is dispersed. yeah. den no hard feelings in the end. that's what works too. too bad she's in europe. and yes i feel like tearing myself apart piece to piece den slowly piecing it back together something somewhere doesn't fit very well. i think i shld add "learning chopin's etudes" to my to-do list. shld learn at least one etude cos it seems like a pretty good piece to vent anger on. ah crap seriously. crap. i feel like someone twisted my arm behind my back. tsk. i really wish i can quarrel with someone right now. why can't you guys bicker with me or something. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH list of things to do after 10 july prior to uni admission # play squash # buy squash racket # bike bike bike for all i want # figure photography out. # eat around singapore with xinyun # go tree top walk at macRitchie. (who wants to go? actually is it very high? i'm scared of heights. a little) # go ballet under the stars (again, who wants?) # finish learning the pieces mr chin gave......feel so bad cos he's been listening to crap these few weeks cos i've been busy random: HOUSE MD SEASON 6 IS GONNA PREMIERE ON 21 SEPT 2009!!!!!!! WOOTS! okay, back to the list. # go hiking at bukit timah with xinyun. we meant to do it. but it kept disappearing off our meant-to-dos. # xinyun wants to reat us to this meal at imperial kitchen kenneth. yeah. cos the food there is nice # oh, this is very impt. even mr chin is on facebook damnit. i have to figure out facebook and erm, be a presence on that damn thing. cos nusbiz is using it like nobody's business and i seriously will wind up an anti-socialite if i refuse to go on it any longer. crap # go ikea buy furniture. # buy books. # i miss bbq-ing at yeong's house cos essentially we just sit there while her father serves us, so i've asked her to org another one before uni =) see who says i dun care abt our clique huh huh. yeah mg and pris are coming to my piano concert. even though i feel bad that they are coming even though they dun really appreciate piano music la hor. thanks for coming. i feel so bad that i'm considering not appearing during the intermission, because i haven't performed and then i'll have to sheepishly ask like "oh, how is the concert so far?" and try to avoid the uneasy feeling that you guys are erm not enjoying it. uh oh. okay i gotta sleep.byebye mg, gotta tell me more abt com service. yeah how come when i wanna talk to someone no one is around online. in an extremely bad mood now. if i didn't know better i would say that my body is battling a very secretive h1n1. i can't seem to sleep properly. it's as if i drank lots of caffeine and went to sleep when in fact i didn't drink any. hope that my afternoon nap later will be much more .....recharging. seriously. i woke up today and ytd feeling like i've been doing secret battles in my dreams. totally exhausted..and anxious. where's xinyun~ and uni appears to be a pain in the ass. lijie, i have no idea what's going on with the register for your korean modules thing. when you register, pls call me and we'll come online and figure it out together. and yah, how the hell do i bid for my modules and timetables and such if i dunno my USP and business stuff? so yes this is an appeal to both jessica and songhuizhen PLS inform me if you are doing such bidding exercising registration thingie because i have NO idea what's going on. thanks i'm so super blur. and yah i'm still in a bad mood. because like i said, my body is chaotic. and my eyes are burning. i have no idea why. dun tell me is because i read too many musical notes at one go. that's not possible. and if ku or mr chin hasn't gone blind, there's no reason why i shld. time traveller's wife movie's coming out. rachel mcadams is playing clare's role. not bad huh, but i think amy adams would have suited the role too. no. i think i'm just confused abt the adams part. ..i'm not coherent now am i? watching the trailer makes me want to re-read the book again. but i'll have to wait till after 10 july. i dun think i'm emotionally patient enough now to digest the book properly. urgh. and isn't there any special edition for the book or something? i want one to keep. cos the one that i read is erm, looking a bit erm worn, at the spine. too many creases. i haven't read a book since.....rev road. damnit. think i shld go get a book soon. know what i feel like doing now? going to botanic gardens and finding that mysterious grass slope that xinyun kept talking about. apparently it's really soft and comfortable. and fall asleep there. crap. think i shld open my eyes bigger. random i noe. facts. # I'm not running on low yet. but the meter is pointing very threateningly at "zoned-off." i'm not sure how i'm gonna teach piano later in 1 hr's time, but i'm trying my best to drink lots of coffee now and eat some food so that hopefully some energy will emerge. # why does mr ku like to sms at near midnight. he woke me up, seeing as how i fell asleep at 8pm. after which i start to have very weird and anxious dreams. why can't he sms like at more normal humane times. # i wanted to call kenneth on thurs/fri but by the time i reach home, i have this nagging headache which, shit, is also emerging now, so i went to sleep. # the majesty timothy ku, our coach, could not make it for any of our rehearsals before the concert. ANY of our rehearsals. cos he went shopping in hk and now he has to quarantine himself and he is barred from entering vj. essentially, we are very screwed. # ytd's full dress rehearsal proves that......the concert is quite watchable. pls come. # for the following people, i have paid for your tix, kenneth, yip, yinling, yeong, jessica. If you see this msg, pls sms me to tell me or tag on my blog. just tag on my blog. these days i usually dump my phone in my bag when i'm practising. btw, the concert is this coming friday 10 july, 7.30pm at vj PT. #for the following people, are you all coming? (since you guys expressed vague mentions that you dun mind coming...) priscilla, meigui yiling, lijie, kumboon, vanessa rachel and jielin. (CRAP i realize rachel and jielin are in genting. urgh.) same, please tell me by smsing me or tagging. thanks. # ticket sales are very bad. like, very bad. due to the fact that CT ends on the same day of the concert. and prior to that no one has the mood to buy tickets cos they are busy mugging. # some of the juniors looked exhausted. prob due to CTs. # our last formal rehearsal is on monday. that's five days away from the concert. which is very screwed. normally our last rehearsal falls on two days prior to the concert so that we'll still retain the feel of the piano and all the procedures. # ku has "set aside" a piece for me and calista for tis sept tri-uni concert. woo hoo. i told him he has too high an expectation of us. wanted to say that "me and calista are not available during sept" and wait for him to ask "why?" after which i'll say "because we almost went mad during the vj july concert. that's why." # i dun feel very helpful at the rehearsals even though technically we are seniors and we're supposed to know what we are doing....oh but i've been very impressed by how firm and authoritative junru is. once again. think the juniors are secretly very scared of her and aka us. cos we looked so impenetrable so imperiative sitting in the middle high up the PT listening to them play. # i haven't finished. after which, when it's our turn to play, we usually screw up. # but as our piece is soooooooooo gao1 shen1 mo4 ce4, no one usually notices that we screwed up bad. but we screwed up bad. # i love the PT pianos though. sigh. and shimin was right, the juniors dun seemed to make use of the pianos. it's got so huge range and depth but they come out sounding....timid. some lah. # the repertoire for the concert this year is terrific. but dun say i never warn you. for those of you coming, you can go to sleep for the first 20 minutes. erm, me and shimin thought it's quite boring. we tried to coach alr, tried to make it "interesting" but erm. yah. # btw, my piece is the last second item. which will prob appear around 9.20pm. hur hur. I have to sit thru nearly 1 hr of torturous waiting and sweating and anxiety attacks to screw up at 9.20pm. # and, i'll be rushing home to sleep after that cos i still have lessons the following sat morning. so i wun be chit chatting too much huh. # i always run outta time on saturday mornings no matter how early i wake up. why ah. # i'm having diarrhoea again. whatever comes in seems to come straight out. hmm. # i'm wearing ridiculously high heels for the concert. heels i wore for prom. which look classy and shit but they are ridiculously for playing piano. the first time i wore them and tried to pedal i almost slipped. i couldn't even put my weight down properly, such that shimin complained that we were "so soft, like you weren't pedaling." i apologised and told him these were the only heels i owned. sigh. bye bye, outta time. priscilla happy birthday. i really didn't mean to forget it was 2 july. gestures above* very busy. nods nods* happy birthday! tsk. wad's the meaning of this you stupid blogger. i can't upload photos at all!! aiiish. ...it seems like i'm finally being forced to elevate my presence in facebook?? because nus biz kept using facebook as a platform for discussion, group stuff and all that shit. i dun even noe half the time what's going on lah. we have our alum groups (Which i think translates to tutorial groups which means it's prob my class for the coming 4 years or something) already, and blah blah blah blah. okay i'm confusing myself. rehearsal today till 9pm, woo hoo. gonna be so fun watching each other screw up and grimacing. hopefully ku wun make it down. if not he'll prob have a heart attack listening to us I didn't get to buy my cheesecake from bakerzin!!! sobs* cos for both monday and tuesday i was at places where there were no bakerzin and my schedule didn't allow me to drop by yishun to get it........... sobs. ytd was great. took my time to wake up, watched triple, seriously it's a damn adorable show. puts you in a good mood. shld watch it. prac piano..den at abt 11am went out to daiso dhoby to shop around get stuff like boxes and stuffings and chocos..went back to novena square, sat around read a few pages of pride and prejudice again..asked kenneth to call me to pass the time while waiting for lunch crowd to go away..went to mos burger, ate lunch, sat and prepared the gifts..den went back to iras pass it to hwei hwei and signed some stuff hwei hwei is damn nice lah she gae me $20 taka voucher leh. i went "for what?" she said "nothing lah, just a token loh." and i went "?? from who?" she said "from me lah" so sweet~ i dun think i deserve it lah, being the almost-always-absent temp staff. so nice right, i totally didn't expect it. den i immediately felt very bad abt my gifts which look cute but erm, are pretty worthless in value lah. OH another episode of the-ugly-people-on-MRT. i saw this auntie. really auntie. she wiped the seat with a tissue paper before sitting down. i dun understand what she thinks might leak out from the person previously occupying the seat..but still..nvm. den she temporarily put the tissue behind her while she sat on the edge of her seat, as per wad aunties always do due to the presumption that warm seats tend to ..i dunno, cause rashes on butts? and then when she finally decided that the seat was cool and sanitized enough, she wanted to move in all the way.. so what did she do? she flicked the tissue paper onto the floor kicked her slipper off one feet, and used her bare feet to kick the tissue paper beneath the mrt seat. i was like o.O wad the hell you doing man????? and then she promptly fell asleep my gosh. omg lah. at that moment i really wanted to video it down and put it on stomp lah urghghghhghghg and then met another ridiculous couple who was walking infront of me at citylink. the guy was so metro. metro hair. metro shirt. metro berms. metro covered shoes. and ridiculously thin like beanpole. and the girl was also, typically, xiao xiao zi, long hair, tiny shorts, tiny legs. i'm very proud to say that the guy was not skinnier then the girl. which is quite an amazing feat if you can understand. and then they were hugging each other around the waist and all that as they walked, and teasing each other. which might be quite cute, except that you know i'm not the kind of person who finds it cute only amusing. and really really really funny. i kept trying not to laugh cos they look like two beanpoles poking each other at inappropriate places and bending over at inappropriate body parts, making them look like two contorted poles issuing weird sounds. it's just very weird lah. okay i think if i carry on observing and criticizing people, i'll have retribution soon. =( how ah, what if the next time my boyfriend is also a beanpole?? very sad leh. or worse, i wun find a boyfriend. oh no. like that i'll have to hog xinyun (or jielin) my whole life. that's very bad. and jielin is still as huggable as ever =))) they bought me a mini mini really mini mousse cake from TTC with a single candle on top. the TTC person very sheepishly bought it out, looked at me and went "erm...erm, you having birthday?" and i was in the middle of recounting something funny (prob the stupid auntie at the MRT) and i went "..huh?" but it was the first cake i ate for my 19th year. not bad not bad haha. and jielin is the second most huggable person after yiling. think they're fighting for first spot. =)) i think i behave very silly-ly around jielin and rachel. why huh. i tend to be reduced to this giggling hugging silly girl. but i'm really not like that generally!!!! i'm serious! pun intended! i'm usually quite reserved, serious, solemn and etc etc. stop sniggering y'all. .pouts* correct wad. anyway my year book and taewangsashingi dvd is still at IRAS. -.-" gotta go back to have lunch with them soon so that i can collect them. can't possibly force me to wear a mask ytd just to collect those stuff. bleagh oh oh i shall post screencaps of Triple. there's a DAMN cute dog in that show. MUCH cuter than cola, kenneth. MUCH cuter! it doesn't sneer!!!! and it doesn't bark either!!! and it doesn't threaten to eat the guests' oreo!!!! (kenneth's dog cola tends to stand on its hind leg and beg for oreo cookie whenever xinyun tries to eat it. in the end she couldn't eat it cos the dog scares her) oh. xinyun is very cute when she's scared by dogs. so cute~ okay okay i'm a bit siao liao. must keep spirits up! long day! piano piano all the way!!! aza aza! (so long didn't use this. it means jia you in korean lah) |
